The Lambs: Part 1 (9/10) by Lamia (AKA so kiss me goodbye) Rating: PG-13 (violence, strong language) Category: S Spoilers: Seasons 1-9, Fight the Future Keywords: William; Colonization Summary: Liam van de Kamp's life changes the day two FBI agents kidnap him and his parents. Author's Note: The Lambs is a three-part story (with prologue). Chapter 9 August 11, 2011 Old Hachita New Mexico Liam blinked in darkness, unsure of his surroundings and fighting to remember how he had come to be here - wherever here was. He was warm - hot, even - but when he tried to move, he found his arms pinned at his sides. He resisted an urge to struggle. *Think, Liam. You* know *where you are.* The surface beneath him was firm but uncomfortable. His neck was stiff; the pillow was thicker than he was used to. *I have a pillow - that has to be a good sign.* Something had woken him: not a dream - something else, something unsettling. The tick, tick, tick of a clock cracked in the quiet - that and shallow breathing to his side. All else was silent and still. He shifted, wincing at the rustle of the silky fabric encasing him. Moonlight glowed under net curtains above him. His eyesight adjusted and he could make out the shape of a person lying across from him. He *did* recognize this place; he was still on the bus and he was cocooned in a sleeping bag he did not remember climbing into. The bus was no longer vibrating. He hoped they would stop long enough for his brain to catch up; it was never this sluggish. He could remembered his conversation with Shu and mathman, but that must have been hours ago; it had still been daylight then. It - everything - had almost been too much to take in. It was possible mathman had been exaggerating when he said the hacked FBI website was the most important site in the whole world. Only, he clearly believed it - and so did his companions, although they had a funny way of showing it, grinning over photos and posts on the site. Liam had screwed up his face as he listened to their joking. "If they know it's fake, why doesn't the FBI just ignore the website?" "They probably are," mathman said, "but then there's the hundreds of calls. The website includes advice on how to sound convincing when calling the 1-800 hot line. I don't think the website alone is going to fool anyone - but it *is* going to tie up their resources, and that gives us a much better chance of slipping under the radar." He was happy to answer Liam's questions, but he seemed to know no more than Mr. Mulder or Mr. de Rosier, and every question he answered came back to one thing: "War." Liam forced himself to stay expressionless so mathman wouldn't stop talking. "Everyone on this bus wants to contribute to the war effort, kiddo. We've all got something to offer. And, see, the kind of war we'll be fighting is called a takeover and every good takeover deserves an equally determined resistance. But to be effective our resistance needs organization - and every good organization needs a headquarters." "Like a secret hideout?" "Exactly." "Where's that?" "I can't tell you, my friend, because I don't know. But I'm certain of one thing." His eyes went large behind the frames of his glasses. "We'll find it at the end of this bus journey." They were passing through another dusty, dry valley. "Doesn't anyone know where we're going?" "Wherever it is, Liam, I can tell you now - it's not in Wyoming." "So how does the bus driver know where to go?" "He's just following the instructions sent to him." So they hadn't known either. How many hours ago was that conversation? His father wheezed in a gulp of air. Liam rolled in the sleeping bag as disappointed now as he had been then. Mathman had a name. He was Toby Smith and he, like Shu and Alan, was a student scientist. They were and they weren't quite what Liam expected from scientists. Unless he was talking (when he tended to throw his arms about and speak at a gallop), Toby's nose was stuck in the middle of a book. Alan had that amazing hair and dirty feet but he was the one organizing everybody. Even the bus driver wasn't just a bus driver. Alan said he was a professor, which Liam knew was a very important job. They seemed to think it was hilarious Dr. Scully and Mr. Mulder were on the FBI's most-wanted list. Their manner toward Dr. Scully, however, was never anything less than deferential and they were all eager to talk to her. Shu and Toby had gone to introduce themselves to the doctor, who was on a seat up by the driver, leaving Liam alone. His mother checked on him once but quickly returned to Liam's dad at the back of the bus. Left to himself, Liam had had time to grapple with the curious events of the last twenty-four hours of his life. It had been difficult to know where to start. After seeing the supersoldiers in action, Liam had no doubt the world he *thought* he knew no longer existed - but it didn't really change the world that much ... did it? Primed on any number of cartoons and movies about aliens, Liam found himself accepting his new world order. *And* he had a sense of belonging to a special club - a club which included everyone on the bus as well as Mr. de Rosier and his friends; a club, at the center of which, stood the two FBI agents who had walked into Liam's life and up-ended it. This didn't bother him; he absorbed the knowledge as quickly as he would that of a newly encountered symbol from the periodic table (Rb was currently his favorite). What he struggled to understand was his place in the club. He hadn't asked to be let in. He hadn't done anything special, hadn't gone looking for it. Why him? Why his parents? Why not Suzie Craddock? Or Jake the Snake? Or any of the other kids in his grade? Early on he had asked Toby why everyone was helping Dr. Scully; what he really meant was, "Why are you helping us?" The unanswered question tormented Liam as he lay in the sleeping bag. *Why am I here?* He recalled his shock as he had scrolled through the charges listed against the doctor and Mr. Mulder. "If Dr. Scully did all those things they say she did, why would anyone want to help her?" Toby had stared at him. "Come on, kiddo. You don't believe she did any of that stuff, do you?" "I don't know?" That was the truth - and it made him miserable. "She's a pretty special lady," Toby said. "She and Agent Mulder have devoted their lives to uncovering truths. Their work hasn't gone unnoticed. As more and more people start looking for real answers to explain what's happening in their world today, her name's going to become even more well known. That makes her a target. It also makes her something else - a beacon of hope. People are going to gravitate to her because of who she is and what she represents." "Is that why you rescued us?" "Sure thing!" Liam wanted to believe this was true. "But why you? Why *me*? Why Mom? Why Dad?" Counting the professor, there were ten scientists on the bus, and all were from the University of Washington. Liam forgot the names of the older ones. They weren't unfriendly but since they stayed up front, he hadn't talked to them. The bus was loaded with equipment and supplies to "build a secret headquarters" - which was where they were heading. "Ostensibly," Alan had said once he stopped fussing around and sat down with them, "this is an interdepartmental field trip, involving lecturers and research staff from the med school's Department of Immunology and the School of Genome Sciences ... but really we're responding to a call-of-arms!" He made it sound fun. He was open when Dr. Scully quizzed him on the subject of mysterious text messages. (Yes, they were following directions sent to his cellphone. No, he didn't personally know who was sending the messages, but a friend of a friend knew someone ...) The doctor had been making her way to see Mr. van de Kamp. Liam's mom had appeared and caught the tail end of Alan's explanation. "They're very zealous," she had said in an undertone to the doctor. Their heads went close together, and Liam couldn't hear what passed between them. His mother told him to stay seated while she and Dr. Scully slipped through the curtain. After the kidnapping, the house-breaking, the car chase and the escape over the mountain, time slowed on the bus. There was nothing much for Liam to do but brood so that, now, lying still in the darkness, he wondered if the whole adventure had been a dream and he was really lying at home in his own bed, waiting to wake up so he could go tadpole hunting tomorrow morning as he had planned. Only he wasn't in his own room, this wasn't his own bed, and if he closed his eyes and reopened them, he would still be staring overhead at the long, cracked bus ceiling. His father would still be whimpering in his sleep as his body struggled to repair itself. If he hadn't caught Jerry, if Stan hadn't driven by just at that moment, would that have somehow changed the entire day? Made Dr. Scully and Mr. Mulder and the supersoldiers just disappear? As if they had never existed? Or maybe they would have just gone to another farm. Taken another family. Hours into the bus journey he had given up studying the highway markings; he didn't know what road they were on, what city they had just passed through, or what town they were heading to. To keep him entertained Shu had produced several Japanese comics, but although Liam had taken them, his inability to read Japanese or follow the story through the drawings frustrated him and he gave up. Worried there might be something wrong with his father (because neither Dr. Scully nor his mother had returned from the back), he snuck through the curtain. None of the adults looked happy at his entrance. His father was sitting on a bed looking mutinous. His mother was examining two pairs of pants from an open suitcase at her feet. "These might do for you - oh, sweetie," she said, seeing him, "I don't want you walking about while the bus is moving." Liam knew it wouldn't be wise to point out she moved about whenever she wanted. "You've got to stop doing that," Dr. Scully said to Mr. van de Kamp when his hand reached down to the bandage on his thigh. There was something comical about his dad, sitting in his butchered jeans, digging at the white strip tied about his leg. Mr. van de Kamp groaned, baring his teeth. "It's so damned scratchy," he said. "Hey, Liam. Come to watch your old man suffer?" "What's wrong?" "Nothing to worry about. Feels like Dr. Scully put itching powder on my leg is all." He said it with a grin so Dr. Scully wouldn't be offended. It struck Liam that she wasn't doing much doctoring; she'd already stitched and bandaged his dad's leg, and since he was awake and talking, Liam guessed there wasn't much else for her to do. He wondered why the doctor didn't return to the front of the bus where everyone was keen to fight for her attention. At a lull in the conversation he saw an opportunity to get it back to a topic he thought everyone could contribute to. But when he set the ball rolling by asking Dr. Scully if she had ever seen an alien and what they looked like, he found himself being herded from the compartment by his mother. "But Mom -" "Your father needs to rest, Lee," she said. She deposited him in his seat and stayed with him, playing car games (listing the states and then their capitals in alphabetical order, as well as Twenty Questions and Where Am I? among others). Shu asked to play, and Liam discovered he had an advantage over the scientist, whose geographical knowledge was limited. Toby and Alan joined in, and Liam's competitive streak was ignited when no one guessed Toby's twenty questions turn and Alan harrumphed and refused to play for ten minutes. "That's not fair, Smith. From now on no abstract concepts." Alan gave Toby a dirty look. "What do you mean it's not fair?" Toby said. "What's abstract about gravity? We'll throw you from plane at twelve thousand feet and see how abstract you think that is." This did little to placate Alan, who argued the answers should be within the grasp of all the game's participants. Liam saw the surreptitious nod in his direction; were it not for Alan's kindness (even if his sandwiches oozed escaping mayo) Liam might have decided to permanently dislike the man. On the other hand, his respect for Toby was growing exponentially. "What? You mean Liam? Kid was on the right track. He nearly had it when he asked if it was as old as the universe." Alan pulled on steel-toed boots and stomped up the aisle. "Don't worry about him." Toby waved off the theatrics. "He's just feeling sore because he should have been able to work it out." When Alan rejoined them, he came cradling bags of potato chips in his arms, and all was forgiven. Later, as the sun dipped behind a layer of cloud, Liam and his mother checked on Mr. van de Kamp, who was awake but not in a talkative mood. After a quick meal, Liam was sent back to his seat. He had thought the games would be over. And they were - until the professor turned on a radio and several of Liam's new companions started singing along. It was a comforting end to what had been the most eventful day of his life, but while the university crew seemed happy (even when discussing "the war"), Liam could not help remembering the reason why they were on the bus. As long as he could see where they were going, he had enjoyed the illusion of safety; as soon as the dark started to close in on them, his sense of being exposed grew. Danger could come at them from any angle. His discomfort lessened only a little when the professor advised them to put out most of the bus's reading lights. This was met with some mock whining from Toby, who claimed he had just got up to an interesting part in his textbook. Liam couldn't understand the scientists' lack of fear. "Why aren't you scared of the supersoldiers?" The three men had looked at each other. "Dr. Scully told us about this morning," Toby said. "When your mom made her call she alerted the military. They were in the right area because they already knew approximately where Dr. Scully was." "How?" "We can't be entirely certain, Liam," Alan said. "It doesn't matter. The point is those soldiers aren't looking for us, and they don't know Dr. Scully is getting some outside help. We don't think they know where she is now, so we think you're pretty safe on this bus." "But what if -" "They find us somehow?" Liam nodded. "We're doing everything we can to make sure that doesn't happen." Alan was full of confidence. "Maybe you haven't noticed, but everyone on this bus has been keeping watch, and we've got some outside help too. There's nothing over the next hill that the Prof doesn't already know about. If something looks suspicious, he'll know." With the hum of the engine in his ears and the sickly odor of diesel turning his stomach, Liam's eyelids had grown heavy. When he came to with a jerk, he was slumped against the windowsill and had a crick in his neck. "What's happening, Mom?" Mrs. van de Kamp was leaning over him with a rug. "I think we just got a message telling us where to go." She was right. Bracing himself against an overhead handrail, Alan stood to make his announcement. "Good news first, people. We've been given a destination. Prof's going to take us to the outskirts of a place called Old Hachita in New Mexico." No one reacted to the name. "Bad news is while the bus'll be stopping, we won't. We'll rendezvous with four guides who'll be taking us to the camp. It'll be a five-hour walk in. There's a fair load of equipment to transport, but Dr. Scully says Harry van de Kamp will need assistance, so we're going to have to think carefully about what comes with us." He let the news sink in, then he grinned. "Now might be a good time to remind the person who packed the autoclave - you want it, you carry it." Liam had tried to keep his eyes open, but as Alan went on outlining logistical details, he had lost the battle to stay awake. He had dim memories of resisting when arms picked him up and zipped him into the sleeping bag. He had been wondering about Old Hachita as he drifted off to sleep. That was the last thing he remembered. His dad rolled over, muttering in his sleep. If the bus had stopped, where was everyone else? Alan had said they would have to carry their own supplies. They wouldn't just leave Liam and his dad behind, wouldn't they? Did that explain the silence in the bus? Was that why he had come to with a jolt? "Dad?" he whispered. All he heard was short, raspy breaths. "Dad?!" He got nothing. A sudden snap made him seize up. "It'll be daylight soon. The guides can't be too far away." It was the doctor, sounding serious (as usual) but untroubled. Liam was worrying for nothing. A weight lifted from his chest. Alan, Toby and the others must be outside in the dark unloading the bus. *How long was I asleep?* "When will it be safe for Harry to move?" "We'll work that out when the guides get here, Marie." "Maybe we should wait and let the others go on?" This seemed to anger the doctor. "I didn't bring you this far to abandon you - I'm not leaving anyone behind," she said. "We will work something out." "You're worried about him, aren't you?" That caught the doctor off guard. "I'm sorry?" "No, *I'm* sorry. Maybe I shouldn't bring it up. Naturally you'd be worried about him - it just seems, well, you've scarcely mentioned him since yesterday morning. You've been partners for how long? I don't believe you're really as calm as you appear." The doctor choked as if she had swallowed a mouthful of dirt. *Way to go, Mom.* "I don't see any rings. You never married?" His mother had a way of kindly cutting to the heart of a matter. There was a long pause. "No, we're not - we just - it just wasn't as important as ... other things." "I'm sorry if I'm making you uncomfortable with these questions." This was met with a genuine laugh. "You don't sound very sorry." Liam's mother unbundled some of her exasperation with a snort. "I'm talking to a wanted felon, on the run from God knows what kind of science fiction horror, and feeling surprisingly mellow about the experience. Yesterday the most important task I had planned for the day was putting the finishing touches on a quilt in time for my next sewing circle date. Anyone with an ounce of compassion would understand if I said I *wasn't* sure about anything - but I'm still deadly certain of some things." When the doctor spoke, she was wary. "I never wanted to involve you or your family like this, Marie. If there had been any other way ..." From her volume, she had stopped just under the window. "Dr. Scully - Dana, what's going to happen when we reach this camp?" By changing the topic, Liam thought she was trying to tell the doctor that her unspoken apology was accepted. "I don't know." "I look at the people on this bus and I see a group of intelligent, idealistic, *young* men caught in a fervor. I don't see an army. I see boys not that much older than my son who think they're off to some war games summer camp. It's hard to take them seriously - certainly not as soldiers." "This will be no ordinary battle, Marie. It could well and truly be won in a lab somewhere," Dr. Scully said. His mother pushed on. "I realize I know very little about things you all seem to take for granted, but experience has to count for something. You keep telling me people don't survive encounters with supersoldiers, but thanks to you I survived. My husband survived. My son survived. "For all their knowledge, is it strange for me to feel as though I'm - I don't know - more connected to this than them?" She paused, perhaps to summon her thoughts. "I don't mean to be dramatic. I can't articulate how I feel. Will there be other people like us? Men and women protecting themselves from supersoldiers - from becoming supersoldiers? Families seeking safety?" "I don't know what to expect, Marie." "I feel so on edge. Part of me still thinks coming with you was insane. Another part - the selfish part - says I'm glad I'm not alone in this mess. Maybe that's why I wondered about your partner. At least I have someone. What about your family, Dana? Where are they? If you know these terrible things are happening in the world, surely you would protect them the way you've protected us?" It took a beat for the doctor to reply. "My family is fine. They'll be fine." Was she trying to convince herself? Liam wished his mother would get more from her. Who was her family? Did she have brothers and sisters? Was Mr. Mulder in her family? He hadn't given it much thought but he supposed Mr. Mulder was her boyfriend. At the mention of his own name, his ears pricked again. "Liam -" the doctor said as though she was grasping for a way to redirect their conversation. "That's an Irish name, isn't it?" When she wanted to, the doctor made conversation hard. When they'd first set out, she hadn't spoken for hours, leaving all the talking to Mr. Mulder. It was almost a shock to hear her broach a topic without prompting. "I believe so," his mother said. "Not that either Harry or I have any Irish blood that we know of. But then, Liam's name wasn't really my choice ..." "No?" Mrs. van de Kamp chuckled. "No, no, it was all Liam's doing." Liam straightened. He never tired of hearing this story. "Maybe I should explain, Dr. Scully." They weren't prickly about discussing his adoption, but it wasn't something they often talked about with strangers. Unlike the doctor, who deflected prying questions by ignoring them, his mother didn't back away from the sensitive subject. "We adopted Liam. He was eight months old when they put him in my arms for the first time - he was eight months old and he was gorgeous." Liam waited to hear what the doctor would say; when she didn't reply he worried they had walked away. Moments later his mother went on. "His records were sealed and will be until he's eighteen and even then, under DC law, there may be limits to what he can ever learn - if he wants to find out. "But, although we know very little about the first eight months of his life, we were told his name was William. We had discussed renaming him - giving him a fresh start - but once he set his beautiful, solemn eyes on us, we couldn't imagine it. Only, we started to doubt the story the adoption agency gave us - oh -" Did she pause in response to some expression Dr. Scully gave? "There were no problems with the legalities, and the agency had an outstanding reputation - but when we tried talking to him, he never reacted. "We tried everything: William, Will, Willy, Billy - he'd just look at us with these big, gorgeous baby eyes. He was so comical. You could almost read his mind - he was saying, 'Nearly ... you've nearly got it right.' Finally, despairing, I remember looking at him and saying, "Liam? What about Liam?" It was such a relief! He turned his head like he was saying, 'Yes? Well?'" She breathed in deeply. "It's been his name ever since. I'm sorry, Dr. Scully. I must be boring you with this." "Not at all. Do you know anything about his birth parents? Anything that explains why he liked Liam?" "Very little," his mother replied. "Initially, I had some concerns. What had happened to him in those first eight months? And why would someone just give up their baby like that? The adoption agency said his birth mother was a young, single, working woman - that conjures all sorts of images. And as for his biological father ... I presume he's dead." Liam felt a small tingle of shock. They had never discussed it - Liam had never put it into words - but he had always had a feeling his biological father was dead. Interesting that his mother thought the same thing. "Did the agency tell you why he was given up?" Dr. Scully's voice had dropped so low, Liam struggled to hear her. "His mother wanted to give him a better life - a life she couldn't provide," his mother said. "I like to think we've given him that life. There's not a day goes by I don't thank the Lord for that opportunity. Do you know, Dr. Scully" - his mother sounded wistful - "I've heard a child never forgets the sound of his mother's voice. You're a pediatrician, aren't you? Is there any truth to that, do you think?" Liam never heard Dr. Scully's reply. A fire had exploded in his thigh. Like his sleeping bag was suddenly flooded with thousands of furious, fiery ants. He yelped as he jumped up and patted his leg. A whimper sounded from the other bed. *Dad*! Sleeping bag and imaginary ants forgotten, Liam spun around. His father's breathing was labored and short. Heat radiated off his skin. Liam put a hand on his father's forehead. It sizzled with slick, sticky sweat. At last he understood what had woken him. "Mom! Dr. Scully!" Liam fell to his knees hurtling off the bus. Hands emerged from the darkness to help him. "Liam, what is it?" His mother pulled him up. "It's Dad. He's really sick." Dr. Scully was already flying up the steps. A light flicked on and seconds later he heard her swear. "He's running a fever. Probably infection." Popping open a first aid kit, she grabbed scissors and a thermometer, then she hacked at the bandage around his leg. Feathery red lines streaked from the wound. Mrs. van de Kamp squeezed Liam's hand. "You can treat him, right?" Dr. Scully leaned over to open a cupboard door. "I'll do everything I can -" She was cut short when one of the scientists called to her. "Dr. Scully, we've got a problem - " "Not now - I've got bigger things to worry about." Cooking utensils and foodstuffs mounted around her. She was on her knees, ransacking the bus's small kitchenette, pulling items out or pushing them aside. "I'm sorry." Alan poked his head up the stairwell. "I think you need to hear this. The guides have arrived. They've got some disturbing news." The doctor paused, her hand on a bag of sugar. Liam watched her compose herself. "What?" Alan moved toward them. "Dr. Scully, they say it's not safe here. They say we have to move out as soon as possible. They don't even want to wait for daylight." Alan's gaze fell on Mr. van de Kamp. Liam's dad hadn't woken. He was muttering and his skin burned red. For the first time Liam saw a sensible emotion flash over the student's face: fear. "We were never gonna just leave the bus here," he said. "The Prof was planning on taking it back - it's not like the UDub won't notice is missing. Shu's ripped off the husky sticker, so it won't be as easy to identify. What if you and Harry stay on the bus, get treatment and try again when he's well enough to walk?" "Can we do that?" Liam's mother sounded hopeful. "You get Harry to a clinic and we'll take Liam and Marie to the camp." Alan looked to Dr. Scully for an answer. The proposal hit Liam's mother. "If Harry's not going, I won't go." The doctor considered Alan's suggestion, then shook her head. "I can't take that risk," she said to him. "We've had too many close calls as far as it is." "But -" "The longer it takes us to get to that camp, the harder it becomes. If they know we're in this area, they could have every main route under surveillance. I can't even risk going to the smallest medical center." "But moving Harry -" "This changes nothing. We knew we'd need to stretcher him. We all move out. Together. And the sooner we get going, the better it'll be for everyone." Still kneeling, she was tiny, but her face was marble. Liam knew no one would argue with her.