The Lambs: Part 3 (4/11) by Lamia (AKA so kiss me goodbye) Rating: PG-13 (violence, strong language) Category: S Spoilers: Seasons 1-9, Fight the Future Keywords: William; Colonization Summary: Liam van de Kamp's life changes the day two FBI agents kidnap him and his parents. Author's Note: The Lambs is a three-part story plus epilogue. The prologue and Parts I (Chapters 1-10) and (Chapters 11-31) were completed between 2008 and 2015, and posted on FFN. Chapter 35 December 21, 2012 New Mexico Blood had crusted in trickles over Gibson's knuckles - he could have been wearing lacy red gloves. Holding his hands like a boxer fending off a blow, he huddled on the floor in the middle of the pie room. "Gibson -" Liam gulped when Gibson lifted his head in a directionless scowl. Deep welts were branded into his cheeks. Dark patches stained his t-shirt. "Fuck you." The air tasted of salt, sweat and metal. Liam hesitated at the wall. "What happened?" The anger faded to something different. Hope? "Liam? Is that you? Your bag. Have you still got it?" "No, they took every -" "Shit. Shit, shit, shit." "Are you okay?" "Do I look okay?" "What did they -" Liam swallowed again, creeping in for a closer look. "I'm supposed to give you a message." Blanching as his hands grazed the floor, Gibson tried to push himself in the direction of Liam's voice. He thrust out his hands. For a second it looked as though he would pass out. "Don't resist. That's the message. Got it?" Had someone scraped the skin from his arms? "What -" The energy went out of Gibson and his head dropped. "Don't resist." "But -" "Help me" - his hand made a feeble wave - "need something to lean ..." There was nothing but the walls. Liam hooked his arms around Gibson, careful not to touch the exposed flesh, and dragged him to the closest one. He looked at the back of Gibson's neck. It was smooth. No sign of any telltale bump. Gibson sank against the support with a twisted smile, his shoulders heaving as he panted. "Sick of ... being ... a ... lab rat." The lenses of his glasses magnified his unfocused gaze. He gave himself a minute to catch his breath. "Know why ... they made me?" Stealing a look at Gibson's tortured skin, Liam shook his head. His gut twisted and he had to turn away. He panned the empty room. A blanket, two towels, a bucket of water, his old clothes - folded. "I was a prototype. A thing that gets made first." *A thing that gets tested.* Liam scooped up the towels and bucket. "They're still doing tests on you?" "They *all* do. None of them will stop. Don't know why they bother." Gibson could have been a meditating monk the way his elbows rested on his thighs and his arms extended over his knees. "This is nothing," he said through clamped teeth. "Men did brain surgery on me once. No anesthetic." As calm as he appeared, the raw flesh on Gibson's arms, hands and fingers screamed. The thought of sticking towels to the weeping injuries made Liam shudder. The hands themselves glistened. How could this sort of wound even heal? For five days he had stewed and fumed over Gibson's betrayal - over Dr Scully's. He had dreamed of this moment, of confronting them. But the sight of Gibson injured and hurting tore up his revenge script. He wished furiously his medic molecules were real. A memory of the pillar in the round room jumped into his mind. "*Shine*," he heard in a whisper. "Are you still there?" Gibson asked desperately. "Yes." Liam shuddered into action. "I'm going to try to cover your arms. They - they don't look good. Your cheeks look grilled -" "I can't see anything." Liam set about tearing the towels into strips. He was forced to use his teeth to start each rip - which he knew wasn't very sanitary. "What happened?" "Locked me in a holding pen. Left me. Don't know about ... Jeremiah." Gibson ground his teeth when Liam knotted the first bit of makeshift bandage around his left arm. "Am I - am I prototype too?" "Always about you." Gibson snorted but shook his head. "The trouble ... with you, Liam ... is that no one ... knows what you are." "Not even the aliens?" Liam gave a particularly savage yank. "Especially not the aliens. You're what you should be - what you were designed to be - but you're more than that." "What do you mean?" "You were not entirely ... what they expected." "Who's 'they'? The Grays? The supersoldiers? My *mother*?" His lip curled in a sneer. *That's right*, he wanted to say, *I know*. He expected one of Gibson's knowing smirks. The expression of a race winner watching his competition collapse over the finish line of truth. Instead, feverish sweat dribbled down Gibson's face, and his only discernible emotion was pain. It frustrated Liam that his medic molecules were all in his head. And it frustrated him that he couldn't rid himself of his wish that they worked. He clutched at his temples when he heard the whisper again. "*Shine ... remember*." He tried to chase the voice away by thinking of other ways to help Gibson. "Rudi's artifact! It came from a ship. If I could find one here, I could heal -" Gibson paid him no mind. "It doesn't seem right that I should be the one telling you this." "I can heal you! I just need to find -" "You don't need to. *You* shouldn't need it." The vehemence of his words stabbed Liam in the chest like an accusatory finger. But when he continued, he rambled down another track. It was hard to tell if he was delirious or not. His breathing was less ragged and his speech was more steady. Even so, his head lolled to one side. "Did you know she wasn't supposed to have children? Probably not. I can't imagine how that would ever come up in conversation." The image of Garrett de Rosier, so long in the past, flashed into Liam's mind. "One of the men who helped us escape -he told us Dr Scully had a daughter. He never mentioned ... he never mentioned a son." "No surprises there. Every electronic record mentioning 'William' was very carefully expunged from the system." "How?" "Same way we were protecting the camp. Paperwork, surveillance footage, texts, phones messages - all wiped. Our own version of Purity Control. Better than a bomb. We've been controlling information. An entity capable of staying one step ahead of her opponent is a handy person to have on your side." He paused to take in a slow, laborious breath. "You were the result of years of testing. On me. On Scully. On women like Scully. They thought *they'd* made you. That might be true, but when you were born they realized you were also something more. Something they hadn't counted on. Not yet. It didn't change their plans - if anything it convinced them even more. You were some sort of miraculous proof they'd been seeking." Starting at the elbow, Liam knotted a loop and wound the bandage down Gibson's other arm. Ragged edges of skin were starting to dry and shrink. The pain alone should have knocked Gibson out. Instead he was awake and talking. Telling Liam's story. Liam had no feeling. He listened in a daze. The numbness suppressed his urge to vomit. "It suited them to have Scully think you were an experiment. To keep her doubting." "Is that why she got rid of me?" "Scully did not 'get rid' of you." "That's what it seems like. I was eight months old when Mom and Dad adopted me. Seems like she wanted me for a while - then she didn't." He pulled tightly on a strip, making Gibson grunt. "Things happened to you. People kidnapped you, tried to kill you. What your uncle did - wait until you find out about *that* side of the family - it had the most lasting effect." Liam couldn't help rolling his eyes, but his mind boggled. *I have an uncle*? Aloud he said, "What did he do?" "Snuck into your room, injected you with an inhibitor, tried -" "*You* injected me with something." Irritation flickered on Gibson's face and he raised his bandaged hand to his lips in wordless warning. There was no way of telling who might be listening, or how. "Some details don't matter." He sucked in a breath as Liam secured a binding. "What you should know is this: your origins were set in place by both men and alien, but you were more than they expected. They tried to convince Scully you were solely the result of experimentation. Mulder saw through that. He recognised that you were more." "Mulder is my -" "Biological dad? Yeah." "So it's true." "What's true?" Liam tied the final knot. "They gave me up because I was a monster." Gibson couldn't see but it didn't stop him rolling *his* eyes and then wincing from the movement. "You're determined to see this from the worst possible angle, aren't you?" "Well, what other reason could they have?" "It's very, very complicated." "I'm old enough to ask - I'm old enough to know." "You were all she ever wanted." "Could've fooled me." "When she couldn't have you, all she wanted was to have you be happy. When an opportunity came up for you to vanish, she took it. As much as it upset her, the inhibitor your uncle injected you with served one valuable purpose - it rendered you invisible. Until that point every supersoldier in the Milky Way could have found you in a black hole if they wanted to." "If they wanted to?" "While you were still a kid, it was easier for the Grays to let your parents raise you. Even once you were invisible, they weren't too concerned." Liam turned an unused scrap of towel in his hands. "If I was so invisible, how did Stan end up moving next door?" Here, Gibson glowered. "Jeremiah *said* it was a miracle. That God led him to you." "Don't you believe him?" "I don't know what to believe anymore. He kept things from me. He shouldn't have been able to do that." Liam was tired of having to put the pieces together. Tired of having to swallow unpalatable truths. He scooted to the wall to sit next to Gibson. "Why didn't she just tell me?" "That you were her son? You still don't get it, do you?" Liam let out a sigh. "Get what?" "Everything Scully has ever done for you has been so that you could be safe and away from the craziness of her world. Safe - that's what you were in Wyoming. You had great parents, a nice home. You had an idyllic childhood." "But something went wrong - the supersoldiers *did* find out where I was." Gibson turned his head away. "*Did* it go wrong? Some might argue what happened next was for the best. Wyoming could never be a permanent solution. Scully never understood that. You couldn't be left there. We needed an excuse to get you out. "The Grays weren't worried about finding you because they've always believed you'd end up here by circumstance. They have no concept of doubt. For them, things just are. No one understands how their belief system works. They're not mystics like the shapeshifters, but they must have some sort of faith. Hell, seeing where we are now, maybe they have a point. "But the supersoldiers - and the men who helped make them - don't have the luxury of absolute certainty. They're too new to have any beliefs. They were desperate to have you in time for December 22." "That's stupid. Aren't they all on the same side?" "You saw what camp was like. People can want the same things, but disagree on how to get them." "So how did the supersoldiers find me?" An answer so surprising popped into his mind, he gasped. "Did *you* send them to my house?" Gibson's nose twitched. "We knew it would only be a matter of time. We knew Doggett had been turned and he had some clues on how to find you. Wyoming was no longer safe. The immediate threat of supersoldiers was the only way I knew I could get Mulder and Scully to step in. "They got a message with a code word and instructions on where to go. They didn't know until the last minute, though, what they'd find." "Me." "If they'd been given any more time, they might have tried something different. They wouldn't have agreed with my plan. They didn't want to disrupt your life. They didn't want any of this for you. And they never listened when I told them it would be inevitable." "How did you know Doggett had been turned?" Gibson sniffed. "I was told it was going to happen. I didn't have a chance to stop it." "Who told you?" "Someone who controls the flow of information. That's all you need to know." "Someone keeping watch." Liam turned in time to see Gibson's tiny nod. Sensing the danger of the subject, Liam took another tack. "What did they do to you? I saw the room with the supersoldier cocoons and the green stuff. Did they try to put you in one of the pods?" Gibson shook his head. "There's a room. It's like the energy center of the ship, but it's not like energy as we know it - it's part of them. They wanted to see if I could become a part of it. I can't." He put up a bandaged hand. "Human flesh is frail." "I've seen that room." Liam swallowed, looking at Gibson's mummied arms. How close had he come to the same fate? "Why do you think they have all those pods? I thought people just caught a virus and turned into supersoldiers later on?" "Clones. They needed humans to create supersoldiers - but clones are better. Quicker to grow, less expensive to feed." "Oh," Liam said queasily. "I don't want to be a supersoldier." Gibson reached out and, finding Liam's arm, patted him awkwardly. "You are what you are, brat. You can't run. None of us can." "But shouldn't we fight? Isn't that what you want?" "I used to." Gibson touched his hands to his cheeks. "Fighting hurts. I don't know that the price is worth it." Five days stewing over the betrayals - but now, looking at Gibson, Liam struggled to know what to be angry at. He squirmed, trying to get comfortable, absorbing what Gibson was telling him. He stared at the wall in front of them, hypnotized by his thoughts. "We wouldn't have believed them - if they had told us. Dad would have chased them off the property. And I guess after that they didn't know how to say anything. It would have been weird." "Mulder and Scully knew you'd have enough to deal with. You, and your mom and dad." "But we trusted you. We trusted them. Now I don't know where my mom and dad are - and they won't know where I am." He frowned suddenly. "What am I saying? You can hear them, can't you? In your mind. Are they alright?" Gibson dipped his head. "Sorry, kid. It doesn't work that way for everyone. Wherever they are, your parents are too far for me to reach. This room doesn't help either." The sudden hope in Liam's heart died. He hugged his knees to his chest, trying to keep the sting out of his voice. "If you'd told us the truth, we wouldn't be here." "Scully was afraid of scaring your parents. Afraid that if they knew the truth, they'd take you and run. She was afraid she wouldn't be able to protect you. Scully tried her hardest to make a new life for you. She tried fighting the truth. Can't blame her - that's what mothers are supposed to do, aren't they?" "Did your mother" - Liam stumbled - "did she try to help you?" Gibson went rigid. "My mother got written out of my life." Was that some sort of euphemism? Liam shuddered. "What's going to happen?" "Who knows?" "Can they read your mind?" There was no need to say who "they" were. "We can communicate, but no, I don't believe they can take my thoughts without my permission. I can read theirs - but now I know they can also hide their thoughts from me. Some of them, anyway." His face went hard. "You mean Jeremiah?" "Sending bounty hunters to the camp - that wasn't part of the deal." "Kidnapping me was?" "You'd have done the same thing. You've got advantages we don't have. And if the Grays are to be believed, you'd have ended up here anyway." Since he was not sure exactly what it was that Gibson had done (apart from arrange for him to be kidnapped and injected), Liam felt he could argue the point. But there was something more important to consider. "What about Ellie? Where is she?" "With her parents, presumably. We had to find a way to delay you in the desert. Jeremiah planted the pack. I don't know how he did it, but kidnapping her wasn't part of the plan." Liam shook his head. "But how did he get Jerry? He killed Jerry." Gibson shrugged. "What do you want me to say?" "How about sorry?" "But I'm not. I could say I was - would that make you feel better? We both did what we felt we had to do." "You wanted to get me onto the ship." "It had to be you. There was no other way." "Why me?" Gibson banged his head against the wall. "Have you listened to nothing I've said? You're not a test subject to them. You're not a lab rat. They think you're one of them. They were less likely to check you at the border, so to speak." The spot where the injection had gone into Liam's ribcage five days ago ached on cue. "If things had gone to plan, you wouldn't have been on the ship very long. Getting you on was a calculated risk. I was going to take over. Jeremiah was supposed to have you off the ship within the hour. That won't work now." Without knowing where it came from, a name formed on Liam's lips. "Esther." Gibson nudged him with his shoulder. "She has a habit of getting under your skin." A thought occurred to Liam. "You were famous for playing chess. You taught Eric and Rudi." The change in topic brought a small smile to Gibson's face. "Chess is a game of strategy. It helps knowing what your opponent is thinking." "This has been one whole chess game to you. You never gave up. *You* slipped my medical folder under our door." Gibson nodded. "I had to find some way to get you away from the camp." "My name - my old name - was on the file. Mom worked it out ..." "Your mom's a smart lady. I knew she'd figure it out - and I knew she'd recognize the danger you were in." "What danger?" Liam had never questioned his safety at the compound. Not really. There had been scares - especially after he broke curfew - but the thrill of adventure, and later on the monotony of routine life, had pushed away lingering concerns of threats. "What do you think would have happened to you if Drummond found out?" "But I'm a kid -" "Not if you're the commander, you're not. It was a risk having you in the camp, but as long as we could keep your secret, it was the safest place. Our friend kept an eye on us from outside; Mulder, Scully and I kept a watch on you inside." "Why didn't Dr Scu" - Liam struggled to know what name to use for his biological mother - "Why didn't she give me the vaccine?" "Scully believes you don't need it. I don't understand the science, but your DNA is the basis of the vaccine. Everything comes from you. Both the vaccine and the supersoldier cure - although cure isn't exactly the right word. You don't need it - or it wouldn't work on you anyway." "She gave me a fake one." "She shouldn't have done it. She knows that. She gave up the right to make those sorts of choices for you. She couldn't stop herself. She just wanted you not to worry. They both did. Mulder argued with her, but when it came to you, he deferred to her." Liam turned over these new facts slowly. A corner of his heart ached. *If only* - "Why didn't they just run away with me? All those years ago? You kept me hidden. You could have helped them." "Circumstances were - difficult. But mainly, Scully could never be free - not unless she wanted to gamble with her life. She had that chip in her neck." Liam's eyes burned as though sand had been blown in them. "She got rid of it - when she went back for Jerry." "There's nothing she wouldn't do for you." "The cancer ..." "Was kept in check by the chip." Liam blinked away a sneaky tear. "But she got better - she was sick and then she got better." "Jeremiah healed her - to force Mulder to move. I needed Mulder to get ..." Gibson's mouth twitched. "He wasn't going to leave her side - not when she was so sick - so Jeremiah stepped in. He never really left the camp. He simply disguised himself as another refugee. I agreed to keep his secret. I thought we were both working on the same side." "But the cancer's come back. Why can't he help her again?" "Jeremiah can heal her but he can't cure her. The cancer will keep returning." "So she's dying." Gibson exhaled. "Worse, brat. She's dying - for you." Liam sought comfort in his own hug. "I didn't ask her to," he said, his voice small and lost. Gibson patted him again. "You didn't ask for a lot of things." They sat side by side in silence while Liam digested the story. Every now and then Gibson gave a whimper. Whatever he had planned had failed spectacularly. His pieces had been wiped from the chess board. What more was there for them to do? Without a way out of the room, they were stuck - unless rescue was on its way. Liam had had no proper visions from Doggett for days. He didn't like to consider what that might mean. At least with Gibson, the room didn't feel so heavy. He could concentrate - could focus his mind - more easily. If he gave in - if he went back to the round room - he might be able to help Gibson. The round room was where Gibson was injured - but that might not happen to Liam. That's what Gibson was saying. Liam might be able to help a lot of people. If he could heal people, could he heal Dr Scully too? Maybe the humans had made a mistake? Maybe the Grays weren't bad - just misunderstood. Maybe they didn't want to hurt anyone and everything was just an accidental. A cosmic misunderstanding. The pain on Gibson's face was hard to ignore. Yet the Grays had done just that. They had ignored his pain. And the pain of every type of being they pulled into their neverending quest to reach the end. Humans were nothing to them. They truly were alone. *And that's why they have to be stopped.* He glanced down at his hand which rested on his ribs. The words were out of his mouth before he knew what he was saying. "Your plan - what if *I* did it instead?" "Do not fucking tempt me," Gibson muttered before raising his voice. "Scully would never forgive me." A scowl returned to his face. "Don't think I wouldn't get you to. It's the perfect solution. But it's a bad idea for one overwhelming reason - it's too risky. We might end up making the situation worse." *You mean I might end up becoming the commander.* The coolness of the room crept into Liam's haunches. He tightened his arms around himself to draw in some warmth. Even if he could escape this room and this ship, he couldn't escape himself. -o0o- The only reliable measure of time Liam had was his stomach. When it started grumbling he estimated it was definitely evening. No one had come to their cell and the walls had stayed gray all day. He hadn't eaten since breakfast. Who knew when Gibson's last meal had been. He had gone silent hours before, slumped against the wall. Liam sat beside him for a while, counting, arranging, and rearranging the towel scraps in front of him. When that grew tiresome, he paced the walls, head bowed, lost in thought. When his legs got sore, he sat down, his hands coming to rest on curious triangular marks on the floor. They were so faint he hadn't paid them any notice before. He puzzled over the shapes, tracing them with his fingertip. A sharp gasp from Gibson put him on instant alert. The man had tensed. "Something's not right." Seconds later they both felt it. A tiny vibration in the floor. Liam looked around the metal room. "We're not about to takeoff, are we?" "No. Maybe. I can't tell." Gibson pushed a hand into his eye. Sweat still coated his forehead. Minutes seemed to pass before he let out a breath and dropped his arm. "It's gone." They waited but the ship had gone calm again. "How you feeling now?" Liam asked. Gibson brought his hands together like he was examining them. "I just wish it was all over." It sounded like a dismissal. Liam resumed his pacing of the walls. He needed distraction from the gnawing in his stomach. He supposed Gibson might be weary, but he couldn't help himself, blurting out a question he had longed to ask. "Why were you so mean to people? To me?" Gibson blinked in surprise. "Can't you guess? You had not one but two sets of parents who'd have done anything for you. You intrigue people without disgusting them. You could have been the anti-Christ and Scully and Mulder still would have walked through fire for you." Resignation filled his voice. "Me? My life was different. Some people *called* me the anti-Christ. It makes you bitter." He resettled himself against the wall. "My parents never stuck around for me. Scully and Mulder would have cared for me. Doggett did for a while. Him and Monica. But somehow you were always there. You were the goal. You were the one we all had to protect. "No one in my life cared for me like that. Not even Mulder and Scully." "Do you hate them? Is that why you brought me here?" Gibson almost growled. "I *hate* the men who worked for the Grays. As for everyone else - I've learned to live with the disappointment." His closed eyes were probably a sign to stop badgering him. Liam walked around the room some more, ignoring his hunger pains and processing as much of the day as he could: the way the supersoldier squeezed his hand when they passed certain marks on the floor; the light guide; the smoky story walls in the round room; the writing he had found himself printing; the pillar and the dark shadow inside it. He knew now what the Grays were looking for - and what they promised. Memories and knowledge. But what did they want from him in return? How would he be their commander? What did they think he could do? If it meant giving everyone what they wanted, would it be so bad? Not all supersoldiers were bad - not anymore. The illness which had affected Doggett had done something. He could remember who he was. He could make choices. He had been with Mulder and Dr Scully when they tried to stop him getting on the ship. That meant he was on their side, didn't it? They had infected the second captured supersoldier but no one knew what had happened to her ... Gibson lay stretched out against the curve of the wall and floor. Sleeping again. The mysterious markings on the floor continued to draw Liam. Did they relate to the portals somehow? Could they be operated by a weight trigger? A combination of weight movement? Liam padded on his feet, trying various sequences, each more elaborate than the last. But that couldn't be right. Not only did it look ridiculous, it didn't match anything he'd seen the supersoldiers do. They had been their usual stiff selves, staring straight ahead. Keeping his eyes in one direction while holding a frozen stance was not as easy as he had imagined. His lawless gaze shot off in chaos. Concentration was the key. That's what this room was about. That's what they wanted him to learn. They *wanted* him to find a way out. *Breathe in. Breathe out. Drift in. Tune out. Be now. Be -* The room lurched. Liam's knees smacked the bucking floor. Sharp pain jarred his wrists as his palms slapped against the metal to stop his fall. *Did I do this?* He looked up, hopeful for the orange glow of the portal, but had no time for disappointment. Another shock flattened him. This wasn't his doing. The room was a kick drum. Boom after boom after boom exploded deep within the ship. "Shit." Gibson stared at nothing in the distance. "Rebellion -" "What?" "They're trying to disable the ship - the supersoldiers." "Disable? Or destroy?" Liam yelled as the floor started tilting again. The pads of his fingers burned into the metal to halt his slide. Gibson had nothing to give him purchase. The slant sent him careening head first. Hoping desperately to stop him crashing into the wall, Liam let himself fall too. The floor leveled itself as they smacked into the outer edge of the room. Gibson was a crumpled tangle. He blinked away tears from his burnt cheeks and gulped down the pain. The ship righted itself, allowing Liam to scramble to his feet. "That's it," he said. "I'm getting us off this ship."