A Normal Life by Bugmouthga E-MAIL: bugmouthga@yahoo.com RATING: NC-17 CATEGORY: Story KEYWORDS: Post-episode, MSR SPOILERS: The entire series, including both films SUMMARY: A look at Mulder and Scully's relationship through years, during the quiet moments of their lives. Disclaimer: X-Files characters belong to FOX Corporation and 1013. Author's Notes: This is sort of a sentimental favorite of mine. No real X-File here, just the blossoming of the Mulder/Scully relationship during the mundane moments of life. It's EXTREMELY Shippery! LOL Please email me and let me know what you think. The following scenes are merely moments in the lives of Fox Mulder and Dana Scully. They are not big adventures, but rather the simple parts of life that happen in between the adventures. They are the "little things" that we often take for granted. But it's usually the little things, the mundane moments, the normal banality that makes up the bulk of life. This is Mulder and Scully's normal life. Scene one: "The mall has it all" [rated PG-13] March 1992 Good Times Mall Bellefleur, OR 4:45 p.m. "Whether for clothes or fun to have a ball... the mall has it all!" Mulder announced, receiving a curious glance from his new partner. "I can't believe we have to do this," Scully sighed, staring at the front entrance with a look of trepidation. "What's wrong, Scully?" he joked, putting a hand on her shoulder. "I thought you women just loved to shop!" She raised an eyebrow at him. "Oink, oink, Mulder! And no, I've never been a big shopper. Buying clothes is a... necessary evil, not what I would classify as a good time." "Party pooper," he smiled. "Well, at any rate, it looks like it is a necessary evil today... unless Bellefleur has a policy that FBI agents walking around town in their skivvies is all right." She rolled her eyes. He took note of her apparent disapproval. "Well, then, clothes shopping we must do. That's what happens when all your clothes go up in flames along with the hotel you're staying at." "I think the hotel owners should pay for our loss," she remarked, recalling sadly how her new laptop had also gone up in smoke. She had just bought that for her new assignment. "Well, we could put in a grievance," he agreed. "Most businesses will get back to us within a week or more... of course, we'll be awfully cold, running around naked, waiting to hear from them." Scully couldn't help it. She chuckled. A sudden flash in her mind took her briefly back to the first time she had heard of "Spooky" Mulder when still at the Academy. While her fellow cadets in the know had marveled at his profiling abilities, they had also jeered his practices and made fun of him personally. Though she had found it somewhat rude and unprofessional to make fun of someone so highly regarded in such an important field, she had never said anything, never stuck up for him. She might even have laughed a little herself at some of the unkind jokes. Little did she know that she would one day be partnered with the "brilliant crackpot". While she did find him brilliant, as well as arrogant, sarcastic, closed-off emotionally and somewhat dirty-minded, crackpot did not fit the bill at all. He had even shown her a softer side, a bit of vulnerability, granted, only after she had done so first. But he hadn't made fun of her, or belittled her during her own moment of vulnerability. He had been kind, warm, open. Add to the fact that she found him simply beautiful to look at, she honestly had to admit, she liked him... not that she would own up to that admission. At least, not until she determined how he had regarded her. "What is it with you and nudity, Mulder?" she snickered. "Hey, nudity's great!" he joked. "I mean, that's how we all come into the world and maybe that's how we were meant to continue on through life." "That's just... weird," she said, growing a little nervous over his need to paint a picture for her. After all, he had seen her practically naked a couple of nights ago. She made a point of sighing, trying to think of something to change the subject. Her eyes brightened after a moment, having thought of something she was sure everyone could relate to- and that had nothing to do with nudity whatsoever. "Damn, I'm not exactly budgeted for an impromptu shopping spree..." She assumed he would commiserate with her over having to spend money on clothing that should not have been lost in the first place. Instead, she was surprised when he touched her arm gently and said, "Scully, I know this wasn't planned for, and the Bureau will reimburse us... eventually, but if you need a little financial loan, I don't mind." That caught her off guard. She hadn't been expecting sensitivity, although she was coming to realize that her new partner had it in spades. He just hid it well behind all the sarcasm and dirty humor. "Oh, no, Mulder, it's all right, really," she assured him with an appreciative smile. "I'm just... griping for the sake of griping, I guess. I'll be okay to get a couple of outfits- enough to tide me over till we get home." She paused, tentatively patted the large, warm hand on her arm and looked up at him. "Thank you, though." "No problem," he replied, glancing away once, then looking back to smile at her again. He opened the mall entrance door for her and led her in, his hand on the small of her back. "So, where should we start?" he asked, hoping beyond hope that she would ask for some assistance on choosing just the right lingerie. "Well," Scully suggested sensibly, "why don't we each go get what we need, then meet up at the food court for a quick bite to eat before heading back to the new hotel?" She gestured to the small food court, which was to their left. "Oh, okay," Mulder mumbled, not bothering to hide his disappointment. Scully hadn't known Mulder for very long, but a complete stranger could have easily picked up on his souring mood. "What's wrong, Mulder?" she asked in concern. "Uh..." he stammered, momentarily at a loss of what to say. Thinking quickly, he came up with the first excuse he could think of, lame as it sounded to him. "It's just that, I was hoping for a little advice... when it comes to clothing, I mean." She smirked, and considering he had looked nice and professional every time she had seen him on the job, she pondered over who it was that usually dressed him. She wondered if he had a girlfriend back home that did all the work for him. "Really?" she smirked. "Are you honestly that bad, Mulder?" Her respect for him might have lowered, just the slightest bit. "Well," he said with a sheepish grin, "I am red/green colorblind you see, and sometimes I can't really tell if something doesn't quite... eh, match, I guess, so sometimes I'll ask a friend, or maybe pester a sales clerk, but since you're here, could you please help?" Her respect for him returned to its original standing and it was accompanied by a small amount of sympathy, although she wondered how he got passed the Bureau's scrutiny to obtain a job with them. Usually, even the littlest ailments could prove reason for being rejected. She unconsciously licked her lips and pondered over his predicament for a moment. It was true, she wasn't overly fond of malls in general, and she really didn't like shopping for clothing- hers, or anyone else's- but she looked at Mulder and his problem with compassion and a fair amount of amusement. "Tell you what," Scully said, "why don't I get the things I need, while you try on some clothes. You can find what fits right and I'll meet back up with you to check the colors of your selections, to make sure they match. What store will you be looking through? I'll meet you there." He sighed. Didn't look like any way out of it. "Yeah. Good idea, Scully, thanks." He glanced at the directory, noticed two stores in particular that would probably have the clothes he'd need. There really wasn't too much of a choice in such a small community mall. "I'll either be at The Men's Shop or Sears." "Okay," she said. "Give me about an hour." She glanced at the directory briefly, then smiled at him and headed in the opposite direction he was going. Worrying his lower lip with his teeth, Mulder propelled himself forward. The honest truth was, he hated clothes shopping as much as Scully claimed to. It was boring; a necessity sure, but a boring necessity, nonetheless. He decided to hit The Men's Shop first. With any luck, he could find what he needed there and avoid the large department store altogether. On the way to the clothing store, Mulder passed by a video store and he paused in front of it. Hmm, I've got a whole hour to kill, and it's not like it'll take me that long to find what I need, he surmised. I guess a quick look wouldn't hurt. I'll keep it brief. Relieved to have found a fun distraction that he was able to put off looking for clothes, Mulder entered the video store with a guilty grin. Scully would never know, and he was just going to be a few minutes, anyway... His eyes automatically sought out his two favorite movie genres: science fiction and porn. He came upon the science fiction section first and checked out their offerings. After he grabbed a cheesy, obscure 1950's sci-fi "classic" for purchase, he casually meandered into the adult video section. There, he found a video for sale that particularly intrigued him. He stood before it, scratching his chin thoughtfully, waiting to pick it up for a closer look, but hesitating, feeling somehow conflicted. The video in question was called, Red-Hot and Wild, and boasted a picture of a voluptuous redhead, scantily clad and posing provocatively on the cover. He had never much considered fantasies involving redheads, mostly because he couldn't properly see their red hair. He knew that Agent Scully was a redhead. It said so in her dossier, even if he couldn't tell by looking at her. Of course, she looked nothing like the sex pot on the cover of the film he was contemplating, nor was she his usual type for his porn tastes, or his dates, which leaned towards tall, buxom brunettes. But he did find Scully to be very pretty in her own right, and she had one of the sweetest faces he had ever seen. She's got a pretty sweet body, too, now that I think about it, he recalled with perfect clarity from the evening she had bared nearly all to him when she feared the mosquito bites on her back were possibly something more sinister. He shook his head, trying to tamp down the illicit thoughts and the recent memory. He respected Scully. She was his partner... yes, his partner. After only this one case together, he honestly felt that she was. Surprised as he was by this revelation, he really felt he could trust her. If he hadn't been so sure, he would never have been able to speak so candidly about his sister's abduction. After all, while many people knew his theory on his sister's disappearance all those years ago, not too many people were actually privy to the details of his recovered memory. He recalled that he had been able to talk to her about it with much more ease than he would have thought possible, especially for someone he had been accusing of being a spy. More than just his trust, Mulder actually liked Scully. He felt they might actually become real friends someday. They already had a good rapport, even if he had acted like an ass towards her at first. Yeah, we'll be friends, he promised himself, before the image of her nearly nude body popped back into his head. Oh, no more office romances! They never work... but if it comes to that, then we'll just have to wait and see what happens, I guess... He nodded an affirmation to himself, then had to suppress the urge to laugh for doing so. He walked out of the adult video section then without taking another glance back. Mulder bought the dorky sci-fi flick, giving a surly look to the pimply-faced teen behind the counter who snickered at him over his purchase. After leaving the video store, Mulder bought himself a pretzel and a small soda to tide him over until dinner and perused the mall, looking mostly through the front store windows. He walked past a lingerie store. To his surprise, he saw his pretty new partner at the checkout. He stopped, and, strategically placing himself behind some scantily clad mannequins, he tried to see what she was buying. He watched the cashier ring up Scully's selected items... a package of sensible, white cotton bikini briefs, much like she had been wearing that night she... He shook his head clear, again trying to get that mesmerizing image out of his skull. She also appeared to be buying a sensible, white bra, which made him smile for some reason, even as he strained his neck, trying, in vain, to ascertain her size. He could not read any labels from so far away, but if he had to guess, he would have to put his new partner in a size 34-B. A very nice size, indeed. The underwear she had chosen reminded him somehow of her - sweet, sensible, pretty but understated. Yep, that's Scully, all right... He almost choked on that thought when he saw her put a very fetching silky bra and panties set that was as blue as her eyes on the counter as well. "Day-um," he whispered, getting more than a little turned on just picturing her wearing them. Shit! I need to stop this train of thought right now! Mulder saw the cashier put the items into a bag as he salivated in spite of his best efforts not to. He watched his partner, who was also toting another bag from a women's clothing store, as she handed the woman her credit card and then checked her watch. Scully made a sort of "panic face" and then looked at the woman ringing up her merchandise with an air of urgency. A little confused, Mulder checked his own watch, and said, "Uh-oh!" It had been an hour and ten minutes since they had separated to look for clothing on their own. He glanced once more to make sure that Scully wasn't looking in his direction, then high-tailed it over to The Men's Shop. He made it there moments before she did, and he utilized those moments by randomly grabbing different items off the racks, not looking at sizes or colors at all. He was frantic because he knew he was out of time and about to be caught red-handed. "Hey!" someone said from behind him, which, because he was already so on edge from his close call, made him jump in alarm and he dropped all of the clothing from his arms all over the floor. "Shit!" he groaned sheepishly, getting a dirty look from a snooty salesman, who walked by, but said nothing and did not attempt to help him. He bent down to start picking up the scattered clothes. "Oh, Mulder, I'm sorry," Scully apologized, kneeling down to help him retrieve the fallen merchandise. "I didn't mean to sneak up on you like that." "Uh... it's all right, Scully," he said, "I guess I was a bit distracted, you know, trying to tell what matched and what didn't." They stood together, each of them holding some of the items he had grabbed a moment earlier. "Well, that's what I'm here for," she replied sweetly. "Let's see what you've picked out so far." Taking advantage of a nearby clothing rack, Mulder and Scully used it to drape his choices over for a better look. "Um, Mulder, this color blue would not go well with this olive green." "Olive?" Mulder asked. "From what I've been told, nothing goes with olive, unless it's Popeye." He tossed it aside, unknowingly getting another dirty look from that salesman. "See, this is why I need you here, Scully, to help me through my... handicap. I'm colorblind, you know." She snickered at him. "Right, you poor dear," and he responded by making a face at her. Then Scully took a good, long look at all of the items he had draped over the rack and could not disguise the amused expression that took over her pretty features. "Are you sure you're not just plain blind, Mulder?" "Huh?" he asked in confusion. "Well, did you even bother trying any of these clothes on?" "Of course, I did," he lied. "Uh-huh... well, looks can be deceiving, of course, but I never would have pegged you as having a size 44 waist." "What the..." Mulder exclaimed. He looked at the size inside of the pants. It was then he began glancing around at the other customers in the store and noticed that they were either all extremely tall or rather big around the middle. "Oh... this is a big and tall men's shop," he murmured. He scrunched his eyes closed as she stared pointedly at him. Busted! Scully smiled knowingly at him. "So, what did you buy, Mulder, during this hour? Anything?" "Um..." and he sheepishly retrieved the cheesy sci- fi flick out of his large coat pocket for a peek, before putting it back. "Yeah, that will look just great on you," she cracked sarcastically, before she let loose with a laugh. "You know, sarcasm does not become you at all, Agent Scully," he informed her haughtily. "It becomes me better than that movie will fit you," she retorted with a wicked grin. "All right, all right," he groaned. "You got me. I guess I just hate clothes shopping, too." He sighed. Wearing a smirk, Scully took his arm and guided him out of the store. "Come on, Mulder." "Where we going? Dinner?" he asked hopefully. "How about Sears? I don't think your video is going to cover much when we go to the airport tomorrow." Mulder relaxed. He was grateful she wasn't pissed off at him, and even more grateful that she was still willing to help him. Because, he really was colorblind, and, he really did hate shopping for clothes. "That's the truth," he agreed with her, leering at her playfully. "Ain't nothing little on me, Scully." "Especially your ego," she deadpanned. "Hey!" They both laughed at his expense on their way to Sears. Scene two: "Poker and the pox" [Rated PG] April 1994 Washington State Bremerton Memorial Hospital 2:32 p.m. Mulder crept into his partner's hospital room. He spied Scully lying in her bed, awake and looking somewhat bored. It made him smile. He also was happy to see that she kept looking better and healthier each day that passed. She certainly wasn't unconscious, nor did she appear to be in pain, as she had earlier in their convalescence. It made his heart swell to know that she was going to be all right. After all, it had been he that had led her willingly into that Washington forest, only to be nearly eaten alive by a swarm of prehistoric insects. God, I hate bugs! Scully noticed her partner standing in the doorway. She caught his attention and smiled at him, happy to see him, glad to have a visitor to help her pass the time away. "Hey, Mulder," she said, doing her best to sit up and greet him properly. Approaching the bed in a few, long strides, Mulder replied, "Hey, yourself, Scully," as he returned the smile, then rested a hand upon her shoulder, so he could gently guide her to lie back down. He worked the controller on the side of the bed so that it raised up and put her in a sitting position with backing. This would be much more comfortable for her. "How are you feeling, partner?" "I'm all right," she promised. "I'm still getting a little tired before evening hits, but I'm steadily improving, and they finally put me on solid foods!" "Hear, hear!" Mulder cheered good-naturedly, in complete comprehension. He had been allowed to eat solid foods since last week. And while hospital food could never really be considered a culinary delight by any means, it certainly beat having to slurp up green Jell-O through a straw every meal. "My doctor says I'm getting my strength back, little by little, more and more each day. What about you, Mulder? How are you feeling?" "Me? Ah, my doctor says that I'm just about back to normal..." He paused and winked at her. "Well, as normal as I can get, anyway. And yay, I can eat that lousy hospital food as well, and I don't have to pee through a catheter anymore!" Scully laughed appreciatively. "Yay!" she echoed the sentiment. "I just got my catheter out this morning!" He smiled at her with genuine affection. Reaching out to touch her cheek, which was still covered in scabs from the bug bites, Mulder said, "Well now, that is something to celebrate, and I've got just the thing to do so in style!" "So, we're having a catherterless pee party?" she joked, her blue eyes twinkling. "And what would that entail? Or, do I even want to know..." Mulder chuckled, his elegant fingers lingering on her cheek a little longer than he needed to. "Well, it's actually much tamer than you might think," he told her. He brought up his other hand to reveal the deck of cards he had asked his orderly to purchase from him in the gift shop earlier. On the back of the cards were pictures of the Washington ferries. "Thought maybe we could pass the time playing cards, although if you want me to go with you into the bathroom when nature calls, I'll be there for you, partner." She rolled her eyes. "Yes, I'm sure you would." "I got your back... side," he teased. "Because you know, in these gowns, it leaves nothing to the imagination." "Oh, I know," she giggled. "I've already embarrassed myself twice this morning in front of my nurse." "Well, we can't have that!" Mulder declared, feigning shock. "That's definitely more for a partner to see." "Eh, that's all right, Mulder," she said. "I think I can manage without your help." "Okay... I guess you can come in with me, then..." "Mulder? Why don't you just deal the cards?" she said, shaking her head at him in amusement and exasperation. "At least we have something to do now besides blankly staring at the television all day, especially considering we're not ready to leave. I look horrible!" He checked her out and smiled. "Sorry, don't see horrible anywhere on you. I mean, your hair is a little messy, but..." "I look like a giant pizza face!" she exclaimed, smacking her smart-ass partner on the arm. He grabbed her rolling table that she ate her meals on, wheeled it over, placing it between them as he sat on the end of the bed. He started dealing the cards. "No, you don't look like a pizza face, Scully," he assured her. "It's more like you've got a bad case of the chicken pox!" He stuck his tongue out at her. "Thanks a lot, Mulder," she groaned playfully. "That's so much better, I'm sure. Besides, it's easy for you to joke about it seeing as how all of your scabs are pretty much gone." "Did you ever get chicken pox as a kid, Scully?" "Of course," she replied. "It's some kind of childhood rite of passage, isn't it? Although they've been working on a vaccine for it for awhile now." "Is it ready yet?" "Don't know. It's a little too late for me, anyway," she chuckled. He smiled. "So, when did you get them, Scully?" he asked, making small talk, as well as learning more about his lovely but enigmatic partner. He loved it when she would open up and tell him little tidbits of her life. "Oh, I was... about eight, if I recall. Ah, I remember all four of us kids got it about the same time! I think it was Charlie, my little brother that actually brought it home. It didn't take long to infect the rest of us." "Your poor mom," he laughed. "Yeah, she still speaks of it as the dark times," Scully told him, picking up the cards he had dealt her. "So, what about you, Mulder? Ever get the pox?" "Unfortunately, yes," he sighed. "Man, it was awful! I got them during my freshman year in high school. Got pretty sick with them, too, and I was covered in the nasty things from head to toe. Felt like a damn leper! And as soon as I scabbed over and was rendered non- contagious, my mom made me go back to school. That was fun..." He cringed at the pain the memory brought back. He had been teased mercilessly for weeks. Scully reached over the table, put a hand over his as he went to reach for his cards. She caressed it and smiled encouragingly at him. "Yeah, high school sure did suck, didn't it?" she said empathetically. He glanced at her in surprise, amused by her choice of words. He smiled. "Yeah, it sure did... big time!" Seeing that his good humor was restored, Scully let go of his hand and gestured to the cards he had dealt them. "So, what are we playing?" "Strip poker," he deadpanned, all the while, unable to disguise the wicked twinkle in his hazel eyes. "In your dreams, Mulder," she smirked, folding her arms across her chest. "Besides, we're in hospital gowns. That game wouldn't last long." "Well, I'm wearing slippers," he said hopefully. "Right..." "I could put a pair of socks on you, to even it up, if you'd like?" he offered generously. "No, thanks." "We could each wrap a blanket around our shoulders and-" "No, Mulder." "Damn," he muttered good-naturedly. "I was hoping you'd still be too weak to protest." "Funny, Mulder." "I thought so," he chuckled. "Well then, how about five card stud since you're not feeling so... adventurous?" He waggled his eyebrows at her and she laughed. He loved her laugh. "You know," she told him, smirking shamelessly, "I've heard the kind of card game a person chooses is in direct correlation to how they perceive themselves." "And just where did you hear that?" he challenged. "Sorry, I cannot reveal my source," she teased him. "So, that means I'm a stud, huh? To the fifth power?" "No, that means you believe yourself to be a stud... to the fifth power," she reiterated. "What's yours then, Scully? I can't think of any game with the words 'smart ass' in the title. Oh, I got it! Crazy Eight's!" He was joking with her openly and subtly flirting with her. He hated where they were and that she had been injured, but he had to admit, this was pretty fun. "No, that sounds more up your alley, too, Mulder," she teased. "My favorite card game has always been War!" "Feisty, Scully, feisty," he chuckled. "Well, we can play War next, but first I'm going to kick your butt at poker." She raised her eyebrow at him. "We can play poker, Mulder, but if there's going to be any butt kicking to be had, it'll be your own ass that's sore." "So confident, are you?" he challenged. "My dad taught all of us kids in the art of how to play poker. I've been beating people since I was a small child." "Bring it on, G-woman!" "Oh, I will, believe me, G-man!" * * * Mulder returned to his own hospital room at nightfall. He and Scully had hung out the entire afternoon together. They had played cards for hours, then watched some CNN while they had dinner. Their meal had been some sort of unrecognizable meat dish with some lumpy potatoes and stringy green beans and apple juice. It was awful, and they both laughed about it while they sat there and ate it. Still, the company was wonderful. He only left her room when it became obvious that she was getting extremely sleepy and couldn't keep her eyes open. Seeing as she had lost a lot more fluids than he had during the insect attack, she was taking longer than he to recover fully. He had moved her tray out of the way, leaving the deck of cards in her room for tomorrow. Then he had tucked her in, pulling the covers up to her shoulders and brushed a lock of red hair out of her sleepy eyes, before tip-toeing out and turning off her light. She looked to be sleeping peacefully then, and he smiled at her affectionately, then whispered, "Good night, Scully." To his surprise, she mumbled, "'Night, Muller..." slurring his name most adorably, before starting to snore softly. Grabbing hold of the back of his gown to keep it closed, Mulder walked down the hall to his room, marveling over the fact that Scully had beaten him twice as often at every single card game they played. He realized now that it was a good thing they hadn't played strip poker, or he wouldn't even have that flimsy gown to cover his unmentionables as he shuffled down the hall to his own room. He was already planning a fail-proof strategy of his re-match with his lovely partner though. He was going to cheat! Scene three: "The ugliest sweater in the history of ugly sweaters" [Rated PG] December 1994 Baltimore, MD Margaret Scully residence 3:48 p.m. The front door opened. Fox Mulder stared expectantly at the woman standing before him. "Hi, Mrs. Scully," Mulder said in a charming, albeit nervous, tone. "Is Scul- eh, Dana, I mean... how is she doing today?" Margaret Scully smiled warmly at the young man standing at her threshold. "Hello, Fox. Why don't you come in and see for yourself?" She moved to one side to allow him passage. "Thanks," he said, moving nimbly passed her into the house. He glanced around, looking a little unnerved. Mrs. Scully wasn't sure why he seemed to feel so out of place here. During her daughter's absence he was over nearly every Sunday for dinner, to discuss the progress of Dana's case with her, and to spend time with someone who loved and missed the woman as much as he did. He had also been by his partner's side the entire three weeks she had spent in the hospital after being returned. And now, just the day after her release from the hospital, here he was again, longing to see her, to know she was all right. It made the woman smile. It was easy to see that Fox loved her daughter and he was a true friend. Perhaps something might come of it one day... "Long time, no see," she joked, after having seen him only the day before while Dana was being discharged into her care. "Oh, yeah, sorry," he apologized, hoping beyond hope that he hadn't worn out his welcome, always barging into their family affairs when it came to Scully. But he couldn't stay away. He needed to see her everyday. He needed to know that she was really okay; that she was truly real, truly back with him. Maggie offered him another smile, trying to put him at ease. He had been a great comfort to her while Dana had been missing, and later to her older daughter, Melissa, when Dana had turned up, comatose, in the hospital. She had seen his devotion to her youngest daughter quite plainly. "No need to be sorry, Fox. We're glad you're here. Dana is in the living room right now." "How is she feeling?" he asked, reaching out a tentative hand to touch Mrs. Scully's arm. In spite of her rapid and somewhat miraculous recovery during her time spent in the hospital, Mulder was still concerned for his partner's health. Realizing he was being so familiar with the older woman, he immediately let go, feeling somewhat embarrassed. "She's doing very well, Fox," Margaret assured him, patting his hand, "although she's already bored out of her skull after only one day! Goodness! Dana has never been one who likes to remain idle." "Yeah, I can see that," Mulder said with a soft smile upon his luscious lips, recalling Scully's hard work and tenacity on every case they had ever worked on together. She had energy and determination in spades. Having to rest on her laurels must be maddening to a person like her. In some ways, she was a lot like him. "Well, go on in, Fox," Maggie urged. "I was just about to get Dana some iced tea. Would you care for a glass, too?" "Sure, thank you, if it's not too much trouble." "It's no trouble at all." With another friendly smile, Maggie headed off for the kitchen, leaving Mulder alone in the foyer. He turned the opposite way and made a beeline for the living room where his beloved partner awaited him. He wasn't sure what he was expecting to find her doing in there. Perhaps she would be watching CNN, catching up on all the news she had missed out on for so long. Or maybe she was reading a medical journal. She had them scattered all over their X-Files office, and he recalled seeing some at her house, as well. Or maybe she was putting together one of those ridiculously hard 10,000 piece puzzles, with some tasteful picture on it, like a vase of flowers or an English countryside. What he did find her doing was something he had not expected at all, and it made him laugh out loud the moment he saw her. "What the hell?" he exclaimed, startling her and she looked up. "Mulder!" she said, her face lighting up at the sight of him. Even through his laughter, he noted how happy she was to see him. But then her eyes narrowed. "Hey, what's so funny?" "Oh, Scully," he chuckled, "out of all the things I've seen working on the X-Files, this has got to be even stranger." He sat down next to her on the sofa, so close that their bodies were touching. She didn't seem to mind him invading her space in the slightest, although she scowled at him for making fun of her. "A lot of people do this, Mulder," she informed him, setting down the implements in her hand on the coffee table in front of them. "I'm sure it's way less shocking than finding, say... a liver eating mutant, like Tooms." "Okay," he laughed. "I'll give you that, but seriously... Dana Scully, knitting? It boggles the mind!" "Shut up, Mulder," she chided. "It's not as if there's a ton of stuff I can do right now. Hell, my mom doesn't even have cable!" Mulder's eyes grew wide. "No cable? Now, that is more shocking than finding a liver-eating mutant! Who in this day and age doesn't have cable? She doesn't even get the Playboy Channel?" Scully rolled her eyes. "Mulder..." "What? I thought that was a TV viewing staple in every American household." "Only in your perverted, little mind." "What about the Playgirl Channel, then?" he cracked. "Mulder, this is my mom we're talking about." "Ah, point taken," he agreed. "Damn, you're going to go insane here over the next two weeks, aren't you?" "I don't plan on staying here that long," she informed him, examining her fingernails and deciding that she needed to file them soon. "Scully," Mulder said in a warning tone, looking into her still pale face, "you heard what the doctor said. Two more weeks of at-home bed rest before you even attempt to start doing anything." She rolled her eyes at him. "Jesus, Mulder! You actually sound worse than my mother." "Well..." "Don't worry, I'll stay here for at least a week, just to humor Mom. And I do plan on resting when I get home, too, it's just... I want to be around all my stuff again. I want to sleep in my own bed, and eat food from my own fridge... watch cable on my own television. I just want to be... home, you know?" "Yeah, I know," he stated sympathetically, understanding exactly what she had meant. He put his arm around her shoulder, contemplating her reasons. She had been missing for around two months, being kept away God-knows-where. Then she had been mysteriously returned to the hospital in the middle of the night and had to spend a month there, too. She hadn't been "home" in so, so long. "I completely understand, Scully, I really do. I'd probably feel the same way." She rested her head against his shoulder. "Thanks, Mulder." "Of course, I'll be coming over to your apartment a lot while you're convalescing, to make sure you're not doing anything you shouldn't be," he added pointedly. "Like what?" she asked, lifting her head from his shoulder and glaring at him. "Oh, I don't know... like cleaning out your closets or defrosting your freezer or re-grouting your shower or moving the furniture around..." He felt her shaking against him and looked down to see her quietly laughing. "Oh, yes, because those are things I was so itching to do!" "I never know with you, Scully," he chuckled, her laughter a melodious and contagious thing. "You're anal like that." "Anal?" she protested good-naturedly. "I am not anal, Mulder!" "Yes, you are!" he taunted her. "I bet your middle name originally was anal. Yeah, Dana Anal Scully, M.D." He was rewarded with a hard smack on the arm. "Ouch!" "Play nice, kids, or do I have to put you in separate corners?" Maggie called from the entryway, carrying a tray with a pitcher of iced-tea, two long, thin tumblers filled with ice, a sugar shaker and a small bowl filled with lemon slices. She set it down on the coffee table in front of them, and Mulder marveled, yet again, at the great care Mrs. Scully took in treating anyone who ventured into her home. She was a kind soul, immediately realizing that this was probably where his partner had learned such kindness and compassion. The thought made him smile. "Thanks, Mom," Scully said, feeling a little more than embarrassed having her mother come in and see her acting so childishly with her partner. Then there was the fact that they were practically sitting on top of each other on the sofa. She thought of moving slightly away, but realized that would only cause more attention to their positions. "Thanks, Mrs. Scully," Mulder added with a boyish grin that melted the hearts of both women present, although he was completely oblivious to his charms. He himself did not seem embarrassed in the slightest to be caught sitting on the couch smack dab next to his lovely partner, his arm draped casually around her shoulder; not even by said partner's mother. "You're welcome, both of you," Maggie responded pleasantly. She walked over to the desk and retrieved her purse. "You going somewhere, Mom?" Scully asked. "Yeah, I need to get some stuff in for dinner. Fox, you'll be joining us, I hope?" He seemed hesitant. Although he really wanted to, he was forever afraid of wearing out his welcome. He never wanted Scully- or her mom, for that matter- to get tired of him hanging around all the time. "Um, I don't want to impose..." Scully squeezed his arm. She said nothing, but he could see the question in her eyes. "Stay?" "It's no inconvenience, Fox," Mrs. Scully added. "Well, okay, thank you, Mrs. Scully, I'd love to," Mulder answered. He was rewarded with two radiant smiles from the women in the room. He suddenly felt like the most loved person on the planet, a rare feeling for him. "And Mom, it's Mulder, not Fox," Dana told her mother. "Nonsense," Margaret Scully scolded her daughter. "His given name is Fox, and that is what I shall call him." Scully rolled her eyes while Mulder chuckled quietly. He really didn't mind, even as much as he hated his name. When Mrs. Scully called him that, he got a warm, fuzzy feeling. The woman was just a nurturer by nature and he didn't mind her mothering. "It's okay, Scully," Mulder whispered, smiling at her. She smiled back. "All right, then," Maggie said, "dinner for three it is." She tried to recall all of the dishes she had already made for the young man currently sitting so close to her daughter on the couch during all of those Sunday dinners he had stayed for while Dana had been missing. She wanted to come up with something different for him to try. "Do you like lasagna, Fox?" she asked brightly. Mulder patted his stomach. "Love it, Mrs. Scully." "Well, that's too damn bad, because we're having meatloaf!" Scully cracked, causing Mulder to laugh and her mother to smile indulgently at her. The woman was just so grateful to have her cherished baby girl back safe and sound that she could have said they were eating dog food and she wouldn't have cared. "Very amusing, Dana," she playfully scolded her daughter. "So, lasagna it is. Fox, you'll keep an eye on my daughter while she's gone? She can be such a handful, you know." "Mom!" Scully groaned in embarrassment. What the hell has gotten into my mother today? "Oh, don't I know it," Mulder amicably agreed mischievously. He received a dirty look from Scully, but this was well worth it. "What's the going rate for babysitting unruly partners now a days?" It wasn't his best joke, not by a long shot, and he was sure he was going to catch flak from that same unruly partner the minute her mother left, but Mrs. Scully certainly seemed to enjoy his humor. She demonstrated by laughing loudly for several seconds, surprising him, and Scully as well, apparently, as she watched her mother with a stunned, open-mouthed expression. Scully leaned in close to Mulder's ear as her mother was wiping mirthful tears from her eyes and fishing her keys out of her purse, and whispered, "I am so going to get you for that, Mulder." "Looking forward to it," he whispered back, then winked at her. They said goodbye to Maggie, who looked upon them both with affection, then she left for the grocery store. Just as Mulder predicted, the minute they heard the front door shut, he was accosted in the face by a small pillow from the sofa. "What the..." he protested, yanking the pillow out of his partner's grasp. "Watch it, Scully!" He raised the pillow, preparing to strike. She cowered against the action and called out, "Mulder, no! I'm an invalid!" Mulder couldn't help it. He dropped the pillow and chuckled. "Damn, Scully, I gotta hand it you- you're good!" "Yes, I am," she exclaimed. "I will get you back when you're all better though," he promised, grinning like a fox. "You do realize that." "Whatever, Mulder. You'll forget." "Uh-uh. Got a photographic memory, remember? I don't forget anything!" Scully smirked and folded her arms across her chest, looking like a true smart-ass. "Yeah, right, Mulder, sure you do. So, tell me, what's my badge number? I know you've seen it." "Uh..." he grunted, drawing a complete blank. "And when is my birthday?" "Well, you know, it's in that month..." "Mmm-hmm," she said, then closed her eyes, going in for the kill. "And what color are my eyes, Mulder?" He took her chin in his hand and replied, "A very pretty blue." Scully opened her eyes, found that he was staring at her, and she averted them, her skin flushing a pleasant pink. Mulder let go of her chin and turned away from her. "So, invalid, what color are my eyes?" "Hazel," she murmured softly, without hesitation. Her voice held a dreamlike quality. He smiled, feeling equally dreamy over the tone of her voice. Then he said, "Wait a second! My eyes aren't hazel! They're green!" He seemed disappointed that she hadn't known. "No, they're hazel," she insisted. He scoffed. "I think I'd know what color my own eyes are!" "Yeah, you'd think, but obviously you don't!" "They're green," he informed her with a huff. "They are hazel!" she retorted. "And what the hell are we having this argument for anyway? Aren't you red/green colorblind?" "Well, my grandma used to say that I had the prettiest green eyes with little flecks of gold and brown," he told her haughtily. Scully tried- unsuccessfully- to hold in a giggle. "Yeah, Mulder, that's called hazel!" "But I thought that hazel was brown eyes with a touch of green..." "Or green eyes with a touch of brown," she snickered. "Really?" he asked playfully and now she wondered if he really hadn't known, or if he'd merely been teasing her the entire time. "Really." "Huh... so... you've looked into my eyes long enough to see the touch of brown?" He smiled flirtatiously at her. Scully pretended to look annoyed. "Please! It's pretty easy to see, even from here!" "Well, you are sitting awfully close, Scully. Jeez, are you trying to get in my lap?" She smacked him in right in the face with another pillow. "Dammit!" "You're the one who came in and practically sat down on top of me!" she grumbled. "Oh, so you would rather sit in my lap," he remarked, his hazel eyes looking completely green now. He patted his leg. "C'mere, partner. It's all yours." She looked away in embarrassment, not only over his innuendo, but because she was acutely aware that she had recently put on quite a bit of weight. If she had to be honest with herself, her weight gain had begun well before her abduction. She reasoned it had started during a stressful time in her life, when she and Mulder had been taken off of the X-Files and separated some months earlier. It had been a dark time for her, with few bright spots. It was during this separation that Scully realized just how strong her attachment- as well as her attraction, if she had to be honest- actually was for Mulder. Coming back after two months, two lost months, where she remembered nothing, her body was even heavier than before. She'd even had to send her mother to the store before her release to buy her some new clothes and a bra, much to her humiliation. 42-D. She was now a 42-D! She used to be a modest, but perfectly lovely 34-B! And she had been more than content with that. She had never been one of those women who longed for a bigger bust size, let alone one that rivaled Dolly Parton's! Mulder noticed the silence and dark mood creeping up on his partner. His arm went around her shoulder again. "Scully?" he asked in concern. "Are you all right?" "I'm much too big to be sitting on anyone's lap," she murmured with a faraway look and she reached out to pick up her knitting needles and the shapeless thing she had been working on for a day. Her intuitive partner seemed to know exactly what she was referring to. He rubbed her shoulder as he watched her begin to knit with almost furious intensity. It was true, she had put on a little weight, but she carried it well. He also knew that she had put on even more weight during her absence away from him. She still carried it well! Plus, her boobs were humongous! As a red-blooded, American male, Mulder could find no complaint with that. Besides, she was still Scully, his beautiful, loyal and lovable partner. Now there was just a little more of her to love. He knew if he said that to her, she would probably kick his ass, then kick him out the door. He didn't say that. Instead, he told her, "You're still hot stuff, you know," offering her a tender smile. "Mulder..." "And I have it on good authority that you've still got the Melvin Frohike seal of approval!" She rolled her eyes, still not able to look at him. "Yay!" she muttered sarcastically, and Mulder chuckled. Feeling it best to change the subject, and hoping that he had made his message clear- that she was still the most beautiful FBI agent in a skirt since J. Edgar Hoover, which was Mulder speak for "you're pretty"- he said, "So, what are you..." and he paused to snicker, "knitting?" "A sweater for you," she retorted, some of her good humor restored. Mulder noticed the yarn she was using was a light coral color. "I don't know, Scully. I'm really more of an 'autumn', don't you think?" His heart swelled with pride when he saw the grin that she couldn't hide break out over her lovely face. "What?" she asked, her tone mocking. "You mean you wouldn't wear it?" She feigned shock. "Of course, I would, Scully," he assured her. "Whenever you came over to my place, I'd gladly wear it... until the second you left!" The grin evolved into full-blown laughter, a sound that was music to his ears. His partner had been put through hell, and all because of him, because of his quest. He couldn't give her back those missing months. He couldn't even hope to make it up to her. But if he could make her laugh- make her happy- even if only for a little while, then maybe that would ease her pain, as well as his guilt. "Mulder," she said, breaking him out of his reverie. "Have you ever knitted anything?" "Of course," he replied flippantly. "What else do you think I do when I'm watching all those videos that aren't mine?" She laughed even harder at that. "Right. Of course! So... you want to give it a try?" Now it was his turn to laugh. "Me? Spooky Mulder knitting? Get real, Scully!" * * * Margaret Scully came home with two full bags of groceries about forty-five minutes later. She walked through the foyer and did a double take when she glanced into the living room. "No, Mulder, you're looping it wrong!" "No, I'm not! I'm doing it just like you showed me!" "You know, for someone with a photographic memory, it sure is selective." "Bite me, Scully! I'm doing it right!" Scully groaned. "This is going to be the ugliest sweater in the history of ugly sweaters." "So," Mulder suggested, "make it a scarf then." Maggie watched as her daughter rolled her eyes at her partner. But she saw the sparkle glittering in those same eyes, too. She noticed the two of them were still sitting so closely together, their bodies were touching. It warmed Maggie's heart. Dana had never been one to let people get close to her. Even as a child, she had been so reserved. She was seeing a different side to her daughter by watching her interact with her partner. Hopefully, his closeness and friendship would help her to heal faster. And maybe, Fox would be the one to draw Dana out of her shell completely. She couldn't think of a better candidate for the challenge. Quietly, so as not to disturb the occupants of the living room, Margaret Scully hurried past them and into the kitchen, preparing to make them a culinary delight that had them begging for more! Scene four: "Dana's Delectables" [Rated PG-13] May 1995 Georgetown, Dana Scully residence 7:52 p.m. "Come on in, Mulder," Scully said by way of greeting upon opening her door and finding her partner standing there. He was holding a file in his hand and wearing a sheepish grin on his face. "Sorry for the no notice, Scully," he said, walking in and setting the file down on her coffee table. As soon as he had entered her building, he had detected the heavenly aroma of freshly baking cookies. Once inside his partner's abode, he realized the heavenly scent was coming from her own apartment. He inhaled deeply, sighing in content. "That's all right, Mulder," she was saying. "I mean, getting this report turned in on time tomorrow is a must." Mulder took a good long glance at Scully, who looked as delicious as her kitchen currently smelled. Her beautiful face was dusted with flour, most likely a fact she wasn't aware of, because he knew her well enough to know she would never have answered the door like that if she had known, not even for him. She was wearing a pair of jeans that hugged her figure in all the right places, and a form fitting knit top that did more of the same. Over her clothing, she sported an apron that read KISS THE COOK on the front of it. He smiled. If only I could, Scully, if only... But God, what a wonderful smell! "Scully," he sighed in a twitterpated tone, staring sweetly at her. She seemed to know exactly what he wanted merely by the inflection in his tone. "Forget it, Mulder. You're not getting my cookies!" Mulder smiled wolfishly at her unintentional innuendo. "Oh, but Scully, you've got the best cookies around. I love your cookies." "Shut up, Mulder. You know what I mean." "Do you know what I mean?" he countered. "Just..." and she paused, momentarily flustered, "... shut up, Mulder." She turned on her heel and ventured into the kitchen area. Without missing a beat, Mulder followed, forgetting all about the file he'd left on her coffee table. The closer he got to that warm oven, the more heavenly that aroma became. "Day-um, Scully, it smells like a bakery in here." He took another long whiff, closing his eyes and relishing the smell. "Yeah, I guess it does," she said absently, putting on an oven mitt and taking a hot cooking sheet from the oven. It held steaming chocolate chip cookies on it. She quickly put another sheet into the oven, this one covered with raw sugar cookies. "You moonlighting or something?" he asked, spying a bowl of raw cookie dough on the counter, and reaching in a finger to scoop some out. "Scully's Bakery?" She swatted his hand away with the mitt, before removing it from her hand. "Nah, that's too boring. How about... Scully's Sweet Shop?" "Too corny," he disagreed. "Oh, I've got it! Dana's Delectables!" Mulder said with a leer, then scooped out a finger full of dough from the bowl and popped it into his mouth before she could do anything about it. "Dammit, Mulder! I've measured everything precisely to make six dozen cookies for Saturday's church bake sale!" "Yum! Now, that's one aspect of organized religion I can subscribe to." Scully rolled her eyes. "Mulder, why don't you get started with the report in the living room and I'll join you shortly," she said, carefully taking the hot chocolate chip cookies from the sheet and setting them on a tea towel to cool. "You have a little bit of flour on your face," he told her sweetly, making no move to leave the kitchen area, and in fact, had only gotten closer, invading her personal space. "Where?" "Right here," he said, touching the tip of her nose with his finger. "And right here," he said, wiping at her chin. "And right here," he went on, smoothing over her cheek. Trying to hide the arousal and embarrassment over his close proximity and his touch, Scully instead concentrated on the irritation she felt over obviously looking so foolish. "Jeez! Am I covered in the stuff?" "Don't sweat it, Scully. Cute look for you." "Right. I'm sure I resemble Casper the Friendly Ghost. How alluring." Mulder's eyes glittered. "Well, I for one have never been interested in Casper's cookies, like I am in yours." Scully averted her gaze. "Just... go sit down, Mulder, and I'll be right over." "How long is 'right over'?" he demanded to know. She sighed. "Within ten minutes," she promised. "Now, shoo!" and she gently shoved him out of the kitchen area. He muttered to himself. He'd at least been hoping to snag a cookie or two. He resigned to sitting down on his partner's sofa and opened up the case file, immersing himself and trying to ignore all the kitchenly sounds Scully was making merely ten feet away. This had been a terrible case. Scully had literally almost lost her head to a bunch of small-town, chicken- harvesting cannibals. He had found her, buckled into a contraption that kept her arms from moving and her head in easy striking range for someone with a steady hand and an axe. He had made it in the nick of time to stop them from killing her. The fuckers were actually about to behead her! He loved her head- loved it a lot, along with the rest of her fine self. And, he liked for it to stay right where it belonged, on her beautiful shoulders. He heard Scully stirring something, her arm moving with feverish efficiency. He tried, again, to ignore it, as well as the sweet smell of fresh cookies. It wasn't easy, but then his mind drifted back to their work. So many times he had almost lost her in different, but equally strange scenarios... too many times, if you asked him. He sighed again, and began writing up the report in earnest. After what was more like twenty minutes, instead of the promised ten, Scully returned to him on the sofa, holding a tray that carried a large plate of cookies- chocolate chip, sugar and oatmeal raisin- and two tall glasses of milk. She set it down on the coffee table in front of them and smiled as Mulder's eyes lit up like a child's at Christmas. "Is this for me?" he asked, his tone filled with delight. "It's for us," she corrected him. "I might want a couple, too." She picked up the plate filled with cookie-goodness and held it before his face. "What's your pleasure, Agent Mulder?" Resisting the urge to say, "Why, you are, Agent Scully," he instead reached for and snagged an oatmeal cookie. "All of it is my pleasure," he told her, unable to hide the slight smoldering in his eyes as he shoved a cookie into his mouth. Scully smiled, blushing over his double entendre and watched him chow down on her offering. "Well?" she asked expectantly. "Oh, 'cully," he mumbled over a mouthful of food, "stit's 'ood! Burr da 'est art-er eva!" "Huh?" He made an effort to swallow. "I said, 'oh, Scully, it's good! You're the best partner ever'!" Scully blushed harder over his compliment. "Thanks, Mulder. Glad you like them. Uh, you're not so bad yourself, though..." "Eh," he dismissed her, "I can't make cookies like this." He snagged another one, this time a chocolate chip, and shoved the whole thing into his mouth, groaning over it in ecstasy. "Careful, Mulder," she warned him. "They might still be hot." "I don't care," he said after swallowing and reaching for yet another cookie. "Damn, these are delicious!" "Don't make yourself sick, Mulder." "Eating too many cookies has got to be one of the best ways to make myself sick. I'm not backing down, Scully. I don't get homemade cookies very often, you know." "Such sound reasoning," she joked, shaking her head with indulgent affection. He paused to watch as she reached for a cookie from the plate. She didn't just grab and go, but studied the cookies on the top, searching for just the right one. It was as adorable to him as it was nerve-wracking. Finally, she seemed to set her sights on a sugar cookie down near the edge of the plate. She picked it up, put it tentatively to her lips, to make sure it wasn't too hot, then took a small bite. He saw her eyes close, a look of pure bliss appearing on her face. It was a breathtaking sight to behold, and he gazed lovingly upon her, until she opened her eyes again and glanced his way, as if suddenly afraid for momentarily letting her emotional guard down. He quickly grabbed up the milk glasses and presented one of them to her. "Hmm," she said, realizing that he had been watching her with an appreciative eye, embarrassed over the fact, "Dana's Delectables. It does have a nice ring to it." She tipped her glass in his direction, and he got her meaning, clinking his against it. "Hear, hear, to Dana's Delectables," he agreed. "Cheers!" "Cheers," she replied, then they both sipped the cold milk. "So," he said, wiping away his milk mustache, much to Scully's amusement, "you planning on leaving the FBI and starting up a bakery?" "Maybe," she teased. "But only if you joined me." "Oh, you know I'd follow you anywhere, Scully," he told her, winking at her playfully. "How do you think I'd look in a baker's uniform?" Scully chuckled. "Um, no offense, Mulder, but you would be nowhere near the kitchen in my bakery." He huffed at her. "Are you insinuating that I can't cook, Agent Scully?" Still giggling, she replied, "No, I wasn't insinuating, Mulder." "Oh." "I was merely trying to say that you couldn't bake your way out of a paper bag!" Mulder blew raspberries at her, grateful that she wanted to play. They so rarely got the chance to joke around like this. "You wound me, Scully! Besides, who would want to cook in a paper bag, anyway?" He popped another cookie into his mouth. She was amazed, it almost looked as if he had swallowed it whole. She honestly hadn't seen him do any chewing at all. "Well, what job would you relegate me to, then, Master Chef? Hmm, I suppose I could always be your personal masseuse..." He waggled his eyebrows at her. Scully expelled a breath, trying to keep her blushing in check and failing miserably. Her partner certainly was in top form tonight, flinging innuendoes at her left and right. It was getting harder and harder for her to come up with clever retorts. But thankfully, she still had one in her to spare. "No, I was more thinking along the lines of sweeping, doing the dishes and helping out behind the counter." "You might want to just leave it at sweeping and doing the dishes, Scully. Can you really see me in customer service? I'd do more harm than good, I'm sure." "Yeah, you've got a point," she agreed mischievously. "You can just take out the trash, then." "Thanks a lot," he grumbled good-naturedly, before recalling what she had told him before when he'd been trying to steal some cookie dough awhile earlier. "Hey, I though you had everything measured out to make six dozen cookies exactly!" She shrugged. "I made some more dough for another dozen, so we could have a treat. That's what took me so long." "Aw, thanks, Scully," he said, genuinely touched. He affectionately squeezed her arm. "Well," she told him in a jokingly seductive tone, "I know how much you love my cookies." Mulder was momentarily taken aback. Scully was being flirty... or joking around... or flirtatiously joking around. Whatever the case, she didn't do it too often, so this was indeed a night of rare treats for Mulder- the company, the cookies and the flirting. All of it was quite yummy! "I certainly do," he agreed, grabbing up another chocolate chip cookie and popping it into this mouth. Scully smiled affectionately at him. "Well, cookie- man, let's say we get this report written." "I've already written it, Scully. You want to read it over? See if I missed anything?" "More like check for misspelled words," she teased, picking up the file folder and reaching for her reading glasses from the end table. That was another treat for Mulder. He thought she looked very sexy in her reading glasses. Little did he know that she felt the same about him in his... He picked up the plate of diminishing cookies- mostly from his efforts- and started chowing down on the rest of them, while Scully continued to read over his hastily written report. Coming to the last cookie on the plate, another delectable looking sugar cookie, Mulder was about to grab it up, but stopped himself in time. He instead presented it to his pretty partner seated beside him on the sofa. "Sugar cookie, sugar?" he asked seductively. Scully chuckled, took the proffered morsel from him, then broke it in half. She ate one half of it, then playfully shoved the other half into Mulder's mouth, her beautiful lips covered in cookie crumbs and a devious smile. Oh, how he wanted to wipe those crumbs off for her... with his tongue, but her own tongue beat him to it, and he saw it dart out and wipe away the excess cookie. He had to stifle a moan. "Thanks, Scully," he pretended to choke. He swallowed the bite, then finished his milk in one, big gulp. He gestured to Scully's half full glass. "You gonna finish that?" "Ew..." she said. "And no, I guess not." She handed her glass to him. "Ew?" he asked, pausing with her glass at his lips. "What's going on? Do you backwash, or something?" "No! It's just... the idea of... sharing..." "A drink?" he asked in confusion. They had taken sips of each other's drinks before, usually soda, while on the road. He'd found it endearing. But all of a sudden she didn't want to swap germs? "Oh, no, no. Just milk specifically. I'm not sure why... Actually, I think it's from watching my brother Bill snort it out of his nose and into Charlie's glass once when he wasn't looking, when we were kids." "That's disgusting!" Mulder agreed. "Did he drink it?" "He... started to, but I finked on Bill. I think he yanked on my braid really hard for ratting him out, but I couldn't let him do that to my poor baby brother." "Well... you didn't snort anything out of your nose, did you?" he asked hopefully. She laughed. "Of course not." "Then, I'll take my chances," he snickered, muttering under his breath, "this coming from a woman who performs autopsies..." With that, he downed the remainder of her milk with great flourish. He glanced over at his partner, who was currently mesmerized at watching his lips purse against the glass. "So?" he asked. "You gonna hurl now, or what?" Her expression changed to amusement. "Nah. I guess it's not so bad... when one refrains from snorting it out of one's nose." "That's right," he said. "So, then you surely wouldn't mind if I ever take a big swig out of the carton, right?" "Don't you dare!" she warned him, then noticed the teasing look in his eyes. "Very funny, Mulder." "I am, thanks for noticing. How'd the report read? Everything all right?" "Yes, and I couldn't even find any grammatical errors," she teased him. "Although I noticed that you downplayed how you literally rushed in and saved my ass, just in the nick of time." "Actually, it was your head I saved," he corrected her, reaching over to tuck a strand of her titian hair back behind her ear, "not that your ass isn't worth saving, too." She looked away because she knew she wouldn't be able to hide the blush- or the smile- his statement, or his touch, had put upon her face. After they finished discussing the report, Scully surprised Mulder by giving him a sandwich bag with a few more cookies in it. She made him promise to save them for tomorrow, which he did. Then he gave her a loving look, said good night, and ate all of the cookies on the way out to his car... Scene five: "Monsters, Denny's and Gas-x" [Rated PG] November 1995 Just outside of Cleveland, OH Denny's Restaurant 6:38 p.m. The hostess led Mulder and Scully to their table, which was a booth in the corner, away from the hoards of loud families and rowdy teens looking for a way to blow off some steam. It had been Scully who had requested the seclusion, and Mulder had given her a lascivious wink when she'd done so, although he knew she'd only asked for a quiet corner so they could discuss the case and get their report written. But a guy could dream, couldn't he? Now he was quite grateful for his partner's foresight, as the hostess seated them at a booth far away from anyone else, where it was relatively quiet and they would have privacy to talk over their report... or other things. Each of them slid into a seat facing each other at the booth table. The hostess left them with some menus and a promise that their waiter would be over shortly to take their orders. Mulder, who had been driving the better part of two hours, stretched out his long legs beneath the table, putting them on either side of Scully's. He groaned in satisfaction at releasing some of the tension to his underused muscles. "Mulder, don't trap my legs," Scully complained, feeling tired and grumpy after this difficult case. She gave one of his feet a gentle but insistent nudge with one of her own. "Ooh, Scully, you want to play footsie with me?" he leered at her, feeling in a flirtatious mood for some reason. It wasn't hard to feel such a way when one's partner was as beautiful and lovable as Special Agent Dana Scully... who seemed to be in a mood that was the opposite of flirtatious. She gave him the look, her eyebrow raised high above her lovely eye. Mulder took this as his cue to sit up straight and he mumbled, "Sorry, Scully," with a guilty-little-boy expression. They checked out their menus in silence, each debating over what to order as their last meal before hitting the road again. A moment later, their waiter, a young man named Christopher, appeared and he cheerfully jotted down their selections. He also brought them two glasses filled with iced tea and, upon Scully's request, he left the pitcher at the table so they could get their own refills as needed. Then he smiled at them and hurried off to place their orders in to the kitchen. "Jeez, Scully, are you thirsty?" Mulder cracked. "Or you just don't want to have to give Chris a big tip?" She rolled her eyes at him. "Mulder, I just want us to be left alone and have some privacy." Again, the playful flirt emerged. He couldn't help it, especially when she unwittingly set up the perfect segue way to his innuendoes. Whether she did so purposely or not, he was never sure, but that didn't stop him from plowing right in. "Oh, Scully. What do you have in mind, hot partner?" Unable to suppress it, Scully smiled at his silly but flattering compliment. "I'd like to be able to get our report written during dinner- hot partner." Her return of the compliment made Mulder smile until his face ached... then he realized, "Scully, you want to discuss a fat-sucking mutant over dinner at this fine restaurant?" "Please, Mulder," she sighed, "that's why I requested a secluded table, so as not to disturb anyone else with our... discussion. And 'fine restaurant'? We're at Denny's!" He shrugged. "Better than most of the dives and fast food chains we frequent on the road," he pointed out and she had to agree. "You got the file?" he asked, blowing out a breath of frustration. "What's wrong?" she asked. "Do you not want to get this report finished? It's due tomorrow morning, you know." "Yeah, I know," he grumbled. "I just thought that... maybe... we should... talk about things first... about the case, I mean." Scully visibly blanched in spite of her best efforts not to. "Why?" she asked, point blank. It was true, her time spent with Mr. Incanto had affected her on so many levels. "Because I know it upset you," he replied, just as pointedly. He tried to keep his voice neutral and free of the irritation that was swimming just beneath the surface of his calm facade. He hated it when Scully hid her feelings from him. They were partners. She was also his best friend. He wasn't sure if she considered him to be her best friend or not, but he liked to think of them as close- closer than he'd ever gotten with any other partner or co- worker, and that included Diana Fowley, whom he used to date. "Mulder, I'm fine," she said and he groaned out loud, startling her and surprising them both with his inability to hide his agitation over her need to hold back. Before he could come up with a suitable retort, Chris, their waiter, returned with their meals. Scully had gone the sensible route and ordered a large salad, while Mulder went gung ho and ordered the biggest, greasiest burger they had on the menu, with a large side order of french fries. "Mmm, mmm good," Mulder said, and took a big bite out of his burger. He offered her a bite, shoving the greasy meat-on-a-bun into her face. "Have some, Scully. It's delicious!" "No, thanks," she said, resting her hand over his and gently pushing the burger back his way. "I've got a nice salad to sustain me." "Salad, bah!" Mulder dismissed her, making a face. "I don't see how that can sustain even a rabbit, much less a human being, even if you are shor- eh, vertically challenged." "I am not vertically challenged!" she announced in a haughty tone, but he knew she wasn't really angry by his ribbing. Even she could not deny the simple fact that she was five foot two. "I know," he said, deciding not to take his joke any further. She'd had a hard time with this case. It wouldn't be nice teasing her about her diminutive frame. "You're just right, Scully." He offered her a sweet smile and a meaningful look, something he had been unable to stop himself from doing with her lately. Scully's blush hit her before she could look away. She averted her eyes momentarily and Mulder had to wonder why she got so embarrassed by compliments. Was it because she couldn't handle them, or because she couldn't handle them coming from him? Again, he went the compassionate route and spared her any further embarrassment over the subject by changing it. Of course, what he wanted to discuss with her would very likely piss her off as well, but it was an issue he felt needed to be addressed. "Scully, about this case..." "Mulder, I said I'm fi-" "Don't," he interrupted her, again barely holding his irritation in check. "What?" "Dammit, Scully," he went on, and he recalled their time working the Donnie Pfaster case when she had been really affected then, too, but had refused to admit it. He tried not to shiver at the horrible recollection. It had been a dark time, not only for her, but for him as well. She had been missing and everyone knew that Pfaster probably had her and all feared the worst. After almost losing her months before, not knowing where she was, Mulder had gone through that same agonizing hell all over again. Thankfully, she had been found in time, and, for the most part, unharmed. He also remembered her small frame trembling under the stress, even after informing him that she was fine, then finally giving in to her feelings and falling into his arms, sobbing. He'd held her against him, caressing her back and hair and face, whispering soothingly to her as one would a frightened child. It had been one of the most heartwarming- and heartbreaking- moments spent with the woman. If he hadn't known for sure before, he knew then just how much he loved her and wanted to protect her from the dangers of the world, of the job, of being with him... "Please," he tried again, this time more calmly, "we're partners, Scully. And we're... well, you're my best friend. I feel like I can tell you just about anything! Do you not feel the same for me?" He stared down at his half- eaten burger, a morose expression taking over his handsome features. Scully glanced down at her half-eaten salad, feeling suddenly terrible. She had struck a nerve with her partner, something that was always a possibility when dealing with a sensitive soul, such as Mulder. She never wanted to hurt him. She had so much feeling for him, although she dared not name it as love. She wasn't ready to admit such a thing, even to herself. She, too, recalled the Pfaster case with sadness and horror. It was still too fresh in her memory for her to delve any deeper. Nor could she open herself up to him, admit to him that he was her best friend, too, and that she adored him and would do anything for him. Instead of answering Mulder's direct question, which would have given her the emotional overload she wished fervently to avoid- especially in the middle of a crowded Denny's restaurant- she began to speak of the case. "Incanto," she murmured, "was a predator. Not just in the literal sense, or even in the sexual sense. He... preyed on women's insecurities, their... fears, their hopes, their desires and basic need for what we all strive for in life- love and acceptance. I guess it just... hurts to see my own gender treated this way. So much emphasis is put on a woman's physical appearance, when there are so many other attributes that are much more important in life." "That's true," he agreed quietly. He said nothing more, just urged for her to continue. "Society is set up to make women feel like... like they're less than what they should be just because they can't fit into a size three dress, or because they're not twenty-five anymore... These are fears that every woman will face at least once during their lives. Incanto, he... knew this and he took advantage of them. I think what he did to them as much worse than just killing them. He used them, tricked them... he raped them, if not in body, then in soul..." Scully's voice trailed off and she noticed Mulder staring at her intently, with a thoughtful expression. His hazel eyes looked so sympathetic, so understanding of what she was trying to explain. Unexpectedly, he reached out to touch her fingertips with his own. "I completely agree with everything you said, Scully. Incanto was as much of a monster as Tooms or the flukeman- not because of his strange condition, but because of the way he acted, the inhumane way he treated other humans. He's a monster the way that... Donnie Pfaster..." and he paused, watching her cringe as he spoke the name out loud, "... is a monster. Human on the outside, but barren and empty on the inside." "Soulless," she whispered sadly, and he noticed her chin quivering for a moment, although she did not cry. As much as it frustrated him when she kept her feelings hidden inside of her, he had to admire her courage. Picking up the biggest French fry left on his plate and dipping it into his ketchup, Mulder held it up to her beautiful lips. Not really a peace offering, since they weren't fighting, it was more like a you're-my-best-friend- and-I-love-you-and-don't-want-to-see-you-hurting-but-since-I- can't-tell-you-that-I'll-just-give-you-a-french-fry-instead sort of thing. Surprisingly, Scully opened her mouth and accepted the ketchup smothered potato, smearing a little of it across her full, luscious lips. Mulder barely held back a gasp, having not considered beforehand just how sensual an act between them this would turn out to be. He reached out with a paper napkin and wiped those luscious lips with a tender hand, just as he had done before, in another restaurant far away from here, about a year ago. Only that time, she had smeared barbecue sauce on herself. "Thanks, Mulder," Scully said with an embarrassed chuckle. "The way you have to keep doing that, I'm wondering if I should start wearing a bib to dinner." He laughed appreciatively with her. "Now, I know what to get you next Christmas," he teased. "You won't remember," she chided him. "I wouldn't be surprised if you don't remember what we had for lunch today." "Sure, I do," he retorted playfully. "We had... we went to... um, just give me a second here..." Scully laughed again. "Mulder we didn't have a lunch today. We skipped it because we were too busy with the interrogation." "Hey, that was a trick question," he protested. "That wasn't fair." "You couldn't even remember that we didn't have lunch," she smirked at him. "Pathetic, Mr. Eidetic memory." "I demand a new question!" Taking the crumpled paper casing that had been covering the straw for her iced tea, Scully flicked it at him. It hit him right between the eyes. She snickered as he complained about that, too. "Scully, are you trying to start a food fight with me?" he challenged. "Technically no, since that wasn't even food I hit you with." "It's food related," he informed her. "You want to go for it? Come on, G-woman, hit me with your best shot! I dare you!" "Mulder," she told him sternly, even though her eyes were twinkling in merriment, "we've been kicked out of and banned from so many places already. Do you really want to add Denny's to that list?" "Hmm, you've got a point," he conceded. "I wouldn't ever want to miss out on their Grand Slam breakfast." Scully rolled her eyes. "Oh no, we can't afford to miss out on that." "That's right, Miss Salad-Girl," he teased, then shoved the rest of his burger into his mouth and made a big show of eating it, using all the proper "mmm, mmm, good," noises. She smiled at him. "You know, Mulder, we've got hours to drive yet and that greasy burger is going to be sitting there in your stomach, like a rock!" "Yeah, I'll probably have gas the whole way," he countered, sounding way too gleeful about it. "It'll be painful," she taunted him. "It'll be smelly," he taunted back and watched as her nose wrinkled involuntarily. It made him smile. "You win, Mulder," she groaned. "And I will have to sit with my face hanging out the window, like a damn dog!" "Just don't open your mouth, Scully," he warned her. "You'll end up with bugs in your teeth." "That's it, Mulder," she retorted good-naturedly, shoving the case file at him. "You're writing this report yourself!" She stood up from the table. "Where are you going?" he asked. "To rent my own car," she cracked and he laughed. "I'm going to the ladies' room, then I'm heading next door to the Walgreens, and I'm buying you some Gas-X!" Mulder guffawed so loudly, even the people that should have been out of earshot entirely heard him and stared for a moment. "Aw, what a nice partner," he said, wiping his eyes. "Can you get me some diet Cokes and sunflower seeds, too? Maybe some corn chips, while you're at it?" "Sure, sure," she replied sarcastically. "Let's just throw some fuel to the fire." He winked at her. Scully shook her head, then walked away. As much as he hated to see her leave his vicinity, Mulder had to admit he enjoyed the view. She was such a beautiful woman, but there was much more to it than that. He was in love with her, too, not that he could tell her. He was afraid of losing her, scaring her away. Fox Mulder knew he was no great catch. He may have been an okay looking guy- he could admit that- but he also knew that beauty was only skin deep. He further knew that Scully would never be that shallow about someone's looks, anyway. It was what's inside a person that counted. She was a substance over style sort of person, he could tell. The problem was, he had a little too much substance- more than even he could handle sometimes. He was damaged emotionally, consumed by his quest that seemed to have no end in sight. He was pain and agony and sadness. How could he wish that kind of life on the woman he loved more than anything? Because of him, because of his life's work, his mission, she had already lost so much, including two months of her life and memories, as well as her own, beloved sister being killed. Because of this job that had brought them together, she had been thrust into one dangerous situation after another, sometimes barely escaping alive. How could she- or anyone, really- ever love a guy like him? With a melancholy sigh, he opened the file and grabbed a pen from his pocket. He jotted down his thoughts and would type it up tonight to turn in tomorrow morning. He'd give Scully a break on it. This case had truly upset her. The least he could do was not force her to have to deal with it all over again. Scully returned to the table about ten minutes later, a plastic bag in her hand. She sat down next to him this time, stealing a couple of cold french fries off of his plate and setting her purchases on the table in front of him. "Here's your stash, G-man," she told him. Mulder laughed as he looked through the items in the bag, noticing different kinds of antacids and gas relief medications. "Jeez, Scully, how much gas do you think I'm going to have?" "Just wanted to make sure that I covered all the bases, so you would have something that would work for you." "Aw, what a loving partner," he teased. "Well, I did it for my sake as well as yours, Mulder." "Why? Do you have gas, too?" he asked, tying the bag shut by the handles. "No! Shut up, Mulder!" She looked to be on the verge of sticking her tongue out at him. She refrained from doing so, just barely. "It's for my nose's sake." "Ah! Well, the nose knows, Scully," he joked. "You finish the report?" she asked quietly, daring to offer him a hopeful glance. Normally, both partners had a more active role in working up their reports at the end of a case. If one wrote it, the other would review it and offer up any additional information that might have been missed. But for this particular case, she really wanted nothing more to do with it. The sooner she forgot all about Incanto, the better. "All done, Gas-X girl." She smacked his arm. "Don't call me that... and thanks..." He bumped shoulders with her. "You're welcome." "Come on, Mulder, let's pay the tab and hit the road." "Yeah, I still need to get some snacks for the trip," he said, leaving a small tip on the table for their waiter. He pretended not to notice when Scully dropped a couple more dollars on the table to add to what he'd left. It made him smile. Deep down, he knew she had a soft heart, which was probably what kept her working with him. He paid for their meals, then they ventured back to their vehicle. To his surprise and delight, there was a six pack of cold soda in the back seat next to another plastic bag holding all of Mulder's favorite snack food. He saw his sunflower seeds, some corn chips, and those little chocolate donuts. He also noticed some Red Vines licorice. "Licorice?" he blurted out loud. That wasn't something he usually snacked on, except for maybe at the movies. "Those are for me," she informed him. They got in, and Mulder, who was behind the wheel, started the car. "Thanks for all the treats, Scully," he said with a grateful smile. "You're welcome, Mulder." He let loose with a loud, long belch, unable to hold it in. His face turned pink and he chuckled nervously. Scully was right. That greasy burger suddenly felt like a rock in his stomach. Before he could even turn to her and say, "Excuse me," one of Scully's small hands appeared in front of his face, a pill presented to him in the palm. "Gas-X?" he asked knowingly. "Gas-X," she replied smartly. Without another word, he took the pill. Scene six: "Love sick" [Rated PG] Fairfax Mercy Hospital Virginia 6:23 p.m. Mulder left the hospital room where Robert Patrick Modell, a.k.a. "Pusher", lay in a coma. He hadn't been watching the man because he felt bad about shooting him. Nor did he believe the man would ever wake up. If he'd been asked, point blank, why he had been standing there, observing the unconscious criminal for so long, he wasn't even sure he could have answered. He supposed it was curiosity, coupled with a fair amount of hatred at how such a small, unremarkable man could have controlled his mind in such a way that he almost killed himself... almost killed his partner... Scully! God, if he had pulled that trigger at Scully, then it would have been her lying in this bed, in a coma and struggling to survive, or worse... The reality of the situation hit him hard, just as hard as it had hit him when he'd gone through it only hours before. Feeling ill, Mulder left the hospital room, and continued to the parking lot, where his partner awaited him. He had to stop twice, doubling over from the pain in the pit of his stomach. He was at least grateful that there were no hospital staff around to see him, because he didn't want to stay here another minute. He was also glad his partner hadn't seen him, because she surely would have made him stay. * * * Scully was standing by their car, checking her watch and feeling a little impatient to go. About ten minutes earlier, she had found her partner in Modell's room. He had been standing near the bed, staring down at the comatose killer, who was not only suffering from the gunshot wound Mulder had given him, but also from a fatal brain tumor. This tumor had supposedly given the Pusher his extraordinary mind control powers, even as it drained him of physical strength and was killing him. Scully did not know how such a thing could occur, although she was sure she would never find out, never be able to test this hypothesis. In fact, she had no idea what kind of test she could run that could either confirm or deny this theory she and Mulder had entertained. Frankly, she did not care to know. She only wanted to forget about Robert Patrick Modell and move on with her life. After what he had done to her partner... to think of this latest monster in their cache' of monsters left her skin crawling and tears forming in her eyes. She knew she would never be able to fully forget about Pusher, just as other names haunted her on the fringe of her conscience. Names like Tooms, L'Ively, Boggs, Pfaster, Incanto... horrible, evil people she fervently wished she had never come across. After watching her partner stare at Modell for a moment, she had gone to his side, taken his hand and told him not to let the Pusher waste any more of their time. And while she knew that this latest case had cut Mulder down to his soul, she truly hoped he would try to let go and leave it alone. Mulder had seemed unable to take her words to heart, and it was obvious that he had lingered there much longer after she had left the room. She hoped beyond hope that her guilt-ridden partner and best friend wasn't going to waste any sympathy on that little pissant. Modell certainly didn't deserve it. Just when she was about to march back into the hospital and bodily drag Mulder out of hospital and back to the car for his own good, Scully spotted her partner leaving the side double-doors to the hospital and walking towards her and their car. Before she could even get a clear view of his face, she knew that something was wrong. She could tell simply by his body language. He wasn't walking in a precise straight line to her location, but rather weaving back and forth. He seemed unsteady on his feet, not quite stable. His hand clutched at his belly several times. As he drew closer, her fears of his misery were confirmed. She could see the pained expression, the guilt in his beautiful eyes, the pallor in his face. Impatience and irritation at him keeping her waiting fell by the wayside in favor of concern and compassion. Scully didn't wait for him to come to her, she met him half way. Once she reached him, she took hold of his arm and led him back to their vehicle. "Mulder, what's wrong?" she'd asked, reaching up to lay her hand against his cheek, which felt clammy and sweaty. "Nothing," he lied, just concentrating on making it to the car. If he could make it, then they could drive away and put some distance between him and the evil Robert Patrick Modell. Rolling her eyes, she said, "Mulder, you don't look well at all. You're shaky and pale and sweating. Maybe I should take you back into the hospital and have you examined by-" "No!" he practically shouted into her face. When she stared up at him, now looking extremely worried, he forced himself to calm down. "I mean, no thank you, Scully. I'm fine." "Mulder," she said, going into doctor mode, "Modell really did a number on you in there. Perhaps there are some residual side effects from his mind control that need to be addressed, for your own safety and-" "Scully," he interrupted, gripping her arm so tightly that it hurt. "Please do not make me go back into that hospital. I never want to step foot in there again." Finally understanding, Scully blew out a breath of resignation and gave in. She nodded, gently prying his fingers from her arm and taking his hand in an easy grip. "All right, Mulder. Why don't we just... well, let's get you closer to home, and see how you feel then? But I want to drive, okay?" "Yeah, okay," he easily agreed, realizing that he was in no condition to drive anyway. He fished in his pocket for the keys, produced them and handed them to her. "Here you go." "Thanks," she replied, sweetly. "Mulder, would you rather lie down in the back seat, so you can stretch out a bit? It might make you feel a little better," she suggested as she unlocked the car doors. As much as he craved Scully's closeness, and sitting in the front seat would keep him that much closer, maybe lying down for awhile would ease the tumult currently churning in his stomach a little, so he agreed. "Yeah, that might help." She smiled sympathetically at him, as he climbed into the back seat of the car. "Just relax, Mulder. I'll try to take it easy on all the bumps and turns." "Thanks, Scully," he replied, trying to smile, although it came off as more of a grimace. "You're welcome." She eased the car carefully out of the parking space and out of the parking lot entirely. All the while, she felt so badly for her partner. She wished someone else had been here with them, so she could have left the driving to him while she sat in the back seat to comfort Mulder. She longed to have his head rest comfortably on her lap while she ran her fingers through his messy hair and soothed away the pain and sadness with her tender touch. She never admitted it out loud, but she knew damn well the healing, calming effect her touch had on the agonized man in the back seat. She didn't know why she should have such an effect on her partner. She simply knew it to be true. While grateful for Scully's "bump-free" driving, Mulder still felt himself getting increasingly queasier with every passing minute. He could not stifle his moans of discomfort and longed for his partner's hand in his hair, or caressing his brow as he fell into sleep with his head on her lap. He felt bereft of her touch and that only exacerbated the agony churning in his stomach. He never felt car sick before like this, but reasoned that this bout of queasiness had started before ever returning to the car. He realized that his symptoms were due to the stress and terror and... horror of his ordeal with the Pusher. The fact remained, whether he wanted to face it or not, whether Scully downplayed it or not, he had nearly shot his partner with an intent to kill. Pusher had nearly made Mulder do the unfathomable. He had almost made Mulder kill the one person he loved more than anything or anyone else in the world. His mind was reeling with this revelation. He could not stop thinking about it. Scully. I almost killed my Scully... "Scully!" Mulder exclaimed in a panic. "Stop the car! Pull over, please!" She did so right away, pulling off to the side of the freeway. The car had barely come to a halt when Mulder threw open the door and stumbled over near some bushes. He thankfully made it back behind them before the contents of his stomach started spilling, as he hunched over, falling to his knees, in the dirt. So horrible was the agony in his stomach and the roaring sound of the traffic to his ears and so intent was his body on purging itself of everything he had eaten recently, it took him a moment to realize that there were two small hands upon his shoulders. Those hands were gently kneading away his tension, soothing him, comforting him in his most vulnerable state. Scully had followed directly after him from the car and had been with him through it all. He had no doubt in his addled brain that if he'd had long hair, she would have been holding it back for him. As it was, she'd been thoughtful enough to pull his tie out of the way. She was always there for him, even after he had almost shot her. Another wave of nausea hit and he spewed forth yet again, this time causing his body to nearly convulse with the effort. Her hold on his shoulders became firmer, as she steadied him. Once his stomach had expelled itself of every meal he'd ever had, it seemed, and he had managed to control the dry heaves, which momentarily wracked through his body, Mulder sunk further to the ground, shivering uncontrollably and sobbing just as intently. He knelt at his partner's feet, and looking down at her pretty shoes that he'd just missed throwing up on a moment ago. He reached for her, wrapping his arms around her legs. He couldn't look at her, not now, not while the guilt was still gnawing at him from the inside out. But he needed to touch her, to reassure himself of her presence and her safety. Reaching into her pocket, Scully produced a clean tissue, then leaned down towards him. She looked imploringly into his tear-streaked face and proceeded to wipe away the tears of guilt and pain. Her own eyes full of compassion for her friend, she touched his cheek briefly, then used the tissue again to wipe away any residue from his mouth. She realized that he wouldn't look at her, instead, he'd buried his face against her hip, getting lost in the folds of her overcoat. "Mulder?" she asked softly. "I'm so sorry, Scully," he cried against her coat. "I... I never meant for that to happen..." He could feel her running her fingers through his thick, sweaty hair. Her other hand was gently rubbing soothing circles on his back. "It's all right, Mulder. I understand. You've faced such a horrible ordeal, it's no wonder you're sick to your stomach." "No!" he exclaimed, sobbing and choking all at once. She had misunderstood him again. He took her hand and gently pulled her down in front of him. She appeared somewhat confused, but as always, for him, her eyes were flooded with compassion as she knelt there with him in the dirt. "Mulder?" she asked, taking his hands in hers. "What is it?" "Scully," he whimpered in a quiet, tortured voice, "I... I almost killed..." She knew what he was going to say and she stopped him. "No, Mulder," she corrected him, "Modell almost killed me, almost killed us both. You are not to blame. I know what he was doing to you. I could see it so plainly on your face that you could not stop yourself, especially when he made you shoot at yourself." She quieted, shivered from the memory. That image would haunt her for a long time to come. "That wouldn't have mattered," he hiccuped against her shoulder, the linen fabric of her coat smooth against his cheek. "It would have mattered a whole hell of a lot to me!" she barked at him, seemingly shocked that he could say such a thing, especially to her. Though Mulder put his partner's life ahead of his own and considered it more valuable, and though he had meant what he'd just said, he changed tactics, not wanting to upset his beloved partner or make her angry at him. In his current state, he did not think he could take her anger. "I just meant," he lied, "that it didn't matter because the chamber I shot at myself with was empty." "Oh. Well, it still scared me," she admitted and he could feel her shiver against him. He hugged her tighter. "I know," he whispered into her hair, before looking at her. "If our situations had been reversed and I'd of had to see you do that to yourself, I... it would have killed me." Scully could hear the raw emotion in his voice, could see the pain in his face, could feel the desperation in his nearly crushing embrace. It was an emotional overload for Scully, which only happened to her when dealing with this man, especially in the aftermath of such intense situations. She tried to lighten the mood a little by joking, "Bad choice of words, Mulder." Her efforts paid off and she could feel him chuckling against her as he continued to hold her tightly to him. "Sorry," he mumbled, his face back to her shoulder. "S'okay," she replied, tousling his hair before running her fingers through it again. "You feeling better now? Can you stand?" "Yeah," he said, and balancing against each other, they stood together. Mulder wasn't yet ready to break physical contact with her, however. His need to touch her too strong to ignore, he spied an errant strand of hair- this was a personal favorite of his- and he reached for it, tucked it reverently back behind her ear. Then he caressed the fine porcelain of her cheek with his fingers. "Scully," he murmured softly, not wanting to relinquish his touch completely, "I'm still so sorry by what happened. But I... I hope you know that I would never try to purposely hurt you." "Of course, I know," she assured him with certainty in her tone and a loving smile on her lips. "We're partners... friends. Mulder, I saw you struggling against him, trying to give me the chance to escape. Considering Modell's significant powers of mind control, I'd say your efforts to keep me from harm went beyond extraordinary. I guess it shows just how strong your own mind was to deflect him for so long." He shook his head. "I wasn't struggling against him with my mind, Scully. I was... using my heart." And he rested his hand over it for a moment, giving Scully the absurd idea that he looked like a romantic poet straight out of Shakespeare's era. This time, it was she who embraced him, and with such intensity, it surprised him. The contact was brief, and she felt a little awkward for having this uncontrollable compulsion to hold him, but it was a completely sincere and heartfelt demonstration. Surprised though he was, Mulder gratefully accepted this rare gift and hugged her back even tighter. "Well, come on, Mr. Big Heart," she teased him playfully, "let's go home." "Okay." He reluctantly released his hold on her, something that seemed even more difficult and undesirable to do than facing Pusher. They returned to the car. Though Scully still opted to drive, Mulder felt well enough to sit with her in the front seat. He slept through most of the drive back to his apartment, his hand stretched out across the seat and resting against her leg. Knowing all he had been through, she allowed the contact, reveled in it. Occasionally, she would glance his way, see that he was still sleeping. Once in awhile, she would caress the hand lightly touching her thigh. Instead of having horrible nightmares about Robert Patrick Modell and reliving the horrible moment of almost pulling the trigger at Scully, Mulder found himself amidst happy dreams involving his lovely partner, dreams about touching her face, and holding her close... Scene seven: "The Nose Knows" [Rated PG] November 1996 Chicago Court Hotel Chicago, IL 7:21 a.m. Mulder was still trying to cram his small toiletry bag into his suitcase when he heard the knock on his hotel room door. He knew that knock instinctively. "It's open, Scully," he called. Scully opened the door, carrying in her own neatly packed suitcase. She set it by the door, then observed her partner struggling to get his own suitcase to shut tight enough to zip up. He wasn't doing a very good job of it. She shook her head and smiled at him while he remained distracted by the task at hand. "Need some help, Mulder?" she asked, coming towards him. "Yeah, sit on it." "Excuse me?" Mulder chuckled over the misunderstanding and the haughty confusion in her voice. "Sorry. I didn't mean to sound like the Fonz, or anything. I just meant, if you could sit on my suitcase, I might be able to finally zip it closed. I think I just need a little more weight..." He glanced hopefully at her, fully aware of how ridiculous his request sounded. She gave him the look, the one that said she did not want to be doing this, but she sighed and hopped up onto the suitcase without complaint. "The things I find myself doing for you, Mulder," she grumbled. "I know," he agreed distractedly. "If you're not out chasing aliens or investigating cases of witchcraft, you're sitting on suitcases. The X-Files is a wild division, you're right." She made a face at him, but he didn't see it. She was glad of that after what he said next. "You're the best partner ever, Scully." "Thanks, Mulder," she replied sweetly. "Now, push your butt down on that suitcase- really hard! I mean, just grind down onto it if you need to." "Why do I suddenly feel like an actress in one of those videos that aren't yours?" she balked, yet she did as he asked, anyway. Mulder paused to admire her sexy form pushing her bottom down on his suitcase. God, I'll never wash that suitcase again... not that I ever have before, but I definitely never will now! "Say, now that you mention it," he teased her. "Day-um, but that looks hot!" "Shut up, Mulder, and just zip the stupid thing up already!" Her efforts, valiant though they were, just weren't enough to close the suitcase for zipping. Mulder stopped trying and put a hand to his chin, mulling over what to do next. "Hmm, maybe you should try bouncing." "What?" "Bouncing," he explained, "up and down. That should help... and it might just get the suitcase closed, too." His eyes gleamed wickedly. "Up yours, Mulder, I am not bouncing!" "Ooh, listen to that trash talk coming from such a pretty mouth," he sniggered. "Shut up, Mulder," she warned him again. "Ah, forget it, Scully," he sighed in defeat. "You're just too light." "Then maybe you should sit on it, Mulder," she suggested, "and I will zip up the suitcase." "Yeah, good idea," he muttered. He'd been looking forward to watching her bounce up and down for him on his suitcase. He honestly thought she would do it. Taking her hand to steady her, Mulder helped her down off of the suitcase, whereupon the lid popped open and the overflowing contents spilled out all over the hotel bed. "Dammit!" he cursed, just as Scully began to laugh. "No, don't laugh, Scully," he whimpered, "I was once like you..." He glanced longingly over at her neatly packed suitcase. "Somehow I doubt that, Mulder," she chuckled. "At least not when it comes to packing. God, don't you even know how to properly pack a suitcase?" "Well, I think it's pretty apparent that I don't," he snapped, before pulling all the stops with his puppy dog eyes. "Could you help me, Scully? Please? So, we're not late for our flight?" Scully rolled her eyes at him. "Mulder, we've been partners for four years and you've never had to ask me for help before. How did you manage to survive before this intervention?" He chuckled over her choice of words. "Luck and really great shoving power," he announced, pumping a fist, looking like an idiot. Of course he got yet another roll of the eyes from her, but he expected nothing less. "Lovely, Mulder," she uttered sarcastically. "No wonder you're such a ladies' man." Mulder snorted. "You're the only lady in my life, Scully," he told her truthfully and he waited, gauging her reaction. He assumed he would stun her into silence, which he had, but he was surprised and delighted to see the pretty blush appearing on her cheeks. "And I never got any complaints from you," he added, unable to help himself. He wondered why he always had to do that. He ruined so many potential loving moments between them by acting like a turd. Of course, she did the same with her acts of denial. Still, his sabotage was so much more mood breaking. She sighed and averted her gaze, which was an equally common occurrence between them, and began folding his expelled clothing neatly and placing them carefully into the suitcase. And that's when she found the brochure. It had been sticking out and it aroused her curiosity. She picked it up and glanced at it. "What is this?" she asked, even as she read the front of it. This time, it was Mulder who blushed and averted his eyes. He had forgotten that he'd put that in there. His ears starting to feel hot from his blush, he looked over her shoulder at the brochure's cover, which read: Things to Know When You're Considering Rhinoplasty. He watched, through furtive glances, at the frown that instantly appeared on Dana Scully's face. When she looked at him, the frown transformed into pure disapproval. "Mulder... I hope you're not seriously considering this." Completely embarrassed and humiliated, Mulder did not care for her disappointed expression. He snatched the brochure deftly from her hand. "And so what if I am?" he challenged her defensively, turning away from her and shoving the paper back into his suitcase. Then he picked up some clothing articles and crammed them in messily on top of it. Scully removed the rumpled shirt and boxers, folded them with speed and efficiency that made Mulder roll his eyes. Was there anything in the world Scully didn't do efficiently? Then she removed the offending article of the day and held it behind her back. "I really hope that you don't do this, Mulder, ever," she told him quietly. Gone was her disapproval. In its place was concern and possibly worry, which confused Mulder a little. He couldn't be sure, of course, as his partner was a master of disguise when it came to her feelings. "Why not?" he muttered, sounding a little bitter and angry. These emotions were not directed at her, although he certainly made it seem as though they were. "Is rhinoplasty such a dangerous operation?" He knew that any surgery could be risky, simply from the anesthetic or the possibility of infection, but he had never heard of anything extraordinarily dangerous about this type of surgery itself. "Any surgery has inherent risks," she told him, echoing his thought of just a moment ago, and going into full-blown doctor mode. Great! Another long-winded Scully lecture! He groaned aloud, startling her. "I am aware of that fact, Dr. Scully," he hissed. "And sometimes," she went on gently, stepping closer to him, resting one of her small hands upon his trembling arm, "these types of surgeries don't work out the way they're intended to." "So, you're worried that I might get a botched job and look even worse than I do now?" he questioned moodily. She ignored his outburst, continuing as her hand slid up to his shoulder, and she snaked her arm around him. "And, of course, I would say, why fix something that isn't broken in the first place?" She offered him a loving smile that made him weak in the knees. He sat down at the foot of the bed next to his half- packed suitcase, and she sat down right along with him, her arm still wrapped around him. "Scully," he pleaded, staring into her soulful blue eyes, "I developed this honker as a freshman in high school. I got teased about it mercilessly." "Kids can be cruel," she soothed him, resting her head on his shoulder. "Have you ever been teased because of your nose?" he asked her, thinking she would say no. Her nose was too cute to pick on... er, get teased about. "Maybe a couple times, Mulder, but I've been picked on for countless other things." This bit of news surprised Mulder. "Really? Like what?" he demanded to know, looking like he would personally hunt down and beat the living daylights out of anyone who would have the gall to do such an unthinkable thing. "Like for a lot of things, Mulder," she explained. "As I said, kids can be cruel. I got picked on for... for being a Navy brat and always being the new kid in school. I was always..." and she paused long enough to give him a warning glare, daring him to say a word, "... kind of small for my age. I was bad at athletics, a big science geek... I had braces, freckles, acne during puberty... then of course, there's my red hair..." He couldn't believe all the stuff she had mentioned. She was short, but in the cutest possible way. Not being athletic usually didn't draw too much attention if one was female. Smart was sexy. Braces were a part of puberty, as was acne, and he adored all her freckles. Secretly, he would have loved to play connect the dots with them, especially the ones not on her face. But of all the things she had mentioned, he had to draw the line at her hair. He loved her hair. How could anyone tease her about that soft, luxurious, sweet smelling mane of Scully hotness... "What's wrong with red hair?" he scoffed. "Nothing, but its unusual, therefore fair game to jerks and bullies..." "I love your hair," he said, smiling at her and reaching out to play his fingers through her strawberry strands. The gesture made Scully blush furiously. "Thank you, Mulder, but considering you're red/green colorblind, I..." "Red is soft," he told her, his hazel eyes gazing lovingly at her. "It's warm, and it smells like..." he paused a moment to lean close to her and take in a whiff of her scent. "... the first day of spring, when the flowers start to bloom, in the sunshine... next to the sea..." Scully saw the raw emotion in his gaze, accompanied by his corny-as-hell but sincere sentiment and she felt herself grow flush with arousal, which embarrassed and irritated her. She didn't like losing control of her emotions, but she always had so much trouble keeping them in check when dealing with her handsome and flirtatious co-worker and best friend. The compliment he had just bestowed upon her was more than she had ever received even from a lover. But then again, she had never been as affected by any lover as she had by her partner. God, the way he makes me feel... "So, how would you feel if I colored my hair, became a blond?" She didn't have the heart to tell him that the brilliant red of her hair- not that he could truly see it, anyway- was not exactly natural. She'd always had more of a brownish red color growing up, and as she got older, she had decided to go bolder. She smiled at the thought, and the rhyme. "I think I'd want to break your hairdressers fingers, if he did that," she heard Mulder say in no uncertain terms, which frankly shocked her a little. "Uh..." she began, momentarily at a loss for words. "Well... I wouldn't like it if you changed your nose." He chuckled. "Would you break the surgeon's fingers, Scully?" he asked hopefully. She could tell he was kidding, of course, but she could also tell he needed her to kid right back. "Yes, Mulder," she groused, "I'd break them, one by one." His smile extended widely, which in turn caused her to do the same. He had to bite his lower lip to keep from giving in to the urge to kiss her. And it wasn't easy, as she looked extremely kissable in that moment. But he held back his passion and desire for her, just as he had been doing since very early on in their partnership. He knew that she didn't really love him... not in the way that he loved her, in the way that he longed for her to love him. Giving into such reckless impulses was only a dangerous thing at this point. Mulder knew of danger, lived it, reveled in it. But when it came to matters of the heart, his heart, he knew that Scully owned it, and he needed to keep her with him. If he pursued her romantically and she rejected him, or left him, he felt as if he could not go on. So, he played it safe, kept all of his love inside, showing only small subtleties of his feelings just once in a great while, like now... Unable to completely suppress his urge to touch her, he settled for reaching for her, and enveloping her in his embrace. He loved the feel of her small body pressed to his. As long as he at least had her close in the figurative sense, with the occasional closeness in the literal sense, he felt he could make it through life. He bent down, resting his face against her head, nuzzling his nose- that she appeared to love- into her hair, taking another long inhalation of her scent. This simple action would be able to sustain him for many a lonely night. Scully relished the affection and gave as much as she got, holding him tightly against her, relieved that he appeared to have dropped all of this plastic surgery nonsense. How could he not see that he was the most beautiful man on earth? How could he not realize how many women grew weak in the knees at his arrival into their midst? She, of course, certainly had to be counted among those women, although she could never dare tell him or admit to it. She recalled just a moment before that her partner looked to be contemplating kissing her. She had been excited for it, just as she had been scared of the consequences for doing so. She'd been monumentally disappointed that he hadn't done so, but she reasoned with herself that she was his friend and partner, like a cohort, a buddy. Though he flirted with her openly on numerous occasions, she knew better than to take it seriously. With a tinge of sadness, she had realized some time ago that she was not Mulder's type. She had witnessed the sort of woman who turned his head, either by meeting women from his past, or observing him gazing at other women they came across during their travels together. Not one of those tall, usually brunette, buxom women had resembled her in the slightest. Perhaps it's all for the best, anyway, she would think during those occasions, just as she was thinking now. I know how disastrous mixing work and romance can be. Both of my two "adult" relationships were born of this circumstance, and both had ended so badly... Still, there was another part of her, the part that wasn't sensible, or who learned from her previous mistakes- the human part of her- that was greatly saddened over never getting the chance to know Mulder that way. As with most things of a personal nature, Scully kept so much inside and hidden away from everyone- including herself. She knew she could not speak the truth to him, not now, not ever. She could not tell him that he was first on her mind when she woke up every morning and the last thing on her mind before drifting off to sleep. She could never say that she dreamed about him, both while sleeping and awake and that she had a million and one fantasies, all centered around him. She couldn't say- would not even let herself realize fully- how much she loved him. So, she could never earn his love. It hurt, but she had to accept it. But she did truly cherish his friendship and trust. Those were things he did not dole out easily, and she felt honored to have them bestowed upon her humble self. She wouldn't wish to lose those, or him. She would be devastated if she ever did. Reluctantly, the partners pulled apart after a minute or two, out of each other's embrace. He watched as she carefully folded up the rest of his scattered clothing- he got a bit of a thrill when she touched a couple pairs of his boxer shorts, he could admit it- and placed it deftly into the suitcase. Then she easily zipping it closed without any need of assistance. "Thanks, Scully," he said affectionately. "You're very welcome, Mulder." The sentiment in the room was suddenly stifling to Mulder and he knew that he either had to kiss her entire face and body, or relieve some tension elsewhere, which is what he did, with a lame attempt at humor. "Wow, you did that so well, I'm just going to have to call you to come pack for me every time we go on a trip from now on." He gave her a dopey grin. "You're so full of it, Mulder, it's almost funny," she retorted, glad to be wading passed the dangerous waters of attraction and venturing back into the safety net of sarcasm, for the time being. They chuckled together, then Mulder picked up both of their suitcases and headed out the door. He glanced back to see Scully tear the rhinoplasty brochure in half and toss it into the trashcan on her way out. Scene eight: "50/50- Snickers, sniping and sex" [Rated R] February 1997 The J. Edgar Hoover Building, FBI headquarters The X-Files basement office 10:54 a.m. It was coming up to an hour until lunchtime, and Mulder was getting hungry. He had already stolen from Scully's "secret candy stash" an hour before that, while she had gone to the restroom. It caused him to chuckle inwardly at the description. Scully's secret stash was only really a secret in the sense that she did not know he knew about it. She had always kept some delicious chocolate, or occasionally licorice. Licorice was not exactly his cup of tea, although he really enjoyed the smell of it, for some reason, and he certainly enjoyed watching Scully eat it. And she kept all of this culinary treasure underneath her purse and other personal items in the one desk drawer that he had cleaned out for her to use after she had started working with him four years earlier. Mulder felt he had little to smile about now-a-days. Through furtive glances, he had been continually watching his beautiful, but enigmatic partner all morning. She had remained stonily silent since they had been sitting at the desk and she had claimed that not everything was about him. She had said, "This is my life." He'd been about to reply, "But it's mine, too," since it was true, she was his life, but something in her eyes told him to bite back his declaration. Now would not be a good time. Looking at her now, as she bustled about the office, purposely ignoring him, he wondered if there ever would be a good time to admit his love for her. Scully was currently busying herself with catch-up work, getting up-to-date on any lagging reports. She had already done a little filing and after that had tidied up the office; anything that kept her working and gave her an excuse not to interact with him. This thing in Philadelphia- the city of brotherly love, my ass! Mulder grumbled about it under his breath, as well as about Ed "Fucking" Jerse, as he came to think of him. The whole situation, as well as the events leading up to it, had put a big, huge, giant rift between he and Scully. It was a rift the size of a canyon, and all he wanted to do was put a bridge over it quickly, and meet his partner half way, where they would fall into each other's arms. He still could not believe all that had happened in Philly just hours earlier. His beloved partner, his best friend, and the woman he loved, had rebelled against the X-Files... rebelled against him! Getting a stupid tattoo- that would be a permanent reminder of this horrible time- and going off and fucking some psycho asshole whom later tried to kill her. That last part had hurt him more than anything else had... Couldn't she see the pain she had caused them both by acting this way? He honestly thought they were destined to be together, and that someday they would overcome the odds and win all of their battles, find their truths. He always envisioned walking off into the sunset with Scully, maybe finding some out-of-the-way paradise where they could lie in the sun all day (as long as Scully wore sunscreen, he didn't want her to burn) and hump like bunnies all night. But she... hadn't remained faithful to him. Not that they had ever verbally made any promises to each other to do so, but he always assumed that they had some unspoken pact between them, promising fidelity. Of course, he had fucked that vampire lady a couple years back, but he regretted it immensely. He figured it was just a case of missing his partner and confusing the feelings and using extremely bad judgment. It was something that he was truly sorry for. He'd never told her so, but the fact that he meant it made him reason that it should be forgiven. He realized that it was possible that Scully might be feeling the same way over her recent indiscretion marring her beautiful skin with a tattoo, having sex with some stranger who nearly killed her, and nearly killing her partner with fear and heartbreak by her reckless behavior. But did she regret it? Was she remorseful at all over her foolish and harmful actions? If she was truly repentant, she was certainly keeping it all to herself. Getting up to stretch, Mulder sauntered over to the filing cabinets and pretended to search for something. He wasn't really looking for anything, except for a sign that he and Scully might be on the verge of making up, being okay again. Unfortunately, he didn't see anything in her demeanor to indicate that at all. He sighed sadly. While his back was turned, he did not notice Scully get up and venture over to her desk drawer. He heard the drawer open and turned in time to watch her rifling through it, digging past her feminine products and medical journals and underneath her purse, going right for her "secret stash", no doubt. This meant she was either PMSing, and he knew it wasn't her time of the month- yes, he kept track of her monthly "visitor" for a number of reasons- or she was monumentally stressed out. It wasn't as if he'd wish for her to feel stressed, but maybe her feeling this way was a sign that she might actually regret her actions and that she was close to giving him an apology, and then things could go back to normal. He hoped she wasn't worried he wouldn't forgive her. Frankly, he already had. He just wanted her to acknowledge what she had done, he wanted her to speak to him warmly. God, he just wanted to see her smile at him again. "Where the hell is my candy bar?" he heard her bark in an accusing tone, and he awoke from his reverie to see her staring at him with narrowed eyes. Damn, she's hot when she's pissed, he thought fleetingly, before straightening up under her murderous glare. Regardless of how "hot" she looked right now, her anger was obviously directed at him. He visibly cringed under her scrutiny and asked, "Uh, what did you say?" "I asked where my candy bar is," she hissed at him. "I know you know where I keep my stash and since this is your desk, in your office, who else would take it?" "Um? A janitor?" he suggested feebly. "Skinner, maybe?" "Bull shit! The drawers are all locked at night when the janitor comes and Skinner hasn't been down here in over a week! Besides, the candy bar was right here just this morning!" He saw her fingers clench at her sides, and wondered if he should fear for his physical safety. Day-um, he thought, I got no way out of this... "Uh, well, which candy bar are you referring to, Scully?" he stalled further. "Oh, cut the crap, Mulder! It's the Snickers! My Snickers! You always steal my Snickers!" "Stop saying the word Snickers," he muttered. "I get it, okay? Your Snickers is gone, and yes, I took it and I ate the hell out of it! So, if you want it, then I'm gonna have to puke it up!" His angry and flippant retort caused her blue eyes to smolder in rage. Murderous rage. "Shit," he whispered quietly. He was now about to be murdered. He could sense it. So much for his quest. He'd never find Samantha. He would never get to the bottom of the government conspiracy. He would definitely never get to kiss his beloved partner- especially considering she would be the one murdering him. And he could forget about finding out where Elvis was living and hiding from the public eye. Goodbye world, it was nice knowing you, as cruel as you are. I'll miss you and some of the people who dwell within you, even the woman who is about to beat me to a bloody pulp with her bare hands... To his great surprise, she did not scream, or demand he make restitution, or leap over the desk to pummel him. Instead, her eyes shot daggers at him, as she reached into the drawer and retrieved her purse and car keys. She spun on her high heel and headed for the door. "Where are you going?" he demanded to know, his body language cagey, his tone possessive. As much as he had been dreading her chewing him out over a damn candy bar, he preferred that to her walking out on him. He hated being apart from her. Usually when they were separated, something terrible happened to at least one of them. This business in Philadelphia proved that beyond a shadow of a doubt. She didn't bother looking at him, kept walking towards the door. "I don't think that's any of your business!" she snapped. He surprised them both when he bounded over to her in four giant steps, standing in between her and the door and lightly gripping her arm. "You're on the clock, Scully, and you're my partner," he told her in no uncertain terms. His tone was quiet, but it nevertheless commanded her compliance. "That makes it my business." Scully's eyes flooded with tears, but her iron will made sure they did not escape. She wouldn't look at him as she jerked her arm out of his grip and said, "I'm going to lunch, Agent Mulder." Mulder reached for her arm again, demanding physical contact between them. As angry as he was with her, he desperately needed her touch. She sidestepped his attempt and avoided his grasp, but only momentarily. "Whom are you going with?" he asked in that same quiet tone, this time reaching for her empty hand, catching her fingers. He squeezed them until they hurt, until he could see her wince. "Now, that is none of your damn business," she spat, digging her long, well-manicured finger nails into the skin on the side of his hand until he winced and reflexively let go of her. This time, it was Mulder who had tears in his eyes. He was saddened by the way this encounter between them had emerged, but it wasn't sadness that ruled his emotions now. It was anger. He was angrier than he could ever remember being at another human being while still loving them so much. He rubbed at his hand where she had stabbed him with her claws. Though he wasn't bleeding, she had broken the skin. Asking her to stay and talk would be fruitless, he knew. He could tell just by looking at her that she would be unwilling to do so. Considering the blood lust in her eyes, that he was sure matched his own, he realized it would be for the best to separate from each other, if only for a little while. They were both too feral right now to do much of anything, except hurt each other further. And that was the last thing he wanted to happen. He moved to the side, to allow her passage out the door. "Fine, Scully," he grunted at her, wanting to take her down one last time before she fled. "Gonna find some other worthless low-life to fuck and try to kill you over lunch?" To say she was seething would have been the grossest understatement. "Maybe I am, Mulder," she replied, her face flushed in the desire to destroy. "Too bad you'll never know though, because this is my life!" And with that, she was out the door and racing to the elevator. "Fuck you, Scully!" Mulder yelled after her, knowing that she could hear him. "Fuck me, too!" he shouted at himself a moment later. He picked up his basketball and threw it blindly with all his might, feeling the need to hurt... something. His wish came true and he heard a crash. He noticed that he had knocked off a plaque from the wall, an award given to he and Scully a year ago, recognizing their great team work and- more importantly to the Bureau- their excellent solve rate. It was lying on the floor, cracked in half. He leaned down to pick it up. Broken, he thought, just like my heart, just like... us. A few tears slid down his face, and he wiped at them in irritation. He didn't want the sadness to take over; he wanted the anger and passion to dominate. "Why did she have to go screwing around?" he asked himself, referring not only to her nasty departure a moment ago, but also her foray into the forbidden in Philadelphia with that stupid Jerse. If she was that hard up, if she was so needy for release, why couldn't she have screwed me? Apparently, she was not very discriminating about who she let's inside of her. So, why not old Spooky? At least I know her... and love her... and I wouldn't have tried to kill her! He threw the plaque roughly into the trashcan, as more tears fell. His thoughts only made him imagine Ed Jerse having sex with his partner, an idea that wanted to make him beat his own head in, till it ceased. He had seen Jerse's picture from the police file he had requested a copy of. The guy was an ugly, smug son of a bitch. Mulder again grabbed for the file, which he had hidden in one of the desk drawers, away from the prying eyes of his partner. He hadn't wanted her to know that he had it. He looked at the asshole's picture again, into his soulless eyes. That face haunted him, made him feel nauseous. He turned to another page in the file, eager to stop staring at the man who had almost killed the woman he loved. On the new page was a photograph of Jerse's tattoo. Fuckin' ugly thing, thought to himself. Just like you, asshole! Even staring at the man's tattoo was too much for Mulder, so he turned to the next page. He gasped! This one had a picture of Scully's tattoo. He had not seen it, not a picture of it, until now, and he was certain that he'd never get to see it in person, so he hadn't bothered to ask her to show it to him. He took a good, long look at the picture. Not only had her choice surprised him, but also so had its beauty and simplicity. Mulder could see from the picture the location of her tattoo, as well as the expanse of her soft, creamy skin on her lower back. This was his spot. This was the place he had claimed as his own since they had first met. Why had she chosen to put the tattoo there? What was her reasoning over this? Did she mean to claim the spot back from him? Was she trying to say that it was never his to begin with? Or perhaps, she hadn't even thought about it at all, that there was no significance to her choice, because she didn't even think of him enough to consider it to be his spot? None of those possibilities seemed promising to him. He reached out to touch the picture, wishing it truly were her skin. He immediately grew hard at the notion. "Oh, God, Scully!" he groaned, unable to stop himself. It was easy to imagine how soft her skin would be to the touch, how good it would feel under his fingers, his tongue. He could see himself slowly tracing the outline of the tattoo on her lower back with his talented tongue, tasting her salty-sweet skin, making her shiver with desire until she begged him to put that tongue in another tasty spot and... Suddenly, the erotic image of him pleasuring his partner was replaced, again, with the sickening vision of Ed Jerse fucking Scully senseless in some dingy apartment, with nothing but animal lust in his eyes. He'd be gripping her firmly, just over that tattoo, over Mulder's claim, pressing urgent, hurtful fingers into her soft flesh, making her cry out in pain. He was hurting her, devouring her, claiming her... Mulder felt sick. He rushed to the bathroom just down the hall, barely making it before vomiting into the toilet, puking up the Snickers bar he'd pissed off Scully about for eating. After finishing the unpleasantness, he cleaned himself up at the small sink and looked into the mirror above it. He looked pale, and ill and... scared out of his mind. Scully, please don't hurt me, he pleaded as he stared at his pitiful reflection. I can love you better than Jerse... or anyone! Dammit, I worship you! Why can't you see that? He splashed some water on his face, then patted it dry with a paper towel. Taking a couple of deep breaths, he forced himself back to the office. He had some things to do before Scully got back. * * * Scully returned to the basement hours later, embarrassed by her earlier behavior and feeling hesitant on how to approach her partner, look him in the eye again. She honestly didn't know what she was going to say to Mulder, or how she would be received. He had acted horribly towards her, of course, but she had given as much, if not more, right back. She usually rose above such childish practices, but not this time. She led him on about what had actually happened between she and Jerse, which, while honestly was none of his business, she did not like the idea that her partner might be thinking her a person of loose morals. Even after the way he had treated her, she still did not want her partner to think that way, especially in light of the fact that nothing really had happened between she and that disturbed man, save for one, passionate kiss. But the worst part of her fight with Mulder had been the fact that they had also physically hurt each other! Her cheeks colored in shame over the recollection, even as her fingers continued to throb from his tight squeeze, and she wouldn't be surprised if she hadn't drawn blood on his hand, when she'd dug her fingernails into it. They were two, grown adults- that loved and respected each other, mind you- and they had committed violent acts upon the other. The thought was appalling, and she could only think of how ashamed her mom would be if she found this out... how ashamed Ahab must be about it, watching her from heaven. She bit her lip in grim anticipation as she meandered slowly down the hallway. Things were not going well today, not on any front. She had spent her lunch hour alone, running errands. She had to pay an over due bill to the electric company, after her payment had been lost in the mail. Thank you, post office! Ugh! Then she had gone to the bank to cancel her original check payment, so that if anyone found that lost check and shouldn't have it, would not be able to cash it. And lastly, she'd stopped by her doctor's office to make an appointment for next week. She had been having an awful lot of nosebleeds lately. After her strange encounter with Leonard Betts two weeks before, she thought it best to play it safe and get a check-up. It had been awhile. Well, this is it, she thought, reaching the office door, having reached the end of the corridor, even going as slowly as she had. Time to suck it up and apologize for acting like an asinine... and try to pretend that none of this crap ever happened... That would be for the best. Yes, just forgetting about it. Avoidance is the only way I'll ever be able to look into his beautiful eyes again... Slowly turning the knob, Scully opened the door and stepped gingerly inside. "Uh, hey, Mulder, I really wanted to apologize for..." her voice trailed off in mid- sentence, realizing that her partner was not in the office. Confused, she spied the desk across the room, the focal point of her dissatisfaction as of late. It was a lot tidier than when she had left for lunch over two hours ago. She also noticed that one side of it- the side she always sat at- now sported some neatly stacked medical journals. Her date planner was setting a top of the journals as was a Styrofoam cup, half-filled with water and holding three pink flowers that looked suspiciously like the ones that grew in some planters just outside of the Hoover building. She glanced up once to catch the one accolade that she and Mulder had earned since working on the X-Files together setting on top of a filing cabinet. It was their plaque, acknowledging their successful partnership and solve rate. It had been broken, but glued back together. It had a couple of large rubber bands around it, and a heavy phone book sitting upon it, to keep it pressed firmly together while the glue dried. Another feeling of shame bubbled up within her, giving her a bad taste in her mouth. Had she upset Mulder so badly that he had broken their plaque? Sitting down in her chair at the desk, she got a closer look at her date planner and saw that a post-it note was attached to the front of it. It read: Check your drawers! in Mulder's nearly illegible scrawl. Unsure of what he meant by this, Scully suddenly remembered their earlier argument and went to her drawer and opened it up. She found her stuff all neatly arranged and her "secret candy stash" had been replenished with about ten Snickers bars. Or rather, ten half-bars. She noticed that all of the candy bars had been cut in half. "Huh?" she asked aloud. Then she spied another note and retrieved it with her sore hand, flinching slightly. This one read: I'm sorry, Scully, I truly am. I acted like an asshole. From now on it's 50/50 all the way, okay, because partners should share EVERYTHING! So, half of this desk and half of its drawers are yours. Put whatever you want in them! M. P.S. I took a late lunch, then need to swing by Quantico to pick up something I'm researching. Won't be back today. See you tomorrow. Scully put both notes into her purse, for safekeeping. Mulder didn't know it, but she'd kept any personal note or card he had ever given her. Then she sat down in Mulder's chair behind the desk and inspected all of the empty drawers he had cleaned out for her. She pondered over his absence and his announcement that he would not be returning to the office until tomorrow. This most likely meant that he had been too ashamed to even face her again for the rest of the day, just as she had been, although she had come back. This information did nothing but depress her more. Taking a deep breath, Scully began to cry... Scene nine: "Honey, You're Home!" [Rated PG] November 1997 Georgetown, Dana Scully Residence 6:22 p.m. The door opened with a loud flourish and the two of them stood together, staring into the apartment. "Honey, you're home!" Mulder announced, sounding silly and giddy and full of unabashed joy. Scully chuckled, then gave his arm a quick pat. "Not so loud, Mulder. The neighbors will hear you." "Like I care?" he kidded her. He put his arm around his lovely partner, who, while still thin and pale, was the most beautiful woman in the world to his eyes. "So, should I carry you over the threshold?" he asked, scooping her up into his arms, while they still stood in the hallway, before she had a chance to protest. "Mulder, put me down!" she demanded in embarrassment, even though the area remained empty save for the two of them. "And we didn't just get married. I was released from the hospital." "Well, it's still something momentous to celebrate," he told her, kissing her cheek. She warmed at the contact, quickly becoming accustomed to his kisses, which he had been doling out quite freely since she had been admitted to the hospital. "That's true, Mulder, but put me down, anyway. With my luck, you'll knock my head against the door frame and I'll end up having to go right back to the hospital with a concussion or something." Mulder set her down, even as he chuckled, "Pessimist! Come on, Scully!" He grabbed her hand and led her inside, then he shut the door behind them. Scully found herself standing in the middle of her living room, and glanced around, savoring the very sight of it. Home. She was home! That was something most people took for granted. But considering she almost hadn't made it home, having nearly died in that hospital three weeks earlier... Just standing in her living room, staring at her furniture, the artwork on the walls, the computer on her desk and... and... her handsome partner gazing lovingly at her from the entryway to the kitchen area... Scully closed her eyes for a moment, relishing the simple pleasure of coming home. After what she had been through, she hoped to never take it for granted again. She sensed movement and opened her eyes to see her very concerned partner hovering around her, his hand on her shoulder, his eyes searching her face. "Scully, are you all right?" Reaching up to caress his hand, she smiled at him and replied, "Yes, Mulder. I'm great! I... it's really good to be home. I missed it." "Yeah, well, home missed you, too, I'll bet," he told her, bending down to kiss her forehead. "Who else cleans it as anally as you do?" "Shut up, Mulder," she chuckled. "Later, but for now, I'm going to order us some delicious, hot, delivered-to-our-door food. What's your pleasure, Miss Scully?" He produced five different take- out menus from his coat pocket and handed them to her. "Ooh, I get to pick?" she asked, perusing over her choices: Italian, Chinese, Mexican, Thai and a deli. All of them were favorites they had often frequented together or ordered for those long nights of finishing reports while hanging at her place. That would be something else she would look forward to doing again soon. "It's all about you, Scully," he assured her, urging her to choose. "I think I'll go for Chinese tonight," she decided, handing him back all the take-out menus. "Excellent," he agreed. "Your usual, Scully?" She had been on the verge of throwing caution to the wind and trying something she had never tried on the menu before, as if to celebrate this new lease on life, but there was also something comforting and just plain wonderful about ordering her usual. The fact that she was actually alive to order her usual gave her such a sentimental feeling and a whole new appreciation for her attentive partner. "Sounds great, Mulder." "You got it!" he exclaimed, still feeling as giddy and happy as he sounded. He leaned forward to kiss her again, this time on her nose. Then he went to grab her phone to call in their orders. Thankfully, in his haste to get their food on the way, he had missed the blush appearing on her pretty face after such an intimate act. She wasn't used to friends- or even most family members, save for her parents, and not since she was a child, really- kissing her on the nose. It had been a sweet gesture on his part, and it made her smile in spite of herself. She was coming to fully realize just how much she adored her partner, how much she loved him- not only as a friend, but as a potential lover. She had always loved him, ever since the beginning, but she would never allow herself to see just how deep the feelings for him went, how much he had become a part of her and that she never wanted to be away from him again. She would admit to finding him attractive, would admit that she "loved" him, but she couldn't admit that she was honestly in love with him... well, not until barely surviving cancer. It had been as though a switch had been turned on, and suddenly, she came to see that there was no one else in the world she wanted to be with more than he. Of course, she also realistically came to the conclusion that Mulder was nowhere near ready for a romantic relationship. She wasn't even sure that he would desire one, with her, or anyone else. But she did know that he loved her. Perhaps it was only as a friend. Sure, he had flirted with and teased her all through their history together thus far, they had tossed innuendoes at each other like teammates might toss a football between them, but she still couldn't say for sure if his love for her went beyond platonic. She used to believe that Mulder thought of her as something of a substitute for his sister, Samantha. Now, she knew that he loved her on her own merits, and cherished her even more than most would cherish a best friend. But, if he truly looked at her as a potential mate, or life-partner, she just couldn't say for sure. So for now, her uncovered amorous feelings for the man would have to remain unspoken. She would not risk their professional partnership or their deeply intimate friendship over it. She couldn't. She needed him in her life, and if these were the only things he could offer her at this time, then she would take it. As she listened to Mulder's soothing monotone while he ordered their food over the phone, Scully walked the perimeter of the living room, checking out her place with a scrutiny she'd never done before. As far as she could tell, everything had remained exactly as she had left it. Except for one thing... "Mulder," Scully called after he hung up the telephone, "what is that?" and she pointed to the device currently setting a top of her television. He approached, and guided her over to the sofa, where he sat down upon it, and with a gentle hand, he tugged on her arm until she sat down beside him. He wrapped his arms around her shoulders. "That?" he asked, indicating the mysterious item in question and she nodded. "That's a Sony Playstation, Scully." "Oh, yes, of course, a Sony Playstation. Mulder?" "Yeah?" he asked knowingly. "What the hell is a Sony Playstation and what is it doing in my house?" Mulder chuckled, his hand rubbing her arm in a soothing manner. "It's a game system, Scully. You know? Video games?" "Video games?" she asked incredulously. "You mean like Pac-Man and Centipede?" "Yeah, and like Pong!" he snorted. "Sure, Scully, that's exactly what I mean... maybe a decade and a half ago! You're so far behind the times, I swear!" At this, she scoffed. "I'm behind the times? So, I take it that means you're not?" The familiar raised eyebrow was in place, one of his favorite looks from her, and one he had missed terribly. "Oh, I'm on the cutting edge," he assured her. "I've got all the know-how on the latest technology!" "Really?" "But, of course." He grinned at her and she returned the gesture. "The Gunmen?" she asked knowingly. "Yeah," he laughed. "Langly, in particular. He's the one who set it up for us. I thought after dinner, I could show you how to play." "Mulder..." "What? It'll be a fun way for us to pass the time while you get your strength back. I'm not saying that we have to play it constantly, but maybe once in awhile, as you take it easy. Remember, your doctor said to rest up a lot for the first couple of weeks." She rolled her eyes at him. Since when did he listen to anything a doctor had to say- including her, most of the time! "I'm well aware of what he said, Mulder. I was there, if you recall." He leered at her. "Oh, was that you? That hot redhead in the bed with the sexy, tousled hair and the half-lidded, bedroom eyes?" Scully laughed, such a remarkable sound. It wasn't lost on him that things could have gone much differently and that he might not have ever heard that sound again. "You're so full of it, Mulder," she teased. He leaned forward, kissing her cheek- or rather, the corner of her mouth. "Have I told you how relieved... how happy I... Scully, I don't know what I would have done if..." he stammered, unable to complete the thought out loud. Tears threatened to spill from his beautiful hazel eyes. "I understand, Mulder," she said, and they fell into each other's embrace. "I feel the same way, not only to be alive, but to be able to spend more time with my loved ones... my mom, my brothers... my best friend..." and she gazed pointedly at him. "Yeah, I'm grateful for the chance of getting to spend another day with my best friend, too, that's for sure," he agreed, holding her closely to him. He could feel how thin she was, pressed against his frame. Though given a clean bill of health, she still had a sickly pallor to her skin. He hoped to remedy all of that as soon as possible with his own brand of tender loving care. There was a knock at the door, and Mulder reluctantly disengaged himself from her embrace to answer it and pay for their food. Then he set everything up at the dining room table and they sat down to eat. During the meal, Scully couldn't help but notice that Mulder was watching her eat, looking very hopeful and a little anxious about it. She also noticed that he had ordered her a larger portion than she could have finished, even if her appetite had been fully restored. She knew that she had lost a fair amount of weight during her illness. And apparently, her partner had noticed this as well. He wanted her to be healthy, really healthy again. Trying to fatten me up, Mulder? she thought with an affectionate smile. "So," Mulder mentioned after slurping up a noodle from his chopsticks, "did you want me to sleep on the couch or in your guest room while I'm here?" "Oh, Mulder," she said, still smiling, "I heard my mom talking to you earlier. Don't worry. I won't make you stay and baby-sit me. I'm perfectly capable of looking after myself." "Scully," he informed her, "I made a promise to your mother that I'd stay with you for at least the first few days after you got out of the hospital." "I know," she sympathized. "She cornered you, I saw her, and I understand. My mom... she always worries too much. It's unwarranted, of course- I mean, I'm fine now- but she's my mother and I guess she still considers it her job to make sure I'm okay." "She knew you wouldn't agree to stay with her, this time," Mulder explained. "It's because you're too damn stubborn!" he said with emphasis. "I suppose she thought that I would be a little bit less of a pain-in-the-ass to you, if I looked after you. Little does she know..." He winked at her. Scully chuckled. "I'll say. But seriously, Mulder, I won't hold you to it. You've already done so much for me already today. You can go home and get some-" "Scully," he interrupted her in a quiet, serious tone that said he meant business, "I am not going to back out of a promise I made to your mom." "But, Mulder..." "I mean it, Scully. Hell, I'm not going to incur the wrath of Margaret Scully. It's the only wrath I fear more than yours!" She groaned at his lame attempt at humor. "Funny, Mulder, funny. Okay, fine. You can stay... for tonight, anyway. I don't have the guestroom ready though. You'll have to sleep out here on the couch." She had said it as if sleeping on her sofa would deter him staying. Did she not remember where he slept every night at his own place? Mulder reached out, grasping her hand in his. He wasn't going to give in to her stubborn ways, not this time. "Scully, for you I'd sleep outside in a rain storm, so the couch actually sounds pretty nice." The blush showed up even more prominently than usual, on account of her face was still so pale. Scully averted her eyes. "Well, I guess... I need to clean up the dinner mess. Get the left overs in the fridge." "You didn't eat much," he observed, sounding a trifle worried. He was still holding her hand. He gave it a squeeze. "Mulder, I'm fine," she started to say, but forced herself to stop before she could complete the words, watching her partner visibly cringe from her overused catchphrase. She knew she had used it far too often during her illness, to ward off his concerns, to shut him out and push him- as well as everyone else- away. Offering him an apologetic smile, she reiterated, "I'm all right, Mulder, honest. I'm still getting my appetite back. It'll take some time, but it will happen, I promise." She smiled and gave his hand a squeeze back. He lifted that hand of hers to his mouth for a kiss. But he surprised her though, when he did not press his lips to the back of her hand, but turned it over and kissed her on the wrist instead, right over her pulse point. The act sent her heart racing in arousal. He should have felt the increase against his lips, but if he noticed it, he made no mention of it. He then gently set her hand down upon the table and stood up, cleaning up the remaining food. Carrying all of the Chinese take-out boxes into the kitchen, he asked, "Scully, where do you keep those plastic Tupperware thingies?" She followed him into the kitchen, wearing a smirk at his question and carrying in their dinner plates. "Here, I'll get it, Mulder. I know where my... thingies are." His eyes smoldered over her innuendo and she was taken aback. "I'm well aware of where your thingies are, Scully. I'm just looking for the Tupperware. Oh, and no," he added, grabbing the plates from her, and swatting at her with a dishtowel. "Go sit your cute ass down and let me do the work. I'm here to help and that includes clean up duty." "Mulder," she said shyly, still a little embarrassed over his latest flirtatious remark. "I really don't think it'll hurt me to clean up the kitchen." "Wrath of Margaret Scully, remember?" he reminded her. "You're to do nothing for at least a week. I will clean up. You just sit and relax and prepare for total annihilation for when I kick your ass on the Playstation. And no, we won't be playing Pac-Man!" He snickered at her as he opened up a cupboard and found the leftover containers he had been looking for. "Eureka!" he exclaimed in triumph. "Total annihilation, huh?" she snorted. "Yeah, right, Mulder." After he got all the leftovers put away and loaded the dirty dishes into the dishwasher, he turned on the Playstation and put in the fighting game, Soul Caliber. Sitting so close to her on the couch, they were physically touching, Mulder then explained to Scully how the game was played and how to work the controller. Then she spent the next two hours kicking his ass. Despite his best efforts not to, Mulder was getting frustrated. He grumbled under his breath, wondering how Scully, who'd never even picked up a Playstation controller until tonight- had never even heard of a Sony Playstation before- could beat him, game after game. Especially after he had spent an hour the night before getting instructions and pointers from the guys. He had been hoping to impress his partner with his manly gaming skills. Instead, a woman who claimed video games were an infantile waste of time was humiliating him. "Wow, Mulder," Scully said, after demolishing him for the tenth round in a row, "you're right, this is fun! Total annihilation, indeed! Too bad it was your ass you were referring to, eh?" She feigned an innocent expression. "Bite me, Scully," he snapped. She shook her head, in mock disapproval over his "sore loser" attitude. "Tsk, tsk, Mulder. And what would you do if I did bite you?" She laughed. "You'd probably pass out from the pain." "No, I think I'd be incredibly turned on," he admitted, running one of his long fingers up her spine, causing her to involuntarily shiver. "Mulder," she chuckled nervously. "Um, perhaps we should call it a night, anyway. I'm... I'm getting pretty tired." He could have kicked himself for not anticipating this. She probably should have been put to bed an hour ago. But he didn't dwell on the guilt. He wouldn't spoil their good mood with his own demons. "Well, don't you worry about a thing, Scully," he joked instead. "Nurse Mulder is at your service. I'll go turn down your bed, then I'll gladly help you change into your jammies." He winked at her, and was rewarded with yet another sexy blush upon her face. "Nurse Mulder?" she repeated incredulously. "Yes, Dr. Scully? Are you ready for me to assist you?" He waggled his eyebrows at her. Again she laughed, just as she blushed again, too. "I honestly think I can manage getting my pajamas on all by myself, Mulder, thank you." He nodded, with a wicked twinkle in his eye. "I see, Dr. Scully. So, you'll just need my expert assistance in getting your current clothing taken off, then, right?" "You know, Nurse Mulder, I believe I can handle that by myself as well." "Well, how about a sponge bath, Doc?" he went on, staring at her with sexy bedroom eyes. "It's one of my specialties, you see." Just when she thought she couldn't blush any brighter... "Oh, I'm sure it is, but I'm a little too worn out for a sponge bath this evening." "Party pooper," he pouted, jutting out his divine lower lip. He patted her knee. "All right, Dr. Scully, I'll get your bed turned down. Why don't you go change then, since you refuse my qualified assistance." "I will, thanks." He stood, then gently pulled her up without being asked to. They ventured down the hallway together and parted ways when she stopped at the bathroom. "Oh, Scully..." "Yes?" "Maybe later we can play 'doctor'?" "You wish," she scoffed playfully. "Yes, I do," he agreed. "Or, how about 'naughty nurse', then?" He held up his hands in front of her. "I've got the magic touch." "As tempting as that sounds, Mulder," she made a show of yawning, "I'm simply too tired for that yet. Perhaps another night." "I'm gonna hold you to that someday, you know," he told her in all seriousness. "I'm sure you will," she replied, offering her own wicked twinkle, then she went into the bathroom and shut the door, as Mulder traipsed off to her bedroom, trying to tamp down his arousal, which had just skyrocketed. Inside the bathroom, Scully easily slid into her normal, nightly routine. She washed her face, thoroughly but gently with a mild exfoliating soap, before rubbing on some Oil of Olay nighttime cream. Then she brushed and flossed her teeth. Afterwards, she ran her brush through her hair. She noticed that it was starting to come in a little thicker since her latest radiation treatment. She relieved herself and washed her hands, all the while, marveling at how blessed she was to be doing these simple things. Wiping away a few grateful tears, Scully exited the bathroom, and looked for Mulder, to let him know that he was free to get ready for bed himself now. She looked for him, and found him still in her bedroom, staring thoughtfully at the bed he had just turned down the covers down on for her. "Hey," she said, coming to stand beside him. "Hey, yourself," he replied, wrapping his arm around shoulder. "All ready for bed now?" "Yep. The bathroom is all yours." "Thanks..." They remained silent for awhile, standing in place, not moving. "Mulder...?" That's when he lost it. His tears took her by surprise and hit them both full force. She realized he had been holding this back probably the whole evening, and when she thought about it, so had she. Because, before she knew it, she started crying, too, and they were holding each other tightly, sniffling into the shoulder of their best friend. Everything else just melted away for a moment. Gone were the problems they still faced, gone was the outside world. All that existed for them in that moment, all that mattered was Mulder and Scully, and the feelings ebbing between them and longing for some sort of release. Their arms were wrapped around each other and their tears melded together against their faces, and their laughter complimented the crying, and soon they engaged in some rather passionate forehead kisses. They weren't mourning what could have happened; they were celebrating what had happened. Life! Scully- and therefore, Mulder- had prevailed, triumphant, living to fight the good fight for another day! "I was so scared, Scully," he admitted, whispering into her hair, breathing in her scent, kissing the soft tresses. "I know," she replied, her face pressed against his strong chest, guilty of breathing him in and kissing on him as well. "I was, too." Several minutes later, after Mulder had kissed her cheeks, her forehead, and yes, her nose again, too, he begrudgingly allowed her to pull out of his tight, protective embrace and crawl into bed. He even pulled up the covers for her, effectively tucking her in. And after caressing her soft, pale cheek with his fingers, he said good night and ventured down the hallway, back to where the sofa awaited him in the living room. * * * Scully slept fitfully that night, probably for the first time in months. She dreamt only of good things, like her family, her crazy, but never boring job, Fr. McCue and her church congregation, her partner... When her dreams turned to Mulder, she felt especially happy and safe. An angelic smile appeared on her beautiful face. Mulder stood at her bedside, watching her sleep, tears of joy flooding his hazel eyes as he looked upon her serene features. God, she's so damn breathtaking! he thought, barely resisting his urge to touch her on her face or take her hand in his. He didn't want to risk waking her. He knew she needed her rest to build up her strength. "I love you, Scully," he whispered into the darkened room, before returning to the living room. And contrary to Scully's earlier proclamation, Mulder ended up staying there with her not for the night, but for a week and a half. They would eat together, watch television and every night she would kick his ass on the Sony Playstation. Life was good! Scene ten: "Rusty, Ripley & Jack" [Rated PG] March 1998 Someplace on "M" Street Saturday, 12:42 p.m. "This is the place, Scully!" Mulder exclaimed with a little too much exuberance for a Saturday afternoon. He held the door open for her, then led her in, his hand at the small of her back. "Thanks," she said, glancing around. "Wow..." "Yeah," he agreed. "Told you this place was great, didn't I?" Scully fought the urge to whistle at the store's decor. It certainly overwhelmed the senses. The store itself was small and as dark and musty as their basement office usually was. The walls were also full of strange UFO and science fiction memorabilia. She figured this had to be why Mulder loved it so much; whoever set up this place seemed to have the same decorating sense as her partner. "Um, yeah," she murmured, glancing over at him, noticing his childlike excitement at just being there, and smirking at him. "This place is definitely right up your alley." "What exactly are you insinuating, Scully?" he asked teasingly. "Oh, nothing. Nothing at all..." They grinned at each other, and he put his arm around her shoulder, anxious to show her around through the store. "Come on," he said, "there's someone you've just got to meet!" There was a man sitting on a barstool behind the counter next to the cash register. He almost appeared to be guarding it, taking in his demeanor. Scully wondered if the guy had a gun next to him, or the ever-popular baseball bat. (She would have been delighted to know that it was indeed, a baseball bat.) The man in question, who actually owned the business, looked like someone that had stepped right out of a 1970's Grateful Dead concert, complete with vintage Grateful Dead, tie-dyed tee shirt. He had long, stringy, gray hair and an equally long and gray beard. As they got closer, Scully was sure she could smell the lightest hint of marijuana... The man, who had been reading a copy of The Lone Gunmen's publication- Why am I not surprised? Scully thought with a groan- looked up at their approach. He noticed Mulder, and his gruff, hairy face split with a wide grin. "Hey, Mulder!" he called with a friendly wave as they made their way to the counter. "Long time, no see. What's up, dude?" "He knows you by name," Scully snickered under her breath, so that only Mulder could hear. "Yeah? What of it?" he retorted, equally quiet. "Oh, nothing," she repeated, adding, "dude." Had he been bolder, Mulder surely would have pinched her on the bum. Instead, he glanced at her quickly, then stuck out his tongue at her, before returning his attention to the aging hippie whom had just so warmly greeted him. "Hey, Rusty!" he said, reaching out to shake the man's hand. "I'm doing great! What's up with you, my man? How's business going?" "It's going," the hippie laughed, and Mulder responded in kind. Scully, feeling a little weird being in this store, not to mention the situation, only offered a tight smile. "Business isn't booming, but I'm surviving, you know?" "Of course, Rusty," Mulder complimented. "You're a survivor! And you know, next year with the new Star Wars movie coming out, you'll probably be up to your ass in customers. Just enjoy this lull while you can." "Heh, don't I know it," Rusty agreed. "Old George had better not fuck it all up, though." Mulder grimaced. "Only time will tell." "George... as in... Lucas?" Scully asked. Rusty looked at Scully, seemingly noticing her for the first time, despite the fact that she was standing smack dab next to Mulder and his arm was traipsed protectively around her shoulder. His eyes grew wide, then narrowed with a lusty appreciation. "Damn, Mulder, is this your partner? Scully?" the hippie inquired. He seemed pleased and mildly surprised by her appearance in his store and by her appearance at all. Scully gave Mulder a curious look. "Yep," Mulder confirmed, giving his partner's shoulder a squeeze and gazing down proudly at her. His adoring look gave her a start. "This is my Scully- eh, I mean, this is my partner, Dana Scully." He quickly averted his eyes from her. "Scully, this is Rusty Banner. He owns this wonderful establishment." "Very nice to meet you," Rusty said, offering her his own grubby hand, which she shook. "Nice to meet you, Rusty," she replied, smiling politely. She noticed that Rusty continued to stare at her, his disbelief tempered only by his admiration. Although his adoring look seemed a bit more... creepy to her than Mulder's did. "Day-um, Mulder," she heard Rusty say. "You weren't kidding about her, were you?" Mulder smiled, his chest puffing out in manly pride. "Told ya." Scully fought the urge to roll her eyes. "Told him what, Mulder?" Scully asked pointedly, staring at her partner with her trademarked raised eyebrow. The business phone rang, and Rusty hurried to answer it, gratefully taking the opportunity to escape the awkward situation he had unwittingly created. Steering her towards the shelf containing hard-to- find Star Wars collectibles, Mulder picked up a Princess Leia coffee mug and presented it to Scully. "This is great!" he announced, doing his best to ignore the expression on his partner's face that he knew all too well. "You don't have one, do you? I'm going to buy it for you." "Mulder?" "Yes, Scully?" "Told him what?" she repeated. He sighed. The woman was relentless! It was a trait of hers he had always admired... unless she was concentrating that relentlessness on him, of course. "Uh, what do you mean?" he asked innocently, obviously stalling. "Mulder, the man recognized me by sight without ever having met me, or being properly introduced." "Oh, well, I've been coming to this shop for years," Mulder explained, "and Rusty and I sort of developed a rapport..." "And...?" "And... I might have mentioned you a few times over the years." "Like what?" she demanded to know, her arms folding over her chest. "Like... how smart you are!" he replied brightly. "Uh-huh..." "And that you're my best friend," he added hopefully. "Yeah..." Her eyebrow rose high upon her forehead again. She would not be placated. Sighing in defeat, Mulder groaned. "All right, all right. I might have also mentioned that you're a redhead... and that you're... hot..." His voice was barely a whisper when he'd finished. He averted his eyes, almost afraid of the disapproving glare he was sure he'd find, as well as the reprimand. To his surprise, she said nothing more about it. When he dared a glance at her, she didn't look angry at all, although she was sporting a rather deep blush that pleased him to no end. More than that though, he was just relieved that she hadn't been angry with him. "Where are the posters?" she asked, keen on changing the subject. Cradling the Princess Leia mug in the crook of one arm, he put his free hand on his usual place at the small of her back and led her past the Star Trek costumes, the alien bobbleheads and rushed her past the sci-fi porn section. "Sci-fi porn?" she had murmured in disbelief. If there ever was a movie genre for Mulder, that had to be it. "Uh, trust me, Scully, you don't really want to know..." "I'm sure I'd have to agree with you for once." He smirked at her, then brought her over to the poster display. He tried to bypass the posters of half- naked women wearing bits and pieces of astronaut garb. He hurried through the countless images of sci-fi cuties in various skimpy costumes, like Barbarella, or Princess Leia in her slave girl outfit. He skimmed through all the other science fiction movie posters, but was surprised that Scully halted his hand for a moment, when they came across an Ellen Ripley poster, a flame thrower in hand, from the movie Aliens. Scully gave it a good, long look, admiration sweeping over her features, before allowing him to continue. This made Mulder smile in surprise and affection for her. Oh, do we have a hero, Scully? He got through all the Star Wars and Star Trek posters quickly and soon found the "real" UFO posters, including the famous I Want to Believe poster that had become his philosophy. "Ah, here we are." "Great. Grab one, Mulder." "Well, wouldn't you rather get him this one instead?" he teased, turning back the plastic casings and presenting her with a Child's Play poster, sporting the maniacal killing doll, Chucky. Scully laughed, music to his ears. "Jesus, Mulder. I said I wanted to amuse the guy, not scare the shit out of him!" "Why not do both?" Mulder suggested with a wicked gleam in his eye. "That's all right, Mulder," she replied. "I think that Jack has already had his fill of scares from evil, murdering dolls." "Oh, yeah, I suppose so," he sighed softly. He started chewing on his lower lip, something he often did when being thoughtful... or while brooding. The reason why they were here in the store, the whole purpose for their entire trip had been one of worry and dismay for him. They had made a day of it, on a rare Saturday when they'd had nothing else to do. Mulder had agreed to be her guide on this outing through M Street, sight seeing and taking in the atmosphere. He had treated her to lunch at the underrated bistro on the corner. And he had offered to take her to the store that sold the I Want to Believe posters. It had been a perfect day of fun, except for one, niggling fact. Scully wanted to purchase the poster for some guy she had helped out on a case she had stumbled upon during her recent mini-vacation to Maine. Mulder hated the idea of Scully buying any man a gift, other than her brothers or nephew, or himself, of course. He also hated that she kept referring to this asshole as Jack, instead of his last name and rank. And what made it worse was the way she said his name, with a certain, flirty inflection to it. It was subtle, to be sure, especially for anyone else to detect, but Mulder could detect it just fine and it made him grit his teeth. Her voice always sounded so sensual to him, anyway, but she seemed to drive it home with the name Jack on her lips. If he didn't know any better, he could have sworn that Scully was trying to make him jealous. But considering he didn't think Scully was actually in love with him, he figured there should be no reason for her to do so. And if that were the case, then maybe she actually did have some feelings for this bozo, and that thought only depressed him. What Mulder hadn't realized was that Scully's very reason for taking that ill-fated trip to Maine a couple weeks back in the first place was to figure out a way to come to terms with her own escalating feelings of unrequited love for him. She needed to discern over what she perceived his feelings for her might be. He didn't know that she secretly loved him in the exact same way that he secretly loved her. He didn't know that, while she thought this "Jack" fellow to be a decent man, he didn't mean anything to her aside from a friendly, casual acquaintance she would very likely never see again- nor did she have any inclination to do so. And he sure as hell didn't know that she was constantly bringing up Jack's name and teasing Mulder about him, because she was testing the waters, wondering if her mentioning this other man would evoke any kind of reaction out of her partner. He had hid his jealousy pretty well, but Scully could still detect a hint of it. This gave her something to hope for as well as a quiet sense of satisfaction that she could make Mulder feel jealous. Scully checked the slot number that the poster was located in and snagged one. "Here it is, Mulder!" she declared triumphantly. "Yep," he agreed softly, his mood turning towards melancholy, "there it is." "Mulder, you all right?" she asked. "Huh? Oh, yeah, sure. I'm fine," he told her, using the phrase he knew she used to say to him to keep him at bay. Apparently, she didn't catch onto the significance. "Did you want to look around this place some more?" "Nah, we can go. Got a bit of a drive to get you home, and it'll be dinner time soon anyway." "Okay, let's go check out then." Both agents walked up to the counter with their purchases where Rusty awaited them. Unbeknownst to them, he had been observing their interaction the entire time. He could see that Agent Scully had a thing for her partner. And he was already well aware of the love jones Mulder held for her. Watching Mulder's now forlorn expression, Rusty wondered when the guy was gonna grow some balls and just kiss his woman, or ask her out on a real date. That would sure beat bringing her down to the rowdy, college crowded M Street, and into his place, full of every geek's wet dream... not that it wasn't a fine establishment in its own right, just not a proper place for a date. "Find everything you need?" Rusty asked encouragingly, giving Mulder a hopeful grin. "And then some," Scully said, smiling, as Mulder plunked the Princess Leia mug onto the counter. "Ah, the lovely Leia," Rusty said, smiling, then winking at Scully. "You buying the princess mug for your princess, Mulder?" Scully turned bright red. Mulder nearly matched her shade. "Uh, it's for Scully," he squeaked in embarrassment. "I'm his partner," Scully added dumbly. "Yeah, I got that," Rusty chuckled, and realized things were even more hopeless than he'd initially thought. Not only was Mulder inept in the art of love, but his "partner" didn't seem to be that far behind him. He kind of felt sorry for them. They might never get laid at the rate they were going. "Anything else, man?" he asked, noticing the poster in Scully's hand. "Oh, I'm buying this," Scully told the shopkeeper. "Here, Scully, I'll take care of it," Mulder offered, sliding the slim, cylindrical form deftly from her fingers. "But Mulder, that wouldn't be fair. I mean, I'm getting it for someone you don't even know." He shrugged. "Hey, Scully, any friend of yours is a friend of mine." "Mulder-" she began, grabbing the poster back from him. "Scully, I got it," he insisted, and he snatched the item in question out of her grasp once again. "I wanted to treat you to everything today. I meant that." To his surprise, she smiled. "All right, Mulder. Thank you." Her acquiescence made him smile, too. "You're welcome," he replied, making love to her with his eyes. She averted hers for a moment, before offering him an identical loving look. Rusty sighed, somehow feeling dirty at just having to witness the exchange. He honestly couldn't see why the hell these two weren't doing the mattress mambo by now. Sure, making love with one's eyes was a lot less messy and didn't require a bed, but it was also a lot less fun! "What a guy," Rusty said, trying like mad to help his friend out, make him look good to the lady. "Mulder, you're a prince." Mulder mistook his friend's helpfulness as being a jerk, and was about to tell him to shut up, when Scully spoke up first. "He certainly is," she agreed, smiling shyly and patting Mulder's arm. Unconsciously puffing out his chest again, like a mighty silverback watching over his gorilla group, Mulder paid with his credit card and wrapped his arm around his partner's shoulders for the countless time that day. "Have a good one, Mulder," Rusty said, once he was done ringing up their items and after he carefully wrapped up the Princess Leia mug in some protective tissue paper. "Don't be such a stranger. I got new stuff coming in all the time!" "Yeah, maybe I'll come back in next month," Mulder said noncommittally, although truthfully, he did enjoy perusing this crazy place. "Yeah," Scully added, nodding amicably at Rusty, "maybe we'll see you next month." "That would be a pleasure, Miss Scully," Rusty told her, and he noticed that Mulder's manly pride was simply bursting at the seams. Maybe there was hope for them yet. They left the store and headed for Mulder's car. Once inside, he started up and hit the streets, all the while, simply beaming over Scully's hopeful words. He smiled radiantly at her, and she blushed. "Hey, Mulder," she said after giving herself a moment to compose, "you know, by the time we get to my place, it will definitely be dinner time. Why don't you stick around and I'll make us something to eat? We could watch a movie, or something. It's the least I can do, considering your generosity of treating me through out the day." Mulder, behind the wheel and driving through heavy traffic, glanced briefly over at her long enough to offer her a loving smile. Anything to prolong spending time with the woman he adored, he'd readily agree to. And her cooking a nice meal for him sounded a lot better than the week old pizza waiting for him at home in his smelly fridge. "That would be great, Scully, thanks." She smiled back at him, equally happy to be prolonging their time spent together into the evening. "Yeah, great." They drove in companionable silence for awhile, before Mulder's insatiable curiosity got the better of him. "So, Scully," he said, trying to sound casual and nonchalant, "when you left Maine, you opted to fly home into D.C., instead of driving, right?" "You already know that I did," she murmured absently, staring out the window at random people, going into random places. She hadn't been "people watching" just for fun in quite some time... "How come?" he asked. "Eh, just didn't feel like making the long drive back, I suppose," she replied, spotting a couple of young guys in leather pants and jackets and sporting tattoos, piercings and multi-colored mohawks. It made her chuckle quietly to herself. "So," he said again, trying to keep up his cavalier attitude, "Did... Jack take you to the airport?" He kept his gaze focused on the traffic in front of him. Scully's heart did flip flops, actually glad that he wanted to know. "As a matter of fact, yes, he did. We had a nice conversation on the way." "Oh," he replied, feigning a pleasant tone that was wearing thin for them both. "What did you guys, um, find to talk about?" He unconsciously held his breath, hoping beyond hope that this "nice" conversation didn't include the exchanging of phone numbers. Finally, he had gotten to the heart of the matter. Finally, she would be forced to let him off the hook. With a radiant smile, she told him, "He talked about his wife and kids." Mulder sighed in frank relief and didn't even bother to hide the grin he knew he wouldn't be able to hide if his life depended on it. "Oh! Well... that's... nice!" "Yeah, it was," she agreed, noticing his relief and happiness over the fact that Jack was married with kids. She now had a better understanding of Mulder's feelings for her. Not a clear one by any means, but most certainly less clouded than before. "So, uh..." he went on, genuinely curious, "who- eh, what did you tell him about?" Her expression going shy, Scully averted her gaze back to the window. "My partner." They shared another glance between them, then quieted again for the rest of the drive back to her apartment... Scene eleven: "My Scully Sense is tingling!" [Rated PG] August 10, 1998 Georgetown, Dana Scully Residence 6:49 p.m. Scully had finished eating dinner and was planning on washing up all of her dishes. She put the stopper in the sink drain, turned on the faucet and watched the water flow as she added some dish soap. Once it was full, she had just dipped her hands into the hot water, when the knock came at the door. With a sigh, she dried her hands and hurried to answer it. She had been expecting a package to be delivered, from her brother, Charlie, who was currently stationed in France for the next six months. He had called her the other day and told her that he had sent her a French "ooh, la-la" care package. And yes, he had actually said, "ooh, la-la", making her laugh in spite of herself. Charlie was her favorite brother, whether Bill liked it or not. Charlie was silly and fun loving and respectful of her life choices. He was a good brother, who wanted what was best for her and loved her for who she was, just like... just like... "Mulder?" she said in surprise, upon opening the door and finding her handsome partner standing there. He smiled. "Hey, Scully. What's up?" "Uh... nothing. About to do some dishes, actually," she replied, stepping aside to allow him access into her apartment. She headed back to the kitchen area, Mulder in tow, close at her heels. "What's up with you?" she asked. "Just about to help my partner do some dishes," he said, his eyes twinkling merrily at her. They stood in front of the sink together. "Mulder, you don't need to do my dishes. I-" He took a hold of one of her hands, which still held minute traces of frost bite on her skin. "The soapy water might make it sting. Why don't I wash and you dry?" he suggested. Scully raised her eyebrow at him. "All right," she agreed finally, wondering if he realized that she washed her hands with soapy water all throughout the day, and used soap in the shower as well. She didn't mention it though. Not only was she grateful for the help, she had the feeling that he'd only insist on helping her in the shower, too, if she said anything. She chuckled inwardly, grabbing up a clean towel for drying. Mulder washed the first dish, and handed it to her. The task was at hand. "So," he said, making small talk as he carefully scrubbed her Princess Leia coffee mug clean, "you looked surprised to find me at your door. Expecting someone else?" He tried not to appear too obvious, but both of them knew darn well what he was asking. "Oh, no," she was quick to put him at ease. "My brother called me the other day and said he had sent me a package that should be arriving very soon. I assumed it would be UPS or something." "Bill?" he asked, his Adam's apple bobbing nervously, his body going tense at the mention of her older brother's name. "No," she assured him, taking her cherished Princess Leia mug and drying it off. "I'm talking about my nice brother, Charlie. He's stationed in France right now." "Ooh, la-la!" Mulder crooned, making her laugh, just as Charlie had. Yes, her partner certainly had a similar sense of humor to her little brother. "Exactly," she chuckled. "What's he sending you? Some wine, cheese and dirty postcards?" he leered. "I'm sure that's what it is," she teased. "Nah, that can't be right," he said, moving onto a pan. "To be perfectly frank, I don't think this brother Charlie of yours even exists!" "What is that supposed to mean?" she asked with a raise of the trademark Scully eyebrow- a maneuver that that her so-called nonexistent little brother could do, as well. "I've never seen him at a single family function," he informed her, weighing the evidence. "Well, how many Scully family functions have you attended, Mulder?" "Quite a few, actually," he recalled, and she realized just how much he had become the biggest part of her life. How many other FBI agents had their partners join them in family get togethers? She heard him go on. "And I've never seen him, not once." "His job keeps him out of the country most of the time," she snickered. "You should know that, seeing as I've told you before, Mr. Eidetic Memory. Besides, you've seen pictures of him at my mom's house." "That was probably just some neighborhood kid that kept sneaking into your childhood photo ops," he teased. Scully smiled, shaking her head. "Well, I'm sure Charlie- as well as his wife and kids- would be shocked to learn that he doesn't exist." "I don't doubt it. I can imagine that would be a hard thing to deal with." She rolled her eyes at him, and playfully splashed some of the sudsy water down the front of his shirt. He protested by splashing her right back, down the front of hers. By this time, the dishes were done, anyway, so they no longer needed to use it. Scully turned on the faucet and used the attaching spray nozzle to get him in the face. "You are going to get it, Scully!" he growled, lunging for her, and she raced out of the kitchen area, towards the living room. "Come here!" he called, chasing after her, "I'm going to toss you into the shower with all your clothes on!" Scully chose to ignore his threat and sat down primly on the sofa, as if she were the picture of innocence. "No, you wouldn't," she told him, sweetly. "You didn't want me to get my hands wet, remember?" He sat down next to her. "Wait a minute! It's been a couple of weeks since we've been back. I notice you don't stink, so you must be showering! Damn! I should have had you wash, while I dried." She offered him the most breathtaking smile from her arsenal of breathtaking smiles. It melted his heart and turned him into a big ball of mush. "You offered, Mulder. Like I'm going to refuse help in the kitchen, even if I don't need it." "Guess it's too late to offer up my services as your shower buddy, help you out with those hard to reach places because of your sore hands, isn't it?" "Afraid so," she sighed mockingly. "Damn," he pouted again, jutting out his lower lip and making her chuckle again. "Want some iced tea?" she asked, to soothe him. "Ah, that's fate, isn't it?" he said, winking at her, recalling a conversation from a late night stakeout years before. "And yeah, that would be great, thanks." She patted his knee, and ventured back to the kitchen. Within moments, she returned with two, tall glasses filled with ice, tea and a lemon wedge floating at the top of each one. He took one from her, clinked his glass against her own. "To iced tea and fate," he murmured, giving her a meaningful glance. Scully blushed. "To fate. Cheers." They drank up and sat in companionable silence for awhile. "Good tea," he complimented her and she smiled her thanks. "So, Mulder, not that I'm complaining, especially since my dishes are now so clean with the Mulder touch, but what brings you by this evening? Have you heard anything new about the X-Files?" Mulder chewed up an ice cube, making that obnoxious crunching sound that irritated Scully whenever anyone- except him- did so in her presence. "Nah," he said, "I just came over to... help you with the dishes." She laughed. "Really? Wow, how did you know?" "Well, you know, I've asked myself that same question time and again, Scully, about how I always seem to know when you need me, and the best explanation I could give you would be to compare it to Spiderman!" "Spiderman?" "God, please don't tell me you've never read comics as a kid, Scully," he groaned in mock horror. "Sure, we did. But we always read Detective Comics, not Marvel." He shook his head at her. "It's a wonder you grew up so well-adjusted, what with a childhood like that!" "Very funny, Mulder," she retorted. "Okay, I'm semi-familiar with the Spiderman story. He has that 'spider intuition', right?" "Spidey-sense," he corrected her. "His Spidey-sense would tingle when something was amiss or in need of his attention. That's what I have, only for you." "So, you have... Scully-sense?" she asked, and he nodded approvingly. "And you just knew I needed help with my dishes? Your Scully-sense was tingling?" "All the time," he informed her, wearing a lustful smile. Scully blushed furiously this time, enjoying the fact that he was flirting so openly with her. She recalled their near-kiss in the hallway outside of his apartment two weeks before. Oh, if not for that damn bee! She wondered what might have happened had she not been stung. "Scully?" he asked carefully, watching with curiosity and concern over her quiet, reflective turn about. Instead of bringing up a memory that was both cherished and maligned to her, she gazed at him with teary eyes. "Well, your Scully-sense tingled you all the way to Antarctica, Mulder. You risked everything- including your own life- to find and rescue me. I'm forever grateful for that." She reached out to take his hand. Mulder drew her closer, enveloping her in a loving, protective embrace. "You'd have done the same for me," he said knowingly. "Besides, if something ever happened to you, I don't know... I... it would kill me, Scully, honest." He kissed the top of her head as she rested it upon his chest. "I know. I feel the same way about you," she whispered against his gray tee shirt. "I wasn't lying when I said that you make me a whole person," he admitted. "And... I'd be... lost without my better half." "Mulder..." she murmured, sitting up straight and staring at him with wide, blue eyes. She reached up and caressed his face in her palm. Their eyes locked yet again, searching the face of the other, yearning for the touch of the one they loved best. They moved closer, their lips, once more, nearly touching. They could each feel the breath of their better half against each other's faces. His lip just barely grazed hers, and... and... A loud knock at the door startled them both, and they jumped up to stand from the couch, glancing at each other like naughty teens who'd been caught playing Spin the Bottle in their parents' basement. "Uh..." Scully stammered, averting her eyes. "Maybe you should get that," he suggested, gesturing at the door, and looking equally chagrined. "Right," she agreed. She ventured over and opened up the door. "Mom?" "Hello, sweetheart," Margaret Scully said, coming into the apartment carrying a medium-sized box. She kissed her cherished baby girl then set the box on the small table by the door. That's when she noticed her daughter's guest. "Oh, Fox! I didn't see you there!" Maggie's eyes went wide as he waved sheepishly at her. She turned back to Dana. "I didn't interrupt... anything, I hope?" "Oh, no, no, of course not!" both Mulder and Scully insisted in unison, which instantly made Mrs. Scully reason- with much regret- that she had interrupted something. She could have kicked herself. Dana and Fox, she realized long ago, were truly meant for each other and they loved each other more fiercely than any two people she had ever seen, but for some silly reason, neither would own up to it- at least, not out loud, to each other- and neither seemed to have the guts to take the first step. But perhaps tonight, one of them had smartened up and... and... she had walked in on them. She sighed in frank disappointment with herself. Who knew when these two would work up their courage enough to breach the subject again. She loved her daughter, and she adored Fox. She knew they could only be happier if only they would admit to their true feelings for each other. Though she considered herself a somewhat old fashioned woman, even she had to admit that her youngest daughter was in desperate need of some lovin'. Her husband would have put it in a different way, perhaps. The girl needed to get laid. Maggie blushed over the thought, even though she knew it was true. Dana needed Fox... in more ways than one. And gauging by what she knew of her daughter's partner, he appeared to need the same things from her daughter. "So, Mom, what brings you out here... to Georgetown... at this time of night... right now... without warning..." Scully mumbled, still flustered. She was trying to calm down the crimson coloring in her cheeks, that came from both her embarrassment at her mother's unexpected visit, and the desire that was still throbbing inside of her because of her partner. Maggie smiled knowingly. She knew that look. She got that look herself every time Bill, Sr. would get home from a particularly long mission at sea. She ignored her daughter's stuttering. Bringing it up would only embarrass her further and probably make her angry. Dana always did have her father's- and her older brother's- nasty temper, although she was fairly good at tamping it down... most of the time. "Your brother Charlie sent me a package, but it was clearly marked for you. He just put the wrong address on it, I suppose. But, you know your brother." "Yeah," Scully chuckled, glad to be talking about anything or anyone other than Mulder, who she knew was currently boring a hole into the back of her head with his smoldering gaze. Damn, couldn't he tune it out, at least while her mother was in the room with them? "That's Charlie, all right." Mulder chuckled. "You know why his memory is so bad, Scully, don't you?" "Why?" she retorted playfully, "because he doesn't exist?" "Precisely." Mrs. Scully glanced between the two partners as they smiled at each other. This was obviously some sort of in-joke between them, so she didn't even bother asking for an explanation. "Um, tonight was my night for Meals- on-Wheels delivery," she went on, "and this was the area I was given, so after I finished, I thought I'd drop by, see if you wanted to catch a late movie with me. But if you and Fox have plans, then I certainly wouldn't want to-" "No, we don't, Mrs. Scully," Mulder assured the woman, babbling almost like a bashful schoolboy. "I mean, I just dropped by to help her with the dishes, on account of all the tingling, and she splashed me, and then there was the shower and the iced... tea... and... um, I think I'd better be going," he said, his ears turning red. Could he sound any more incoherent? "Or, you could maybe join us for that movie, Fox..." Maggie suggested, and she turned to her daughter, giving the younger woman a conspirational wink. "Yes," Scully agreed, looking very much like she loved the idea. She glanced hopefully at her partner. "Mulder, you game?" "Oh, um..." he stammered, not truly sure if he was genuinely wanted on this excursion or not. Wouldn't they rather of had some sort of mother-daughter bonding time? Weren't they just being polite, since he had barged in and taken another night out of his partner's precious free time? "It'll be fun," Maggie promised. "We'll even let you hold the popcorn." "You can sit in the middle," Scully added, enjoying the thought of her partner sitting in a movie theater and being surrounded by Scully women. Mulder seemed to be entertaining the same thought as she, and he found the idea to be equally desirable. Any chance to sit next to Scully in the dark, possibly brush his fingers against hers while reaching for the popcorn at the same time. Faking a sneeze so he could drop his arm around her shoulder... "Well, in that case, I gladly accept the invitation. Thank you, Mrs. Scully," he chuckled. He offered her a quick smile, before his eyes returned to rest on the face of his favorite person in the world. The smile did remain, but then changed into something a little more sensual. None of this was lost on Maggie. "Wonderful!" she announced. "My car is parked down the street." "I wouldn't mind driving us, Mrs. Scully," Mulder offered chivalrously, never tiring in trying to make a good impression on the mother of the woman he adored. Scully was about to protest, but her mom spoke up before she could. "That would be lovely, thank you, Fox. You're such a thoughtful man." Mulder beamed over the compliment. "Isn't he so thoughtful, Dana?" Reaching for her purse, Dana smiled at Mulder, gazing upon him with her true blue eyes. "More than you'll ever know," she answered cryptically, making the man beam even more radiantly. A moment later, the three of them left to go see a movie at the small theater a few blocks from Scully's apartment. Though there had been a science fiction film that Mulder would have liked, and an intelligent drama that had piqued Scully's own interest, they settled on the mystery that Maggie wanted to see. For the two partners, the movie itself was not nearly as important as the company they kept. And as promised, Mulder sat in the middle and got to hold the popcorn in one hand, and his partner's in the other. Scene Twelve: "Christmas Traditions- Mistletoe & Mayhem" [Rated PG-13] December 25, 1998 Baltimore, Margaret Scully residence 10:45 a.m. Mulder sat on the sofa next to his partner, observing the children play with their new toys on the floor in front of him. He watched them with a fond eye. Though it was never something he thought much about, Mulder liked kids, thought they were fun and amusing. Wherever his sister was, he didn't think she had produced any offspring- at least, he never got that feeling that she might have. That left Scully's brood of a niece and three nephews as the closest he would most likely ever come to having any of his own. Glancing around the room, Mulder spied Margaret Scully having a happy, spirited conversation with her daughter-in-law, Jenny, Charlie's wife. Charlie, still stationed in France, had been unable to get away for the holidays, but his wife and their three kids had decided to come visit Grandma Scully on this holiest of days. Bill Scully, Jr. and his wife, Tara, were sitting together on the love seat. Tara was listening in with Maggie and Jenny, occasionally throwing in a comment or two of her own. Their little boy, Matthew, sat placidly on her lap, playing with some weird sort of baby toy that made a lot of noise. Bill seemed to concentrate his entire being on his little sister and her guest, going back and forth between staring disapprovingly at Dana, or glowering with unadulterated hatred in his eyes at Mulder. So, Mulder followed his partner's lead, and did his best not to even look at the man. Scully sat smack dab next to Mulder on the sofa, so closely that their bodies were touching from their shoulders down to their knees. She was simultaneously reading her three-year-old niece a story, and instructing her eldest nephew, twelve-year-old Brandon, how to set up his new Trivial Pursuit board game. Blowing out a breath, Mulder was still trying to figure out how he ended up here in the first place. He had conned Scully into going ghost busting with him the night before. What he'd been hoping would be a fun hour of scaring her- and maybe getting her to snuggle up to him- ended up being a night long torture session between he and Scully and two rather mean-spirited ghosts. He felt fortunate they had made it out of there with their lives. He had also learned a little more about himself than he had ever wanted. It still shamed him to think of all the cruel, cockamamie things Maurice had said about him. What hurt so much was the fact that he felt most of it was true. He had gone home, alone, feeling depressed and missing his beautiful partner terribly. But Santa must have had pity on him, for who should come a calling just an hour later, but that same beautiful partner he so loved and adored. They had even exchanged gifts! Scully had given him a new copy of Close Encounters of the Third Kind on VHS, to replace his worn out one. And he had presented her with a bottle of her- and his- favorite perfume. God, she always smelled so heavenly when she wore it. Of course, he enjoyed her natural scent, too, but if she was going to wear perfume, it might as well have been the kind he loved. He had hoped that his gift might be construed as sexy, romantic. After so many years of being with Scully, being her partner and her friend, he realized that, as wonderful as it was, it just wasn't enough for him. He needed her, in every possible way. Mulder was so desperately in love with her. He thought she might feel the same way, but Scully could be so guarded, so stoic, that he was never sure. He knew she did love him, but how much and in what way? Plus, there was a figure from his past that had put a small rift between them in the past six months... Diana Fowley... Diana wasn't the horrible, nasty villain Scully painted her to be. Nor did she mean anything to Mulder anymore, except as a trusted colleague. He didn't even consider her truly a friend. In fact, though they had dated for awhile after he had graduated from the academy, he still wasn't sure they could have been considered true friends... not like he and Scully. Of course, there wasn't a relationship in his entire life that could hold a candle to what he felt for Scully, whether she loved him romantically, or not. If she never wanted him sexually, but remained his friend, remained loyal and true- and he had no reason to doubt that she would- then he could go on living the life of a monk. Or at least, until he exploded from built up unresolved sexual frustration. Either way, he would stay faithful to the woman he loved, indefinitely. While he and Scully had sat on his worn out leather couch, admiring their gifts from each other, smiling, hugging, doing a little flirting, her cell phone had rang. She'd answered it absently, still chuckling over some amusing thing he had said, and after a moment, her posture went rim rod straight, and her eyes grew wide. For the briefest moment, he wondered if it was Skinner, barking orders at them to come in on Christmas day on some case that couldn't wait. But no, it had been her mother, worried sick that she hadn't arrived at the Scully homestead and wondering where she was, since she obviously wasn't home. Scully had then explained she was at Mulder's, and he could hear the woman on the other end of the phone call calm down somewhat. He then had watched his lovely partner as she listened to her mom, speaking only to say a few words here and there, such as, "Oh?" "No, I don't believe he does." "Really?" "I think it's a good idea, too, Mom." "No, I'll make sure he doesn't refuse." And finally, the one that surprised Mulder most of all, "We'll be there within an hour!" So it was between Mrs. Scully's gentle insistence and his partner's you-are-coming-with-me-and-you're- going-to-like-it! demand, there he was, sitting on the couch in his beloved's mother's house, smack dab next to her and surrounded by a large gaggle of Scullys of all ages and sizes and on Christmas day! It was truly surreal. "Aunt Dana," Mulder heard Brandon sigh, "can you please make crazy boy over there stop putting the little pie pieces into his mouth?" "Brandon, don't call him crazy boy," Scully scolded. She turned to her younger nephew. "Josh, that's your brother's game and you are too old to act this way. What, are you insane?" Mulder snickered, watching eight-year-old Joshua gleefully spit out six pie pieces from his mouth, onto the game board, complete with slobber. "Scully," he whispered, "don't call him insane." He winked at her. She made a face at him, then watched her nephews squabble over the game board and how Joshua had all but ruined it with his spit. This only made Joshua- who Mulder surmised, had to be the "jokester" of the family- laugh maniacally. He spit on his hand and wiped it on his brother's shirt. "Gross!" both Scully and Brandon chimed together, even making the exact same face of disgust. Mulder started laughing, not sure what was more amusing, Joshua's disgusting sense of humor or Scully's adorable reaction to it. In mid-conversation, Jenny turned to look at her boys on the floor and said, "Knock it off, kids. It's Christmas, for crying out loud!" Then returned her full attention to her mother-in-law, not missing a beat. "Wow, you Scully women sure are great multitaskers," Mulder cracked. Scully smacked him on the arm. "Aunt Dana no hitting," her niece scolded her in a way that only small children could get away with. "You should be going into time out!" She looked very seriously at her favorite aunt with childlike disapproval. "I'm too tall for time outs," Scully explained. Both of her nephews and Mulder all said in unison, "No, you're not." She gave them all her Scully look, which shut them up immediately. "Aunt Dana, Uncle Mulder, would you guys play my game with me?" Brandon asked. "These kids are just too young to understand." He gestured to his younger brother and sister- pausing to give Josh a dirty look- and then his little cousin, Matthew, who had left the confines of his mother's lap and was now off in a corner and ripping up a bunch of discarded wrapping paper most gleefully. "Sure, we will," Scully agreed easily for them both, not giving Mulder a say in the matter at all. Mulder himself was still trying to wrap his mind around the fact that Scully's nephew had just referred to him as Uncle Mulder in a very casual, nonchalant way. Scully hadn't seemed to notice. At least, she hadn't corrected her young relative. Usually if people equated Mulder and Scully as some sort of bonafide couple, she was quick to correct them. He glanced around the room, wondering if anyone else had noticed this. Mrs. Scully and her daughters-in-law were still yammering away. Joshua was still behaving obnoxiously, this time trying to shove the pie pieces into his nose. Scully's niece was busy playing with the woman's hair, a shade that was close to her own, and Matty had finished with his paper ripping and had moved on to box tearing. But then... Mulder dared to look over at Scully's older brother, Bill. The man was glaring at him, looking like a bull that was staring at a red flag. He would stop only long enough to offer a less threatening glare to his nephew, for even using such blasphemy. "Mr. Mulder is not your uncle, Brandon," Bill said in a quiet, seething tone. It made Mulder flinch and want to slink away and hide in a corner somewhere. He could see though, that both his beautiful partner and her lovely mother were about to chew the guy out for being so nasty- and on Christmas day- but young Brandon beat them to the punch. "Well," Brandon informed his uncle, using a no- nonsense tone that Mulder had heard his beloved use millions of times, "Mom and Dad said I should, and Grandma agreed. And Aunt Dana doesn't care, and neither does Uncle Mulder." Everyone sat there in stunned silence for a long moment. Normally, a child in the Scully family who dared to talk back to an adult in such a manner would be immediately reprimanded, possibly even grounded, but this time, no one said anything. Bill, Jr., for his part, started to glare at everyone in the room. Apparently, he was alone in his zealous hatred for the man who had been responsible for the death of his favorite sister, as well as for almost killing his baby sister on numerous occasions. He stood and marched out of the room, heading towards the kitchen, and still having no idea as to why this sorry son-of-a-bitch had even been invited to this sacred, family gathering. Mulder felt mortified at being the reason for such discord erupting on Christmas day in his partner's family celebration. He was certain that Scully would suggest that he head home, or Maggie would ask him to leave her house. He knew he couldn't face either of those scenarios, so he stood, ready to leave of his own accord. Scully stood with him and took his hand, gently giving it a tug, and making him sit down beside her on the floor in front of the sofa they had just risen off of. "Good idea, Mulder," she said, as if her brother's outburst had never occurred. "Let's sit on the floor. It's closer to the board." Tara came over and sat down on the floor beside Mulder. "I'm very sorry for my husband's... behavior," she whispered apologetically. "He... well, he's been over worked and stressed out lately." She patted his arm in a kindly manner, as Matthew toddled over to her and plopped down into her lap. "I'd like to play, too," she announced. "Mom, Grandma, will you guys play?" Brandon asked hopefully. They both eagerly agreed and ventured over to the group, everyone getting on the floor and crowding around the game board. "We'll need to pick teams," Brandon wisely surmised. "Mom, will you be on mine?" "Of course, honey," Jenny said affectionately. "I want to be on your team, too!" Joshua insisted and his mother affirmed it, much to Brandon's annoyance. "Tara, why don't you and I... and Matty be on a team?" Maggie suggested, and she offered her daughter and her partner a knowing smile. "Mulder and I will be a team, then," Scully piped up. When her three-year-old niece, also named Dana, crawled up into Mulder's lap, much to his surprise, she added, "And Dana, Jr. here, too." Mulder glanced down at the little girl sitting in his lap and trying to remove his wristwatch. She was beautiful. She had dark red hair and big blue eyes, just like Scully. He had seen pictures of his partner at different stages in her life thus far, and he had to say her niece looked a lot like her at the same age. "Uncle Mulder, I want your watch!" little Dana exclaimed and she smiled at him in just the way he'd seen the older Dana do whenever she wanted something from him. He gulped. "Two Dana Scully's on one team. I hope I can handle this." Scully smirked at him. "Very funny, Mulder." "You've got the two most demanding Scully women right there on your team, Fox," Maggie teased him. "You better hold your own." "Mom!" Scully protested, while her two sisters-in- law chuckled in agreement and little Dana deftly removed Mulder's watch. "Hey!" he laughed. "She got my watch off!" Scully smiled fondly at her niece, reaching out to smooth back the child's unruly locks. "She's very smart." Mulder leaned in closer to her, to whisper in her ear. "Just like another Dana Scully I know." They shared a loving look between them, one that was not lost on the other adults- or the two older children- in the room. * * * Bill, Jr. returned to the living room about forty-five minutes later, sipping from a glass of eggnog and holding two, delicious homemade Christmas cookies in his large hand. He'd been embarrassed by what had happened earlier, not for anything that he had said, but rather by his nephew's insolence. He was planning to phone his younger brother after the holiday and let him know just how snotty his eldest son was becoming... like father, like son, he groused. At least things should have calmed down by now. He assumed that his remarks had sent Mulder packing, humiliated by the acknowledgment that he wasn't really welcome around here, and hopefully the dunderhead would realize that he had no place at a Scully family gathering. It was horrible enough the man monopolized so much of his sister's time already. Did he have to start invading her holiday plans, as well? Never mind the fact that his mother had invited the bastard in the first place. He knew his mom was kind hearted and had a soft spot for hard luck cases, even a sorry son-of-a-bitch like Fox Mulder. Expecting to find his family- and only his family- nestled cozily in the living room, visiting, telling stories of Christmases past, or just admiring their new presents, he saw something that nearly made him spit his eggnog across the room. Bill was shocked to find the entire family- and that stupid, love-struck asshole, Mulder- all sitting on the floor in front of the sofa playing Trivial Pursuit! Mulder was sitting on the floor, cross-legged, with his baby sister sitting identically next to him, his knee overlapping hers, which made him roll his eyes. Jesus, why do they have to sit so fucking close? Tara and I don't even sit that close and we're married! Charlie's youngest, little Dana, was standing on Mulder's lap, running her chubby fingers through Mulder's spiky hair, giggling at the sensation. And Matthew- his own son, God-dammit!- was sitting on the asshole's lap, hugging him tightly about the waist, with a look of adoration on his baby face that nearly rivaled Dana's whenever she looked at the shit head! To his credit, Mulder was being very tolerant and gentle with both small children, laughing with them in their glee and taking every few moments to gaze dreamily at his partner, who would dreamily gaze right back. Bill, Jr. noticed that his mother, wife, sister-in-law and even his own two nephews were watching Dana and Mulder, looking completely beguiled by their obvious attraction and desire for each other. Too bad he couldn't share in their fervor for young love. The sight of his sister with that fucker only made him want to throw up the half-dozen Christmas cookies he'd already eaten. He watched the scene quietly for awhile, not letting on that he was standing in the foyer, looking in. He saw his mother grab one of the game cards to read a question. "All right, Dana, Fox, it's your turn," Maggie said, before focusing on the card's small print to read the question. "What Prince song had the lyric, Now overcast days never turned me on, but something about the clouds and her mixed?" Mulder and Scully glanced briefly at each other before they each stated, "Raspberry Beret!" Maggie nodded encouragingly, while Brandon and Josh groaned, as Scully moved her team's game board piece even further into first place. "The kind you find in a second hand store," Scully sang quietly in her off-key but endearing voice, surprising everyone there. "And if it was warm she wouldn't wear much more," Mulder sing-songed back to her, clearly flirting, actually picturing his beautiful partner in a beret... and nothing else. The look on his face clearly told everyone exactly what he was thinking of, including the shadowy figure spying on them from the hall way. The idea of it made Bill want to barf up a lung. "You know," he heard the jerk wad continue, "that would be a good look for you, Scully." "What? A raspberry beret?" she asked with a laugh. "Not even, Mulder!" "I'm going to get you one next Christmas," he told her. Bill shuddered at the idea that Mulder would be around to screw up their next Christmas. "In France they sell lot's of berets, of all colors, Uncle Mulder," Brandon piped up helpfully. "It's mostly for the tourists. But I bet we could find you one-" "It is so important to your future that you do not finish that statement," Scully snapped playfully at her nephew. He stuck his tongue out at her. "You can't touch me, FBI lady," he claimed. "I'm a minor and a citizen of France!" "You are not a citizen of France," she informed him. "You're a military brat!" "Viva la France!" Brandon proclaimed, and Scully reached over to tousle his hair. "You're becoming more and more like your dad every day," she chuckled. "And he's a good contact for procuring that beret," Mulder purred from her other side. "For next Christmas." "If you do, you'll be wearing it yourself, Mulder," she informed him haughtily. "I wouldn't be caught dead in one of those!" Maggie exchanged a knowing glance with her two daughters-in-law, silently asking, "Could these two be any more precious?" She received whole-hearted nods in the affirmative by way of reply from both of them. "I bet you'd look hot," Mulder blurted, momentarily forgetting that he and his partner were currently sitting amongst her very Catholic family members, including her mom, and with her very large big brother somewhere nearby. Scully flushed scarlet, having her partner tease and flirt with her so openly in front of her family, but she didn't hide, she didn't withdraw. It was Christmas day, and she was surrounded by loved-ones and sitting next to the only person she could ever picture spending the rest of her life with. She was too happy and giddy to let her embarrassment spoil the mood. "Well, that's just too bad, Mulder, because we'll never know," she teased him. Joshua glanced down at the game board and groaned out loud at how much ahead his aunt, sister and "uncle" were than every other team. "Oh, man! Mulder and the Dana's are gonna win!" Everyone could see the kid was already giving up in defeat. "Mulder and the Dana's," Mulder whispered to Scully. "Sounds like a sixties pop musical group." She laughed. "All I can say to that is I hope little Dana can sing, because I've heard both of us and we're definitely not lead singer material." "Bet you'd make a good drummer," he told her, his mouth still at her ear, his breath tickling her in the most sensual way. "You're good at thumping and keeping the beat." "Thumping?" she asked. "Well, you get my heart thumping," he whispered into her ear, before raising his finger to caress the side of her face, which was again turning a darker shade. Bill couldn't hear what the dunder-head had whispered into his little sister's ear, but considering the blush that appeared on her face, he had a pretty good idea it was something flowery or sexual. Either way, he had to fight the urge to barge in, tramp through the game board and pummel Mulder into the Christmas tree. He became distracted when his eldest nephew said, "Dana and Mulder are winning because they can read each other's minds..." He'd made this announcement in a spooky voice that made the adults laugh and Joshua perk up and take notice. "Really?" the eight-year-old asked, his eyes growing large, as he stared at Mulder and Scully with sudden awe. "Yeah," Brandon went on, in full storyteller mode now. "That's how they can be such good partners and find all those aliens and monsters and ghosts..." "Ghosts? You mean like Ghostbusters?" Joshua asked Mulder, clearly impressed. "Uh... not exactly," Mulder tried to explain. "Hey, since Aunt Dana and Uncle Mulder were going to win anyway, can we just stop playing this?" Brandon suggested, already bored with his new game. "That's not very sportsmanlike," his mother reminded him. "I'm not mad or anything," he promised. "I just would rather hear about Dana and Mulder's X-Files cases! I've heard you and Dad talk about them, and they sound really cool!" He glanced hopefully over at the two FBI agents. "Yeah!" Joshua echoed the sentiment, leaping up and down and grabbing Mulder's hand, yanking it back and forth. "I wanna hear, too!" Bill groaned quietly. Boy, it looked like both of his brother's sons were turning into little shits! "Um..." Mulder stuttered, not sure how to proceed. He knew the subject of their work was kind of... sensitive around here, especially to Bill, Jr., who he was sure was lurking about. And their work was so often times harrowing, dangerous, even heartbreaking. He did not want to spoil the happy Christmas mood they had going. Nor did he wish to make any of the adults- especially Scully or her mother- upset with him if he agreed. He looked expectantly to Scully, feeling it was more her place to let them down easy. At least, he hoped she'd do it, spare him having to disappoint the kids. Rolling his eyes, Bill had to wonder if that big- nosed idiot knew how to act in any situation, especially a normal one regarding children. Does he have to look to Dana for the answer like that every fucking time? What a pathetic moron! "Sure, Brandon," both Mulder and Bill, Jr. were surprised to hear Scully agree. She looked over at her partner. "Why don't you regale them with our adventures, while my mom and sisters and I get dinner underway?" She gave him an encouraging smile, then glanced over to the other women in her family, who nodded in agreement. Mulder would be the perfect distraction for the small fry, free entertainment, as it were, giving the women time to finish their preparations in the kitchen for the big feast, without having all those kids constantly underfoot, begging for something to eat and ultimately slowing down the process. Plus, she wanted him to get to know her family. Not only did he not have a close relationship with his own mother- the only family he had left- but she wanted her partner to feel as if her family was his, too. She wasn't entirely sure why, but it was important to her. The kids were such a perfect place for him to start. Already they were impressed with his interesting job and cool demeanor. It wasn't too many people that Scully let tease her so openly and get away with it. Even the children of the family were aware of this fact, and it only raised their respect for Mulder even higher. "Um... sure, Scully," Mulder agreed reluctantly, as she gazed expectantly at him. He stood up from the floor, still holding the two little ones in his arms. He gave Matthew to Tara, who had just stood herself, and gently set Dana, Jr. down on her feet beside him. Then he reached out, offering Scully a hand. She took it and he pulled her into a standing position. Their fingers remained entwined for some time after. At this, Bill, Jr. skulked out the door and ventured to sit alone on the front porch of his mother's house, in the December cold, without even a jacket. Reluctantly letting go of her partner's hand, Scully patted his shoulder reassuringly and whispered, "Just give them the G-rated version, okay, Agent Mulder?" He lifted his hand to caress her cheek. "Of course, Agent Scully," he agreed. They smiled at each other. Suddenly, three-year-old Dana, Jr. tugged on Mulder's pant leg, demanding to be picked up, which he readily did. "Uncle Mulder, will you marry me?" she asked with all the innocent ardor of a small child. It was a good thing that Bill, Jr. had already left for outside. He surely would have had a heart attack when the entire room uttered a collective, "Aw!" "Uh... I would," Mulder told the child gently, "because you're very sweet and pretty and smart, but I'm way too old for you." "That's okay," the child said, reaching out and patting him on the nose. "Old people are nice, like Grandma and Mommy and Auntie Dana." Everyone laughed. Then the women shuffled out of the room towards the kitchen. Scully lingered in the doorway for a moment longer, staring at her partner with such a loving look, he did a double-take, wondering at first, if she had been staring at one of the kids. Once he realized he was the true recipient of her sweetness, he sighed dreamily, and offered her a goofy grin. She smiled back, then left him to his own devices. He glanced down at all the small fry, feeling suddenly nervous. He liked kids, sure. But that didn't mean he knew how to entertain them, especially without additional adult supervision. But Brandon gave him a friendly smile, and then little Dana rested her head upon his shoulder, sighing in a soft, child's voice. For some reason, these gestures put him at ease, and he sat down upon the couch. Dana remained on his lap and Brandon and Joshua each sat on either side of him. Matthew sat at his feet, playing with another new toy. "I love you, Uncle Mulder," Dana told him, yawning. She kissed his cheek. Tears threatened to fall from his eyes, and Mulder barely had the will power to hold them back. He kissed the top of the small red head, just as he had done with the older Dana Scully so many times before. "I... love you, too, sweetheart," he told her gently, wishing that was something he could say as easily to her aunt, as well. Brandon picked up on how affected his aunt's partner was by his little sister's affections. "You know," he said, "I used to have a crush on Aunt Dana when I was little. Before I understood that she was related and stuff." "Yeah?" Mulder asked. He smiled, finding it very easy to understand Brandon's amorous feelings for the most wonderful woman on earth. "Yeah," Brandon added in a conspirational whisper, "she's really pretty and nice and she always smells good. Now, I know she's my aunt, so that's kind of gross..." The boy chuckled. "But I've got a girlfriend back home, where we live in France." He puffed out his undeveloped chest in boyish pride. "Really?" Mulder replied, actually impressed. "A French girl, huh?" Brandon nodded. "She even taught me how to French kiss. They're known for that, you know." "Uh, yeah, so I've heard..." Mulder went on in surprise. It looked like Scully's young nephew was quite the little lothario. "I want French fries," Dana, Jr. announced, having no idea what they were all talking about. "Not French fries," Mulder tried to explain. "French kis- eh, never mind." "I've French kissed my girlfriend, too," Joshua insisted, not wanting to be left out of the more grown up conversation. Brandon narrowed his eyes at his little brother. "No, you haven't, dork! You don't even have a girlfriend!" "Yes, I do!" Josh continued to insist. His older brother shook his head and mouthed to Mulder, "No, he doesn't." He asked the boy, "So, what's her name then?" "Uh... Sheleemisha," he slurred, mumbling shamelessly. "I'm sorry, what was that?" Brandon asked wickedly. "I... I'm not saying again," Joshua huffed. Mulder decided to spare the kid's feelings. "Ah, come on now, Brandon. Let Josh have at least a little mystery." "Yeah!" Joshua whole-heartedly agreed. Brandon shrugged. "You still never French kissed anyone!" he announced. Joshua let it slide and turned his attention to Mulder, who had just excused him from a bold faced lie. "Do you and Aunt Dana French kiss a lot?" the boy asked, leaving Mulder momentarily speechless with his mouth hanging open. He had just saved Josh from being humiliated by his older brother and this was how the kid repaid him? "Shut up, doofus!" Brandon scolded his younger sibling for the countless time that day, neither of them noticing the deep blush that had crept up on Mulder's face. "It's not polite to ask those kinds of questions. Besides, they're adults, so you know they do." "Sorry," Joshua said, looking truly chastised, to Mulder, before adding. "So, do you guys have sex a lot? I saw my mom and dad one time in the living room and-" "Shut up!" Brandon said again, this time thoroughly disgusted over the very idea of his parents being caught doing anything of the kind. He smacked his brother upside the head. "That is the grossest thing I've ever heard!" "Hey, guys, wanna hear about the X-Files?" Mulder tried again. "You and Auntie do sex?" the three-year-old Dana asked innocently, again, not knowing what she was saying. "Oh, man," Mulder mumbled, hiding his face in his hand. "Sex is gross!" Joshua proclaimed, rubbing at his head. Then he threatened, "I'm telling Mom that you hit me!" "Well, if you do," Brandon countered, "I will tell her what you just said to Uncle Mulder!" "Uh, guys!" Mulder shouted over them, looking completely red-faced and hoping beyond hope that none of this conversation ever got back to any of the women currently fixing a Christmas dinner in the kitchen. He would be mortified, and he further knew that Scully would be twice as mortified to be privy to what was said and asked. "Listen, boys, let's not do any tattling today. I mean, it's Christmas, right? It should be a nice day. No... fighting..." Mulder hoped he was getting through to them. He really didn't want anything that had thus transpired go past this room. "Besides, don't you want to hear about the X-Files?" "That's right!" Joshua exclaimed in excitement. "Ghost busters! Have you ever seen Slimer?" Before Mulder could answer him, the boy said, "Hold on! I have to get my GI Joe. He wants to hear, too!" He ran across the room, snagged his toy, then came bounding back and landing on Mulder's side, causing the man to make a loud, "oof" sound. "Quit hurting Uncle Mulder," Brandon hissed. "If you break him, Auntie will be mad," little Dana scolded her brother, making all three of the "men" in the room laugh. She snuggled into Mulder's lap, and he gave her a squeeze. Ah, why couldn't they all just be sweet, innocent little girls...? Mulder wondered, glancing at each of the little stinkers sitting on either side of him. Yeah, sweet, trouble-free girls... "I gotta go pee pee," the sweet, innocent little girl said. "Um..." Mulder stammered. "It's gonna come out really soon, Uncle Mulder," she informed him matter of factly. He leapt up from the couch, holding her about a foot away from him. "Uh..." "It's okay, Uncle Mulder," Brandon volunteered nicely, "I'll take her to the bathroom." "Thanks, Brandon," he replied shakily, feeling as if he had narrowly missed being involved in a major catastrophe. "Don't start without me!" the boy called over his shoulder as he ushered his sister out of the room. "Wouldn't dream of it," Mulder sighed. He closed his eyes for a brief moment, trying to regain some sense of composure. He could hear Matthew making a rustling noise, and opened his eyes to check on him. The toddler was ripping up more wrapping paper. Mulder nodded in approval then became acutely aware that the eight-year- old boy-menace was sitting next to him on the couch, scrutinizing the man very closely. When Mulder met his eyes, the boy smiled, resembling a red haired gremlin. Mulder's Adam's apple bobbed nervously, afraid that the little darling was going to ask him another one of his famous questions, like how old he was when he lost his virginity or what sexual position he and Scully preferred. Instead, Joshua said to him, "Since you're the oldest in here, if Matty poops his pants, you're going to have to change his diaper!" * * * About an hour later, Scully returned to the living room, to check on the kids... and her partner, and see how he was fairing. She half expected to find the poor man to be on the bottom of a Scully kid pile-up in the middle of the floor, or, even worse, locked away in the bathroom, hunkered down behind the toilet in a fetal position, mumbling to himself. But she found her partner on the couch, Brandon sitting on one side of him, Joshua on the other. The two little ones were each perched on a knee, being held carefully in place by his large, warm, capable hands. The sight made her smile, which caused her to blush, even though no one had even seen her yet. "... And then she turned on the fire alarm and I sho- uh, apprehended the Pusher!" he was saying. "So, she saved you? Aunt Dana did?" Brandon asked, sounding ecstatic and proud to be a member of her family. "She always does," came the heartfelt reply that caused Scully to swallow the lump in her throat. "But why did she pull the fire alarm if there wasn't a fire?" Joshua asked, scratching his head in confusion. Brandon groaned out loud. "Jeez, you idiot, she did it to distract that Pusher guy!" "Why?" The older boy rolled his eyes in aggravation. "Because, stupid, if the Pusher was distracted by the noise, then he couldn't control Uncle Mulder's brain!" "Oh... why did Pusher control Uncle Mulder's brain?" Before Brandon could blow his stack, Mulder intervened. "He was the bad guy," he explained gently. "That's what he did." "Ah..." Joshua replied, seemingly enlightened. "How did Aunt Dana even think to do that?" Brandon wondered. "Because she's so smart," Mulder replied admiringly, and Scully's heart did flip-flops. "Why didn't she just go get the rest of the police force?" Brandon asked, suddenly realizing just how much danger his cherished auntie had been in. It made him shudder. Mulder understood exactly how the boy felt. Recalling those intense moments always had a profound effect on him, too. "I guess because... she knew that time was of the essence. If she had left to go find assistance, I might not have... been around when she got back." "Auntie Dana is really brave, huh, Uncle Mulder?" Joshua said proudly. "She's the bravest person I know, Josh." "She's pretty, too," the child added, smiling sweetly. "I'll have to agree with you on that, kid," Mulder agreed, and Scully sighed dreamily to herself. "So, is Aunt Dana the bravest and prettiest girl in the world?" Josh asked, trying to re-cap what he assumed was the moral of the story... and, in Mulder's eyes, it was. "Yes, she is, son," he told her. "And the smartest, too, don't forget." Brandon nodded approvingly. "Yeah, she's definitely the smartest one in our family, but we're all actually pretty smart... well, except for Josh." He smirked wickedly at his little brother. "Shut up, Brandon!" Joshua protested angrily. "I'm way smarter than you!" "You're such an anal gland," Brandon sneered and Mulder chuckled in spite of himself- had to give the kid points for originality- until Joshua leapt over him and the two little ones to tackle his older brother. "You're an ugly butt hole!" he retorted, trying to punch his brother in the face. The larger boy easily avoided the attack. "For your information, all butt holes are ugly, stupid!" "Yeah, like you!" Josh yelled, struggling with his brother, while Mulder tried to stand up and get the smaller children out of the way. He hollered a couple of times for them to stop, but neither boy would listen. It was then that Scully knew she had to make her presence known. She stepped into the room, cleared her throat loudly and told the little hooligans to knock off their fighting, or she was going to tell their mother about all the insults they had slung back and forth at each other just moments before. This admission made Mulder blush a little, wondering just how much of their conversation she had been listening to before announcing her presence. But at least the boys obeyed her commands, and ceased their rigorous horseplay. After they stopped, she told them that dinner was just about ready, so they had better head in and wash up, or they wouldn't be getting anything to eat. Considering they were all starved by now- most of the kids had vetoed any breakfast in favor of opening presents and they had all been too busy with the fun of the day to even think about lunch. Brandon picked up little Matthew, while Joshua grabbed his sister's hand and they all raced for the bathroom. Scully watched them bound out of the room, feeling exhausted just watching them. She wondered if she had ever been that full of energy. With a yawn, she smiled, recalling that she and her siblings had probably been far worse than her niece and nephews ever were. Mulder was beside her all of a sudden, his large, warm hand making slow, soothing circles on her back. "Tired?" he asked gently. "Yeah, a bit," she admitted, unable to stifle another yawn. He smiled affectionately at her, then his face darkened over the recollection that the reason she was so tired was because of him. If he hadn't coaxed her out to that damn haunted house last night, then tricked her into going inside and getting trapped for hours... "Stop, Mulder," she said. "Huh?" "You're thinking so loud I can hear it," she chuckled. "I did not mind being out there with you last night. In fact, I believe I told you that I wanted to be out there with you, just this morning, if you remember." "Hmm," he surmised, trying to strike up a thoughtful expression. "I guess Brandon was right, you really can read my mind." She poked him playfully in the ribs. "Well, when you're being that obvious, it isn't too difficult." Taking a quick inventory of the mess in the living room, Scully decided to embark on a quick clean up. "Totally anal," she heard her partner snicker, as if he was reading her mind. "Shut up, Mulder," she warned him. "Just want to help out my mom a little, before we go in to have dinner." With the same look of determination Mulder had seen upon her beautiful face when she was about to perform an autopsy or write a report to turn in to Skinner, Scully started on a hasty clean up job. She took all the presents scattered about the room and began making piles for each person, sections for each family. Though he had only received one present here- besides the one Scully had given him earlier- which had been a tasteful silk tie from Mrs. Scully, Mulder watched as she placed his tie right next to her own pile of Christmas booty, just as she had put all of Bill's and Tara's or Charlie's and Jenny's with each others. As absurd as it seemed, this simple gesture brought tears to his eyes, which he wiped away before Scully could see. Watching Scully so busy made him feel idle just standing there, so he decided to join her. His contribution was to gather up all of the discarded and torn wrapping paper- and there was a lot of it, thanks to Matty- and wadding it up and throwing it into an empty box near one of the end tables. Scully soon noticed his attempts to help her. "Oh, Mulder, that's all right. You don't have to clean up after-" "Scully," he reminded her, "your mom told me that I was one of the family, didn't she?" "Of course!" "Well, if one of your brothers or the kids was just sitting here on their ass, watching you do all the work, would you let them get away with it?" "Hell no," she declared, smiling in surprise that her beloved partner would even want to be included in her loony family. "I see your point. Very well. Come on, Mulder, move your ass! I'm hungry!" "So bossy," he teased her, wadding up another bit of wrapping paper and tossing it at the box. He made it and shouted, "two points!" in triumph. She rolled her eyes. "How impressive," she sniggered. "From a whopping three feet away." "I'd like to see you do better," he challenged, then bit his tongue as she grabbed some of the wrapping paper, wadded it up and stood a good six feet away. She tossed it at the box without looking. It went in, dead center. "Nothing but net," she told him confidently. He made a face at her. "I bet you were the kind of kid who got all A's in school and was the teacher's pet and a hall monitor, too." "Shut up, Mulder," she retorted good-naturedly, chuckling inwardly over the fact that she had been all of those things and more. It was downright scary how well he knew her sometimes. "So, Miss Bossy," he went on, still using a mocking tone, "why are we eating dinner so early? It's only two thirty in the afternoon." She shrugged. "Christmas tradition. Mom always cooks way too much food, and of course, everyone always eats way too much food. She makes it an early dinner so we have time to properly digest before bedtime. Otherwise, we'd have to roll each other up the stairs for bed later. Plus, it gives our stomachs time to rest before dessert. Of course, that never stops the kids in the family from demanding pie the minute their dinner plate is clean." "Mmm, pie... Mulder murmured, making a drooling sound, a la Homer Simpson. Scully laughed appreciatively at his antics. "Why do I get the feeling that you're going to be even worse than the kids about wanting dessert?" "I'll be good," he promised. "Wouldn't want your mom thinking I'm a complete pig and never invite me back." Having finished with her gift organization project, Scully began to help him pick up the ravaged wrapping paper in earnest. "I don't think that's something you need to worry about, Mulder. My mom adores you... probably more than she adores me," she laughed. "In fact, I think the whole family finds you more than agreeable." She glanced shyly at him before hiding her eyes. "Well, except for Bill," he pointed out. She sighed. "Ah, forget about him, Mulder. He hates everyone at least some of the time. And I know I'm not exactly his favorite person." "Probably because you introduced me into his life," Mulder reasoned sadly. "Mulder," she said in a warning tone. "Remember what I told you once? That it isn't always about you? Well, this is one of those times. Bill has always been something of a brute, especially to Charlie and me, growing up. He liked to bully us little ones, for some reason. I really don't think he's ever liked me at all, to be honest- and that was well before he ever met you." "I can't understand how anyone could not love you, Scully," she heard him murmur. She glanced up, realizing just how physically close they suddenly were. It startled her a bit. When had he come over here? Immediately, she ruminated over his words. She hadn't mentioned love, but he had. She could also feel his body heat pressing into her, as if he was actually holding her, although in reality he was at least two feet away. She grew slightly breathless and her fair complexion went rosy. Mulder reached out, took her hand. He recalled having told her that he loved her, just about a month or so ago, while in a hospital. He ended up in that hospital after chasing down the ghost ship the Queen Anne. If it hadn't been for her and the Gunmen, he surely would have drowned. He was well aware of that fact. He also knew that Scully had risked a lot- especially in the professional sense- to go after him. He felt so much love and gratitude for the woman that he hadn't been able to help himself and blurted his feelings out loud, for the first time, in her presence. He was then rewarded of her doubtful reaction, "Oh, brother!" He realized she thought that it had been the drugs talking, not his heart. After all, she was a doctor, she knew the amount of morphine that had already been pumped into his system. He had known exactly what he was saying, however. The drugs had not been the cause of his sudden need to express what he felt was the obvious. Unfortunately, Scully hadn't believed him... or maybe she had, and she just had not been prepared, or ready to hear such a declaration. Scully stared into his hazel eyes, having the same memory coursing through her skull. Mulder's eyes looked as sincere and amorous as they did now. She recalled the little thrill that sent chills running down her spine when he'd announced his love for her... and she had blown it, blown it big time. She had rationalized at the time that Mulder was doped up on medication, and could not be held accountable for what he did or said. Deep down though, she knew he'd meant it. But his words had scared her. As much as she loved him, as much as she longed for a more intimate relationship with him, she really did not feel as though he was truly ready. Encouraging him would have caused their romance to bloom prematurely, therefore setting it up to end in the same manner. She wasn't sure what all had changed since then, a scant month. Maybe nothing really had changed at all, except for the widening chinks in the armor of her resolve to keep him at bay until she felt both were ready to venture down the path into the unknown together. Looking at him now, standing so close, his eyes boring into hers, the love in them as plain to see as the desire, she honestly didn't think she could resist him. Not today, not when they had acted so loving and playful with each other, not when she saw the approval in her mother's eyes over her choice of mate, not when she witnessed the beautiful man in her life awkwardly, but lovingly, entertaining the children in her family. Not when the love she had for him was bubbling to the surface now, ready to burst forth like a volcanic eruption. Daring to look away from him, if only for a moment, Scully instinctively glanced upwards toward the ceiling. There, as if it had sprouted just in that moment for her own benefit, she spied the sprig of mistletoe above her head. Mulder had followed her gaze, noticed the object she was focusing on. They looked back to each other at the same time... Her heart beating a mile a minute, Scully drew closer to the handsome man in front of her. In a fit of daring, she held out her arms, wrapped them about his shoulders and pulled him close to her. Not wanting to fall behind, Mulder encircled his long arms around her waist, his own breath hitching in his throat. "Oh, Scully," he sighed, completely enchanted by her. The feel of her small but supple body pressed so tightly against him nearly made his knees buckle. He loved her so much, wanted her so badly. He prayed- and he was not a praying man- that she wanted him, too. Hoping that her mother and the rest of her family were preoccupied in the kitchen, sure that Skinner wouldn't call up out of the blue to wish them a Merry Christmas, knowing that the Cigarette Smoking Man had better things to do than spy on two, little insignificant peons on a holiday, and aware that bees weren't too common in the dead of winter, Mulder's face drew closer to his beloved's. "Christmas tradition," she said again, her voice barely a whisper, her eyes closing as her lips parted to meet his... They weren't even a centimeter apart when they heard someone shout, "Oh, Jesus fucking Christ!" Scully's eyes flew opened and she turned her head towards the entryway and Mulder ended up kissing her cheek. Then he, too, turned to see Bill Scully, Jr. standing in the foyer, still shivering from the outdoor, winter cold, and sporting a look that held less warmth and humanity than Mulder had seen in the flukeman's eyes all those years ago. The guy's fists were clenched at his sides, and he looked like he was just itching to pound the shit out of someone... that someone being a certain Fox Mulder. Mulder gulped and feared that Scully's earlier proclamation that her mother adored him might change dramatically if he ended up in fisticuffs with her son at her home on Christmas day. He vowed to himself not to lay a hand on the seething man. Even if Bill decided to beat him to a bloody pulp, he would not fight back. He did not want to upset Mrs. Scully or his darling partner. It was only then that Mulder noticed how tense and angry the woman still standing in his arms was getting. He gulped again. Scully was the sweetest person alive, but he also knew her temper was downright dangerous! Was this something that ran in the family? Was Bill just as bad? Worse? What if something happened between brother and sister? What if Bill got into it with Scully and it came to blows? If the large man laid one hand on his sister, or hurt her in anyway, Mulder knew he was going to have to break his earlier promise not to fight Bill. He didn't care that Scully's brother was somewhat taller and quite a bit bulkier than he. If the jerk did anything to his woman, then he would be forced to kick his ass! "What the hell is your problem, Bill?" Scully demanded of her brother, her pretty, blue eyes shooting daggers at the man. Mulder had attempted to pull away from Scully, in order to make himself into a barrier between her and her livid sibling, but she had a very tight grip on his arm, keeping him close. When he stopped struggling against her, her grip loosened and nearly turned into a caress, which surprised him that she could be so tender with him, while still seething at her brother. When Bill took a threatening step towards the couple, Scully did let go of Mulder's arm, but only to stand in front of her partner. It was a protective action that touched his heart and would have had him sighing sweetly at her if he hadn't been so concerned for her own safety. Still, he realized she knew her brother much better than he did. Perhaps this was all a bluff. "What's the matter, Mulder, you sorry son-of-a- bitch?" Bill taunted him, continuing his slow, deliberate pace, coming ever closer. "You scared, asshole? Do you always hide behind my baby sister for protection?" Mulder said nothing, he only stood, rim-rod straight and ready to pounce should the need arise. He was somewhat distracted by the fact that Scully was currently in the line of fire between the two men. She wanted to get in the middle of this, despite Mulder's not wanting her to get hurt. He blinked back a few tears. How the hell had they gone from playing Trivial Pursuit, telling X-Files stories and indulging in mistletoe fantasies to this barbaric display of testosterone induced aggression? He could feel the heat of battle coming off of his little partner in waves. He'd seen her take down men twice her size. He didn't want to have to witness her getting into a fistfight with her own brother. Realizing that when he was angry and out of control, just her simple touch could relax him, calm him, he wondered if he had the same effect on her. Reaching a shaky, tentative hand out, he rested it upon her shoulder, giving it a little squeeze. Scully did relax slightly under his touch, and she glanced back at him with a loyal, fiercely protective gaze, underscored by equally fierce love. Then she returned her attention to her advancing brother. "Back off," she warned him. Bill had noticed the subtle touch between them, saw how Mulder merely putting a hand on her shoulder had affected her. It made him grit his teeth and contort his features with fury. "No, he needs to back off!" he spat. "Don't even talk to him, Bill," Scully hissed, getting her Irish up. "This is none of your damn business!" "Like hell it isn't!" Bill, Jr. stammered in disbelief. "This guy has been fucking up my family for too long. And now it looks like he's just plain fucking my sister!" He lunged. Before Mulder could do anything, Scully advanced, stopping her brother in his tracks. She pushed him back with a strength that truly surprised the naval officer. For being the runt of the litter, she had a lot more power behind her than he would have thought possible. Even angry with her, Bill felt a surge of pride over his little sister's ability to hold her own against him. She really had grown into a fine, strong woman... too bad her taste in men sucked! "Scully," Mulder said gently, his voice calm and soothing, "I... I don't want you to fight with your brother. If he wants to start something with me, then maybe we should just... just step outside." He sighed, not thinking there was any way out of this that wouldn't lead to violence. He would just rather none of that violence touched his partner at all. He would go outside with Bill in the cold. He would let the man beat the shit out of him. He would ask for a towel to clean himself with, then beg Maggie's forgiveness that he had to leave, because something had come up. Then he would kiss the woman he loved on the forehead and hail a cab back to Alexandria, and eat a TV dinner alone... "Oh, you better believe I want to start something, you fucker," Bill confirmed, raising a fist in Mulder's general direction. Grabbing his fist and twisting it deftly behind his back- a testament to that wonderful FBI training- Scully whispered menacingly into her brother's ear. "If you touch him, Bill, if you harm one hair on his head, I will knock you out where you stand!" Slowly, she released him and backed away, bumping into Mulder's chest. Both men were completely stunned into silence, by her words and actions, albeit for very different reasons. Bill rubbed at his sore arm, unable to fathom that his sister would choose a loser over her own flesh and blood. Mulder set his hands upon her shoulders, massaging them ever so slightly, shocked that she would choose a loser like him over her own flesh and blood. Then again, perhaps their reasons weren't so different after all. And of course, this was when Margaret Scully walked in. "Oh, Bill, there you are. And I was looking for the two of you," she laughed, wagging a playful finger at her daughter and her partner. "Dinner is ready and on the table. We were just waiting for you all and..." She paused, glancing between her son and her daughter. They had done their best to mask the anger and hostility they currently harbored for one another- as well as Bill's outright hatred for Mulder- but she had known each of these people since the day they were born. She had raised them, taken care of them and loved them unconditionally their entire lives. She also knew when they were trying to hide something. "What's going on?" she asked pointedly. Maggie glanced at Mulder but his face was unreadable. She then stared at Dana with concern, before settling her focus on her hotheaded oldest child. Scully looked back at Mulder's blank face for a moment- recognized that it was his panic face- and then turned back to her mother, her eyes suddenly going bright and sunny. She managed an innocent smile that didn't really fool any of the other people in the room, as they all knew her too well. "Nothing's going on, Mom," she said. "I was... just about to do this, actually..." She leaned back into Mulder, reaching behind her to grab his head and haul him closer. She refrained from engaging in the hot, gooey romantic lip lock she had envisioned experiencing with him until her stupid brother ruined the moment, but when she smacked her lips on his cheek, they were moist and open. Mulder audibly gasped, and his eyes involuntarily closed. Leave it to his beautiful partner to turn him on with a kiss on the cheek in front of her mom and brother. He had to make sure she was directly in front of him now. Didn't want anyone- especially Bill- to see the residual effects on him her kiss had wrought. Bill, however, knew exactly what was going on, and if his mother hadn't been in the room, protective Dana or no, he would have thrown that fucking son-of-a- bitch out through the damn window! He glowered at the man, while his mom's attention was drawn elsewhere. "Mistletoe," Scully was saying, as her mother appeared ecstatic to have witnessed such an act of intimacy between her daughter and the man she loved. She may have been only a mom, but she knew desire when she saw it and she saw that it was ebbing and flowing freely between the two partners. "Of course," Maggie agreed, delightedly. "It is a Christmas tradition!" She walked over and kissed Dana's cheek, before reaching up further to peck Mulder's. She purposely avoided looking anywhere in the general vicinity of the man's crotch, but she needn't have worried. Mulder's arousal over Scully's kiss was effectively obliterated by her brother's look of pure hatred. "Thanks, Mrs. Scully," he said, after receiving a kiss. He was pretty sure he was blushing. "Come on, gang," the lady of the house exclaimed, "let's go have dinner now, shall we?" "Sounds good," Bill said woodenly. "Sounds delicious!" Dana amended, one-upping her brother yet again. She took Mulder by the hand, leading him down the hall. "You hungry, Mulder?" "Starved!" he exclaimed. "Especially for Maggie Scully's cooking!" He grinned at both women, although, in truth, his stomach was in such knots from all the drama before, he wasn't sure if he'd be able to eat much of anything. Still, he reasoned as he and Scully joined the family at the table, and as he held hers and Maggie's hands with his head bowed low during the pre-dinner prayer, Scully picked me over Bill. She made that very clear to both of us. Maybe she really does love me. Maybe that means this is really going to happen someday. Maybe that's the best Christmas gift I could ever hope to get... Scene Thirteen: "When Mulder Met Scully... And Pissed Her Off!" [Rated PG-13] May 1999 Memorial Hospital, North Carolina 7:13 p.m. After a myriad of tests and getting poked and prodded more than she had ever cared to be, Scully was being wheeled down to her room by an orderly. She had been admitted to the hospital immediately upon arrival, and after checking her vitals, making sure she was stable, she'd been bathed hastily by three nurses, all of them wrinkling their nose and nearly gagging at the putrid smell of the mushroom's slimy residue. Then, she had been put on the slab and all the doctors did their thing. Once she was given the prognosis, "you'll live," she was finally given a reprieve from people swabbing her and jabbing her and peering over her, and was put into a wheelchair and taken to her room. All through her ordeal, no matter how exhausting and humiliating the entire experience was, her thoughts remained tuned in on her partner, hoping that he was all right, as well. She had asked about him repeatedly, but no one seemed able to give her a definitive answer, which worried her. She hadn't seen him since they'd been taken out of the ambulance and whisked away in different directions. The male orderly taking her to her room, a very young man with wavy brown hair, a sweet smile and a twinkle in his dark eyes, flirted with her shamelessly all the way down the hall. She was flattered and didn't nip his amorous affections in the bud, like she usually would have. For one thing, she was just too damn exhausted to do much of anything that required any sort of effort, either physical or mental. Plus, there was the fact that her hair was a mess, she was wearing not a smear of make-up and she was pretty sure she could still detect the slightest hint of the rancid mushroom residue on her person. The fact that she looked and felt and smelled that badly and still managed to catch the eye of a handsome orderly who couldn't have been more than twenty, gave a real boost to her ego, which was just what she needed. Both her ego and her heart had been pretty sore lately... Though they had held hands the entire way to the hospital, and though, during her hallucinogenic trip, courtesy of the mushroom, she had pined away for Mulder, thinking he had been killed... their partnership hadn't been working on all thrusters lately. Even the beginning of this case had put them at odds. She could chalk it up to Diana Fowley getting between them, but she knew it went deeper than that. Mulder's easy trust in that woman had made Scully feel as though the trust he had always given to her was threatened. She was beginning to think that he would soon outgrow the need for her partnership altogether, in favor of Fowley... The thought made her involuntarily shiver. "Are you cold, Dana?" Chad, her young orderly asked her as he finished fluffing her pillow for her. "Would you like an extra blanket?" "Oh, no, thank you, I'm fine." "How's that pillow?" he asked eagerly. "It's great, thanks." "Can I get you some water, Dana?" She swallowed, noticed that her throat was, indeed, dry. "Um, sure. That would be nice, Chad." He offered her a winning smile, and she noticed his adorable dimples, then he hastily made his way over to the sink in the bathroom, grabbing up a clean Styrofoam cup and filling it with some ice water. He stuck a straw in it, to make it easier for her to drink, and he held the cup in front of her face. "Here you are, Dana." "Thanks," she said for the countless time and took a drink. She had to hold in a chuckle. This boy was really trying hard to impress her. "Did you want to try and eat anything?" "Mmm, nah, I don't think my stomach can handle too much right now," she admitted. "Want to watch some TV?" he asked. "No, I'm rather tired. I'll probably just drift off to sleep soon. Thanks, anyway." "Dana...?" "Yes?" "Would you like to exchange phone numbers?" he asked hopefully, his dark eyes turning seductive. His question caught the G-woman quite by surprise. She certainly wasn't expecting this. "Um..." "Honey, I'm home!" Mulder called from the doorway, being wheeled into the room by another orderly and glaring pointedly at Chad. The boy's eyes grew wide in embarrassment and fear. "Uh, talk to you later, Dana," he said and as he rushed past Mulder, he murmured, "Sorry, dude, but... can you blame me?" Mulder continued to glare after the boy as he made a hasty retreat. Scully pretended that she had not seen nor heard any of that awkward exchange. She watched in confusion as the other orderly, this one quite a few years older than Chad, and named Tom, helped Mulder out of his wheelchair and into the empty bed just a few feet away from her own. Her eyebrow rose high above her eye. This seemed... unusual. "You need anything, Mr. Mulder?" Tom asked. "The TV remote?" Mulder replied hopefully. He didn't hear Scully sigh wearily. Tom found it on the small table in between the beds and handed it to Mulder. "Here you go. Anything else for you, or your lady?" Scully's eyebrow went up even further, nearly disappearing into her hairline. She stared pointedly at Mulder, but said nothing, instead waiting to hear his reply. Mulder offered Tom a happy smile. "Nope. I think my lady and I are A-okay!" He gave him a friendly thumbs up. "Great. Just buzz if you need anything," and Tom left the room. Smiling after the guy, Mulder turned to face his beloved partner. His smile broadened at the sight of her. He hadn't seen her since they'd been taken off the ambulance and he had been so worried about her, asking anyone he could find to check on her for him. No one had ever gotten back to him, so seeing her now, looking clean and relatively healthy made him very happy. "Hey, Scully. You look good. How are you feeling?" "Your lady?" she questioned him by way of reply. "And... why is it we are sharing a room here at the hospital?" Mulder's grin faded and he looked disappointed, sad. He shrugged, averting his eyes. "I think Skinner requested the shared room," he lied; in all actualities, he had arranged for this himself. "Skinner?" she asked incredulously. "But why? Where is he?" "He's not here anymore, already heading back to D.C. upon learning that we weren't in any immediate danger. The nurse told me, though. She said that he requested this because he thought that we'd be more... comfortable if we could convalesce together." "He did?" she asked, still incredulous. "Personally," Mulder continued with his ruse, "I think it's probably some new, FBI money-saving agenda, making partners injured on the job together share a room at the hospital... but that's just a guess." He shrugged and averted his eyes, knowing that if she peered into them far enough, she would know he was pulling this all out of his ass. Luckily for him, she was too tired for such scrutiny. She sighed. "Are you serious? Jesus, what's next? Making us share motel rooms?" "I certainly wouldn't mind," he blurted, then could have kicked himself, upon seeing the glare she sent his way. Apparently, Agent Scully wasn't in the best of moods, certainly not in the mood for his usual innuendoes, even though this one had been sincere. "Well, we have shared a room before and it wasn't all that terrible... at least, it wasn't for me!" He folded his arms across his chest and diverted his attention to the television, which he turned on with a press of a button on the remote and quickly found ESPN. "I didn't mean it that way," she admitted begrudgingly, still a little bewildered by Skinner's strange request and not feeling entirely comfortable about this situation she had found herself in at all. "And it wasn't terrible for me, either. I- I guess I'm just surprised to find us sharing a room..." "Do you want me to request a transfer to another room?" he asked, sighing wearily, and sounding more than a little hurt. "Of course not," she told him gently, although she honestly felt weird about him being in here with her like this, both of them so unavoidably vulnerable at this time. She realized that things were kind of... sensitive between them right now, what with the arguing, the whole Diana Fowley thing, and the pressures all of that had put on not only their professional partnership, but their personal friendship as well. The wedge between them had been growing steadily for months now and it made their interactions so strained, sometimes nearly unbearable. That didn't mean she still didn't love and adore the man, but she couldn't help the way she felt. "We'll be fine in here," she reiterated, as if trying to convince herself more than he. He picked up on that right away, even if he didn't directly call her on it. Instead, he went with, "Yeah, you want to keep me close to make sure I don't refuse to take my medication or give the hospital staff a hard time." He looked more than a little sulky. She did not want to start an argument with him. Especially in light of the fact they would be sharing a room, in close quarters for God-knows-how-long. Her tone gentle, her expression meandering towards affectionate, she replied, "Or maybe I want to keep you close because you're my best friend and you mean a lot to me and I want to make sure you're getting the best possible care during your stay here." They were silent for awhile, Mulder seemingly mulling over her kindly words. Then... "Nah, it's probably more for the first reason." Scully groaned and rolled her eyes. He was going to make things as difficult as possible, she imagined. Well, two could play at that game... "Mulder, change the channel. See if you can find CNN." He made a snoring sound. "BORING!!!" "Since when is the news boring?" she asked haughtily. "Since I don't feel like watching it while I'm stuck in a damn hospital for an indefinite amount of time. What's wrong with ESPN?" "Talk about BORING!!!" she retorted, almost feeling like she was ten-years-old again, and arguing with one of her siblings. "Come on, Mulder, give me the remote!" She held out a demanding hand to him, her fingers gesturing for him to give her the object in question. He smirked. As if! As cute as she was, she was not getting the damn remote. This was a battle of the wills now. And, although he knew if anyone was smarter than he, it would have to be her, he was better able to annoy her into oblivion than she could do to him. He didn't know what that said about him. Am I the more annoying between us? Damn straight! Just ask Skinner... or Kersch... or anyone that's ever met the two of us... And he was about to demonstrate this fact to its extreme. "Hang on a second, Scully, I want to see if they get the Playboy Channel. Want to watch a dirty movie with me?" he asked, waggling his eyebrows at her. "No, I don't, actually," she retorted, her eyes narrowing in a way that meant she was truly annoyed. "And especially not where someone could just walk in at any given moment. Besides, I highly doubt a hospital is going to offer the Playboy Channel to its patients, anyway." "So... if we were hanging out at my house and no one else was around, would you-" "No!" she snapped, beyond irritated now. She looked away from him, staring wistfully out the window. Suddenly pissing off his partner not only seemed a lot less fun than he had initially imagined, but also not a very good idea. Mulder gave her a close look, feeling frustrated that she could not see into her eyes. He loved her beautiful, blue eyes, felt like he could drown in them. And he willingly would, whenever given the chance. But she had taken such a chance away by facing the opposite way. Despite the fact she was guarding herself from him, he could tell by her body language that anger was not her chief emotion right now. It wasn't just him being a turd at her; no, there was more to it. She looked almost... sad. He hated to see her sad. It made him feel the same, only tenfold. He decided to offer her just the tiniest olive branch. "I could... look for a nice romance movie?" he offered. "No, thank you," she stated flatly, turning on her side. She pulled the covers up around her shoulders. The simple act had a look of finality to it that didn't set well with him at all. That did it for Mulder. Perhaps he should re-think about which of them could claim the prize for most irritating. Scully had the ability to irritate him like no other! "Oh, what's the matter, Scully?" he snapped defensively. "Is it the company you're keeping? Would you rather watch one with Chad?" She could hear the sneer in his tone when he uttered the orderly's name. This was definitely top- blowing material he was hitting her with and she mentally counted to ten, trying her damndest not to leap the distance between them and start strangling her partner there in the hospital room. Besides, she mused darkly, it would be a pointless act considering where we are. They would only revive him... "Mulder," she asked, trying to keep her voice as neutral as possible, "can you please tell me what you're rambling on about?" "Well, you two certainly seemed pretty chummy," he muttered, now refusing to look at her as well. He stared intensely at the TV screen, seemingly mesmerized by the baseball scores. "Mulder," she sighed wearily, still pretending to gaze out the window, "he was my orderly. He was simply doing his job. Trying to make me comfortable, just as Tom did for you." "Yeah, well," he snapped, "I don't recall Tom asking for my fucking phone number!" Scully's eyes went wide and she turned to look at him in spite of herself. Obviously Mulder had a real problem with Chad's unwanted intentions. Even though she and Mulder couldn't be considered a couple in any traditional sense, she admitted there was this... unspoken promise between them that even she herself had trouble defining. Of course, this unspoken promise hadn't stopped Mulder from running off with Diana Fowley whenever he wanted! She felt her body begin to shake in pure, genuine anger. That wasn't the point. Or, was it? She didn't even know anymore. Mulder seemed to be unfairly one-sided when it came to breaking the rules of their silent pact. He could take off on a whim, whether with old girlfriends or not. He was allowed to get angry and possessive if someone gave her any attention, not even bothering to stop and reason that any attention from anyone but himself would be unwanted to her. Could the man be any more dense? "I didn't give him my damn number, Mulder," she replied, valiantly trying to keep her Irish temper in check. "Only because I walked in before you had the chance to," he countered, the green-eyed monster clearly peeking out from within. He looked like he was ready to rumble. "I wouldn't have, anyway," she hissed in perturbation. "Why not?" he challenged in a nasty tone, realizing he was goading her, making her angry, not wanting to, but seemingly unable to stop himself. "Why not hook up with some young hunk, Scully? I'm sure he could have given you a run for your money!" "Just what the hell are you insinuating?" she finally erupted, just as he knew she would under his abrasive ministrations to her last nerve. "Money? Do you think I could only get a man if I paid him, Mulder?" She was staring at him, her blue eyes burning like flame, her chest heaving in rage. Fuck, he thought, wondering just why he was such a glutton for punishment. She's gonna beat the living shit out of me... not that I wasn't asking for it. At least I'm at a hospital. I'm sure if she strangles me, someone will revive me... And onward he surged. "That's not what I meant," he assured her. Even though they were fighting and he was going for some kind of world record for pissing off one's partner, he did not want to start into another argument due to simple misunderstanding. "I just meant that you and he... that he'd be... you would..." He stuttered, not able to verbalize a coherent explanation. "Not that it matters, anyway," she went on, completely ignoring his silly outburst. "I don't live in the same city as he, I don't have much time for dating- especially if it's meaningless. And I wouldn't go out with him, regardless! Jesus, he's barely older than my nephews, for crying out loud!" "So..." Mulder mumbled, feeling sheepish and contrite, "you still could have had him, Scully. A beautiful woman like you could have any man you wanted..." He looked down at his hands. Not so long ago, he imagined that he and Scully were close to crossing the line into the only intimacy between them they had so far left undiscovered. But things had been so tense lately at work, and between them as friends, he had begun to think he had ruined his chances with her. If that were true, he certainly couldn't begrudge her a chance with someone else that might make her happy, even if he knew he would automatically hate that person and wish him dead on a daily basis. Scully blushed, then stared down at her own hands. She felt less sure of her chances with Mulder now more than ever. How can I have any man I want when the only man I want is trying to pawn me off to some teenage orderly? Maybe Diana Fowley truly had come between them. Maybe it wouldn't be long until Mulder announced that Diana would become his partner down in the basement, or, even worse, his partner in life. How would she handle that? Could she even handle it? She didn't know if she would ever be able to face Mulder after a catastrophe like that, let alone handle it. "Can we just drop it, Mulder?" she pleaded sadly. "I'm not interested in him at all, okay?" "Okay," he agreed softly, equally sad. They kept silent for a long while again, Mulder pretending to watch ESPN, Scully pretending not to care. Perhaps them sharing a room truly was not a good idea... Scully looked out the window awhile longer, but it only depressed her because she was stuck in a hospital room and not allowed to venture outside at all. Then she tried to watch the television, but all the sports score information was boring her to no end. She figured her best bet would just be to fall asleep. Nothing else productive to do, and anyway, she was so exhausted. Being slowly digested by a giant mushroom will do that to you, she mused sleepily and her eyes started to drift close... but only for a moment. Sensing movement, Scully's eyes shot open and her addled brain brought up memories of when Mulder was lying in a hospital bed, strapped down and almost attacked by what he determined to be a large bug-like creature and... Nope, no giant bugs, just Mulder painfully making his way out of his bed, struggling to remain standing. "Mulder!" she gasped, fearing that he might fall and hurt himself. If he felt even half as bad as she did, then he was in no condition to be jumping out of his bed without assistance. "Mulder, get back in bed. If you need to use the facilities, then call an orderly." "What? And risk getting Chad?" he teased her. He still sneered at the mention of his name, but his tone was generally much more pleasant than before. "Besides, I'm not planning on going far." "Well, where are you going?" she asked, watching him with baited breath as he painfully walked the three feet to get from his own bedside to hers. He handed her the remote, held onto her bed railing to keep himself upright. She sighed. "Mulder, what is it?" Though she was still harboring some anger towards him, her concern for him won out and she rested a steadying hand on his arm. Taking her hand off of his arm and entwining her fingers in his, he said, "I'm sorry, Scully, for being the biggest ass to the best partner and friend I've ever had." He offered her his most pathetic, puppy dog expression. Damn, not the puppy dog eyes! Why does he have to give me the puppy dog eyes? I can never resist that! "Oh, Mulder... it's all right. And... I'm sorry, too," she replied, looking contrite as well. "You've got nothing to be sorry for," he told her. "I'm the one who was being a jerk." "That's true," she agreed, and he balked, until he saw her impish grin. "But I'm sure I could have been more... pleasant." "That's true," he teased right back, and she made a face at him. "Can we start over, maybe?" he asked hopefully. "What do you mean?" He raised her hand to his lips, gave it a quick kiss. "Hey, Scully. You look good. How are you feeling?" Scully smiled, quickly catching on. This time, instead of complaining about his presence, she said, "I'm feeling... not so great, but I'm okay, and improving. You look good, too, Mulder, especially considering you were almost a mushroom's lunch. How are you feeling?" "Better than that damn mushroom," he cracked, before adding, in all sincerity, "and better now that I know I've been forgiven." He leaned forward to kiss the tip of her nose. Then he reached up and ran his fingers through her messy hair. "How's about that 'shroom, Scully? Usually we eat them, not the other way around." She chuckled, leaning against the hand currently massaging her hair and the side of her face, craving his touch. "Yeah, I'd love to cut up that damn thing and serve it on a million pizzas!" Mulder laughed as well. "Mmm, pizza! I wonder what kind of shit they'll make us eat while we're stuck here," he sighed, hoping it would not be for too long, despite the fact that they were in such close quarters. He dropped his hand from her face, and hoped that, for the length of their stay, he would be able to abstain from annoying his partner too much... or from having any sexy dreams about her. He'd been told through the years that he talked in his sleep. Scully grabbed his hand again, gave it a tug towards her. "Mulder, come here." "Why?" he challenged, still somewhat afraid that she might be harboring a grudge. "Because I want to hug you," she informed him in no uncertain terms. Before she realized what he was doing, Mulder had hopped up on her bed, wrapping his arms around her and crowding close. He kissed the top of her head. "Mmm," he murmured into her hair, so glad to be holding her, "Scully hugs are the best kind of hugs." Knowing he couldn't see her reaction as her face was pressed against his chest, she smiled, warming at the compliment and the embrace. "Awful tight fit here, Mulder." "That's okay, Scully. We guys like tight fits," he leered. Because of her position, he thankfully could not see her blushing furiously after hearing his latest and greatest innuendo. "Lovely, Mulder," she said, trying to keep her voice on an even keel, trying not to betray her amorous feelings for him. "We shared a bed in Kroner, remember?" he asked, recalling the recent case where they were investigating Daryl Mootz, a real idiot who had coined himself The Rain King. "Yes, I remember, but that was a double bed," she reminded him, recalling that sleeping beside him those few nights had been both heavenly and torturous at the same time. "This is a hospital bed, which doesn't even have the width of a twin size." Mulder pressed his warm, sensual lips against the shell of her ear. "I like being close with you this way, Scully. But I'll move if you want me to." Too embarrassed to say that she wanted him to stay, she instead wrapped her arms tightly, possessively about his waist by way of reply, resting her head against his shoulder and breathing drowsily against his neck. He smiled, thrilled beyond compare that she was allowing him to stay in her bed, and astounded that she even wanted him there at all, especially after the way he had been acting since joining her in the room. "Want to watch some TV?" he asked. "I'll put on CNN..." he offered, another olive branch. How did he get the remote back, she wondered sleepily. "Nah, I'm too tired for news," she yawned into his face. "What about that romantic movie?" "What romantic movie?" he teased. "You mean like, When Mulder Met Scully..." "... and Pissed Her Off," she added with a sleepy chuckle. "... and Pissed Her Off," he amended, chuckling as well, flipping through channels. "Nope, sorry, that's not available right now. But that's okay, seeing as how we live that movie every day, huh?" "No, Mulder," she assured him, "you don't piss me off everyday." "Thanks." "It's more of a weekly occurrence, I'd say." "Ooh, burn!" he snickered. "And for that remark, I think I'll look for some porn!" "No, no porn," she instructed. "Just turn off the TV and let's go to sleep. Aren't you exhausted? I know I'm exhausted..." She sounded like she was already drifting off. "Yeah, okay," he muttered playfully, hitting the power button on the remote and setting it on the small table in between their beds. Then he turned off the light with the controller hooked to the bed. He snuggled against her. "Aw, Scully, you're even cuddlier than a teddy bear." "Very funny," she grumbled, more than half- asleep. "Although..." his tired mind started to wander, "I bet you would look hot wearing a teddy." "Shut up, Mulder." "'Night, Scully," he yawned, kissing her sleepy, little face. "'Nigh... Mul...ler..." He chuckled a moment, listening to her snore against him, before the soft sound lulled him off to sleep. * * * Thirty minutes later, Chad the orderly returned to the partners' room with a nice, cool soda and his business card, with his cell phone number written on the back, for Agent Scully. He was hoping she might need him for... something and that they might strike up a conversation. A lot of that would all depend on if her nosy partner was asleep, or willing to keep his rude mouth shut though. He had initially assumed they were married or involved, the way Mulder had acted, but after reading over their charts, he had discovered they were FBI agents and partners. Of course, it did strike him as somewhat strange that they were listed as each others next of kin and then there was the fact that they had indeed requested a room together, but he'd heard that law enforcement types usually got close to their partners. That didn't mean they were in love or sleeping together, right? He stood in the doorway, straining his eyes to see in the darkened room. It took him a moment to discern the shape on Agent Scully's bed. It seemed a little too large to be her. Giving into a brief moment of worry and uncertainty, he ventured in closer, only to find Agent Mulder shoved in tightly next to her in the tiny space, her hands resting placidly on his chest, his arms snaked protectively around her shoulders. With major disappointment, Chad exited the room, his handsome, young face positively crestfallen. "Damn," he muttered quietly. "And she was so hot, too..." Scene Fourteen: "Coming Clean" [Rated NC-17] January 2000 Alexandria, Fox Mulder residence 9:17 p.m. The door to his apartment opened up and Mulder flipped on the light switch, then moved aside for Scully to enter. He considered resting his hand at his usual spot on the small of her back, to lead her into the room, as was long since customary by now, but ultimately, he decided against it. He had heard the medics talking to each other, the ones who were wheeling out Pfaster's body on a gurney in a body bag. They had checked over Scully before messing with the dead piece of shit. They had done so automatically, but if they hadn't, Mulder would have insisted that Scully be looked after ahead of the body of a murderous fucking son-of-a-bitch. But he recalled the medics' amazed chatter over how many bruises, scrapes and cuts adorned his beautiful partner's small form. If he touched her, without knowing where any of her sore spots were, he risked hurting her, and he never wanted to do that. Besides, seeing as how she was attacked and nearly killed in her home by a mad man less than a few hours ago, she may not want to be touched by anyone at all- including her partner. The thought made Mulder want to cry, but he didn't. As a trained psychologist, he knew how vulnerable women could feel after being raped, or attacked, especially in the presence of another man, no matter how well intentioned he may be. As the man closest to his partner, Mulder also knew that Scully hated to feel vulnerable, holding vulnerability akin to weakness, which was another Scully no-no. If he somehow upset her, or triggered something inside of her, causing her to lose control, she would most likely be angry with him, even enough to the point of leaving, in favor of staying at her mother's or a hotel. So, Mulder kept his distance, even though that was the last thing he wanted to do. Mulder set her overnight bag down on the floor next to his couch. "Have a seat, Scully," he told her gently, but she made no move to do so. He watched her, scratching his head, trying to gauge her true feelings, trying to figure out what she needed and what he could do to help her, make her feel more comfortable. "Um, have you had anything to eat?" he tried, reasoning that food was not only a necessity, but also a comfort. "I could order us something, if you want." "Thanks, Mulder, but I'm not really hungry right now," she murmured, not looking at him, but staring straight ahead. Her mind was truly elsewhere. "Did you want to watch some TV?" he tried again, desperate to make her feel at home and give her a sense of normalcy. He was desperate to alleviate her fears. "No, thanks," came the quiet reply. "Well, did you want to just go to bed, then?" he inquired. "I'm sure you must be exhausted, Scully." "I want to take a shower," she blurted, still not looking at him. "All right, Scully. Whatever you want." He thought of the state of his bathroom and his expression became slightly embarrassed. "Uh, gotta warn you, though, my tub isn't the... cleanest thing in the world right now... or ever..." "That's all right," she said numbly. Normally, such an admission from Mulder would have made her groan in mock-disgust, or chuckle, or at least smile knowingly at him. Maybe come up with some smart-ass retort. But she couldn't offer him anything other than a slight nod and a blank expression, which was not lost on Mulder. "Come on, I'll get you a clean towel and a wash cloth," he told her, urging her to follow him down the hallway. He moved to touch her, an instinctual gesture for him by now, but stopped himself before the movement became too obvious. He wanted nothing more than to take her into his loving, protective arms, hold her against his larger form, kissing her about the face. He longed to comfort her and tell her everything was going to be all right, even though he knew he couldn't truly promise her such a thing. But Scully was so hard to read sometimes, never more so than when she was hurt, either physically or emotionally. Since this occurrence had her smarting both ways, she was twice as hard to reach out to. Mulder loved her like no other, but he knew from past experience, it was better to just give her some space. If she needed comfort and reassurance, it had to be on her own terms, in her own time. They walked down the hallway together, even though she, of course, knew exactly where his bathroom was, and exactly where he kept his linens. He briefly stopped at the small cupboard in the hall, where he grabbed a faded wash cloth- they were all like that- and the fluffiest towel that he owned, which, admittedly, wasn't very fluffy at all. "Sorry, Scully," he apologized, as he handed her the items. "I know this is kind of thread-bare..." "No, it's fine, Mulder, thank you." She clutched the items closely against her chest, then ventured passed him, through his bedroom and into the bathroom, closing the door behind her. Mulder followed after her, saw the door close without another glimpse of her, which reminded him entirely too much of their relationship in general. Shutting me out again, he thought sadly, sitting down upon his bed. They had been growing closer lately, in a decidedly romantic way. Ever since that New Year's Eve kiss, he had been ever so gently and carefully pushing forward into her life, taking up even more of her time- in a purely nonprofessional way- invading her personal space, offering more touches, hugs, caresses, kisses... Oh, God, those succulent kisses! God, her succulent lips that give those succulent kisses! He heard the shower come on, and then the door opened a crack, causing him to sit up in alert. "Mulder?" Scully called to him, sounding somewhat shy. The man was off the bed and at the other side of that door before she could even finish saying his name. "What is it, Scully? Do you need anything?" he asked anxiously. "Um, I didn't bring any clothes in here to change into," she explained sheepishly. "No problem, I'll go get your overnight bag and-" "I..." and she paused for a moment. He waited her reply on baited breath. "Could I just borrow something of yours?" she asked quietly. "Uh..." His first thought was that her request turned him on. The idea of the woman he loved parading around his apartment in his own clothing... The second thought was that her request warmed his heart. Perhaps wearing something of his would make her feel protected, safe. The third thought regarding her request was that it was a little unusual to say the least, especially for Scully. But he would have done or given her anything to make her feel better. "Of course, Scully," he readily agreed. "How about a tee shirt and some jogging pants?" "That's good, thanks." "Great, okay, I'll go get them," he began, but she had shut the door on him again. He could tell though that she hadn't locked it this time. He assumed she would be waiting for him to bring her what she had requested before doing so. With a sigh, he retrieved the sought after items from his dresser then returned to the door, using his knuckles to lightly rap upon the wood. "Scully?" She opened the door just a crack again, and one of her small, pale hands darted out and grabbed his offering. He couldn't help but notice all of the cuts criss-crossing over that beautiful hand. It made him wince. Thankfully, she hadn't seen him. "Thank you," she called softly, and he could barely hear her. "You're welcome," he called back, much louder so that she would hear him as she shut the door in his face for the third time in as many minutes. Still, he noticed that she hadn't bothered locking it this time either. That was a little curious. With a weary groan, Mulder sat down right there on the nondescript carpeting in his bedroom, his back leaning against the bathroom door. Jesus, I really almost lost her this time, his harried mind sobbed in dismay. He had come so close to losing her too many times, really, but if she had died at the hands of that fucking bastard, waste-of-space, Donnie Pfaster... He shuddered, unable to even finish the thought. Up until this point, their lives had been balancing precariously on the edge of change. Back in October, Scully had asked him to father her child through invitro fertilization. By November, they had learned it hadn't worked. They had spent Thanksgiving together at her mother's house, where he finally got to meet the elusive Charlie Scully. He remembered how Scully had so proudly brought him right up into Mulder's face, proving to him, once and for all, that Charlie did, indeed, exist. The thought made him smile. Christmas was supposed to have been spent together, but he had fallen ill and rather than make Scully miss her plans with her family, he lied and told her that his own mother had invited him to stay with her at the last minute. He knew it had disappointed her, but he didn't want her spending Christmas with him in a hospital, worrying about him, when she could be having fun with her family, whom she rarely got to see. She had not fought him over this, considering she herself knew how strained relations were between Mulder and his mother, and she hoped that their time spent together would give them a chance to really talk, maybe work things out between them. She never knew, of course, that he'd spent the better part of a week in the hospital, having tests run. Just before New Year's, they had a case involving zombies, the millennium curse and meeting the strange fellow, Frank Black. By the time the case was through, on the eve of the year 2000, the zombies had been stopped, Frank Black had been reunited with his daughter, Scully's neck had been gnawed on and Mulder's arm broken, and he finally braved up enough to kiss her- on the lips!- and the world didn't end. He had kissed her just after they had watched the ball drop in Time Square, on Dick Clark's Rocking New Year's in a hospital waiting room. Not exactly a romantic atmosphere and the kiss itself had been rather chaste, although still sweet. But that one, simple kiss had opened the floodgates, as it were, and Mulder and Scully found themselves on a whole new level into their beautiful partnership. That had been a scant two weeks ago, but he had been kissing her ever since. Finally, their relationship was progressing, and not at a snail's pace. Maybe a turtle's pace, but certainly not as slow as a snail! He had kissed her every night since that night, always coming over to her place after work, and making sure they kissed before he left. Just a few days ago, they had both grown rather bold and made out on her couch in front of her fire place for an hour... until Skinner had called, reminding them about the mandatory meeting they were required to attend, first thing in the morning. That kind of soured the mood, but he still made sure to collect his kiss from her at the end of the evening. Things were moving right along... until two occurrences happened. The first came just yesterday, when the hospital had called with the results of all their tests from his Christmas stay with them. He learned that he had some sort of neurological disorder. He'd been referred to a specialist, whom he'd already made an appointment with- which was difficult, seeing as he and Scully spent nearly every waking moment together now- but the doctor from the hospital had said that the type of disorder he believed that Mulder had did not have a very encouraging prognosis. Typically, people who got this disorder died within five to ten years after being diagnosed. The second grave occurrence had been the escape of Donnie Pfaster, from prison, subsequently followed by his attack on Scully and her killing of him. That, of course, just happened tonight. Mulder did not tell Scully about his own possible bad news. She had enough to deal with right now. He could imagine how horrible that would be... him saying, "Scully, I know you're feeling scared and upset and wondering if you did the right thing, blowing Pfaster away, but I'm sure it was meant to be, and oh, by the way, I have some weird neurological disorder that will probably kill me within the next decade or so." He didn't want to talk about it until he got the facts from this specialist anyway. Who knows? Maybe there was some sort of treatment or medication or- and he hoped it wouldn't come to this- some miracle surgery that could help him. He was almost certain the reason for this disease had something to do with the fucking Cigarette Smoking Man and the surgeries he had subjected him to, but he couldn't say for sure until he discussed things with this doctor. He blew out a breath of defeat. Would this world ever treat he and Scully right? Now, he had no idea if they would ever have the chance to live the kind of life together that he so desperately needed them to. He thought that Scully was leaning towards wanting that same life with him together. She'd been hinting at it now for over a year. She wanted a normal life. Mulder could only pray that she wanted that life with him. But now, who knows...? There was a good chance that that rat-fuck, son-of- a-bitch, Donald Addie Pfaster had taken the last shred of Scully's sense of normalcy and need for love into death right along with him. He hoped not. Not only for her own sake, but for their sake, if they were ever going to have a chance to thrive together as a couple, for however long fate might give them. Drawing his knees up to his chest, Mulder rested his chin upon one of them, looking as forlorn as a man could look. Things were always so bleak for him, and he feared that he had forever doomed Scully, the one person he loved above all else, to the same fate. "Mulder!" Jumping up in alarm and banging his head on the back of the door, Mulder ignored the pain, heeding the call of his beloved, bursting through the bathroom door and racing over to the tub. "Scully? Is everything... are you okay?" he asked breathlessly. She did not answer, but he heard a small whimper, coming from inside the tub behind the shower curtain, barely discernible over the spray of the water. He felt the fear bubbling in his stomach, threatening to spew bile up to his throat. Why wouldn't she answer? "Scully?" he asked again, daring to slowly pull back the curtain. He found her standing out of the line of the water spray, naked as the day she was born, her thin arms folded protectively over her chest. She was shivering and her small, beautiful body was absolutely riddled with cuts, bruises and abrasions. The sight of her injuries caused Mulder to feel renewed rage and hatred for the monster that had just died in her apartment hours before. It made him want to cry, to know how much she was hurting. But he did not blanch or recoil from her visage. There was nothing that could diminish her lovely form in his eyes. No way, not ever! Mulder had seen her naked before, of course, on a couple other occasions. And just like now, they were usually under... less than desirable circumstances, without much chance to make it an erotic experience. As always, when gazing at her nude body, he had to steel himself to separate his very male appreciation of her loveliness from his very real concern for her. Giving her as much dignity as possible, Mulder gazed up at her sweet face, which was currently looking pained and full of fear and uncertainty. "The spray of the water stings, Mulder," she murmured, looking at him, seemingly not embarrassed in the slightest to be standing naked before him. "I'm sorry, Scully," he apologized sympathetically. "Would you rather take a ba-" he began, sharply cutting short his own sentence. How could he be so stupid to almost suggest she take a bath after what she'd just been through? After what they both knew Pfaster had almost done to her? Scully knew what he'd been about to say. She took no offense and offered him a small smile. "It's all right, Mulder. I know I have to get over this." She sighed wearily, wiping at the water dripping down in her eyes from her wet hair. "Jesus, after being attacked in bathrooms so many times, you'd think I'd be terrified to step foot in one." "Yeah," he murmured softly. Tooms, Pfaster, Incanto... Scully and crazed killers and bathrooms. He could easily understand why Psycho wasn't her favorite Hitchcock film. "But," she went on with that strength and determination she was so famous for- that same strength that had gotten him through so many tragedies when his own was depleted- "unless I want to buy myself a litter box and try to bathe in the kitchen sink every morning, I need to face this." He couldn't help but chuckle over her joke. He was actually surprised and impressed that she could even joke about it, especially so soon. Still, maybe it was bad manners of him to laugh, considering he would never know the true horrors she had faced. "Sorry." "Don't be," she whispered, gazing at him. "I like to see you smile." Mulder's breath hitched in his throat. Scully's admission was ever so sweet. And there she stood, naked and shivering in the shower in front of him, unabashed, guileless, so beautiful and vulnerable, yet strong and courageous. "I love your smile." His statement about her smile actually elicited one from her. "Thanks," she murmured, blushing for the first time since he'd entered the bathroom. Mulder always marveled at how his compliments had that effect on her. "Scully, did you... I mean, I could... uh..." "Will you help me?" she asked shyly and Mulder knew that asking for help was never easy for his partner. Especially asking for help in such an intimate situation. He wondered if she was more hurt or frightened than she was letting on... or perhaps, just perhaps, she was finally going to open up to him, let him in. "You mean, help... wash... um..." he stuttered, trying to clarify her motives so he didn't do anything stupid and freak her out. As it was, he could still feel his groin tighten at the mere hint of the suggestion. He did his best to control it. This was not about sex, or romance. It was about trust and love- but the love between best friends who would do anything for the other. She nodded, averting her eyes, but then forcing herself to look back into his own. He saw hesitance and fear flicker in her blue depths. He also saw a burning, raw emotion that was most certainly love, but bordered on what he could only fathom as desire. Maybe this was about sex... No, he was sure he was reading her wrong. "Y-yeah," he murmured. "But first... I'd like... would you... hold me?" she asked softly, pleadingly. "In the shower?" he gulped. Truthfully, he'd been itching to take her small form into his arms since he had watched her shoot Donnie Pfaster dead in her apartment hours before. But so much had needed to be attended to, plus he feared of aggravating her injuries, which, until now, he'd had no idea of the extent of them. And of course, he was never sure if she wanted to be held. She could be so evasive during times like these. She was the strong one in their partnership. He could easily admit that. So many times he had leaned on her, craved her love, her affection, her support. But admitting such a thing did not diminish his own need to help her through a crisis, to be her crutch, her rock, her shoulder to cry on. All she had to do was let him... Scully nodded. He took a reluctant step over the side of the tub. "Um, you might want to remove your clothing first, Mulder," she instructed, trying to keep her expression serious. "Not to mention, your shoes." If she would have told him that she was a relation of Big Foot and then bared sharp canines at him before howling like a monkey, he could not have been more stunned than by her words. "Um... okay..." he agreed shakily. They had been forced to shower together once, he recalled, as he removed his shoes and socks. It had been in a cold facility, with people close by and most likely watching them. They'd been put in a large shower room, so they had taken different stalls in different rows, trying to remain respectful of each other and afford one another some privacy. He remembered that he had still stolen a glance or two at his partner's wet, glistening body as the rivulets of water splashed down over her curves. He was also almost certain that she had checked him out as well. He'd caught her looking once or twice. But it had been an innocent moment between the two, making the best of the situation while being forced into it. They had also had safety in the knowledge that they kept a physical distance between them and that they were being watched, most likely by Diana Fowley herself. There was no way in hell either of them would have made an advance on the other. Mulder slowly began removing his clothing, suddenly feeling a little shy, which was unusual for him. Scully had been privy to his naked body on numerous occasions. And yes, most were due to illness or injury on his part, but she had seen him nonetheless. That didn't change the fact that he was nervous, realizing that this time was a very different circumstance. Neither of them was ill- unless you counted his impending neurological disorder, which wasn't a factor at this particular moment in time; he still had all his faculties about him. And while Scully was injured, she was not so to the point of being unconscious, or unable to make a decision about this happening. They were not being forced to do this. It was a completely voluntary action on both their parts, Mulder having secretly been longing for such an opportunity, Scully only voicing it out loud. They would also be completely alone- no one watching through a door, or a camera. No one observing their every move, keeping them on their best behavior. And lastly, they would not have the safety of physical distance to separate them, giving them a feeling of detachment. They would be standing naked together in a very small space. And he would be touching her. Mulder briefly squeezed his eyes shut. He thought about baseball, slimy mutants, insane alien bounty hunters, Skinner getting pissed off at them and chewing them out, Kersch's ugly mug... Frohike's ugly mug... anything to keep his erection from igniting and taking over, therefore embarrassing Scully and humiliating himself. He started tugging on his boxers, as he happened to glance over at Scully, who had lowered her arms, and he was met with the sight of her breasts. A familiar stirring down south made him grit his teeth, trying, in vain, to regain some semblance of control over his body. Fuck! he thought in a panic, then groaned inwardly at his choice of word. I mean, shit! This is going to be so hard! No! I mean, difficult! This is going to be so difficult! He finally managed to get his shorts down and climbed over the side of the tub, standing before her, only semi-erect (the best he could do to restrain himself at this point) and allowing her to see all of him, without the distraction of illness or injury, without the threat of being interrupted. It was just him and her together... alone... and naked in a shower... "Uh..." he began eloquently. "Mulder," she whimpered his name and reached out her arms, wrapping them tightly about his waist, resting her weary head upon his familiar and comforting chest. He gingerly put his arms around her shoulders, not daring anything more than a light touch. She looked up at him in confusion. "What's wrong?" "I don't want to hurt you," he said, indicating her many cuts and bruises. "You won't," she promised. "Just hold me, please." Having her undeniable approval- and she had even said please- Mulder wrapped his arms around her in earnest. Her skin, while full of abrasions, was still baby- soft to the touch. Her hair smelled so good, even though she hadn't washed it yet. (It didn't smell like his shampoo.) It smelled like her. He loved her natural scent, could pick it blindly against a hundred other scents. She always smelled so damn good... well, except for that time they both had gotten covered in shit while unofficially investigating a case involving killer cock roaches. But if he had to be honest, he hadn't exactly smelled very good himself. The feel of her naked body pressed to his, hearing her humming contentedly against his chest, smelling her... was it any wonder that he got lost in all things Scully, and he let his guard down? Before he could understand what was happening, he closed his eyes and was tangling his fingers in her hair with one hand, stroking her bare back with the other. He went from half- mast to standing-at-full-attention in a matter of seconds, and it pressed insistently against her belly. "Scully, you feel so damn good, honey..." he growled into her ear, before realizing how much control he had lost, before remembering that he was supposed to be comforting her, be her support, her friend. He wasn't supposed to get so turned on he couldn't think straight. I'm such a worthless fuck-up, he thought despondently, pulling away from her. Unable to look her in the eye, he said, "Scully, I... I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to- I don't want to hurt you." He bowed his head low, mortified by his actions. She stepped closer, crowding him, and he backed up in nervous uncertainty, until he was directly under the showerhead, the water wetting his hair and drenching his face. She pulled him out of the direct spray, then reached up to wipe gently at his eyes, wondering if some of the little streams were actually tears of regret and shame. "Mulder, don't... don't be sorry." Scully paused, waiting for him to look at her. He wouldn't. "I'm not," she added sweetly, and this time he did stare into her face. "Huh?" he asked, not knowing how else to respond. To his surprise, she grasped his hands and pulled him back into her arms. When he wouldn't touch her, she lifted his arms and draped them over her small shoulders. "Please don't be embarrassed, Mulder," she whispered against his chest, pausing long enough to press an open-mouthed kiss upon it, his chest hair tickling her nose. The action made Mulder gasp loudly, and his erection, which had waned in the wake of his shame, stood at attention, bouncing up against her belly again. "Scu..." he stammered in confusion and obvious arousal. "I need this," she explained, her head still resting against his chest. "I need to feel good again... I need to... I- I need... you." "I need you, too," he promised, whispering into her hair. "Always." "I know," she smiled against his skin. She briefly nuzzled her nose through his chest hair again, making them both chuckle. "Mulder," she went on, this time looking up at him, her blue eyes boring into his hazel ones, "when Pfaster attacked me, he..." and she struggled with the words, tears flooding her eyes. "It's okay, Scully," Mulder replied gently, leaning down to kiss her cheek. "No, I have to say this. I need to tell you, it's too important not to," she told him with determination. Both of them knew how easily Scully could go into a lecture about the laws of physics, or explain, at length, the proper procedures to be taken during an autopsy. But when it came to matters of the heart, she always got tongue-tied, became withdrawn, uneasy. He knew she was treading on unsafe ground. He could also see that she would continue on anyway, because she felt she had to. "Pfaster didn't just hurt me physically, he... terrorized me. I..." She stopped again, either overcome with emotion or unable to find the right words. "Oh, Scully," he said softly, stroking her hair with a tender hand. She pulled him closer and their bodies pressed tightly together, their connecting parts aching and tingling and nearly touching. Both of them groaned in arousal. "I need this," she repeated contentedly, loving the hardness of him pushing against her. "I need to feel you like this. This is how it's supposed to be between men and women. It's supposed to be about warmth and trust and love and... and... pleasure. Not what Pfaster wanted. He... he was so sick, Mulder, so twisted and evil. Yet, even now, I still don't know if I should have shot him like that... I'm still not sure why I did." Mulder had still been reeling from their intimate physical contact, when he was unexpectedly hit by the enormity of her words. While she hadn't exactly made a declaration of love, she had made an... acknowledgment of sorts. It was an acknowledgment of the love they both knew was there and ebbing between them. He didn't mention anything of it, didn't want to embarrass her or put her on the spot. He knew how difficult it had been for her to say out loud. It was so hard for her to articulate her feelings verbally. It wasn't the easiest thing for him either, if he had to be honest, but they were both well aware that she was the worse of the two. Instead, he focused on her guilt over killing Pfaster, another thing he was an expert at. "Scully, you didn't do anything wrong, I promise you. Pfaster was... evil incarnate! I mean that. He would have killed you- and then countless others- if you had not gotten to him first. I'm sure of that." She didn't look convinced, but she nodded, not really wanting to discuss Pfaster anymore, wishing to put her focus elsewhere. "Kiss me?" she asked hopefully. His lips were on hers so quickly, she barely had time to take a breath. His mouth devoured hers, not in any evil, sinister way- not like Pfaster, but like Mulder, the man she had loved for seven years, the man who owned her, heart and soul. Scully's lips were bruised and cracked from Pfaster's attack. Mulder's kiss should have stung, should have burned, but it didn't. His kiss soothed, healed, pleasured her. She felt safe, loved and desired. He made her feel... whole! Just as Mulder had once avowed that she had made him a whole person, she knew he did the same for her. She felt complete when he was near. She had felt that way about him for longer than she could remember. "Love you," he whispered against her lips, then engulfed them again before she could respond. His hands were carefully, reverently roaming over the expanse of her wet, slick skin, ever mindful of all of her many painful scratches. He stopped his assault on her mouth to ask her, "Is this what you need, Scully? Is this what you need from me?" "It's what I need with you," she said, reaching up to caress his beautiful face in her hands. She became aware, again, with no uncertain clarity of the excitement and appreciation his body had for hers. She could feel it pressing into her hip, now harder and more insistent than ever. Shocking even herself, Scully gingerly touched it lightly with her fingertips. "God, Scully!" he gasped at the contact. She smiled, feeling happy, desired and aroused all at once over the effect her simple touch could bring him. "I want this for us," she assured him, even as she knew she was about to disappoint him. "I really do. But I... tonight just wouldn't be possible. I need time to heal, not just my body, but... my mind..."She wore an apologetic expression, hoping he would understand. And of course, he did. He smiled at her, reached up to trace the shape of a heart over her left breast. "And your heart," he reminded her. "That needs time to heal, too." He kissed her forehead. "No," she corrected him, closing her eyes and shivering delightedly at his caress, "Pfaster never could touch that. It's yours, you see." More tears cascaded down Mulder's cheeks; these were of the happy persuasion. "I... oh, Scully, I hope you know that you own my heart, too." "I do," she replied, wiping away his tears with kisses. "And I cherish it, Mulder. I'll keep it safe for you, I promise." "I'll do the same for yours," he promised right back. "I'm really sorry that we can't... tonight, I mean," she apologized, looking as disappointed as she was sure he felt. "Don't be sorry, Scully," he said. "I'm not. In fact, I'm just happy at what I know now, what I have." "What's that?" "A relationship with you. A- a... future with you," he dared to add, even though, with his current health status, he didn't know how long that future would actually be. "And it starts right now... even if our sex life doesn't." He winked playfully at her. She chuckled sheepishly. "Please realize that I'm not saying 'no', Mulder. I'm just saying 'not right now'. But soon, I promise." "I understand. And I'll be looking forward to it." He shifted his position and his manhood sprung up and bounced against her abdomen, causing them both to glance down at it. While Scully eyed it with her mouth watering, Mulder found it to look somewhat ridiculous, even comical. He still had difficulty figuring out what women could possibly find sexy about men. "Eh, Mulder, Jr. is, too, apparently." Scully began to laugh; a surprising and beautiful sound. "Mulder, Jr.? You named your-" "All guys do," he sniffed, although he couldn't be certain of that fact. And he wasn't planning on asking around to find out for sure, either. The trademark Scully eyebrow was in place as she looked at him. She wore a look that told him of her amusement, happiness and unbidden desire. "I see..." Eager to change the subject, Mulder ran his hands up her arms to rest them upon her shoulders. "So, uh, did you want me to... wash you now?" he asked hopefully. She picked up on that instantly and smiled wickedly at him. "Why do I get the feeling you're going to get more out of this than I am?" she smirked, handing him the wash cloth. "Nah, it'll be good for both of us, Scully," he promised her, grabbing his bar of soap and lathering up the cloth. "I'll make you feel as clean and fresh as a summer rain." "You already do, Mulder," she told him quietly, her smile turning sweet and sentimental. "Keep that up, Scully, and we'll never get out of here, because I'll be too busy holding you." Her smile widened, as if that was supposed to worry her. "Will you wash my hair for me, too?" she asked innocently. "My arms are sore and it hurts to reach up." "Of course," he replied, his eyes heady with love and lust. He washed her hair first, turning it into a pleasurable and erotic experience for them both. Though neither mentioned it, the each silently vowed that showering together and he washing her hair would have to become a regular routine with them. When it came time to wash her beautiful, but battered body, Mulder was extra gentle, and he bent down to reverently kiss the first scratch he came to, three inches long and running down her back, almost marring her tattoo, which Mulder took a moment to admire up close. After he'd kissed her, she shyly asked if he would kiss every scratch, bump and bruise he came across. Both of them were fully aware that her body was covered in them. The pain of knowing that fact was tempered nicely by the pleasure her request brought them. It was not lost on Mulder that Scully had basically given him permission to explore her body in a very intimate way. And yes, he did run his tongue along the outline of her tattoo, just as he had fantasized about doing years before when she'd first gotten it. He delighted in the way it made her shiver. She delighted in the way it felt. After he had done a thorough cleaning, as well as explored every curve, nook and cranny with the cloth, his fingers and his tongue, after the water finally turned cold, making them both shriek from the shock of it, Mulder and Scully got out of the tub and dried off. Mulder insisted on patting her dry with her towel himself, careful not to rub too hard against one of her many owies. She dressed in his clothing- he opted not to wear hers though- and they ventured back into the living room. He ordered them an extra-large, extra-gooey, extra-greasy pizza and they pigged out, eating all of it in one sitting. Then they slept peacefully together in his bed, staving off the unpleasantness of having to give a statement regarding Pfaster's shooting. They didn't think about the report they would soon need to turn in to Skinner. They tried not to worry over the mess in her apartment that would have to be dealt with soon. Instead, they held each other close, Scully slumbering against his shoulder, drooling contentedly on him. Mulder smiled, giving her a squeeze and kissing her before drifting off after her... Scene Fifteen: "I Got Chills! They're Multiplying!" [Rated NC- 17] April 2000 Georgetown, Dana Scully residence 8:46 p.m. T-Birds greaser Danny Zuko asked his date, the lovely Sandy Olsson from Australia, if she would wear his ring. She looked so happy and she admitted to him that she didn't know what to say. He told her to say, "yes", so she did. She then slid the ring onto her finger and kissed him. "Aw, that's so sweet," Mulder cooed at the television, sitting on Scully's sofa, eating popcorn from a big bowl setting on an end table beside him. His lovely partner sat in his lap. Scully smirked at him. "You're such a dork, Mulder." "Don't be a cynic, Scully. That's sweet!" "He only wants to get into her pants." "Shows what you know," he scoffed. "She's wearing a skirt!" She rolled her eyes at him, then leaned over him to snag some popcorn from the bowl. "Either way, he's just trying to get some." She gave him a pointed look. "Well, yeah, but he still loves her..." Mulder explained, as if he were an expert on teenage love from the 1950s. They watched as the greaser wrapped his arm around Sandy and slowly let his hand move towards the unsuspecting young woman's breast. "Wow, how loving," Scully remarked dully, as Sandy caught Danny in the act, before he pushed her down in the front seat and got on top of her. "Oh, um, well, see, that's... horny teenage-boy love," Mulder tried to elaborate, "which thankfully is a whole world of difference from... horny man love." He waggled his eyebrows at her. "Oh, I'm sure," she chuckled. "Smooth, Mulder, smooth." Sandy slammed the car door shut, effectively catching Danny's member in it. "Ha!" Scully blurted. "Scullleeee," he whined at her. "That would have hurt!" She shrugged. "It's not like it really happened, Mulder. He wasn't even near enough to the car door to get it caught. Besides, he had his pants on for Chrissakes." "I get it, Scully," he grimaced. He still held a pained expression. "It's just the thought of it..." Another roll of the pretty blue eyes. "Whatever, Mulder." Sandy threw Danny's ring at him, then left him in the car with a sore member and ran off into the night. "You'd never leave me stranded like that at a drive-in, would you, Scully." "Of course not," she said and he smiled, until she added. "I'd take the car home and do it properly." "Are you pissed at me, Scully?" Mulder dared to ask, glancing at her. She had an expression on her face that he couldn't quite read... as long as they had known each other and been partners and friends, becoming her lover had brought out a lot more emotions in Scully, a lot more expressions to learn, moods to figure out. It was true what he'd told her once. She always kept him guessing. "Why would you ask that?" she murmured, as Danny cried after his girl. "Well," Mulder supplied, managing to say it all in one breath, "because, while I went to the suburbs and stayed in a nice home and ate good food and had somebody washing and ironing my clothes and picking up after me, you were stuck in the bowels of D.C., in a cheap, flea-bitten motel, being exposed to the dredges of society, eating stale, three-day old pizza, wearing the same clothing for days on end, not even getting a shower..." Scully wrinkled her nose in distaste over the way too recent memory. She'd just gotten home the day before yesterday. "Well, if I wasn't pissed off about it before, I certainly am now. Thanks for bringing it up again, Mulder." "Oh, come on, Scully," he pleaded, as she blew out a breath. He knew she was only kidding. At least, he hoped she was only kidding. Ever since they had done the naked pretzel, as he liked to call it, the enigmatic Dr. Scully liked to tease him a lot, and in such a way that sometimes kept him off balance. He supposed she was making up for all the times he had embarrassed her over the years with naughty innuendoes. An idea formed quickly in Mulder's strange and brilliant mind, and he smiled, then gently deposited Scully onto the sofa next to him before sliding off onto the floor, where he knelt at her feet. He took a hold of her hand. "Mulder?" she asked in confusion as the music started. T-Birds leader Danny Zuko started to sing the song, Sandy, to his fleeing girlfriend, in a lovelorn tone. Mulder began to sing along with him as well, with a few major exceptions... "Scully, can't you see? I'm in misery!" In response to his woeful, horridly off-key, but completely sincere crooning, Scully burst out laughing. "Mulder!" He went on to the next verse, coming up with his own lyrics on the fly. "Oh, Scully, maybe someday, when our next case is done... Somehow, someway, our conclusions will be one The basement forever and ever we will be. Oh, please, say you'll stay, oh, Scully..." "Oh, my God, stop!" Scully laughed, her cheeks turning pink, her breath hitching, her sides splitting from all the exertion. Mulder wouldn't let up. He then spoke in a deep voice, trying to imitate Danny's inflection as the greaser began speaking to his lost love. "Scully, my darling, I want you so bad, you know it's true. And baby, you gotta believe me when I say, I'm helpless without you." Then he ended the song with a flourish... "Please don't flee- stay with me! Don't sit and wonder why-y-y-y Please, don't leave me, oh, Scully! Scul-lee! Scul-lee! Why-y-y-y... oh, Scully..." He looked expectantly at the beautiful, flush-faced woman sitting on the couch in front of him. "Well...?" "Jesus, Mulder," she finally spoke when she recovered her voice, "that was terrible!" He looked crestfallen. "It was? Even worse than your moth men rendition of Joy to the World?" "Oh, definitely, way worse!" His lower lip jutted out. "Oh..." he mumbled. "And I loved it!" she added. The smile returned to his handsome face. "Yeah?" he asked hopefully. "Oh, yeah," she purred, patting the sofa beside her. "Come back up here with me, please?" He eagerly did so, and they wrapped themselves around each other. She laid her head against his shoulder, and he started running his healing fingers over her back. "I'm sorry you got stuck on that crummy stakeout detail by yourself," he said, leaning forward to pepper her jaw line with kisses. "It's okay; it wasn't your fault," she assured him, leaning her head to the side to allow him better access. Seeing her so open to him, he seized the opportunity and began sucking on her exposed neck. "Mulder!" she squealed. "I'll get a hickey!" "A hickey from Mul-dicky is like a Hallmark card..." he teased her, pseudo-quoting the movie and giving the spot he just sucked a big lick with his tongue. "Oh, brother!" "Scully? Would you be mad if I copped a feel?" he asked, recalling her distaste for Danny Zuko trying such a move on Sandy Olsson in the drive-in scene. Mulder mimicked Danny's movements, his hand inching for her breast, although he did so in a very obvious manner, so as not to surprise her. "No," she assured him, "because I know you love and respect me and I actually want you to get into my pants." She grabbed his hand and enthusiastically placed it firmly upon her silk covered mound, groaning happily at the contact. "God, Scully," he groaned right back, his eyes flashing green, and he growled hungrily at her. Gently, he pushed her down into the couch, then carefully lowered himself on top of her. Sure, they weren't in a car at the drive-in, but they couldn't have everything. Besides, he was planning on getting a lot more action with Scully than poor Danny Zuko got with Sandy. Furious necking ensued... "You know, Scully," Mulder murmured against her lips, as Danny Zuko started to race Greased Lightnin' down at Thunder road, "I've been told I look like John Travolta..." She chuckled into his open mouth, their breaths mingling. "Really? Well, you don't." His lips wandered to the shell of her ear. He blew in it before mentioning, "Someone once said that I resemble Richard Gere. He played Danny Zuko on Broadway..." With a smile, she grazed her teeth over his chin, enjoying the sensation she felt with his stubble. "Sorry, I don't see it." "What about Harrison Ford?" he inquired, running his tongue along the smooth line of her neck. "He starred in American Grafiti, which is sort of like Grease..." Scully stopped what she had been doing- sucking on her partner's ear- and looked up at him. "I'm sensing a pattern here, Mulder. Are we going to go through every male actor who's ever played a punk in a movie before I see any real action?" She raised her eyebrow at him. He laughed at her retort, stinging though it was. "I just... wondered if you thought I was as good looking as some of those guys I mentioned..." he mumbled, embarrassed by his admission, but unable to tell her anything but the truth. Sandy Olsson sat watching Danny Zuko celebrate his victory with his friends at Thunder road, while her inner self sang, Sandra Dee... "Oh, Mulder," Scully promised, gazing into his eyes with pure love in her own, "none of them could even hope to compare to you. You're the most handsome man I've ever known, darling." He smiled, loving it immensely when she complimented him and loving it even more when she called him sentimental endearments. He then closed his eyes when she pulled his face down to hers and kissed him tenderly. "You know, Ellen Adderly, the suspect from my case in the suburbs," he said, reaching his hand out to tuck an errant strand of soft, red hair behind her ear, "she asked me an interesting question while I was there, before the arrest, I mean..." "Oh, yeah?" Scully responded playfully. "What was it? Do you like your boxers starched, Agent Mulder?" Mulder chuckled again, loving her silly side. But then his expression grew more thoughtful. "No, she asked me if I had a significant other..." "Ah," she murmured. Though the two of them had been in love for years, hopelessly devoted, as it were, they had only just recently spoken aloud those feelings of undying love a scant two months ago. They had been sexually intimate with each other for even less time than that, for only about the last month. That month had been a little turbulent, to say the least. First, they had found themselves being unwittingly filmed for a reality TV show- called Cops- while on a case in California. It gave Scully the willies, and made her feel as though she had to watch over her shoulder, always looking for a damn camera. Mulder was quite worried how she was going to handle it all once the show aired, which the producer had called to say would be within the next three months. He was sure Scully would never live it down with her family. He was particularly dreading about how Bill, Jr. might take to it. And he just knew this would make them a laughing stock at work- well, they usually were, anyway, but it would just make it worse down at the Bureau, once again. Then, they'd been at odds after the Lone Gunmen called them back to Los Angeles a week and a half later, as a favor, in regards to a video game company that they had invested in, and that was coming into some trouble. People were dying when they played the First Person Shooter game. Not only could Scully not comprehend the appeal of playing such silly games, she had not taken kindly to Mulder's blatant ogling of a certain Ms. Jade Blue Afterglow. Mulder would admit that he'd been behaving like a schmuck, especially considering old Jade had absolutely nothing over Scully. He had really gotten his ass kicked during that case. Not only had he nearly gotten killed in the video game, his beautiful partner having to come in and save him- she really did look adorably hot though, in that battle gear, with her little goggles and big gun, shooting and killing, all to save her man; it was all very primal, and he was surprised he could get up and walk out of there once the game was over, considering the wood he was sprouting- but later, when the partners joined the Gunmen at a bar to celebrate, even though it was pretty obvious that Scully was pissed off at him and not much in a mood for celebration, he ran into the real life Ms. Afterglow yet again. Thankfully, Scully had gone to the ladies room, just as Jade began her approach. He didn't want to pay much attention to the sexy vixen, because he didn't want to cause Scully any more hurt, nor was he truly interested. But the woman marched right up to him, invaded his personal space and whispered in his ear, "Is your partner single? God, she's so fucking hot, I wanted to take her right there in the precinct this afternoon!" He knew he should have felt more insulted that such a sexy woman preferred his female partner to him, but the idea of Scully and Jade Blue Afterglow together... well, the only thing that kept him from reintroducing them was the fact that Scully was all his and he had no intention of sharing her with anyone! So, he may have lost out on one fantasy, but lived to enjoy the reality, which was having his partner remain as his love, and not killing him for doing anything she might have considered stupid, degrading or disgusting. She was still brooding over what she deemed his unfortunate lack of judgment when they were called in to investigate the mysterious death of a doctor's family, and the apparent source of these deaths- a Mr. Orel Peattie and his magical voodoo dolls... Scully had momentarily lost her eyesight on that case, scaring them both nearly to death. Less than a week later, Mulder felt she had lost sight of something even more important- namely, her common sense- when she had decided to take an impromptu road trip with the devil himself. The Cigarette Smoking man had somehow managed to talk Scully into leaving with him, tricking her, using her for his own dastardly schemes. Mulder nearly had a heart attack from worry over her absence, and felt great sadness and disappointment once he found out whom she had disappeared with. Once she came back to him, seemingly unharmed, but perhaps sadder and wiser, the pain he felt over what he considered were her foolish actions tainted his relief over her safe return. This was a germ in their fledgling relationship that grew and festered, like an unchecked infection. After several days, the illness growing between them had come to a head, and they'd fought about it, finally getting it all out into the open. Their argument had been horrific. There had been a lot of screaming and accusations and tears and explanations being flung back and forth at each other. It eventually led to the most mind-blowing make-up sex either of them had ever experienced, but it had been a rough road to get there. Between the time they had made love for the first time in a hotel room the night they had discovered the truth about his sister Samantha, and what was about to happen this evening, they could count their moments of mutual sexual gratification on one hand. Mulder was really gunning for starting on the fingers of the other hand, but he realized that he and Scully were still so new at this romance thing and there were a lot of kinks left to be worked through. Since their biggest fault through out their partnership, then friendship and now their relationship had to be the lack of communication and holding back their true feelings, he was determined to start a new tradition of honesty and truth right now! Though he could feel Scully's insistent tug on his pants, though he could see the want in her beautiful, blue eyes and though he could feel his own want, throbbing insistently in his trousers and pressing temptingly into the heavenly apex of her thighs, Mulder knew they needed to have this conversation first. On the screen, Danny became acquainted with the newly made over Sandy. The psychologist in Mulder- and the feminist in Scully- would surely have a field day analyzing this turn of events, but now was not the time for inane reflection. Danny sang to his love in amazement, trying to woo her back into his life, which everyone knows, would be pathetic without her. "I got chills- they're multiplying! And I'm losing control For the power you're supplying. It's electrifying!" Looking down at the incredibly gorgeous woman staring up at him from under the confines of his thrumming body, Mulder could only agree with that statement and commiserate. But he still pressed onward. It was important to him. She was important to him. "So, what was your answer?" Scully asked finally, after waiting too long without him giving one. She seemed cautiously curious. She wanted to know what he'd said, but at the same time, his expression gave her some cause to worry over what he'd said. "I said... 'Not in the widely understood definition of that term'," he replied. On screen, Danny and Sandy were dancing through the fun house at the carnival and vowing to each other that, You're the one that I want... Scully frowned. "What did you mean by that?" she inquired, looking confused, perhaps somewhat hurt. "I..." he struggled to find the right words. "I guess I was kind of afraid to admit about our relationship, as if telling her- basically a stranger and someone so far away from our own crazy lives- might mean that I'd slip up later on and admit it to someone else... as in someone that we feel shouldn't know about us." Now she understood. "Mulder, we did talk about this. You were the one who insisted upon total secrecy, remember? I mean, my own mother doesn't even know, and she's actually been wanting us to get together! And I know you haven't said anything to the Gunmen either, otherwise, I doubt Frohike would still leer at me all the time. Are you telling me now that you want to go public with our relationship?" "I... well, yeah," he admitted, "although, trust me, Frohike would continue to leer at you, regardless. And... I know that we can't go bragging about it- at least, not to just anyone." She sighed sadly. "It's true," she had to agree, "if someone from work found out, it could definitely jeopardize our partnership- even our jobs." "Scully," he whispered, staring down into her beautiful face, "no matter what happens, you will always be my partner." He kissed her softly. "I know," she said with half-lidded eyes and a warm smile. "You'll always be mine, too. I only meant our working partnership. And of course, there's the X-Files to worry about." "I don't worry so much about the X-Files anymore," he admitted, and she stared at him in surprise. "Well," he said, "I would miss it, but I honestly think that we've gone about as far as we can there." "What do you mean?" "I wanted to find my sister and I did, sort of. It only took nearly a decade on the job, but I did. Because of the X-Files, I discovered a government conspiracy, and learned that there is an imminent concern for colonization. We have solved crimes and murders that had previously been deemed unsolvable, due to their paranormal connections. We've captured or rid the world of so many monsters, even some of the human persuasion... and, most importantly, because of the X- Files, I met my soul mate..." Scully averted her eyes. "You mean Melissa Ephesian?" she asked, suddenly looking forlorn. He smiled, having the feeling that she would automatically recall that time when he had been misguided enough to entertain such a possibility. "No," he told her, "I mean Dana Scully." Tears flooded her eyes. "Aw, Mulder, I... you know I feel the same..." "Yes, I do," he said, bending his head down again to kiss her. Even more than having sex, kissing this woman was his favorite thing in the world to do. "But... the X-Files has also brought us its share of pain and death and sadness. So if you asked me to choose between you and a musty basement office full of old files, well, there's no question..." She waited for him to clarify, still not completely sure what his answer would be. "Um, Mulder...?" He laughed. "Jesus, Scully, of course I'd choose you! Besides, the work we do, it would be possible to continue our quest in the private sector. We'd be some sort of... paranormal investigators." "That's what the Ghostbusters called themselves, Mulder," she smirked. "I guess Josh was right, huh?" "Hmm, maybe," he snickered, remember her nephew's impressions of their job. "I guess we could change our motto from I want to believe to We're ready to believe you. Yeah, that could definitely work. And hey, I can be Bill Murray and you can be my Sigourney Weaver. Ha! You wouldn't even have to change your first name, Dana, although you might have to grow a foot taller..." She could hear the wicked amusement in his tone. "Very funny, Venkman!" she muttered good- naturedly. "But let me get this straight. Are you telling me that you want to throw caution to the wind and go public with our relationship, doing so with the knowledge that if we get canned from the FBI, we can just become ghost busters?" "Well, maybe semi public would be a better description, at least for now," he said, searching her face for approval, "although the whole ghost busting thing does have its appeal." "Semi public?" she asked with a devilish grin. "What do you mean by that, Mulder? Having sex at the office?" "Uh, that wasn't what I was thinking, actually," he admitted, "but I'm certainly open to that suggestion." He ground his erection against her. "Y-yeah," she gasped, "I'm sure you are." "Did you know that I've got approximately ninety- three fantasies involving you, me and our desk down in the basement, Scully?" "Mulder? Are you going to explain this semi public business, or just torture me all night?" "Oh, right! Well, how about we start kind of slowly..." he paused as she laughed. It was true. No one could ever accuse the two of them of rushing into anything when it came to their relationship! "You know, we can tell your mom and your family... and the guys. I mean, do I want the aliens or the conspirators privy to the fact that I'm doing the naked pretzel with my hot, little sex-goddess of a partner?" She rolled her eyes. "You're so romantic, Mulder, and God, your answer better be no to that question." "Okay, no, even though I'd love to shout it from the roof tops that you're mine... and I'm yours." He leaned down to rub his nose against hers before kissing it. "But, I think it would be okay- and nice- to share the fact that we're in love, at least with our family and close friends. Let the people most important to us in on our little secret, so they don't have to wonder why we have these shit-eating grins on our faces all the time now." Scully, blushing over the idea that her family would know she was having sex with her partner- although she was pretty sure most of them assumed this already, anyway- chuckled nervously, then said, "I don't eat shit, Mulder, grinning or otherwise. But I do see your point about this and I... I certainly agree." Now he grinned, leering at her. "So, did you want to tell the Skinman, or should I?" This only made her laugh- and blush- harder. "Oh, Mulder, I have the sinking suspicion that he already knows. Or at least, he suspects. I'm sure he's contemplated over the idea." He thrust his tight, painful erection against her, and she groaned his name in excitement. "I'm contemplating something myself right about now, Agent Scully." Danny and Sandy and the gang began their last big number, singing, We Go Together and dancing around like maniacs. "Tell me about it, stud?" Scully joked, but her voice was all seduction. Mulder chuckled, then answered her, "How's about I ram-a-lama-lama your dingedy-ding-a-dong?" he crooned in time with the song. "Oh, God, yes!" she exclaimed, tugging once again, at his clothing, desperate to get him naked and grab a hold of his own dingedy-ding-a-dong. "I've been waiting for that ever since you got here, dammit!" "Shit, you mean, I didn't need to watch the movie, sing the songs, or have a heartfelt talk? I could have screwed your brains out the minute I walked through the door?" he stammered, pretending to be shocked. "Yes!" she informed him, getting his shirt over his head and reaching for the fly on his pants. "But I truly did enjoy the rest of it, too." "Even the singing?" he asked, yanking her sweater over her head, and reaching around her to unclasp her silky bra, whereupon her exquisite breasts were revealed to him. He buried his face between them. "Especially the singing," she vowed, sighing in contentment at the contact. Once he got her pants off, and they were completely exposed to each other, he kissed her lovingly, then stared into her eyes as he slowly sank into her. This was one of his favorite moments while making love to the woman of his dreams. Their connection was so much more than physical. "So good, Scully," he whimpered. "Love you so much..." Danny and Sandy were driving away- okay, make that flying away- in a souped-up, outrageously painted pink car. The hood was clear and the engine visible. It still couldn't have been revving as much as Mulder's and Scully's were. "Love you, Mulder, always..." Scully replied with a groan. "We'll always be together..." she sang in her charming, off-key monotone as the song came to a close. The two leads waved goodbye and floated off into the clouds. Mulder had never ceased to be amazed- or amused- by Scully's somewhat quiet, subtle, but very funny sense of humor. He truly appreciated it. He always had. But what he appreciated even more was the fact that she had been funnier, sillier... happier ever since they had finally admitted their true feelings for one another. Mulder was flabbergasted by the conclusion that he actually made her happy. Scully was the woman he'd loved since... well, forever, and her mere presence could delight him to no end. It was nearly unbelievable to him that he could elicit the same feelings in her, but there it was, plain as day and staring him in the face, just as she was now. "Mulder? Are you all right, love?" There it was, another mushy term of endearment that he couldn't get enough of from her. He smiled. "I'm... perfect, love," he assured her, caressing her face with one hand and one of her soft, supple thighs with the other, "now that I have you." "Then, have me," she urged him, thrusting up against his beautiful body. "And I'll have you." "Deal," he agreed, and they kissed, then began their primal dance. In the background, the end credits of the movie left them with one final bit of advice... "Grease is the word... is the word... is the word... is the word..." Scene Sixteen: "Tears On My Pillowcase..." [Rated PG-13] April 2001 Alexandria, Fox Mulder residence Laundry Room 9:02 p.m. Mulder was downstairs in his apartment building's laundry room. He had six loads going at once, using up every washing machine there, which was against the rules here. He was not supposed to be monopolizing all of the machines himself, as it was considered bad form to do so to one's neighbors, but Mulder could give a rat's ass about the rules or his neighbors. Besides, there was no one else down here, glaring at him to hurry up, and he still had a load of sheets and towels to do even after all of this, so he was going to do what he needed to do. He had just gotten back from a close call this evening where he and this Agent Doggett guy had barely escaped with their lives from yet another government facility harboring horrible secrets regarding the fate of the world. Even though he had recently just risen from the dead, Mulder was still searching for answers, still looking for the truth, no matter how daunting it may be. When he and Doggett and the Lone Gunmen had beat it out of that place, the guys had raced for their ugly, hippie van, Doggett had headed to his own car, and Mulder was met with the sight of his very pregnant Scully waiting for him at her car, gesturing frantically for him to hurry his ass up. She had slid in behind the steering wheel, her girth barely allowing her room to breathe, while he made a beeline for the passenger seat, and off they raced, into the night, inhaling the dust made by the hasty retreat of the other two parties leaving just before them. They had barely made it out of there alive. If it hadn't been for Doggett's warning... "Fuck!" Mulder groaned out loud, in spite of the lack of an audience to either be shocked or amused over his curse. Life, after having come back from the dead, was certainly no bowl of cherries. Not that life ever had been a bowl of cherries in the first place, but before, he'd known where he fit in with the world... and with her... At least, he always thought he did. Things were still a bit on the hazy side sometimes, when he tried to recall his past. But now, there was this Agent Dog-get in his world, in Scully's world, as well as in his X-Files office. He didn't like the asshole, not one little bit, whether the man had just saved his ass or not. Doggett has an attitude, Mulder decided, a bad attitude! The guy was cocky, arrogant, and he constantly hovered around Scully. If Mulder would have thought about it, he might have been shocked to realize that all of those things could have easily been used to describe him as well, but the point was, he wasn't thinking about it. The fucker's acting like he's got a stake on my Scully! Scully... Tears flooded Mulder's eyes over just the thought of her name. She had been his first sight when he'd awoken from the coma after being brought back from the dead just a couple of weeks ago. She had looked so beautiful and kind and loving. He remembered her expression once he'd opened his eyes and looked at her for the first time, although, even while he was unconscious, he had known she was there with him. He had felt her presence somehow. But upon opening his eyes and actually seeing her there, a solid, breathing person, not just a pretty but unattainable vision, that made it all real. It made her truly real. She had looked ecstatic to see him awake. She had hugged him, even though he was too weak at the time to return the gesture. So, he had hugged her with his heart, his mind, his soul. Every ounce of mental and emotional energy he had to give went to the effort of loving her in that moment, as he'd had no physical energy to speak of. A smile appeared on his trembling lips over the memory. How many other bozos could say their return from the dead was so meaningful and heartfelt? How many of them could say that they were greeted by their very own earthbound angel? Then again, he reasoned, how many bozos lay buried in the ground for months and actually return from the dead at all? Not long after their teary-eyed reunion, Mulder thought it was a day or two later, but he couldn't remember for sure now, he had finally noticed the fullness to her face, and her breasts... as well as the swell of her very obviously pregnant belly. He recalled the last time he had seen Scully before being abducted. He had left her in his bed, after making love to her in the most tender way, kissing her tear-stained, worried face goodbye and leaving to meet up with Skinner at the airport to fly to Oregon. She had looked so lovely, gorgeous, sexy, a little sad, of course, but decidedly as thin as a reed and definitely not pregnant. His heart ached with regret, recalling their failed attempts at creating life together through invitro fertilization the year before. It hadn't worked, much to both their utmost regret. It had hit Scully hard to be faced with such defeat. He had remained strong and supportive for her during that heartbreaking time, but what he hadn't let on was just how much it had hurt him, too. The idea of having a child had never truly crossed his mind, but when Scully had asked him, he suddenly felt compelled to become a father, but only if Scully was to be the mother of his offspring. There was no one else in the world he would have wanted to share that experience with. When it all failed, he realized it wasn't meant to be, but it still hurt him terribly. Because he was a guilt-ridden man for so long, he blamed the whole fiasco on himself. He felt he had failed the woman he loved. Not long after, so many things happened to change their lives, and not having a child together, while tragic, suddenly did not seem like the end of the world. Contracting a neurological disorder felt like the end of the world sometimes, especially considering he knew it was an ultimately fatal condition, but at the same time, he felt life renew when he had braved up enough to kiss his lovely partner on the lips, for the very first time. That event seemed to have set off a chain reaction of so many topsy-turvy happenings. His mother died, he'd discovered that his sister was long dead, too. The X-Files was in danger of being closed down. But through it all, his relationship with his beloved Scully had grown and blossomed and soon they were absolutely everything to each other. They always had been nearly so, since that first day they'd met in March of 1992, really. But even as their partnership and friendship expanded and more trust was formed and intimacy developed, something had always been missing; just one, tiny little piece of a puzzle that would forever remain unfinished until the last part was added to the final picture. He'd found that missing piece in a hotel room the night he discovered the truth about what had happened to his sister. That was the first time he and his beautiful Scully had made love, at least in the physical sense. After that, things just started looking up. Of course, they still had their fair share of misunderstandings, close calls, illnesses, injuries, fights that plagued both their personal and professional lives, but they survived it all, and even if their moments of sexual intimacy had been too brief, too infrequent, neither could question the other on their loyalty or love. They were both much happier and Scully became so playful and even silly at times. It had been wonderful learning this before to hidden side of her. He'd so enjoyed watching her blossom in the protective haven of his devotion. Her growth had set off something inside of him and soon he was blossoming as well. If it weren't for his impending death from the nasty disease in his brain, he would have felt invincible. Being with Scully, loving her, being loved by her, had been the best thing that had ever happened to him. Mulder had been lonely and deprived of love for so long, but finally, he had retained the prize- the golden ticket! Sonnets have been spouted about love since before the time of Shakespeare, books about romance were considered classic works of art. People slow danced to love songs, went out on dates, hired match makers, went to singles bars, even got online in the hopes of snagging that one, special person. His one, special person was Dana Katherine Scully. She was his one in five billion, she made him whole, she was his constant, his touchstone. She was everything, and she intoxicated him even as she kept him sane and grounded. He couldn't live without her, and he never even wanted to try. When he had taken her into his arms, into his bed- or hers, depending on the night- he wasn't just worshipping her body with his own, he was opening his heart to hers, their souls joining just as tangibly as their physical selves were. He knew how flowery and mushy that all sounded, but it was the truth, his truth, and hers. But now... It was eating at him, making him miserable, making him ache all over. He wanted to know how Scully had become pregnant. Part of him had hoped their fertility doctor had kept some of his earlier... donation, and she had tried again, after his disappearance, only for it to mysteriously take. Somehow though, that just didn't seem likely to him, didn't feel right. With some resentment, he wondered why she hadn't been more forthcoming about it all, offering him what he felt were well deserved answers upon his awakening, especially the first time he noticed her more... well-rounded appearance. But she had never spoken much of it, except to offer him a cryptic smile and a due date. To be fair, she had stopped being so talkative and stopped making overtures to their involvement and their love because of him and his nasty attitude. He knew he had behaved so coldly to her, particularly after finding out about her pregnancy. There was nothing more he wanted than to fall into her welcoming arms, bury his head against her breast, while she held him and stroked back his hair with cool, deft fingers, soothing away all his hurt and doubt as she peppered his face with soft, tender kisses, just as she had done for him so many times before. And yet, for some reason not even completely clear to him, he had refused her touches and kisses and sighs, denying them both that healing connection, leaving each of them bereft and drifting through an emotional sea of turmoil, without any hope of rescue. "Dammit," he cursed again. He glanced down at all of the stupid laundry he was forced to do- he had found piles of it in the corner of his bedroom upon his return, for some odd reason- and a fresh surge of anger towards Scully emerged. She kept my apartment, paying for it out of her own pocket all these months, leaving it as I had left it. She cleaned it, paid my bills, fed my fish, even retained my damn newspaper subscription, but she couldn't wash my fucking laundry?! Not to mention, most of my tee shirts are missing. Shit, maybe she used them as cleaning rags to dust this hole. God knows, it's spotless, even though I never dusted... Such nasty, bitter thoughts bubbled to the surface of his mind, growing thick and toxic in his soul. How could he think such evil things about the woman he loved? He admitted to himself that it wasn't fair, not in the slightest. It was downright cruel, he knew, when he really thought about it, which surprised him. He'd had no idea that he could harbor such hostility towards the one person he knew had never stopped searching for him... not until they'd found him lying dead in that field... He wondered if that could be the source of his anger. Scully had buried him in the ground. Buried him! He was in the dark, cold and alone, and yet... he had no bad memories of it at all, no feelings of isolation or suffocation. He couldn't remember a thing about being dead. He then contemplated over the fact that she had refused letting anyone perform an autopsy on him. She, as his next of kin, had also refused any embalming done to him, which was the norm for most people in this day and age. He knew that a body that didn't get embalmed would decay rather quickly, eventually turning to dust... almost as if it never was. But by avoiding embalming had also kept his body pure for his return... He pondered over that thought, just as he realized how she had kept his apartment for him, had continued to make it clean and homey. It made sense for her to do so while he was missing. He himself had done little things in Scully's apartment when she'd gone missing so many years ago. And thankfully, she had been returned to him alive. She'd been comatose, sure, but still living and breathing, even if only in the most basic sense. But he had not... He had been returned to her with months old scars upon his face and body, naked and vulnerable. He reappeared into her world- and he just realized now that she had been pregnant at that time as well, much to his horror and regret- dead, without movement, without breath, without life. His body was there, but he was gone. She'd have had no choice but to bury him, doing the unthinkable to her perfect other... And yet... and yet, she had still kept his things in place, surrounding herself with them, even though it would seem foolish, perhaps even morbid to do so. Is it possible that Scully somehow knew I'd find a way back to her? he dared to wonder. Could it be that she expected me, even as they lowered my casket into the cold, hard earth? Did she love me so much that she felt even death itself could not keep us apart for long... The ideas swimming in his head were just too fantastic to believe, as much as he would have liked to. It sounded like something he would have thought, a lifetime ago. But Scully, even though he knew she loved him dearly, she would be too sensible to believe in such nonsense, to rely on instinct and emotion over science and logic... wouldn't she? "She still could have washed my damn clothes," he muttered out loud. "No, I'm sorry, but I couldn't," a voice said from the laundry room doorway, and he jumped nearly a mile at the surprise. "Oh, Mulder," she whispered contritely, "I didn't mean to-" As happy as he was to see her, something kept him from expressing it. Instead, he responded with irritation. "Scully, what are you doing here?" She shrugged, walking into the laundry room, waddling over to him in a most adorable manner, although he refused to mention it. "I... felt restless, I guess." "You should be home, taking it easy," he ordered in a stern tone, looking away from her. "I thought pregnant women needed a lot more sleep." "I get enough sleep," she lied easily, coming closer to stand beside him. She looked upon him adoringly. Her gaze only unnerved him, worsened his mood. "Well, you shouldn't be driving," he grunted in annoyance, angry not with her presence but with his inability to deal with it. "When we made our get away earlier tonight, you could barely fit behind the wheel of your car! You're a danger to yourself and the..." he gestured to her stomach, unable to even say the word, baby, "and to everyone else out on the road!" His eyes gleamed. He didn't know why, but he wanted to scold her, wanted to punish her. After all she had done for him, all she meant to him, he couldn't escape this need to hurt her. He didn't want to do it, but he couldn't stop himself. Unexpectedly to him, Scully smiled and rested a delicate hand on his bicep, ignoring his bitterness and instead focusing on the concern underlying it. "I took a cab over, Mulder." "Oh." He then lapsed into silence, feeling chastised by her answer and her kindness. "But you're definitely right," she added, "I shouldn't be driving anymore. I wouldn't want to endanger anyone, especially the baby..." She caressed her huge belly with a light touch and smiled again. "Or yourself," Mulder heard himself say. He blinked. He hadn't meant to say it out loud. He realized her motions must have distracted him. He had found the gesture beyond touching and even a little alluring. But he tamped his reactions to her beauty down deep inside. He thought there was no need to get all hot and bothered or touched to tears over someone who had bigger and better things to worry about than he. "Or myself," she amended, turning her Mona Lisa smile back to him. Mulder swallowed the lump in his throat and averted his gaze. Too much emotion was swirling and churning within. Some of it was loving, and hopeful, but most of it was fear and anguish and anger and uncertainty. He didn't want to take those negative feelings out on her, on a pregnant woman, who looked at him with eyes as blue as the ocean on a clear day. He had the feeling he was going to hurt her anyway, tonight, but honestly, he did not want to. "So, why couldn't you?" he asked quietly, anxious to change the subject. "Do my laundry, I mean? Not that you should have to, but, considering the rest of the upkeep you did for my apartment... is the detergent harmful to the baby or something?" "No," she assured him, chuckling softly. She touched his arm again and those beautiful eyes of hers suddenly flooded with tears. Shit, he thought, what did I say? He knew- or at least, he'd heard- that pregnant women were extremely hormonal and could get pretty moody and emotional. That was understandable, considering what was going on inside their bodies. But he wasn't quite used to Scully being this way, so... open and softhearted, at least not this blatantly. Of course, she had never been pregnant before, so he honestly had no basis of comparison. He was becoming uncomfortable being around her again, which was truly breaking his heart. He knew it wasn't anything she had done, not directly. It was all him, and his tormented soul and his wanting to know the answers to questions he was simply too much of a coward to ask. Making a show of checking his watch, he opened up one of the washing machine lids. "You should go," he told her coldly, no longer able to handle their close proximity. "I've got to finish up this shit load of laundry that you couldn't do." He paused, wincing inwardly. How could he have said such a thing to the woman he loved? He was being such a bastard. Scully's eyes blinked back tears of confusion, shock and pain. "I- I'm sorry," she stammered, clearly stunned by his unexpected dismissal of her. He also noticed the color rising in her cheeks, and he knew that she was getting angry as well. Mulder was perversely glad for that fact. He had always hated being in the path of her temper in the past, but right now, he was hurting her and he knew it but he couldn't stop himself. And if he was incapable of stopping his nastiness, then he wanted her to be able to defend herself against him. What a warped, twisted world I live in, he marveled at the absurdity where that sort of reasoning would actually make sense. "Don't be sorry," he snapped, "just be gone!" Jesus, I've done it again! Shut up, you fucking asshole! Shut up before she kills you... or you kill yourself! "Why don't you go upstairs, Mulder?" she suggested, her tone clipped, barely controlled. He saw her clench her hands a few times. "I'll finish up your damn laundry for you." Using her bulk to her advantage, Scully pushed him out of the way, knowing that he avoided her large stomach like he'd avoid the plague. She started to transfer a load of his clothes from the washer to a nearby dryer. Careful, as if afraid that his mere touch could hurt her or the baby, Mulder gently, but deftly maneuvered her back and out of his way. "Go home, Scully," he snarled. "I'm a big boy, back from the dead and everything! I think I can handle doing some stupid-ass laundry!" "Fine," she hissed after a prolonged amount of stunned silence. "I'll go, Mulder. It's obvious that my presence is upsetting you this evening." She started for the doorway. "Don't you need to call a cab? Do you need some money?" he asked, his concern shining through in spite of him not wanting it to. "I've got my cell phone and my wallet, Mulder," she hissed. "I'm a big girl, pregnant and everything!" Throwing his words and tone back at him did nothing to improve his nasty mood. "Yeah, whatever, Scully! And while you're out, maybe you could go buy me some new tee shirts! Most of mine are missing, so I'm assuming you probably donated them to charity... or maybe you gave them all away to your new partner, Agent Dog-shit!" He had loved screaming at her, loved insulting Doggett, but he came to regret it the moment the words had escaped his stupid mouth. Scully turned back and he recoiled in actual fear over the amount of anger flashing in her blue eyes. "You asshole!" she swore, surprising him. "Your fucking tee shirts are at my place! I've been wearing them to bed every night since you... since your disappearance! And I haven't washed your stupid laundry because I'd come over here during the day while you were gone to take a nap in your bed- the bed where we would... and I would surround myself with your clothes just to get a hint of your goddamned, fucking scent!" Her chest was heaving, tears threatening to spill at any moment. Her color was high and she looked like she was about to murder something... or someone... Mulder was utterly shocked and appalled. Shocked over the anguish she had obviously felt through out his absence, and appalled by the way he had been treating her since his return. "Scully, I..." "I'll wash all of your tee shirts tonight at home and have them returned to you tomorrow, all right?" she muttered. Then she began to cry despite her valiant attempts to hold them at bay. Guilt, compassion and love surged through Mulder and instinctively, he took a step towards her, his hand outstretched. "Scully..." "Don't touch me, Mulder," she warned him, and he refrained from trying, knowing from experience that her tone meant business. "Not... not right now. I'll... see you tomorrow." Then she waddled out of the laundry room, wiping at her teary eyes. She rounded the corner, disappearing from sight, and possibly from his life forever. A moment later, he heard the main door to his apartment building shut soundly. Mulder slammed his fists down onto the washing machine in a primal fit of rage. "FUCK!!!" he screamed at the top of his lungs. He then heard a baby cry, a cat screech from right outside the window and a fellow tenant scream, "Shut the hell up!" at him. The hot tears flowing out of his own tortured eyes, Mulder was scared shitless that he had just ruined the best relationship he had ever had in his entire life- or death, apparently. He didn't know if it had the ability to pick up where they had left off so many months ago at the time of his abduction, but he was sure the way he'd just treated his beloved certainly hadn't helped that cause along. He honestly couldn't fathom why he had been so cruel to the one person he knew had always loved him unconditionally; the one person he loved unconditionally in return, but he could only speculate in his agony that since he was in so much pain, he wanted someone else to feel as badly. Why he had chosen Scully, he supposed, was because she was the one always around him. That plus the fact, as the old saying goes, you always hurt the one you love. Wiping futilely at his eyes, Mulder dumped another load of laundry- towels and sheets this time- into the washing machine. Some of the stuff on the top of the heap didn't want to fit into the small washer. Frustrated and already depressed and pissed off at himself, he started shoving it angrily into the machine, even kicking the side of it for good measure, for all the good it would do. Grabbing up a corner of a pillowcase, he was about to just start throwing some of the shit into the trash can in the corner of the room, when he paused, suddenly detecting a certain, familiar scent, as it lightly wafted up to his nostrils. He inhaled deeply for a moment, instantly recognizing it as Scully's natural scent. His eyes growing wide, he grabbed that pillowcase back up, gripping it tightly and holding it up to his face. He inhaled again, and the scent was unmistakable now. Scully really had been sleeping in his bed, her sweet head resting on his pillows. He could easily imagine her taking a midday nap, clutching desperately at one of his work shirts, trying to breathe in his scent with each intake of air, just as he was doing now with her own on this pillowcase. She had probably cried herself to sleep, remembering with perfect clarity, every time they had made love in that bed, every night they had fallen asleep in post-coital bliss, their heads swimming in the afterglow, whispering words of love. She probably remembered every morning they had awoken in that bed, their limbs entangled together, her titian head resting comfortably on his shoulder or chest, his nose nuzzling her hair... Mulder deposited some quarters into the washing machine, but kept the pillowcase out, clutching it as desperately as he knew Scully had done with his clothing in the months during his absence and then burial. He didn't hold much hope for actually getting any sleep tonight, but he thought perhaps smelling Scully's sweet scent, even if she wasn't there personally, might give him some comfort. After starting up that last load, Mulder took his consolation prize- the Scully scented pillowcase- and sat down heavily on a chair beside the dryers and began to sob. "Oh, Scully... God, I'm so sorry..." Scene Seventeen: "Mulder in Scullyland" [Rated NC-17] May 2001 Georgetown Dana Scully resi- and Fox Mulder... and William Scully- Mulder residence 7:22 p.m. Mulder couldn't believe this was real! It was as if he really had died and the months of resurrection had been merely a dream, a preparation for this heavenly reward. But this wasn't a dream; rather, a dream come true! The baby in his arms gurgled and squirmed in a most realistic manner, and the beatific creature currently locking lips with him, well, he had no doubt she was an angel, but she was of the entirely earth-bound persuasion. Good thing, too, he thought wickedly, because her wings would only get in the way when I tackle her on the bed and have my way with her in six weeks... That sobering thought would have made him sigh, if his mouth wasn't currently busy sucking on his partner's tongue. Six weeks. Six. Damn. Long. Weeks! It was torturous enough to realize how long it had been for them since the last time they had made love. Then, he was missing for months, dead for a few more. But suddenly, he was miraculously back from the dead, able to fall into his beloved's welcoming arms. He had chosen to act like an asshole instead, pushing her away, while she was heavily pregnant with their child, refusing them both the love and assurance they each needed and craved from the other. He had nearly blown it, giving into depression and anguish, instead of talking to her, asking the questions he needed to ask... he behaved this way with her until... until... she'd had a pregnancy scare- a partial abruption, she had called it. It was then that he realized what he could have lost, all that he nearly had... He shuddered at the thought, unable to refrain. He could feel Scully's lips tense against his, her hand on his elbow tightening in concern. She could read him so well, even while they were kissing, she could sense the subtle tinge of worry and regret seeping into his soul. He didn't want her scared, or fretting over him. He reassured her that he was fine, not by breaking the kiss- which he did not want to do- but by deepening it, if that were possible. He stopped sucking on her tongue, only to delve his own into the far depths of her throat. Knowing some of her... ahem... talents when it came to their sexual repertoire, he knew he was in no danger of causing her to gag. God knows, she's had something much bigger down her throat, he mused inwardly, his ribald thoughts bringing forth a memory or two that he had to force out of his mind. It was going to make things very uncomfortable for him in the crotch of his pants if he didn't. Recalling where he'd left off in his trip down recent-memory lane, it was after the partial abruption scare that he finally realized that Scully and their baby needed him, almost as much as he needed them. And of course, by that time, Scully's doctor in the hospital had informed her that she should refrain from sexual intercourse for the duration of the pregnancy, to ensure the baby would continue to a full-term delivery. Damn kill joy! After some cajoling, once Scully fully recovered her ordeal, Mulder did get her to indulge in a little... sexual non-intercourse, fooling around here and there, touching this, rubbing that, with fingers and lips and... it was immensely enjoyable, the few times they actually did, but it just wasn't the same thing as the real thing. Six more weeks... Mulder tried to forget about his anxiousness for those six weeks to pass, yet again! If he focused on it too much- as he'd been doing since they started kissing- he knew it would only make the time pass much more slowly. Besides, what he had now, what he was doing now, was so incredible in its own right, he really couldn't complain. He was cradling his beautiful, newborn son in his arms- and his son had Scully's lovely eyes- and making out with the woman he loved more than life itself! He began to lick the insides of her mouth, tickling her tongue with his own, and she groaned in pleasure into his breath. And again, that old, familiar tingling down south began to develop. Uh-oh! This is going to be a long, six weeks, no way around it. Something did finally affect his ardor after awhile though. It was a smell... a very smelly smell. His nostrils inhaling as the only means of breathing- his mouth was still occupied- he realized it was a horrendous smell. And it was getting stronger. He knew it wasn't his lovely Scully. She always smelled so wonderful... well, except for that time shit had exploded all over them... Shit! That's what the smell smelled like! His satisfaction at realizing such a thing did little to quell his disgust over it. They pulled apart at the same time, both slightly breathless from their twenty-minute kiss. Scully's nose wrinkled in distaste. "Scully?" he asked, gazing at her face, smiling at the cute way her nose wrinkled. "Yes?" she asked, gazing right back. "Did you fart?" Her eyes went wide. "What? No! Mulder, that's the baby!" "Oh, sorry," he said sheepishly, before looking down at the baby in question, who was currently smiling and looking back up at his father. "William?" Mulder cooed at his son. "Did you fart?" Scully rolled her eyes. "Like he's gonna tell you, Mulder. He probably just pooped his pants." "Oh..." Mulder said, as if pondering. Then he seemed to understand. "Oh!" he cried, trying to give the baby back to Scully with a disgusted, "Ew!" She smiled sweetly at him and backed away, refusing to take William. "Welcome to fatherhood, my love." He scrunched up his face, realizing what she was expecting him to do. Didn't she know whom he was dealing with? He never did anything the right way, but rather the Mulder way! This was going to be a challenge... "Scully, you know me. I... I'll probably get shit all over the place, and put his diaper on backwards..." The woman sighed wearily. "Mulder, remind me again, where did you graduate college? Oh, yeah. Oxford, wasn't it?" "Yeah, well, I didn't take Diaper Changing 101," he sniffed. "They didn't even offer that class until I after I graduated." He offered her a winning smile, hoping that his charm would get him out of it. "Changing table is in the nursery," she reminded him, "right where you set it up. Everything you need will be in there." "Including you?" he asked desperately. "Mulder," she chuckled in surprise. "You'll be fine. My God, it's a diaper change, not rocket science." "Rocket science doesn't stink this bad," he informed her, then gave her one last look of need, which included his famous puppy dog eyes. "Please, love, just for moral support?" She wavered, and he knew he had her. Thank God for his puppy dog eyes! Many a woman had been susceptible to them in the past, but Scully had always been the most affected by them. It was her undoing... and his big reprieve out of a great many things. He didn't escape the arched eyebrow Scully gaze- something that he was especially susceptible to- but he didn't mind, since he found it so sexy. He smiled as she followed behind him into the nursery down the hall. Once in William's new room, Mulder gently set the squirming boy down on the cheerful changing table- that he and the Gunmen had set up; Scully hadn't known, but he'd needed a little help- and awkwardly but carefully took off the baby's sleeper. Then he reached for a clean diaper and opened it, setting it next to William's butt. He lined it up evenly to ensure a quick and tidy exchange, much to Scully's amusement, and he took a deep breath, as if preparing for the Boston Marathon. Then, ignoring Scully's chortle, he ever so slowly opened up the diaper... He was truly surprised that such a small amount of poop could make that much of a stink! He tried, unsuccessfully, not to gag, as he grabbed for the baby wipes and cleaned off the baby's bum. "Jesus! This is disgusting! We're gonna need gas masks for this kid, Scully!" He coughed, looked like he was about to toss his cookies, but managed to hold it in. "Oh, please," Scully groused, "it's not as bad as touching Tooms' bile, or visiting the Peacock's house." "I wouldn't be so sure of that," he mumbled, trying to breathe through his mouth. He felt that gagging reflex starting up again, so he held his breath and folded up the dirty diaper, thrusting it at Scully, who snagged it deftly and popped it into the diaper genie her mother had just gotten for them. "All gone, you big baby," Scully cooed. "He's not that big, Scully," Mulder pointed out, placing the clean diaper under William's rump. "Even if his stink is." "I was talking to you," she retorted playfully, and he had to laugh. "Very funny," he began, his mouth open in mid- sentence, when all of a sudden, his son decided to let loose with a stream of urine, which covered Mulder's face- yes, including his opened mouth- and the front of his shirt. "What the hell?" he stammered, thinking quickly and fastening the diaper shut on his son's little body, which seemed to be pretty evil when it came to bodily functions. He picked the child up and gave him to his significant other. "Here," he said, again, trying not to throw up, tasting urine on his tongue, "you can get him dressed!" Scully watched as Mulder flew out of the room and made a beeline for the bathroom. She looked down at her son and clucked her tongue at him. "William," she said, laying him down to dress him, "that wasn't a very nice thing to do to your daddy... funny... but not nice at all." She smiled lovingly at the baby the entire time she spoke. Mulder had wasted no time in yanking off his tee shirt, washing his face, and his tongue, then brushing his teeth and his tongue and the entire inside of his mouth for a good five minutes. When he emerged, he was freshly washed and wearing a clean shirt- well, sort of. It was from the hamper, but it was cleaner than the one he'd just removed- he bumped into Scully and William in the hallway, headed for the living room. He followed them down, noticing Scully's valiant attempt to keep her smile hidden, although she was not quite pulling it off. "Yeah, go ahead and laugh it up, Scully," he grumbled. "Maybe next time, you'll get the hose down." "I'm sorry, Mulder," she began to laugh, unable to hold it in any longer. "Guess I should have warned you. You have to get that next diaper on fast- especially with little boys." "Gee, ya think?" he sighed. He wasn't angry. He was thoroughly grossed out, but not angry. He gave his son a silly-stern gaze. "And you, little man, it's a good thing you're cute!" "I don't think he cares either way," Scully chuckled, looking at the baby's completely bored expression. She sat down on the couch with him in her arms, and Mulder sat down beside her. "Ah, William..." he sighed, then smirked at his partner. "What?" she asked him. "Nothing..." "Mulder?" "Ah, I'm just surprised you didn't keep up with your Moby Dick theme, and name the poor kid Ishmael." "What do you think his middle name is?" she replied, deadpan. His jaw dropped. "Uh, Scully...? You're um, kidding... right?" She laughed at his panic face. "Well, yeah. Come on, who names their kid Ishmael, anyway? Even as a middle name?" "True." "I named him Moby." He snorted. "Bite me, Scully. Come on, what is it?" "Um..." and she glanced away for a moment. "Scully..." "Yeah?" "What's his middle name?" "Promise you won't get mad?" "No." "Then you'll just have to wait for the birth certificate to arrive." "Dammit, what did you do?" "I didn't do anything. I just named him after someone..." "Skinner?" he asked. "As in Walter?" He was a little surprised. He always thought that was sort of a wiener name, but hey, it beat Ishmael. Besides, Skinner had been a good friend to them both over the years. "I thought about that, but no." "God, not after Doggett-" "He's been very kind, but no, Mulder, I didn't name him after Agent Doggett." "Uh, Monica Reyes?" he asked. She laughed. "Sure, if he'd been a girl, maybe!" "One of the guys?" "Now, how could I do that? I'd only end up causing hurt feelings between them, if I chose just one of them." "True." He pondered. "Hmm, William Melvin- Ringo-John?" "You got Frohike and half the Beatles in that middle name, Mulder, and no, I didn't." He thought of something else and laughed again. "Let me guess. His middle name is William, too, after your father." "Mulder, I love you." "Shit, what did you do?" "Fox..." "Aw, come on, Scully, I don't mind if you call me that when we're in bed, but you know I hate my name and..." He stopped, looked into her suddenly guilty face. "Scully?" "I wanted him named after his father, too," she said in a quiet voice. "Man..." "It's only his middle name," she replied brightly. "His name is basically mine in reverse," he sighed, shaking his head. "Are you mad?" she whispered. "I'm not sure yet." "Mulder!" "No," he groaned, "it's fine. But I think you should have made his middle name Scully, after your side. William Scully Mulder is cool." "I like William Fox Mulder," she replied, "but if you really hate it, I'll go down and get it changed." "How about just add to it?" he asked hopefully. "William Fox Scully Mulder." "An awfully long name for a little boy." "He won't always be little... unless, of course, he takes after you." "Shut up, Mulder." "I just think, since his first name is my middle name, and his middle name is my first name, and he's getting my surname, well, you need to be mentioned in there somewhere, too. I mean, jeez, honey, you had him, went through all the labor... let's throw you a bone, shall we?" "Thanks, poopy-head," she muttered. "Okay, we can do that. But not right now. Got stuff to do!" "What comes next?" Mulder asked, staring down at his son in wonder and amazement... and a little bit of fear. "Dinner," she replied simply. "You're hungry, aren't you, Scully?" he said, feeling like an insensitive ass for not second guessing her every need before she spoke of it. He wanted everything to be perfect for her. He wanted to be perfect for her, although he knew what a moot point that was. "I could order us a pizza," he offered, trying to make amends. "Sure, Mulder, that would be nice," she agreed, somewhat distractedly and not even aware of his feelings of failure, "but I was actually referring to William here." "Ah, yes," Mulder said, as if enlightened. "That's right, my son, you need to eat up if you're going to grow up big and strong like your mom and dad here." He reached out to caress the boy's downy head. "Well, except for your mom and the big part," he teased her again. "You need to grow much bigger than her, on account that she's so ti-" "Don't say it," she commanded. "I am not tiny!" "Scully," he teased her, feeling comfortable enough around her to joke so openly, without fear of reproach or bodily harm, "you are small, my love. S-M-all!" "And you are a turd, Mulder! T-U-rd!" He laughed, and kissed her, then watched in awe, and a fair amount of arousal, as she whipped out one of her voluptuous breasts- ah, the joys of motherhood!- and skillfully got William to latch on in the first try. The baby started suckling, his small hand gently patting the side of her breast. "Can I be next?" Mulder asked suggestively, waggling his eyebrows at her. She blushed, then decided to turn the tables on him. "Oh, sure, Mulder, sure, you can get the next feeding. Has your milk come in yet?" Another laugh burst forth from his chest, this one lasting much longer, nearly becoming uncontrollable, until he noticed he was shaking the couch. Not wanting to jostle his son, or disrupt the baby's meal, Mulder forced himself to quiet. "Damn, Scully, spoken like a true smart- ass! I think you've been hanging out with me too long." Her face grew more thoughtful, sentimental over his remark. She reached with the hand not holding onto William to caress her partner's cheek. "Or not long enough. It'll never be enough." Tears pricked behind his eyelids, threatened to spill. He gazed at the woman he loved with unabashed gratitude. "Have I told you lately that I love you?" he asked, taking her small hand in his, kissing it reverently. "Recently, yeah, but I like hearing it, so you can tell me again." "I love you, Scully," he chuckled, running his hand up and down her back. He couldn't believe how emotional he felt, how... sentimental. Scully was the only person who could bring out that side of him on a regular basis... although, he had the feeling that his son just might have the magical touch as well. "I love you, too, Mulder." She smiled at him, then glanced down when her stomach started to growl loudly. They looked to each other and began to laugh. "You hungry, Scully, or do you have a grizzly bear in your pocket?" "Very funny," she retorted playfully. "I guess we should order that pizza now, huh?" "I will," he promised, "but... could I just sit here for awhile... with you guys?" He felt suddenly shy. Her heart swelled at his request. She loved that his need for intimacy with her and their son was as great as her own. "Of course, Mulder," she replied in a welcoming, loving tone. She wanted him to know that this was his right to be included, as much as it was hers. She never wanted him to feel as though he didn't belong, didn't fit in. She and William were his family and they loved and needed him, always. "Why don't you sit behind us, hold us?" Mulder smiled at her suggestion and nodded eagerly, before scooting back, and pulling her carefully in front of him. His legs straddled either side of hers and he wrapped his arms around them both, while he rested his chin upon Scully's shoulder, peering down to stare at the child, who continued to wear a look of concentration, as he suckled away on one of the two most beautiful breasts in the world... according to Mulder. "He's so cute," he found himself murmuring, even though he had never been the type to fawn over babies before. "Damn, he sure can eat!" "Takes after his father on both counts," Scully laughed sweetly. "You think I'm cute, Scully?" he asked, and for some reason, this revelation actually made him blush. "Cute, handsome, gorgeous... sexy," Scully said, going down the list, and staring back at him suggestively. "And that just scratches the surface of the kind of adjectives I'd use to describe you." She winked at him. Mulder was momentarily speechless. Scully had always been more demonstrative of her feelings and desires, rather than verbal. Even after they became lovers, while she complimented him on his physical appearance quite often, she usually reserved it for foreplay, lovemaking or afterglow. If she said anything to him outside of those moments, it was usually done so sweetly, but somewhat shyly. She did not look the least bit shy right now. "Um... I think he looks like you," he stuttered, still shocked over Scully's latest string of compliments. "He's got your beautiful eyes, that's for sure. Think he'll have red hair, too?" "It's possible," she pondered, leaning back to kiss his cheek as a thank you to his own compliment. She ran her fingers gently over the soft peach fuzz covering their child's head. Right now, it looked like a reddish blond. She secretly hoped he'd turn out to be dark-haired, like his father. He also had his father's nose, she could tell already, and it made her smile giddily. "But most babies are born with blue eyes, Mulder. It just depends on genetics as to whether they'll stay that color. Any time during their first year, they could turn." "Either way, he's got your big, beautiful eyes," he told her. "Their shape and everything. And maybe they'll stay blue." He got a whiff of Scully's hair, as she turned and that nose she loved- and that he'd passed onto his son- got caught in it. He inhaled deeply and for the countless time that evening, felt stirrings returning down south. "I think hazel eyes would be lovely, too," Scully pointed out, nuzzling back against him. Just as she felt his burgeoning erection press into her lower back, Mulder began to kiss the side of her neck. "Oh, God, Mulder," she purred. She had always been blatantly affected by his touch. "Is watching me breast feed actually turning you on?" "Everything you do turns me on, Scully," he admitted, as he licked the sensitive skin just below her ear. Scully gasped at the contact, but decided to tease him. "Really? I hope you'll remember that the next time I'm up to my elbows in our son's snot, pee, poop or puke." He chuckled. "You'll still be hot," he promised, "although I'll wait till you change your clothes and wash your hands before I pounce on you." Her own chuckle quickly turned into another gasp as he slipped her earlobe into his mouth and sucked it hard. "Mulder..." she moaned. "Don't torture me, please. We've got six more weeks until-" "Sexual intercourse," he growled into her ear, making her shiver. "But there are other alternatives until then, if you recall." "Like what?" she asked, closing her eyes and leaning more heavily back against him. "I could go down on you," he suggested, this time nibbling on her neck. "Mmm..." she sighed again, until her eyes flew open and she sat up, looking back at him and causing William to lose his hold on her. He rooted and she gently guided him back to her breast, where he continued to suckle. "No! I mean, Mulder, we can't. I'm still bleeding and-" "I don't mind, honest," he interrupted her. "Well, I do," she responded in all seriousness. She appreciated him offering, but she didn't think it would be sanitary. "I mean," she went on more gently, already anticipating the hurt expression that, of course, appeared on his face, "honey, that could be... unhealthy, for one thing. I wouldn't want us to risk it..." Her voice trailed off, hoping he would understand and not take offense. "Fine," he grumbled, and at first she thought she had hurt his feeling, until he added with a sly grin, "I'll just finger you instead." Scully coughed and sputtered in surprise, dislodging William from her breast again. He'd stopped sucking just a moment before and appeared to be done eating, and he ended his meal with a flourish, releasing his lips from his mother's breast and spitting up all down the front of her pajamas. Both of his parents stared down at him in awe at his ability to spew bodily fluids forth so gracefully. "Damn, it's like watching The Exorcist," Mulder exclaimed. "He's got good aim, too, I'll tell you that. If he doesn't get stuck with your shortness, he's sure to follow in his old man's footsteps and be a basketball star!" "Mulder," Scully grumped, "don't compare our son to Linda Blair, I'm not short and you are not a basketball star!" He smirked. "I just meant the puking in general, not Linda Blair specifically. Oh, and you are short and I was a basketball star in high school... briefly," he said proudly. He took William from his sticky mother and held the child against his chest. "That's right, my boy, NBA here you come!" Scully stood up, glancing down at the mess all over her shirt and she cringed from the feel of it. She looked at her significant other, her eyebrow arched most fetchingly. "Still think I'm hot?" she muttered. "More than ever," he promised, standing up next to her, and leaning over as far as he could to kiss her pretty mouth without pressing against her anywhere else. "Why don't I call in for that pizza now, while you go change into something more... comfortable." He gave her a wink and licked his lips. "Right." She started for the hallway, anxious to clean herself up. "Oh, and Scully?" he called. "Yeah?" She turned back to look at him. "Welcome to motherhood, my love," he cracked, grinning wickedly at her. Scully made a face and spun around on her heel. As she ventured to the bedroom, she chuckled softly and whispered, "Smart ass..." *** Mulder sat at the kitchen table, chowing down on pizza in one hand, and cradling his sleeping son against his chest with the other. He seemed completely at home with this arrangement and Scully watched them both, her eyes misting over with unabashed love. "I can take him for you, if you'd like, Mulder," she offered, taking a sip from her iced tea. "It's okay, Scully, I got him," he assured her. "I mean, I know you're tired. Besides, unlike most men, I'm pretty decent at the whole multi-tasking thing, don't you think?" "Definitely, Mulder," she agreed, smiling. "No other man has got anything over you, love." He grinned back, feeling all squishy inside from her compliment, as well as her term of endearment. He could certainly get used to all of this on a daily basis. "Thanks, Scully. I'm in training though. Got to get used to all of this in the next six weeks." "You mean holding William while you eat?" she asked in confusion. She took a small bite of her mushroom pizza. She wasn't sure about the six weeks reference. All she could think about happening in six weeks involved her mom taking the baby for the night, and she and Mulder spending that entire night in bed, humping like bunnies. Her cheeks grew rosy at the very thought. Mulder seemed to know what she was thinking about and he grinned wolfishly at her. "I meant besides that, beautiful," he replied with a wink. "I'm talking about when your maternity leave is up, and I'll be the full-timer here in the parental duties during the week. I assume you'll be heading back to work by then, right? You know, taking that teaching job at Quantico. You'll be the best damn teacher they'll ever have, Scully... not to mention, the hottest." Scully blushed harder. She had to admit that Mulder certainly did wonders for her self esteem, especially in light of the fact that she'd just had a baby and still felt bloated and uncomfortable and not at her most attractive. But he had mentioned something that she felt needed to be addressed between them. She wasn't exactly looking forward to it, but they both had agreed to be completely honest with each other from now on, with no more secrets. "Um, Mulder, about the teaching job at Quantico, I... haven't said yes yet," she told him, somewhat sheepishly. She knew that a teaching job would definitely be more ideal for her now, especially in light of the fact that she had a loving family to come home to every night, and working at Quantico, with a specific schedule and set hours would enable her to do so without ever having to run off unexpectedly into the field, or get stuck in endless meetings, or too much paperwork, strange hours... But, if she left the X-Files... well, she just wasn't sure she could do that yet. She knew that deep down, Mulder still harbored resentment over being kicked out of- and later fired from- the department he himself had created all those years ago. If she left, too, then he would have no real ties there. But if she stayed, then he knew she would always accept and welcome his input or help on any given case, in a... clandestine, unofficial capacity, at least. "I thought we talked about this, Scully." he said, sounding a trifle bit perturbed, but more concerned than anything else. She averted her eyes, recalling that conversation with perfect clarity, not long before William was born, just a day or two before she'd had to flee with Monica Reyes to Georgia, to give birth. "I just... I don't know if I can leave, Mulder. I mean, all of our time, all those years. And Agent Doggett, I mean, he's a good guy, but I-" "Scully," he interrupted her gently, "Agent Doggett will be okay. He's... trustworthy, I realize that now. And, as you said, he's a good guy. He's also capable of pulling through, even without your wonderful self backing him up. He's proven that, as well. He'll get a new partner... and not just a kid from accounting this time." He chuckled, remembering Leyla Harrison. The young lady was a star-struck follower of the X-Files division and of he and Scully, too. He remembered the thrill she had gotten when the two partners had visited with her in the hospital not long ago. She had barely survived her own ill-fated foray into the X-Files, and she promised that she was now content to admire it all from afar once again. "Yeah, not Leyla Harrison, poor girl," she chuckled. "I think she had a crush on you, Mulder." "No, actually, I think she had a crush on us, Scully," he amended. "She followed our exploits religiously, like we were some kind of... some kind of superheroes on TV or something." He laughed again. "I swear, I wouldn't be surprised if her diary was filled with love stories about us!" This made her laugh harder. "Well, we're such a romantic couple, you see." "I certainly think so," he replied tenderly, then rested a hand over hers, the grease from his pizza getting all over her knuckles. "Me, too," she agreed, "but I didn't think we would be to anyone else." "You're kidding me, right?" he asked incredulously. "Scully, we've been the talk of the water cooler for years! They even had some sort of pool on us, betting on if- ahem- when we'd finally get together." "Ah, yes, Holly from records clued me in on that some years back. I wonder who eventually won?" "We did, Scully," he told her. "We got the ultimate prize." His eyes blazed passionately from across the table at her. She smiled lovingly in return. "We sure did, honey." "Yep, $50,000 sure was a prize! I'm sure glad I bet," he joked and she rolled her eyes at him. "Right..." "Funny, huh?" "That's one way of putting it, I guess." "Ooh, you burn me, baby! But yeah, just about anyone but Agent Harrison could be good to work with Doggett." "Well, Holly wouldn't," she said. "She's so little and-" she paused, glaring at him while he tried to stifle a laugh. "She is at least several inches shorter than I am, Mulder, and not nearly as tough!" "Before or after you take your heels off, Scully?" She narrowed her eyes at him. "All right, I do have to agree with you, the last part at least," he said, keeping a straight face, but his eyes danced merrily. "Okay, so, not anybody will do, but old Dog can find someone willing to believe... like Agent Reyes, maybe. She's a little on the... weird side, but she'd probably work." At this Scully did laugh. "A little on the weird side, Mulder? Well, if that isn't the pot calling the kettle black!" "Hardy-har-har," she harrumphed at her teasing. "You know what I mean." "I do," she said, wiping her mouth with a napkin. "And I completely agree with you, actually, well that Monica would be an excellent choice, I mean. She's very... open to the kinds of cases the X-Files typically deals in. I know Agent Doggett trusts her. And I do, too." "You trust her?" Mulder asked, mildly surprised, especially knowing that Scully wasn't one to give out her trust easily. "Haven't known her for very long." He took a sip from his tea, then bent down to kiss his son's head. Scully had to force herself from bursting into sentimental tears and uttering, "Awww!" "Monica was there with us, when we... found you," she replied quietly, and he nodded. "She was kind, tried to assist us as well as she could. Besides, she helped me give birth, Mulder. That's a very... intimate experience. She saw my..." "Private parts?" he finished, his eyes smoldering. The thought of Scully's private parts always had that effect on him. "I was going to say 'my most vulnerable side'," she sighed in embarrassment. "But yeah, now that you mention it, I guess she saw those, too." "That's not fair," he pouted, not even hiding his jealousy. "She's been to visit Scullyland more recently than I have!" "Jesus, Mulder!" she exclaimed as loudly as she dared, without waking the baby. "It's not as if we were exactly enjoying ourselves or anything! She was helping me give birth to our son..." She paused, recalling what he'd said, and her eyebrow went up. "And Scullyland? You make me sound like a damn amusement park!" "Well, you can be amusing," he chided, and she let loose with an exasperated groan. "No, seriously though, you're just like a roller coaster," he informed her, his hazel eyes shining seductively at her. She ignored the come on and instead demanded an explanation. "How's that, Mulder? Because people want to puke on me?" She gestured to their sleeping son, who had upchucked on her just an hour before. "No," he explained, his voice turning thick as honey, and she knew she was in for it now. "It's for the good things, like..." "Like...?" "Like how a roller coaster usually starts out, going slowly up that first hill, up to the top, just like with us, Scully, like our relationship; starting out slow, and climbing ever upward, just about killing us with anticipation. And you've got these... beautiful, sleek lines, honey, so... curvy and sexy and irresistible to where you know I can't help but want to take you on. And when I finally get the nerve, and I'm there, riding it out with you, once you get going, it's... it's an adrenaline rush! We're going so fast, and so hot and I'm panting and holding on for dear life, and we're twisting and turning and writhing and moaning, and then BAM! I'm hit with the loop-de- loop, and I'm disoriented, lost in the thrill of it, sailing higher and higher and we reach closer and closer and then I experience the biggest climax only such a wondrous ride can bring! And when it ends, I'm left screaming, and breathless, bathed in sweat and the sweet afterglow of euphoria, and even though I'm spent for the moment, all I can think about is when I'm gonna get to go again..." Mulder looked at his beloved, recognized her aroused expression. Her eyes were glazed over, staring off into that metaphor of their lovemaking, her lips were parted, her chest was heaving, and her skin was flushed and sweaty. She nearly looked like she'd just been properly fucked... and metaphorically speaking, she had. It was the best he could do right now, what with her being tired and bleeding and unable to do the deed, and what with he holding their sleeping baby, and with that big table covered in pizza separating them. "God, Mulder," she murmured breathlessly. "Jesus, Scully," he sighed, thoroughly turned on himself. She looked so. Damn. Hot! "Did you just hit your own climax, too?" "Um, no..." "Would you like to?" he asked hopefully. He didn't mean to push, but he was so fucking horny by now, he felt like he was going to explode in his pants! She narrowed her eyes at him, and not seductively either. "I'm going to kill you, Mulder!" she seethed. She had experienced too many years of sexual frustration because of this man, and now... "I think I'm going to explode thanks to that- that... roller coaster analogy... and if I do, I'm taking you with me!" "Ah, but if it's the Scullycoaster, then what a way to go! I'll die a happy man!" He gave her his best come- hither stare. And that this, she laughed. What else could she do? "Anyway," she said, trying her damndest to change the subject, "Agent Reyes would be a good addition to the X- Files team. I hope they consider her, and I hope she'll accept the job. I really do like her, Mulder. She kind of reminds me of... Missy." He smiled at her, hoping that maybe Monica Reyes actually might end up joining their small band of misfits. If she was anything like Scully's late sister, Melissa, then she should fit right in. The eldest Scully sister had always struck Mulder as kind of strange. Of course, he didn't mention that out loud. Instead, he told her, "That's sweet, Scully," loving his woman and her sweetness so very much. "She reminds me a little of you, too," she added, still thinking of it as a compliment, although now Mulder was beginning to wonder about this Monica Reyes. She must be one strange bird, indeed. "Oh, how so?" he asked jokingly. "Is she incredibly well hung, too?" Scully let loose with an honest-to-God belly laugh at his latest crack. But rather than reply haughtily, she decided to give him a taste of his own medicine, something she'd been becoming rather adept at doing lately. "Oh, you know, we were just riding that coaster so fast and so hard that I... absolutely forgot to check!" She gave him a wink. "Wow, Scully, you're so provocative! Me likey. Me likey very much!" "What? To see me and Monica Reyes...?" She couldn't even finish the sentence, her cheeks were burning. "Hey, did I ever tell you about that time, when we went to help the guys in L.A. and I ran into Jade Blue Afterglow?" he said, recalling something that she'd made him think of with her last little tease. She glowered at him, without a hint of playfulness. "Yeah, I remember running into Ms. Afterglow, Mulder," she muttered. "I guess you were so hot and bothered by her you forgot I was there, in the damn room with you?" "Oh, no, no," he amended, "Scully, you know I didn't mean anything by that. I was just being a stupid idiot and I did apologize to you, profusely, if you recall. And honestly, the woman could not hold a candle to you- and yes, I totally and completely mean that- but I'm talking about after you saved my ass in the video game and we went with the guys to that bar to celebrate?" "Ah, yes, the testosterone lovefest," she grunted unenthusiastically, and she folded her arms across her chest. "Whoop-ti-doo!" He knew he had to think fast or he was in danger of pissing her off for quite some time. She may not have been pregnant anymore, but those hormones were still just a churning away inside of her. "Um, yeah, sorry about that. But anyway, when you excused yourself to the bathroom, or something, and I was alone at the bar, waiting for you to come back, who should show up, but Ms. Afterglow herself and she came right up to me and-" "I'm not sure how this ends, Mulder," she warned him, "but I'm not liking this story so far." "No, it's not what you think, Scully, honest," he assured her. "When she came up to talk to me, you know what she asked me?" "Not really, and I'm not sure that I want to." "Aw, come on, just guess!" She rolled her eyes. "What, Mulder? Did she ask for your number? Invite you for a one-night stand?" "No, but she sure wanted to get it on with my fucking hot partner," he told her, his eyes gleaming. "What? Come on, Mulder, I'm your partner and... that's... just... what?" "Yep," he said, nodding at her. "You are so damn hot, Scully, that if you ever did want to play for the home team, you'd have no trouble finding a date." His mouth began to water, thinking of Scully doing sexy, lesbonic things with sexy lesbonic people. He couldn't help it. He was a guy. "Yeah, well, it's a good thing for you that I'm not interested, then, huh," she smirked, flattered, although kind of embarrassed by what he'd revealed to her. "There are so many lovely ladies to choose from..." "None so lovely as you, though," he said, reaching out to kiss her hand. She let him kiss it, then yanked it playfully away from his grasp. "You know, you have an annoying habit of getting out of bad situations by the seat of your pants with that... charm of yours." "Don't I know it, Scully," he had to agree. "But um, I never told you about that before because, well, first of all, I figured if I even mentioned that bimbo's name, you'd be pissed, and I was right!" She stuck her tongue out at him. "And, I told her no, you wouldn't be interested." "Because I don't swing that way." "Because you were- are- mine, and I don't share," he replied, staring into her bright, blue eyes. "And I wouldn't, you know. Lend myself out to anyone, I mean. I'm yours." "Damn straight," she agreed. "I don't share either." "Scully?" "Yes?" "Would it surprise you to learn that I'm sporting wood that's bigger and harder than a redwood right about now, what with all this talk about you and Monica Reyes and lesbians and hopefully me thrown in there somewhere?" She smiled wickedly. "Six weeks, darling. Six. Long. Weeks." "You are such a tease, Scully," he snickered. "But never you mind. You are going to get it soon enough!" "That's an empty threat, Mulder. You'll forget all about any payback. You always forget." "Not this time, hot stuff," he promised seductively. "This one is worth remembering." Scully shivered with expectation. "I can't wait, Mulder." "Argh! Six weeks!" he groaned suddenly, completely exasperated by the wait, and it was only the first day. "Why couldn't it have been for six hours?" "Mulder," she said, amused and empathetic to his frustration. She was equally anxious, and equally horny, if she had to be completely honest with herself, although she winced at the idea of having sex six hours after giving birth. "I understand what you're feeling right now, I honestly do. But I still think we should continue our discussion about what I should do after my six week maternity leave is up and-" "Stay in bed with me and boink all night?" he asked hopefully. "Lovely, Mulder," she sighed. "And yes, but I meant after the boinking..." "Oh, you mean staying on the X-Files? Scully, I think you should take the teaching job, like we talked about." "But do you really think it'll be all right down in the basement? I mean, if neither one of us is there to continue and protect the work? I don't know if I could just walk away... It's not just your life's work, Mulder, it's mine, too. I just wouldn't want it to all crumble and fall because one of us isn't there to do the maintenance." "I get what you're saying, Scully, believe me, I do. I had the same doubts myself... initially. But I think we've got something even more important to concentrate on now." He glanced down pointedly at their slumbering son, who burped in his sleep, making Mulder smile proudly and murmur, "That's my boy," which, in turn, made Scully smile, equally proud. "I know, Mulder, but..." "It's not like we have to completely walk away from the X-Files," he persisted, doing his best to bring his point home, make it stick. "You can still act as a consult to the division, assist them whenever they might need you. And, when I'm not busy being a stay-at-home super- dad..." She smiled at that, too. "... the Gunmen and I can work on things in the private sector. We discussed this a long time ago, remember? When I said I'd choose you over the FBI any day. Well, now I'd choose you and little Will here over them, too. You guys are my life, Scully, and I'm going to do everything in my power to keep you both safe. It'll be okay, trust me." He looked pleadingly into her eyes. "I do, Mulder. I've always trusted you, and I always will. And... I think maybe you're right. Maybe it's time to focus on the big picture, change our priorities around. Doesn't mean we have to give up fighting the good fight." "I trust you, too, Scully. You're my touchstone, and don't you forget it." They gazed upon one another for a moment, with complete and utter love shining on their tired faces. Mulder glanced down at his watch. He grimaced. "Jeez, it's nearly ten o'clock. Hey, why don't we save all the major clean up for tomorrow? Let's get some shut eye before the rug rat wakes up for his next feeding, how's that sound?" "Sounds like a plan," she agreed, then yawned, only reiterating the need to hit the sheets in a timely manner. She took the baby from him and headed back to the bedroom, while Mulder hastily shoved all the pizza leftovers into the fridge. He put some dishes in the sink, then left the rest for morning. When he entered their darkened bedroom a few minutes later, he found William sleeping placidly in his bassinet and Scully lying in their bed, looking up at him with a smile. "Room for one more," she invited, patting the space beside her. Stripping down to his boxers, Mulder was in that space, which was invading her own- she didn't mind- in the blink of an eye. He wrapped his arms protectively around his partner, holding her close against him. He sighed in contentment. This was truly the life! "I love you, Scully," he whispered into her hair. "You're the best thing that's every happened to me, I mean it. I hope you know that I cherish you and every moment we've ever spent together... and even the moments apart, because I still spent that time loving you." He kissed the top of her head. He could hear her sniffling, could feel her wiping her nose against his bare shoulder. "God, Mulder, I... you just... you know I'm not nearly so eloquent, darling, but I do feel the same way about you. I hope you know that." "I do, Scully, I do." He pressed his lips to hers. "You really find me eloquent?" he asked in surprise. "You have a beautiful way with words, Mulder. I've always loved that about you." "Scully...?" "Mmm?" she murmured sleepily. "I bet I could get you off with just one of my fingers. I'll even let you pick which one!" "So eloquent," she chuckled softly, tiredly, with just a hint of sarcasm. "And with the finesse of a jack hammer. Jesus, Mulder, really!" They laughed together for a moment, until Scully was unable to stifle a yawn that lasted nearly a minute. "You're exhausted," he realized, rubbing her arm in sympathy. "I'm sorry to keep you up. I guess I'm just... excited! You know, for a lot of things. I can't believe I get to sleep beside you, but we can't... God, I want to," he sighed. "I know, Mulder, I'm excited, too, and equally frustrated. But at least give me a day or two to recuperate before we start testing the ways we can ride the Scullycoaster without the interlocking of our... connecting parts. I'm just a little worn out. Giving birth will do that to a girl." He giggled- yes, giggled- over her response, which was as clever as she was going to get in her current state of exhaustion. "Yeah, you're right. I know. Scullyland needs a six-week overhaul, but I'm going to be the first- and only- one in line when she re-opens next season." "My God," she snickered, getting closer to surrendering to sleep by the second, "you can turn just about anything into an innuendo, can't you?" "What can I say? I'm a talented guy." "Well, bring those talented lips my way," she ordered him, and he eagerly complied. They kissed tenderly for a few minutes, until he finally felt her mouth go slack beneath his and she began breathing rhythmically against his face. Watching her sleep for awhile, holding her closely to him, it didn't take Mulder long to follow her into a blissful slumber. That night, they dreamed the same dream. They both watched as William grew up before their eyes. They watched each other grow old together, remaining forever in love. Their bodies lay entwined as their entwined minds continued to dream, both of them feeling comforted and safe by the other's mere presence. Neither of them had any clue that ten hours later, they would receive a phone call that would change everything. Their plans, their happiness, their lives, forever changed... Scene Eighteen: "Tea for... Three?" [Rated PG-13] January 2002 Georgetown, Dana Scully residence 9:58 p.m. Dana Scully picked up her son and held him against her shoulder. She had just sent an email to her former FBI partner and forever life partner, Fox Mulder. The email she didn't even know would ever be read by him, spoke of her fears for him and their son. It spoke of the dangers they faced today and the hopes she dreamed of for tomorrow. Most of all, it spoke of her love for him. Kissing William upon his downy head, Scully walked over the sofa, sat down with her child in her arms and rocked him back and forth. He was up way passed his bedtime, but she'd been through so much tonight, and it was as if he'd sensed it, because he'd awoke the minute she'd gotten home from a terrifying and heartbreaking evening. Her mother had left, after giving her daughter a tight hug. She hadn't had to ask what had happened. The fact that Scully had returned alone, without Mulder, told her enough. The woman had briefly thought about offering to stay, asking her baby girl if she wanted to "talk about it", but she knew Dana well enough to know that she didn't know her well enough at all. It broke her heart to realize that her youngest- and only living- daughter didn't share much of her life with her. Dana had always been extremely private, even as a child, but she had never been as secretive as she was now. Ever since she'd had her little William... no, ever since Mulder had left... yes, that was it. Scully had tried, vaguely, explaining to her mother that Mulder had gone into hiding for the safety of their son, for his own safety. None of it had made sense to Maggie, but then, as with most things concerning her daughter's mysterious life, it rarely did. William had smiled at his mother for awhile as if knowing she was upset and trying to cheer her, and she smiled back, marveling at his baby features, which looked more and more like his father's every day. It was both a consolation and a curse. No, she would amend, it truly was a blessing. Scully was reminded of Mulder every day by looking at their son. And it wasn't only his features, but even some of the mannerisms the child had already started picking up reminded her of her missing lover. The way he moved his mouth, when he yawned, or gnawed on his pureed baby food. His intense gaze, when he was concentrating on something, it reminded her of Mulder when they used to puzzle over baffling X-File cases. Even the look on the boy's face as he slept... she knew that look to be his father's as well. And before she knew it, the baby was asleep, exhausted over the task of reassuring his worried mother. Scully smiled through a few tears, looking down at her precious child, as he assumed a certain position for sleeping, so much like his father, and then started to drool, which Mulder would have claimed was so much like her. She would have denied such an accusation of course, although deep down, she knew it to be true. Ever since she'd been a teenager and got stuck wearing braces for three years, she tended to drool in her sleep. How many mornings had she awoken to a wet pillow over the years? And once she and Mulder started sleeping together, she'd often wake up, her head upon his shoulder, his shoulder covered in her drool and her hair wet and matted and stuck to her face, while he gazed down at her with pure amusement and affection in his eyes... Thinking of Mulder in bed with her reminded her of what the super soldier shadow man had told her. How he had watched her, watched them, over the years, even during their most private, intimate moments. This man- no, not a man, a... a...- this being had basically let on that he knew her clothing size, knew her heart rate, her childhood fear of clowns... how could he know that? She gasped as she recalled a late night conversation with Mulder once. They had been finishing up paper work on their latest assignment, and had ordered some take-out and chatted while they wrote up their report together. After the report had been finished, Mulder didn't seem ready to leave, and Scully didn't seem ready to let him leave, so he stayed and they flipped through the cable channels until they came upon a repeat viewing of an old TV-movie, based on Stephen King's book, It. She remembered cringing over Tim Curry's Pennywise character and Mulder taking a keen interest in her reaction. Two hours later, he'd finally gotten her to admit that she'd had a fear of clowns as a child, after a trip to the circus when she was three and a clown had squirt her in the face with one of those fake flowers, then ran around like a maniac, and of course, he was wearing strange clothing and garish make-up and to a three-year-old, it was all rather frightening... After she'd admitted her tale, realizing how silly it all sounded now, as an adult, she had turned to her partner, expecting to find him laughing his ass off at her, or, at the very least, offering up some lame joke or smart alec remark. Instead, he had gazed at her with sympathy and tenderness, wrapped his arms around her, and snuggled with her on the couch for the duration of the movie, giving her little kisses upon her cheek or brow whenever Tim Curry's character showed up, until they both fell asleep. Then she remembered them waking up in the morning with kinks in their necks and running around frantically, trying to get ready for work, already a half-hour late. That had been about a year before they'd become lovers... Scully gasped again, realizing with perfect clarity, as if she had not fully comprehended before, that every time she and Mulder had made love at her apartment- and possibly while they were at his, as well- they were being watched, observed. Had the shadow man been clinical about it all? Detached, just taking it in without any real interest, as a security guard might watch over on a security camera? Or had he been rude and hateful, making nasty remarks about their bodies, how they looked naked or the kinds of sexual activity they had indulged in? Or perhaps, he had been something of a voyeur about it, getting turned on as he watched them pleasure each other, enjoying the "peep show" as he touched himself... NO! No, she wouldn't think about that. She couldn't. No matter what this horrible creature had seen, she would not let the idea of him observing she and Mulder's most private, tender moments taint those sacred memories. Regardless of whether they'd been completely alone, or watched by this shadow man, or even the nosy neighbors across the street, what she and Mulder had was beautiful. She wouldn't have changed it, wouldn't ever want to forget all the times she had lain in her partner's arms, spent, sleepy and satisfied... holding each other close, touching each other, loving each other... Scully started to cry. Rather than wake her son by the sound or the feel of her tears, she quickly and quietly got him into his crib, so she wouldn't disturb him, then hurried back into the living room. She even thought about sleeping on the sofa tonight. Usually, she thought of her bed as a refuge from the day, recalling the memories of the times she and Mulder had spent in it as a nice way to fall asleep. But tonight, the fact that she had come so close to getting him back... She had even put clean sheets on the bed in anticipation of his return, with the wicked knowledge that they would have dirtied them up tonight, upon their arrival home. She didn't think she could sleep in that bed alone now, not after expecting a night of romance and renewal with her beloved. God-dammit! So close, she screamed in her head, venting her frustration silently, so as not to wake her son sleeping in the next room. I almost had him back! Almost... he was on that train, he was there, and I was standing on the platform. I wish I could have seen him. I wonder... did he see me waiting for him? Did he see my face? Did he know how much I needed to see his? So close... Her tears were coming down harder now, louder, knowing she would be unable to stop. She was so sad, but also angry as hell! She wanted to throw and break something, take her frustration out on something, but she knew she couldn't, lest she disturb William. Even though he was just an infant, she could tell how perceptive he was. He knew when she was scared, or angry, or sad. How he knew, she couldn't say, but she could tell he knew by the way he looked at her. His eyes were still blue, but in the depths of them, she saw an old soul, like Mulder... her soul mate. And now, thanks to this shitty situation in this fucked-up world, her soul mate was nowhere to be seen! ^^^ Somewhere outside, across the street, hiding in the shadows, a silent form watched the sad, angry woman crying in her apartment. She could be seen through the sheer curtains she had never bothered to change. She had mini blinds, but hadn't closed them. She had been warned by so many of her friends, by her lover, to keep them closed, but she loved the sunlight, she'd said. Still, now, so late in the evening, so consumed by her turmoil, she had forgotten to close them. The shadowy figure clucked his tongue at her, but was grateful, nonetheless. It meant, he could observe her freely, as he peered at her from his hiding place, a pair of high-powered binoculars held deftly in his hands and perched over the bridge of his nose. He had been watching almost since she had returned home, just after her mother had left, in fact. He'd been observing her writing an email to her missing partner. Because of the way the computer had been facing, he was unable to see what she had written, but it didn't matter. He would find out soon enough. He had watched her as she interacted with her son, watched as the two of them had sat on the sofa, regarding each other with love and wonder and awe. Quite a touching scene, if one had to be honest. Watching as she unwittingly lulled her son to sleep, the shadowy figure observed as she left the living room for a moment, returning without the baby, and wisely surmising that she had put the infant in his crib for bed. He had seen her staring off into space, and had wondered what she'd been thinking about. He could tell she was reminiscing, could tell she was upset. He watched her cry, his hand unconsciously reaching out into space in front of him, as if he were close enough to wipe away her tears. Looking through the binoculars, he almost felt as if he were. Next thing he knew, the beautiful, but teary-eyed red- head had leapt up from the couch, standing straight as a reed, with an alert look of acknowledgment and he panicked briefly, contemplating over whether she could detect his presence. But a second later, he watched as she ventured over to her front door, and he realized that someone had knocked. He wondered who would be so bold to come over at this hour, wondered what this person would have to say... ^^^ Scully wiped at her eyes, trying to compose herself, and slowly traipsed over to her front door. She was dreading this, never knowing what to expect anymore, always afraid that it would only be more bad news, another crisis, another tragedy, more heartbreak... She peered through the peephole and then opened the door. "Monica?" she said in surprise. She stepped aside, allowing her late night visitor access into her home. "What- what brings you here?" She bit her bottom lip, trying to be strong, trying to keep her tears at bay, and hoping that nothing else was wrong tonight. She knew she would not be able to handle anything else at this point. "Hey, Dana," Reyes replied with a friendly and apologetic smile. She shrugged as she brushed past her reluctant hostess. "I was just in the neighborhood and..." She paused, watching as the smaller woman gave her this look she was beginning to know very well, as a perfectly manicured eyebrow arched high over a lovely blue eye. She tried not to smile, realizing that it reminded her a little too much of Mr. Spock from Star Trek. Somehow, she didn't think Scully would appreciate the comparison. "Uh, you're really not buying that, are you?" she said sheepishly. "Well, considering you live across town, and the late hour, no, Monica, I'm really not. So, what's up?" "Um, I guess I just wanted to come over and see how you're doing, make sure you're all right," the tall brunette admitted. Scully warmed at her thoughtfulness. "I'm fine," she had started to say, but stopped herself just in time. She had used those words to mask her true feelings for so long now, she was beginning to hate hearing herself say them almost as much as Mulder always had. Besides, Monica was her friend, someone she trusted. She deserved honesty. "I... I guess I'm doing as well as can be expected," she reiterated. "It's been a long, draining evening..." Monica nodded in sympathy and the two women stood in front of the closed door for a moment, in awkward silence. This upset Scully. She was so unused to having friends over- with the exception of Mulder- that she didn't even seem to know how to act around people anymore, outside of a professional environment. Thinking back to her mother's own etiquette, her eyes lit up with inspiration. "Please have a seat. I was thinking of making myself some herbal tea before bed. Care for some?" "Herbal tea would be great, thanks," Monica replied brightly, sitting down on the sofa, as she'd been offered, then watched as Scully tiredly sauntered over to the kitchen area. While Scully was busy making their tea, Monica sat back on the couch and heard a noise, like crinkling paper. She sat up, and reached back to find a piece of paper half stuck between the couch cushions under her bottom. She opened it up, tried smoothing it flat, wondering if it had fallen out of Scully's pocket. She'd seen what she believed to be this same worn piece of paper in Scully's possession quite a lot the last couple of days. It had obviously been important, but until now, she'd had no idea what was on it, or what it meant to the pretty redhead who kept it with her like her life depended on it. Feeling guilty, not really wanting to, but unable to stop herself, Monica checked it out. She knew it would be an invasion of her friend's privacy, but dammit, her curiosity got the best of her. Setting it upon the coffee table in front of her while Scully's back was turned in the kitchen, she leaned over to look at it without touching it further. Monica saw that it was a print out from Dana's email account... an email from Mulder. She saw that it was short and to the point, but it was poignant, and sad, and she could see enough of the tear stained marks to know that it meant the world to the woman currently making a racket in the kitchen. After reading it quickly, Monica had to wipe a few of her own tears away. Just in this short note, she could tell these two people loved each other, meant the world to each other... and, they were suffering so much without each other. She hated seeing Dana- or Mulder, for that matter- hurting this way, forcing this self-imposed separation on themselves. She didn't know Mulder well at all, or his ability to handle being away from Scully, but if his email was any indication, it looked like his resolve to stay away was wearing thin. And of course, she knew that not having Mulder around was certainly breaking Scully's heart. Taking a deep breath, trying to calm her nerves, Reyes sat back against the couch, her head hanging low in sadness. She closed her eyes, breathing deeply for a moment, willing herself to release this negative vibe, but she couldn't shake the feeling. She felt terrible about it. Here, she had come over to cheer Scully up, and now she was ready to wallow beside her in misery instead. ^^^ From his secret perch, the shadowy figure kept his binoculars trained on the living room window. He observed the tall, pretty brunette- Agent Monica Reyes- read Scully's private email. He shook his head at the woman's audacity and insatiable curiosity, although he knew if he'd been in a similar position, he would have done the same. He also got the feeling the woman was only there to help. And as for the email, he knew every word of it by heart. He watched the petite redhead return to the living room, carrying a small tray with two, delicate tea cups upon it... ^^^ Scully handed one of the cups to her friend, then picked up the other, setting the tray on the coffee table. She noticed her printed out email displayed there. She instinctively reached for her pocket, noticed that her cherished note was not in there. She retrieved the email, and folded it carefully up before returning it to her pocket, pushing it down further this time. Monica tried to pretend she wasn't paying attention to anything Dana was doing. Instead, she concentrated on blowing on her still too hot tea, letting it warm her fingers. She finally took a sip. "Mmm, thanks, Dana, this is good." "You're welcome," Scully said, looking at her friend and knowing that the woman was doing her damndest to not draw any attention to the email in her pocket. It was something she knew Mulder would have done and it made her smile. "So, uh, is William asleep?" "Yes, of course. Thankfully so far, he hasn't picked up his father's insomnia," Scully joked. Monica chuckled nervously. "And he's doing well? No colds? No teething? No... diarrhea...?" She rolled her eyes at her own choice of query. Why did that pop into her head? She was such a dork! This time Scully laughed a little. "Uh, no. Not even a bit of a runny nose, he's still toothless and... thanks for asking, but his butt isn't runny either." "Well, that's good to know... I guess... I mean, I'm glad!" Monica stammered, making Scully's little eyebrow rise up again. I swear, there's got to be some sort of relation between Mulder and Monica... Scully pondered. I can't think of another soul in the world that would randomly ask me if my son has diarrhea... The two women sat in companionable silence for a moment, sipping their hot tea, one of them trying to hide her amusement, the other trying to hide her guilt. Still, they both were enjoying the quiet in the apartment, as well as the presence of the other. ^^^ The shadow also watched the two women sitting together, with great interest. They were from such different backgrounds with different outlooks; they may as well have been from different worlds. He was frankly curious to see how these two interacted with one another, and the nature of their friendship. It was an interesting study for him... ^^^ After a few minutes, the silence began to get a little unnerving to Scully, so she decided to break it, as well as the ice. She reached for the piece of paper folded up in her pocket, taking it out, unfolding it and showing it to her companion, figuring this was as good of way as any to start. "Did you happen to see this, Monica?" she asked. "Uh... well, when I sat down on the couch, I felt something under me, and it was there, tucked between the cushions. I didn't know what it was, so I just sort of... looked at it... but I didn't mean to invade your privacy or anything, Dana. I'm really sorry." She bowed her head, looking truly ashamed of her actions. Scully chuckled softly. "It's all right, Monica. No harm done. It must have fallen from my pocket and if you hadn't found it, then it probably would have got eaten up by the couch." "Sorry," Monica said again. She scooted a little closer to her friend on the sofa and looked down at the paper in question. "Sounds like he really misses you." "Yeah," Scully sighed, her chin beginning to quiver. "I miss him, too." Intuitive that she was to others, even someone as enigmatic as Agent Scully, Monica counted to three in her head, just somehow knowing that the small redhead was going to cry. One... two... three... Reyes looked for a box of tissues, as Scully started to tear up, and spied one on an end table. She snagged a few tissues out of the box, before scooting closer to her friend again, handing her one of them and wrapping a sisterly arm around the woman's shoulder. "Oh, Dana, I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to upset you." "No, you didn't upset me," Scully assured her through tears, "just this stupid situation. Honest, I was even crying before you got here. I'm just... well, I was so close to seeing him again tonight. I miss him so much, it's killing me inside. I hate not knowing where he is, or if he's okay. This is just too damn hard for me. I didn't realize it would be this hard..." "I really wish you would have gotten him back tonight," Monica sympathized. "I hate how this all turned out." She looked near tears herself. "Oh, no, don't you start, too, or I'll never be able to stop," Scully warned her friend gently. They both stared at each other, sniffling shamelessly, before enveloping into an embrace, Scully resting her head on the taller woman's shoulder. Reyes rubbed Scully soothingly on the back, just as Dana remembered her older sister doing for her on numerous occasions when she had been going through a crisis. The memory of her sister warmed her heart, as did this friend who reminded her so much of Melissa... as well as Mulder. "I don't even know if I'll ever see him again, Monica," Scully murmured into Reyes' shoulder. She hiccoughed back another fit of sobs, fighting valiantly against turning into a blubbering mess. "You will, Dana," Monica promised without hesitation, making Scully feel as though the woman meant it and wasn't just trying to give her meaningless words of comfort. "I can feel it, you know." Scully sat up straight, looked searchingly into Monica's brown eyes. "Do you really feel sure about that?" she asked, needing the confirmation, as she tightly gripped the woman by the arms. Not so long ago, she would have dismissed Monica Reyes' intuitive abilities, just as she had easily dismissed her sister's new age attitude, or Mulder's paranormal theories. But not anymore, she was more open-minded now. "Yes, I do," Reyes vowed, taking a hold of Scully's small hands, removing them from their viselike grip on her forearms and setting them gently to rest in the woman's lap. She rubbed at each of her arms unconsciously, just knowing that she would probably be bruised by tomorrow. Damn, she's little, but she's got a grip like a steel claw! Dana smiled apologetically, realizing that she'd squeezed too hard on her friend's arms. Monica returned the smile, as if to say she understood, then handed her another tissue, so that Scully could wipe her eyes and nose. Dana did just that, then blew her nose into the tissue and absently tried to hand it back to Monica. "Eww! I don't want it back!" Reyes blurted, sounding very girly and looking thoroughly grossed out. Scully realized what she'd just nearly done. She stared at Monica in apologetic shocked silence for a moment. Then, they both suddenly erupted into laughter. ^^^ The shadow man smiled. Though he could not hear what was being said, he'd gotten the basic gist of the conversation, especially when Scully had tried to give Reyes the used tissue... and the look on Reyes' face, just after the fact. It was priceless! Scully could be so funny, especially when she wasn't intending to. He began to laugh right along with his unknowing subjects... ^^^ "Monica?" Scully asked, finally recovering from their outburst and forcing herself to calm down. "Yeah?" Reyes laughed, having a harder time controlling her own. Ever since her best friend, Ellen, had moved across the country, and then her sister, Melissa, had died, Scully had been bereft of any steady, female companionship. In fact, she knew she was seriously lacking in any meaningful friendships with other women. Well, she had her mother, of course, but that was different because Maggie was, after all, still her mom. Her whole life- her whole world, really- had been all about Mulder and the X-Files, ever since that fateful day they met. It had been a subtle transformation, but it had happened rather quickly and taken her by surprise, and before she knew it, the same man who filled the partner role at the FBI had also assumed her best friend slot. Not that she regretted it. She had gotten so much out of her friendship- and later, her romantic relationship- with Mulder, she had always been satisfied with that, even if, once in awhile, she'd get a telephone call from Ellen and realize that she did rather miss the whole 'female bonding experience'. There were the rituals of afternoon lunches, evening movies, going out for the occasional drink, or just sitting together on a couch, talking about anything and everything. Then, of course, there was the obligatory- but always fun- joking or bitching, depending on one's mood, about the opposite sex, something she had never really done with Mulder, because, as the most important man in her life, he'd have been the one she would have wanted to joke or bitch about. But she did miss that, just that opportunity to enjoy being a woman enjoying the company of another woman. She knew that nothing could ever compare or replace what she had with Mulder- what she hoped to have with him again sometime in the near future- but, just as Mulder sometimes needed to get away from her and hang out with the Gunmen, or one of his gym buddies, to grunt over video games, technology, sports, or whatever the hell else he and his friends liked to jaw about, Scully wanted the chance to do the female equivalent of grunting over things she enjoyed! Watching Monica, who was demurely sipping her tea and subtly studying the pictures of she, Mulder and William hanging on the far wall, Scully decided to recall her mother's advice about making friends: "Dana, sometimes, you have to make the first effort in order to connect. Even if you feel awkward, honey, just reach out to someone. Chances are, they will reach right back." With a surge of determination, Scully blew out a breath, again catching Monica's attention. "Would you like to watch a movie or maybe play some cards or something, I mean, since you're here?" she asked awkwardly and hopefully, praying she didn't sound as junior high to Monica as she did to herself. Reyes grinned from ear to ear. She herself had been wanting to broach this same subject with Dana, because she knew they had a lot in common, regarding their demanding jobs, they had shared some very memorable experiences together, and frankly, she really liked the woman. She thought Dana to be a very kind and caring person, and Reyes had the feeling she could possibly be a lot of fun, if she ever got the opportunity to cut loose and let her hair down, so to speak. But Monica had remained hesitant about approaching Scully to do something socially with her. The woman had been through so much tragedy and heartache over the years that she was guarded with her feelings and did not trust others easily. Monica knew- and felt honored- that she was one of a handful of people that Scully extended that hard-earned trust to... but she had never been sure if the woman had truly liked her enough to consider her a friend... until now. "I'd love to, Dana," Monica told her and both women grinned at each other, resembling two teenage girls who'd forced themselves to reach out to someone, and been pleased at finding a friend. "I had been wanting to see you socially since I met you," Reyes confessed, making Scully's grin turn shy. "I don't have any other girlfriends right now, really, especially since I'm still new to the area. And of course, the FBI is such a 'boys' club'..." "Don't I know it," Scully agreed empathetically, glad to see they had found something to agree on and talk about so quickly. "But I have been seeing a greater influx of female cadets in my classes this semester." Monica nodded approvingly, setting her tea on the tray still on the coffee table and turning towards Scully. "That's a hopeful sign. Women make great FBI agents." After Scully rattled on about some statistics regarding the virtues of women special agents, the two of them agreed to play some card games, in lieu of watching a movie, so they could visit while they played. They opted for games like Crazy Eights, War and Double Solitaire. They began their visit in earnest with a "safe" subject, talking about work, not the X-Files specifically, but about the FBI as a whole, how challenging it could be for a woman to work in a field dominated by the opposite gender. Monica confessed that back at the New Orleans field office, she had unwittingly garnered the nicknames Agent Evil and Sister Satan on account of all the cases she had investigated regarding cults and devil worshipping. Scully then confided how she had been known as the Ice Queen and later, Mrs. Spooky. Monica had then kindly told her that there wasn't anything icy about her, then joked that she had probably enjoyed being called Mrs. Spooky, to which Scully finally relented and admitted that she... hadn't minded it. From the springboard of their professional lives, they dove into family matters. Scully told of her parents, how her dad had been in the Navy, and her mom was often left alone for months at a time, raising four, unruly Navy brats. She talked about her nasty big brother, Bill, Jr. and her caring younger brother, Charlie. And she talked about Melissa more candidly, sharing a few stories of her big sister's crazy antics, and telling Monica, again, how she reminded her of Missy, to which Monica had smiled sweetly at her and told her how honored she felt by the compliment. Scully was surprised to learn of Monica's past, which was a lot more richly detailed in strange happenings than she would have guessed. She had known that Reyes was adopted- it was in her personnel file- but Monica went into details that she didn't tell too many people. She had been adopted by Luis and Maria Reyes, a wealthy, Mexican couple, who already had six sons and one daughter of their own, but wanted to adopt a child, another little girl, for their other daughter to play with. Monica said she'd grown up partially in Mexico City, partly in California, due to her family's fortunate financial status. This had surprised Scully a little since she couldn't even detect the slightest trace of a Mexican accent in Monica's voice. She was also surprised to learn that Monica had, indeed, searched for her birth parents. She'd found out that her mother had been a seventeen- year-old Mexican teenager and her father had been a twenty-year-old U.S. Army soldier, who died in Vietnam. He had not even been contacted in time to learn of his girlfriend's pregnancy and his daughter's subsequent birth. Monica had never contacted her birth mother. Scully didn't ask, but she looked at her friend with concern and curiosity, and Reyes admitted that she was a little... afraid to. She'd built up an image of her mother in her mind, and she was so afraid that the real woman might not be anything like that. For now, she'd said, she was content to just know who she was and where she lived. Their talk included William for a long time, too, and babies in general. Though Reyes had no children of her own, she had a lot of nieces and nephews-, which was natural, since she had seven older siblings- and had done her fair share of babysitting. She could relate easily to early morning feedings, being puked or peed on, changing smelly diapers, all the crazy stuff that taking care of kids entailed. She also loved talking about the good stuff, like sporting events, school plays, first words, a first tooth, baby steps, and just sitting in a rocking chair and gently soothing a fussy child to sleep. As the night went on, and being that these were two women chatting and enjoying each other's company, of course, the conversation eventually veered towards... men. Scully felt terrible for wondering, but she hoped Monica would share some details of her relationship with Agent Doggett. They seemed to have gotten close rather quickly since Reyes had been assigned to the X-Files department. Scully realized that she and Mulder had formed a similar bond, and in a short amount of time, when she had been assigned as his partner all those years ago, but it seemed different somehow. Dana certainly didn't begrudge either of her X-Files colleagues any happiness with each other, especially in light of the fact that she had found the love of her life, her perfect other, in the very same basement. In the crazy world they lived in, happiness and security could be so fleeting. Sometimes finding love and support came from the most unlikely sources, but that didn't mean you ignored or denied it. Otherwise, it might never come again. She had to admit though, even to herself, that Monica and John seemed an unlikely pair, not just as partners, but as potential lovers. When she'd first observed the two new X-Files representatives together as partners, Scully pondered over how their age difference would factor in. Would it help or hinder their dynamic? She would later come to find out their age difference was less expansive than she initially surmised. Doggett was actually about five years younger than Scully would have guessed. She realized though, that he was a straight-laced, somewhat uptight fellow- yeah, Dana, like you should talk, she chided herself- who had lived through an unspeakable tragedy, the loss of his son. He'd also worked in three adrenaline-rushing, high-risk careers, as a marine, then a police officer in New York, and finally an FBI agent. That alone could age a person. Monica, on the other hand... she was actually a few years older than Scully had first thought, being only two years younger than she. Reyes had been with the Bureau since 1990, tackling cases involving satanic cults and ritualistic crimes, without much success. But she was such a free spirit, a very well balanced and happy person. The woman had helped deliver Scully's baby in the midst of danger and uncertainty, remaining calm and in control, protecting both she and William. She had even belted out some whale songs at her, for crying out loud, which had to be a pretty gutsy move to even mention the word whale, while talking to a pregnant woman in her ninth month, who was hormonal, ready to pop, and packing heat! But nothing seemed to unnerve Monica... Doggett and Reyes seemed so different, which was true of she and Mulder, when Scully thought about it. Somehow though, her differences to Mulder seemed less defined, less important. Of course, she realized she might have been just the tiniest bit biased on the subject... Still, if she were to picture either of her X-Files colleagues in a relationship with anyone, she pictured Doggett with a more... traditional woman, maybe a schoolteacher or a librarian, even a homemaker, someone tidy and efficient. Monica, on the other hand, looked like someone who would be attracted to a man that was hell on wheels, rebellious, a big, hunky guy who wore leather and rode a Harley. Or perhaps, she was more suited to someone a bit more sensitive, like a misunderstood poet who quoted Frost and Browning and who stayed up late doing wacky performance art, like standing on ladders for hours on end and setting things on fire... "Dana, you in there?" Monica laughed, dealing them each a hand for another round of Crazy Eights. "Uh, just lost in thought," Scully said with a sheepish grin. "What were we talking about again?" "Old boyfriends," Reyes reminded her, waggling her eyebrows. "You were telling me about Daniel Waterston, your old med school professor. So, he really followed you to D.C. and you didn't find out for years? That's kind of..." "It's creepy," Scully admitted, "creepy as hell." She saw a light flicker in her friend's eyes, a question forming and longing to be voiced. Scully beat her to the punch. "And no, the magic was gone, before you even ask. I mean, I found him in a hospital, remember, on death's door. He looked... well, old and tired. I didn't remember him ever being that much older than I before." "Age catches up to us all," Monica sighed. "I think I'm getting crow's feet, myself." "You look lovely," Dana dismissed her fears, "but of course, Daniel was sick. Not just in body, but in spirit." "Did he make it?" Reyes whispered quietly. "No," Scully said, "he passed away not long after I saw him. I feel that I was meant to find him, and help him come to terms with what he'd done, how his behavior had torn his family apart much more than our brief fling... but I... wasn't meant to save him." Monica nodded in understanding. "Can't save them all, hon." She patted Scully's back. "Yeah, I know. It was still such a strange experience though. Not counting high school and college boyfriends, I've only had three relationships in my adult life. Both Jack Willis and Daniel... died." She paused, furrowing her brow and letting a tiny gasp escape her mouth. "Jesus, so did..." "Hey," Monica interrupted her morbid thought, "the true love, the one that matters, you got him back. Remember that, Dana. It was a miracle. That means something, you know." Scully nodded solemnly. Yes, Mulder had come back from the dead to be with her. It had truly been a miracle. Just as it had been a miracle that they had conceived William- and naturally, at that. But the thought that she had once put her beloved into the cold, hard earth... She forced herself out of that memory. She was having fun with her friend. Girl talk was something that she used to enjoy and had really missed. "Can we talk about something else?" she asked hopefully. "Of course," Monica agreed, and Scully caught the woman glancing over at the tissue box, on the lookout for any more tears. While it angered Scully to know that she must appear so fragile to everyone, it also reassured her to see someone besides Mulder or her mother that cared so much and who seemed to know her. "What would you like to talk about now?" Monica asked, winning her tenth consecutive hand of Crazy Eights. "Dammit," Scully muttered, becoming as big a baby as she had often accused Mulder of being at losing so much. "That's it, we're switching back to War!" "The only game you seem to be able to beat me at," Monica teased her good-naturedly, and Scully made a face at her. "So, what shall we talk about while you try to kick my ass at War, Dana?" "Um, how about... current boyfriends?" Scully blurted in an embarrassed squeak. She started blushing, a little bit ashamed at wanting to pry, but unable to stop the urge. She was genuinely curious about Monica and Doggett. At first, Scully didn't understand the concerned look on Reyes' face, until the woman asked her, "You're sure about this, Dana? I mean, I'd love to hear more about Mulder, whatever you'd like to share, but are you okay talking about him right now? I know it's been a tough day..." To be perfectly honest, Scully hadn't even been thinking of discussing Mulder in regards to her suggestion. She had just been nosily hoping to get some juicy details about Monica and John's partnership. Leave it to Reyes to turn the tables on her. That was definitely something Missy would have done... But she took a moment to consider the proposition. Could she handle talking about her absent lover without turning morose or depressed or sobbing like a baby? She thought she could. She was such a strong person, Mulder had told her on numerous occasions. The strongest person he ever knew. After all, it had to be a strong woman to take on the role of Fox Mulder's touchstone and his one in five billion. Mulder had not been an easy man to know, or to understand, in spite of how endearing he could be. He was an easy man to love... but from afar; the reality of his pain and anguish, years of neglect and abuse or abandonment from nearly every other person he'd ever loved or cared about had taken its toll on him- on his mind, his heart, his soul. Only someone as intelligent as he, less sensitive and twice as strong could handle his sadness, his outbursts, his insanity, his intensity, and his love, strange but passionate though it was. That one person, Scully had come to realize over the years, was she and she alone. So, could she indulge in a friendly conversation talking about the man she loved, the man she'd shared a life with, had a child with and was faithfully waiting for, not knowing when or if he might return? Yeah, she could. "Yes," she replied, smiling with love shining plainly in her blue eyes, "I'm good. I want to talk about him. I... I'd love to, actually." Monica seemed confident that her friend would not fall apart and start crying a river, and she honestly did seem to have a real need to speak about the man in her life, so she nodded encouragingly at her. "Great, Dana. So, tell me..." "Um..." Scully stammered, then chuckled in embarrassment. "I, uh, I'm not sure where to start." Discussing her relationship with Mulder was not something she had ever really done. Even the conversations regarding their relationship just between the two of them had not been a regular occurrence. Their relationship, their love, had a life of its own, had always been there in one form or another. Besides discussing the "rules" about not having sex at the office, or wondering who- if anyone- they should tell about their romance, or the occasional declaration of love or revelation of a new term of endearment, neither of them had felt all that compelled to try and discuss or dissect that which was as real and as natural as breathing to them. Monica could see her friend struggling with this, even as much as she obviously wanted to talk. She sat back on the couch, and Scully mimicked her stance, and like that, their card game was forgotten. Reyes gave her an opening. "So, you two met when you were assigned to work on the X-Files, in... 1992, right?" she asked. Scully nodded, truly appreciating Monica's easing her into the conversation. "Yeah," she replied, smiling at the recollection of their first meeting down in the cluttered basement office. "We were both so young then... and kind of... innocent in a way, I guess. I mean, neither of us were na?ve to the dangers of our world exactly, but back then we were young enough- maybe arrogant enough, too- that we thought we could take on those dangers, and remain unscathed. We were green, but we learned pretty quickly how to take the blows, how to pick ourselves- or sometimes, each other- up and move on to the next case." "An innocent Dana Scully," Monica replied, smiling. "How old were you?" "Twenty-eight, not exactly a child, or anything, but still young and fairly new to the Bureau," Scully admitted. "I mean, of course, we both had our own histories, our own baggage that we brought with us into that partnership, but... even early on, what we had... I... it was difficult sometimes, but I still cherish every moment." Monica gazed upon Dana, watched as her eyes misted over with the dew of remembrance of a life since past. It was beautiful and heartbreaking all at once to witness. Scully and Mulder were a life long couple, of that Monica had no doubt. Somehow, some way, they would find each other again, be allowed to remain together, love each other. But their lives would never quite be the same. The simplicity of the old days would most likely haunt them often, giving them sometimes a sudden rush of joy, or perhaps a tear of pain, but it was all gone now. Nothing, besides their love for each other, would be the same for them. Their history together lived on only in their memories. "Good memories," Reyes murmured, more so over her own reflection than anything Dana had said, but Scully responded in kind, anyway. "Definitely," Scully replied dreamily. "Tell me about the first time you met," Monica urged her, thinking that perhaps this was cathartic for her. "He was acting like an ass," Scully admitted, grinning and surprising a giggle out of the unsuspecting Reyes. With the expression still clinging to Dana's features, she half expected to hear a meeting that rivaled the greatest romance novel. "Really?" the brunette asked in surprise. Scully chuckled affectionately. "Yep, an ass! He knew I'd been assigned to him, I hadn't asked for it. He knew the men that had given me the job had expected written reports from me for every move he made. They wanted me to spy on him, debunk his theories, his work, to make a fool of him. I just went in there to do a job, to lend my scientific knowledge to his outlandish claims and inexplicable cases. I was there, ironically, for the same reason Mulder was; for the truth. He didn't see it that way though, not at first. He did his best to turn me off, scare me away. When he wasn't acting like a smart ass, he was doing his spooky routine, or challenging me, trying to get me to quit, trying to make me feel like the fool and run off with my tail between my legs..." "Guess that didn't work, huh?" Reyes snickered. "Not even a little," Scully replied, her eyes sparkling. "I don't think he realized at first that I liked to be challenged, whether it was by his theories, his wit, the cases we covered, or just trying to get him to trust me, I just... really..." "Got off on it," Monica surmised wisely. "Yes. Uh, I mean, I... liked it... found it... stimulating... I," Scully paused, glancing over to see Reyes eyeing her with a knowing look. "Okay, I got off on it, happy?" "As a clam!" the taller woman beamed. "So, he kind of made you work for his respect, eh? But you know, I bet he really respected you anyway, even if he kept it hidden." Scully nodded. "Yes, he later admitted as such. Of course, he also later told me it was love at first sight, too, so how much of his flowery bull shit do I really believe?" She laughed. "I'd believe it all, Dana. Just going by how I've seen Mulder react to you, or just by the way I'd see him look at you, I'd give him the benefit of the doubt." "That's very sweet, thank you," the redhead responded, her expression turning sentimental. "So..." Reyes began gently, "... was he fucking hot back then, too?" "Monica!" Dana gasped, actually putting a hand over her heart and looking like a Victorian woman who'd just been scandalized. "He was my new partner, you know, and fraternizing with co-workers was frowned upon, even cause for reassignment or dismissal. Besides, like I said, he didn't trust me, treated me like a jerk, and acted like a putz!" "Was. He. Hot?" Monica asked again. "Yes!" Scully finally admitted, folding her arms, but still blushing furiously. "He was hot! Okay?" "What was he wearing?" Monica inquired, her dark eyes dancing wickedly. "Jesus, Monica, this is my significant other we're talking about," Scully tried to rise above it all. "You started this, Dana," Reyes reminded her. "Come on. Guys brag about their women all the time. What's wrong with us getting a little bragging in ourselves once in awhile, huh?" "Fine," Scully sighed, although she truly was enjoying this conversation, as well as the chance to verbalize to someone just how much of a... fox Mulder was- pun intended! "Well, I remember walking down to that basement office for the first time, right after being assigned to the X-Files. I wasn't required to report for work that day, but I just wanted to stop in and meet my new partner. I knocked on the door, and I heard him call out something about no one being down here but the FBI's most unwanted, or whatever. I went in and his back was turned. He was... sitting at his desk, going over some slides- God, him and his damn slides! "He was wearing one of his suits. He was thinner then, and his suits never seemed to fit him properly. Always hung off his lanky frame, but right away, I found that endearing about him. He had his jacket off, and the sleeves of his dress shirt were rolled up on his arms, which were showing... he has... nice arms," Scully said tactfully, and Reyes winked at her. "I remember my gaze following down his arms, onto his elegant hands, long fingers..." She paused, momentarily recalling what those long fingers were capable of doing to her. Just the thought made her shiver. "Go on," Monica urged, sounding as if she were a little hot under the collar as well. "He wore his hair longer then," Scully continued, and she could see that young, lanky thirty-one year old Mulder so plainly in her mind. "There was always this obstinate lock of hair that fell down over his eye, or onto his forehead. He's got such silky hair... And then, I noticed that he was wearing his reading glasses, and... they just brought out his eyes so nicely, and made him look so... so... I... God, those glasses..." she sighed. Scully suddenly became aware that she had stopped talking and was just remembering. She felt that familiar sensation of warmth generating in her womb, and traveling... downward. Oops! Shit! I know what that means... She dared to glance over at Monica and realized by the knowing smirk on her friend's face that her aroused state was no secret. "Um..." she stammered nervously. "Damn, Dana," Monica joked, raising her eyebrows, "should I leave you alone for a few minutes?" "Very funny," Scully retorted, now completely red in the face. "So, was his ass as hot as it is now?" Monica asked in all innocence. "Hey! That's Mulder you're coveting," Scully sniffed, unable to stop herself from going into cave woman mode, and for all of the teasing and scoffing she had done to Mulder for the times his own hackles would rise when someone would dare to look her way. "Oh, come on, Dana," Reyes stated the obvious, looking slightly amused. "I'm not coveting him. Just admiring his backside. Besides, everyone looks at people's asses. They're cute! No harm in it." "Yeah, guess not," Scully begrudgingly allowed. "I mean, your ass is hot, too," Monica graciously complimented her. Dana chuckled, blushing almost constantly now. "Uh, well, thank you, Monica. Yours is great, as well." "Thanks!" Monica took the praise at face value. ^^^ The man in the shadows was watching the two ladies converse with great interest. He couldn't hear what they were saying, of course, but it was pretty obvious, even to him, that they were conversing about the opposite sex. He had noticed the arousal that briefly adorned Dana Scully's face, which in turn aroused him. He would have given up his right arm- or his left testicle- to be able to actually hear what they were saying... ^^^ "All right," Scully announced, trying to regain her composure and some modicum of control, and maybe take back the conversation to its original intent. "It's your turn to embarrass the hell out of yourself, Monica. What gives with you and John Doggett?" Monica's expression turned to utter shock and horror. "Dana, what are you talking about? John and I are friends, partners, but we aren't..." Scully's eyes grew wide and her face went beet red. Would there be an end to her humiliation this evening? "Oh... I- I just thought... I mean... I- I'm so sorry..." Reyes then surprised the hell out of her by cracking up laughing. "Jesus, Dana, you're just too good to be true! You should see your face right now. God, it's hilarious!" "You... you're such a... a..." Scully stammered, realizing she'd been duped and feeling a little perturbed by it. "Dammit, Monica, are you sleeping with John or not?" This demand for knowledge only made Monica laugh harder. "God, you're so nosy!" she cackled, barely able to breathe. She waited a few minutes, for Reyes' laughter to subside. And she waited a few minutes more before it finally did. "Sorry," Scully apologized for her latest outburst. "But, seriously, are you?" Wiping some mirthful tears from her eyes, Monica finally sobered enough to answer. "Sadly, no. I mean, I'd like to, but so far he hasn't shown any inkling, which is a pity, because I love him so much." "You do?" Scully asked. "Really?" "I always have," Reyes replied, and Scully suddenly remembered that the two of them had known each other in the past; they had a history together. "Of course," Monica went on, looking a little wistful, "the way we met though... it was under the worst possible circumstances." Scully recalled that Reyes had met Doggett when she'd been assigned to the case of his son's murder. That was a horrible way to meet someone, and a terrible way to meet someone that you fell in love with. "I'm sorry," she murmured, touching Monica's shoulder in empathy. Reyes absently, but affectionately patted the woman's hand and continued. "John, he... God, it was such a horrible time. During the investigation, which of course, went nowhere, I got to know him very well. We'd talk every day, discuss the case. Once in awhile, he'd let his guard down and we'd even talk about the boring, mundane stuff, nothing special, just having a normal conversation, like regular people did every day. But even then, he was the most earnest man I'd ever met. He was so devastated, but he had such determination, such drive... he was so hopeful that we would at least bring Luke's killer to justice... but well, we never did find out anything concrete." "I'm sure he was in torment," Scully murmured sadly, unable to even imagine such a predicament. Being a parent now, this story made her feel absolutely sick inside. That strong, parental need to protect... what if it failed? No, she just couldn't imagine... "Yeah." "Well, what about you?" Dana asked. "I mean, knowing that you loved him already, I'm sure it was hard on you, too, Monica." "It was," the woman had to agree. "Plus, I had recently gotten out of a long term relationship with... well, with Brad Follmer." Scully's eyebrow rose in astonishment. She knew Brad Follmer, had seen him up close, looking through his pretty-boy, white bread image, and into someone who seemed like a selfish, little weasel. She never would have guessed someone like Monica Reyes could have fallen for someone like him. What could she possibly have seen in him? "A.D. Follmer? I..." "Yeah, I know," Monica nodded in agreement with the unspoken protest. "Looking back on it, I have to wonder... what the hell was I thinking? I don't know, honestly. Maybe someone was slipping LSD into my coffee or something every morning for six months..." Dana stared at her. Monica shrugged. "Hey, weirder things have happened." Scully rolled her eyes. "So, moving along... you had just broken up with... Brad, and then you meet Doggett, and it was love at first sight?" "Not exactly," Monica explained. "I mean, I hadn't just broken up with Brad. We'd been apart for at least a few months. And I was, actually, dating someone casually at the time I met John. It was... Jennifer Adams, an FBI accountant, if you can believe that! Who'd of thunk, right? Me, of all people, dating a damn bean counter!" "Jennifer?" Scully repeated, certain she had heard wrong. "Oh, do you know her?" Reyes asked. "She's at the New Orleans field office. I mean, I know, I didn't paint her in a flattering color, but she was actually very nice, pretty fun, too. She was a little on the weird side, but who am I to talk, right? Jen could really party, too, not that she was a heavy drinker... or... any...thing..."Monica noticed Scully's confused expression. "And I take it you didn't know that I'm bisexual, did you?" "Um, no... no I didn't actually," Scully admitted, looking a little more stunned than she'd wanted to. Monica bit her lip, unsure of what was about to transpire. Dana Scully was an intelligent woman, and she had to be at least somewhat open-minded to have lasted in the X-Files division for so long. But she was also raised a staunch Catholic, that religious background alone... plus, even some non-religious people had an irrational hatred for anyone different. Reyes knew this could go either way. "Dana," she began softly, suddenly sounding timid, unsure of herself, "are you... I mean, is this... did you want me to leave?" she asked, averting her eyes. "What? Oh, no!" Scully exclaimed, finally over the surprise of Monica's impromptu revelation. She took hold of her friend's hand and smiled. "No, I don't want you to go, and I'm sorry for my uncouth reaction. I beg you to forgive me for that. I guess I just wasn't expecting... You kind of surprised me, that's all. I, um, take it that this isn't common knowledge down at the Bureau?" Monica shrugged, feeling relieved. "No, not that I'm aware of. But I mean, if someone asked me, I'd be truthful. It's not really a big deal at all." "No, it isn't," Scully agreed, squeezing her friend's hand. Reyes smiled and squeezed back. "So, anyway, back to John, he and I got fairly close during our time spent together, looking for the answers about his son's murder. I think I fell in love with him over the course of that time, just seeing his beautiful soul, tortured though it was, so open with me. I can't tell you the number of times he'd broken down, and I held him in my arms while he wept. I'd never... experienced that kind of trust and vulnerability with a man before. It... touched me. I felt needed and appreciated, even loved, although, I'm sure I could have misread some of those feelings, considering the tragic circumstances we'd found ourselves in. "And then, when we could never find anything, well, the case finally went cold, and we had less and less reason to see each other, or call. We kind of... drifted apart. I tried to keep in touch, but he was going through so much at home. He and his wife eventually divorced, which I've heard is a fairly common occurrence with couples who lose a child. "Later, he moved away, and I completely lost touch with him. I heard some time back that he'd joined the FBI, but I never contacted him. I was always afraid that I'd just remind him of a very bad time in his life, so I didn't want to upset him... And then, several months ago, he called me, seemingly out of the blue." "What for?" Monica smiled. "He wanted me to help you," she reminded Scully. "He called me to see if I could get some kind feel for Mulder's missing person's case. And, well, we all know how that went... thank God, it all turned out okay. But yeah, it was... years since I'd heard from him. I was frankly surprised to get the call." "And then he invites you to join him on the X- Files," Scully pointed out. "Yes, he did," Monica nodded. "I guess maybe he remembered the rapport we had years ago, thought it might work again." "Have you... ever told him how you feel?" Scully dared to ask, although she realized she was the last person who should be doling out relationship advice. "No, not yet," Reyes told her. "I really don't think he's ready to hear something like that. Maybe he never will be, or... maybe he'll always see me as some caring, yet painful reminder of his past, of Luke's tragedy. Maybe he'd never be able to love someone that makes him think of such bad times. I just don't know. I mean, I try to remain hopeful, but I don't want to rush him, or worse, scare him away. So, basically, I just... wait..." Scully hadn't realized till now, that she and Monica really did have more in common than one would have thought. They were both waiting for the man they loved, in different circumstances, of course, but still, the waiting was hell. Scully knew this to be true. "Monica," she sighed sympathetically, "I'm really sorry. I wish there was something I could do to help." She blew out a frustrated breath, then sucked down the last gulp of her lukewarm tea. Reyes shrugged, looking a little forlorn. "Thanks, Dana, I appreciate it, but... there's really nothing to be done. I don't think there's anything you could do... unless you're looking to hook up now and then, Agent Scully." She gave the unsuspecting redhead a flirtatious wink, then reached out to squeeze her on the knee. That unsuspecting redhead choked and sputtered on her tea. It took a minute or two of Monica smacking her on the back to get her to breathe again. "Um, I... not that I'm not flattered, but..." she stammered. Again, Monica Reyes guffawed like nobody's business, enjoying another moment of pure, humorous bliss at Scully's expense. "You are so gullible!" Reyes proclaimed delightedly, and Scully scowled at her, which only made the woman laugh harder. Scully narrowed her eyes. As new-agey as she might have been, Monica's sense of humor was definitely veering more towards Mulder's than Melissa's. "Very funny, Monica," she grumbled at her. "Yeah, it was," Reyes had to agree, yawning openly. She stretched out her long, lean form, before glancing at her watch. "Whoa! It's two already? Jesus, I'd better get going. I don't mean to tease and run, but John hates it if I'm late in the mornings, and if I don't at least get a few hours sleep, I'm an absolute shit to be around." "Imagine that," Scully smirked, her eyes twinkling. Her own teasing let Monica know there were no hard feelings. Both women stood up together from the sofa. Scully covered her yawn, grateful for the fact that her first class didn't start tomorrow until noon. At least she would have the chance to sleep in a little. She walked Reyes to the door. "Thanks for the tea, Dana, and the card games." "Thanks for the company... and the concern," Scully replied. "You're welcome." The taller woman reached for the doorknob. "Monica?" she asked, somewhat timidly, recalling a silly conversation she and Mulder had had not so long ago. "Mmm?" "Did you... I mean, what you said before, you know, the hook up joke and the butt thing, have you ever thought of me as...?" she mumbled incoherently, not knowing how to finish her thought. "Are you asking me if I find you attractive?" Monica asked perceptively. "Uh... well... yeah..." The tall woman smiled warmly, reached out a hand to caress her friend's face. "I think you're the most beautiful woman I've ever met, Dana, honest." Scully blushed. "Oh... thanks." "But I never would have made a play for you." "Well, why not?" Dana asked, sounding almost insulted and frankly surprised over that fact. "I mean, is it because I'm a heterosexual... or...?" "Trust me," Reyes was all too happy to explain, "everyone has at least some inherent bisexual tendencies. But no, that's not the reason why, anyway. I just know that nobody could ever compete for your love and affections... not with Mulder in the picture. You two are foreversville, Dana, I swear." The redhead laughed, rubbing tiredly at her eyes for a moment. "Yeah, that's certainly true. I love Mulder like no other." "That goes both ways, trust me," Monica assured her. "You guys have something like I've never seen before. You'll always be together, I can just feel it." Tears pricked at Scully's eyes, but this time, they were happy tears. "Thanks, Monica." The two women embraced tightly for a long moment, then Monica surprised her friend, by leaning down to kiss her on the mouth. Scully didn't freak out over it. It felt like a kiss that her sister would have given her. Their fledgling friendship had survived a little awkwardness and a lot of sharing tonight, and remained intact and was in fact, stronger than ever now. She smiled as Monica said good night once more, and left, then she shut and locked the door, heading off to prepare for bed. Now that she didn't feel so lonely, she felt she could actually sleep in that bed by herself tonight. ^^^ Unbeknownst to her, the man in the shadows had witnessed the entire touching scene between the two friends. He had to admit, even through the discomfort of his rapidly tightening trousers, it had warmed him. Of course, that couldn't stop the pang of jealousy or the heartache from invading him as well. Twenty minutes later, once the beautiful Agent Scully was sleeping soundly in her bed, after having changed into her pajamas, brushed her teeth, washed her face and checked on William, only then did the man leave his secret perch and venture closer to the old, brick building. Thankful that her apartment was on the ground floor, the shadow closed in, glad for the darkness and the late hour, as he crouched at her bedroom window and peered in through the sheer curtains. He watched the woman slumber peacefully for several minutes, noticing how she clutched tightly a gray tee shirt in her hands, even while sleeping. "Good night, Scully," the shadowy figure whispered, barely audible, as he buttoned up his coat against the cold, night air. "I love you..." Impossibly difficult though it was, Mulder wiped at his tears and walked away into the night, undetected by the people who were after him, but also by the woman who loved him... Scene Nineteen: "Best. Porch. Ever!" [Rated NC-17] July 23, 2002 Old Rundown W. Virginia Farmhouse Middle of Nowhere Mulder & Scully residence...? 2:17 p.m. Mulder led his blindfolded partner out of the car, through the yard and up the rickety steps. He held her by her arms, careful not to let her stumble and fall. In a fit of daring, he did reach down to caress her bottom once. She'd said nothing of it, but she offered him a smile. "Mulder, can I take this damn thing off now?" she asked, not liking the uncertainty of not being able to see. She knew her beloved wouldn't let her get hurt, but this loss of her eyes brought back unpleasant memories of losing her sight briefly, during a case a couple years back. It made her feel vulnerable. "Almost, Scully," he promised as they reached the front door. He turned her around so that she was facing into the yard from their vantage on the front porch. "Okay... now!" And he removed her blindfold with dramatic flair. Scully blinked in the afternoon sunlight, her eyes unaccustomed to it, having been blindfolded for the long drive from their hotel room. Once her eyes adequately adjusted and she could see more than just sunspots, she surveyed the large, unkempt yard she was presented with. She noticed a small, dilapidated looking structure nearby, possibly a shed, or perhaps it had once been a workshop of some kind, its walls littered with tools. She studied the quaint porch she and Mulder stood upon. It looked like it was ready to fall apart. She noticed the few boards that were already rotted through. Then she turned and looked at the front door of the house and made a face. "I don't understand. Are we meeting an informant here, or... something?" she asked in confusion. He grinned from ear to ear at her, wrapping one of his long arms around her shoulder. "Nope! This is ours, Scully, all ours!" Her eyes grew wide. He wouldn't have... would he? "You're not seriously telling me you bought this... this..." She gestured to the undesirable area, unable to even adequately give it a name. He not only would have... he did. "Honey, we're home!" he announced jubilantly. He released his hold on her and reached into his pocket for the keys to the house. He unlocked the door and let it swing open with a dramatic flourish. "Let me carry you over the threshold, my love," he said, reaching for her. She held up a hand, effectively halting him from any further action. Mulder didn't understand why she looked so confused, perhaps even slightly angry, but he had the sinking feeling he was about to find out. "Mulder, do you mean to tell me that you spent all of our savings on this... this... dilapidated, should-be- condemned, old farmhouse?" Was that what she was so worried about, money? Well, she'd always been of the practical sort, so he supposed it was just in her nature. "Of course not, Scully," he assured her, smiling, and she sighed in frank relief, until he added, "I didn't spend all of our savings on it- not even close! This place was a real bargain, believe it or not." "Oh, I believe it," she muttered, rubbing wearily at her temples. After over a month on the run, hiding out in different cities, different motels, Mulder had finally promised her that they could stop running, settle down somewhere. She had been so excited at the prospect of putting down roots again. She'd just had no idea that Mulder's definition of settling down somewhere actually meant shacking up in a run-down hovel in the middle of nowhere! She groaned, still rubbing at her head, which was developing quite an ache right about now. Mulder's face lost that exuberant smile in the wake of Scully's less than enthusiastic response to the love nest he had acquired for them. "You don't like it," he murmured. "Eh... I... well, Mulder... it's just that... it looks like it's... falling apart..." "That's why it was so cheap!" he exclaimed, his excitement returning. "It was a fixer-upper special! And I'm going to do just that. I'm going to have this place looking like a palace within six months, just wait and see, Scully!" "Um, Mulder?" Scully proceeded, trying to ask this in the most delicate manner possible. "Do you even know how to fix up a house?" He shrugged nonchalantly. "How hard can it be?" "Oh, shit," Scully lamented, resting her weary head in her hands. "Scully?" he asked in concern. "Are you all right?" "Mmph," she mumbled through her fingers. "Did you want me to try and get our money back?" he sighed in defeat. He really did like this place, and he wanted to stay, but he wouldn't if it was going to make his partner miserable. He'd already done enough of that to her in the last few years alone. "I... no... this..." she was really having a hard time getting this out, "... it's... fine, Mulder. I just... where the hell are we?" "West Virginia." "Oh. But this place... I can't even see another house anywhere! We're in the middle of nowhere!" "Precisely," he agreed, smiling. "It's a good place for me to lie low, know what I mean?" She gazed at him in confusion. They had discussed this at length during the past month, about living life on the run versus finding a permanent home. They had finally decided to find a place and stay there. She had been planning on putting in some applications at a few hospitals in the area where they settled in the hopes of getting a job. She thought they were truly going to settle down, live a normal life- well, as normal a life as the two of them could manage, anyway. She hadn't been aware that he'd still been planning on remaining hidden. This would definitely change their plans, their lives! "So... you still want to hide out? For how long?" she asked, looking despondent. He regarded her sympathetically, even though it was more his own life at stake should he be found out. "I don't know," he admitted, rubbing up and down on her back with a gentle hand. "I guess, until it's safe not to. Scully, don't forget, I'm still a wanted man. The FBI and the military were going to execute me and-" "I know," she interrupted, not wanting to dredge up that horrendous and all too recent scare. "But I'm still going to be able to get out... go to work, right?" She loved Mulder, wanted to keep him safe, but she also knew that if he expected her to isolate herself along with him, she would go crazy within a week. She wasn't trying to be cruel, but it was true. She knew it would drive her insane, even if her beloved partner would be there with her. "Well, you don't have to if you don't want to, Scully," he told her. "Between my whopping parental inheritance, your own nest egg and the fortune the guys left us, we're... to put it plainly, filthy rich!" He grinned at her. She grinned back. Having always lived a frugal life, first with her family, surviving on a Navy man's pay and feeding four, growing children, and then into her adult life, making sure every penny was spent wisely, saving for a rainy day... she supposed this was one of those rainy days now. But her strong work ethic, instilled into her from birth, pushed through the thrill of being well off. "That's great, Mulder. I'm glad to hear that we won't be wanting for anything. But I... I still think I should try and find a job somewhere, as long as you think it's not too big a risk. I mean, if you want me to change my name and appearance, or something-" "You're not changing your name," he said. "You're Scully, my beautiful Scully." He caressed her face and she smiled lovingly. "And please don't ever change your hair color. Red is just... so... you." She reached up, kissed his cheek. "Okay, I won't, but I really do think I should work. I mean, it's nice to know we have so much money to fall back on, Mulder, but we should be holding onto as much of it as we can. You never know when we'll really need it, in case of a true emergency, God forbid. If I'm bringing home a steady income, we can keep our savings and live off of what I make." "Ah, that famous Scully work ethic," he teased her good-naturedly. "Sometimes I forget that we came from such different backgrounds." "High-class Mulder and middle-class Scully," she joked. "No, if anyone is high class around here, it's you, sweetheart," he promised. "But you're right, of course. And I know you'd go stir crazy being stuck out here with me, twenty-four/seven." "Mulder, that's not it-" she began. "Okay, yeah, you don't like remaining idle, either," he agreed, chuckling. "Jesus, I can't imagine how many ugly sweaters you'd be knitting me if you didn't get a job. So, please, love, go... work! I'll keep the home fires burning." He winked at her. "I bet you will," she replied, feeling heady with lust. The idea of working a full, productive day and coming home to the sexy man standing before her every night... well, to her that was more than enough of an incentive to get her work done and get her ass home promptly! "And thanks, for understanding," she said, her blue eyes misty with sentiment. "You're welcome, Scully, and thanks for understanding my need to lay low. I hope you won't mind me being your house-husband." "Of course not," she told him, blushing slightly at the mention of the word husband. That was one thing she hoped to make official very soon. "So... you're really okay with it, then?" he asked hopefully. "I mean, working every day and supporting a bum like me? I know this isn't what you've been hoping for, when you were waiting for me..." He bowed his head sadly, a classic case of Mulder-guilt sweeping into the forefront. "Hey," she said, stepping closer and enveloping him in her embrace. "It'll be great, Mulder. Sure, you hiding out indefinitely isn't exactly what we were hoping for when we finally reunited, but the most important thing is keeping you safe. And you will be here. With me. The point is, we'll be together, because, honestly, that last year apart... God, it was hell!" "Scully, I'm sorry," he whispered into her hair. "No," she insisted. "Don't apologize, love. Really, at the time it was probably for the best that you'd gone into hiding. Logically, I agreed with our decision to separate. But... emotionally, it was... hell." She sniffled a little, rested her head upon his shoulder. "It was for me, too, Scully," he admitted sadly. "I mean, it was nice having Gibson there to keep me company, but... God, I missed you so damn much! It killed me inside a little bit every day. And then not getting to see William-" he stopped suddenly. He wasn't sure if their son was considered a taboo subject at this time. Except for that morning in the military jail, when Scully had confessed to him that she'd given the boy up for adoption, they had not really talked about him since. "It's... okay, Mulder," Scully murmured softly, realizing the same the thing herself, which actually stunned her and made the pain even worse. She tried not to cry any harder. "William... will always be our son... I still regret to this day what I did, but..." "You did what you had to do," he said, rubbing her back. "I... I might have had to do the same thing if I was the only parent there and you'd been in hiding..." He looked out into the yard wearing a wistful expression. He would have done anything to protect their beloved child, just as she had. He wished he could convince her that he wasn't angry, he didn't resent her decision, or her for doing what she felt was the right thing to do. Scully shook her head. "No, you wouldn't have. I... you would have been able to..." Her voice trailed off, the tears flowing freely now. "Honey, we can't know that," he soothed, kissing her on the brow. "I... I'm sorry I brought this up right now. I didn't mean to hurt you." "It's okay," she whimpered, forcing herself to calm down. "I know... it does hurt to talk about him, but I think... it would hurt worse if we never did. But... maybe it's too soon..." She buried her face against his shoulder. "Yeah," he agreed, tenderly running his fingers through her beautiful, red tresses. He had missed that, missed being able to physically touch her, to hear her voice, see her face. He had just really missed her. "Scully..." he sighed, his voice sounding gruff, trying to hold in his own tears. "Mulder?" she asked in confusion, looking up into his lovely hazel eyes. "I love you, so much," he sobbed. "Love you, too, darling," she vowed, reaching up with a gentle hand to wipe his tears away. "God, I'm so glad to have you back. I'm so glad that we're together." She stood on tiptoe, at the same time, pulling his face down towards her. When their lips touched, it was like the Fourth of July! Sparks flew, heat rose and fireworks appeared, the kind that generated oohs and ahhs! They had been apart for so long, and even though they'd reunited over a month ago, it was still so new, and they were still so excited and desperate for each other, that nearly every embrace and all their kisses could ignite a passion that burned brighter and hotter than the sun shining over them. Mulder's hands roamed freely over his partner's small, supple form. They had been making love nearly every night since his escape from the military jail, but he still couldn't keep his hands off of her. A public setting, in the middle of the day, even while driving, he was obsessed with touching her, embracing her, kissing her, loving her, every chance he got. She wasn't complaining. She had been deprived of him for the better of two years, while he'd been first missing, then dead, then in hiding. And before that, they had deprived themselves- and each other- of love and closeness and intimacy for so long. They held to some practical reasons, and some that were silly, to avoid giving into their need and adoration. They had waited until it had been nearly too late those few years ago. They had known each other and been in love for ten years, and in this last month since being reunited, they had made love more then than they ever had for that long, lonely decade. Neither would say so, but both of them felt that was pretty pathetic. Mulder groaned as Scully sucked his earlobe into her mouth. It didn't matter that she had to strain her neck to reach him, or that he had to bend over and strain his back, although he had to admit, there were times- such as these- that he wished either he was shorter or she was taller. But he had a brilliant idea that would not only lessen the strain on his back, but that would get them horizontal... "Hey," he whispered, smiling as she growled possessively and gripped his shoulders sucking even harder on that lobe, "let's say we christen the porch right now?" "With what?" she asked breathlessly, before moving to his neck, licking all the way up to his chin. "I think I left a water bottle in the car." "No," he chuckled, cupping her face in his large, warm hands. "I was thinking more along the lines of the juices of our love..." Scully stopped licking and started laughing. "Oh, that sounds just lovely, Mulder." "Really?" he asked mockingly. "And here I was going for down and dirty." "Oh, don't worry. You achieved that as well," she snorted. He gazed at her with bedroom eyes. Before she knew what he was up to, he had literally swept her off of her feet and started lowering her to the splintered, rotted floor of the porch. "M-Mulder... we can't! Not here on the porch!" "Why not, beautiful?" he asked in his most seductive tone. "You think the only reason I picked this location was to hide out? As you pointed out, we're in the middle of nowhere. Or are you afraid I'll make you scream so loud in ecstasy that the people twelve acres away will hear you?" "No, I'm afraid once we get... going, we'll fall through the rotted floor boards and end up stuck in the crawl space. Then we'll be forced to call 911 to extract us and then your new hideout would be null and void and we'd have to move yet again!" "Damn," he laughed at her long-winded explanation. "Dana Scully, ever the voice of reason..." She shrugged. "Well..." He was quiet for a long moment, as if weighing her words carefully. But soon the thoughtful expression was replaced with a mischievous one. "I'll take my chances," he said, and had her on the hard wood porch before she had time to protest. If nothing else, she had to admire his quickness and his determination. He had both of their pants pulled down just enough to permit their joining, as well as her shirt and bra pulled up with an amazing amount of speed. He lay carefully on top of her and began furiously sucking her neck, while his hand sought out a soft, pliant breast. With the force of his suction, Scully just knew she was going to have one helluva hickey on her fair skin within minutes. "Mulder," she weakly protested, "I might get job interviews in the next couple of days..." He released her neck with a loud popping sound that made her moan. "So? This Mulder love mark will only let your interviewer know what a loving, healthy sex life you have, which will counter balance the long shifts they'll be expecting you to work. You'll seem very happy and well rounded, which is a good thing to have in an employee. You'll be a shoe-in!" "Interesting hypothesis," she claimed, watching as he kissed his way from her neck down to her breasts, lavishing them with the same intensity that he used to display when working on a particularly fascinating case back in their days at the Bureau. "Who am I to argue with that logic? Oh. My. God!" she growled, the heat radiating through her entire body with a primal need to connect with him physically in the most basic way. After spending some quality time on his beloved's upper torso, his talented lips, tongue and fingers moved downward yet again, traveling down past her stomach and hips until they reached the heavenly juncture between her thighs. "Mmm, Scully, my favorite flavor!" he said, looking up at her, enjoying the anticipation on her aroused face. He knew she loved this, knew she loved watching him as he did this to her. He kept his eyes on her as he slowly lowered his mouth to her core, worshiping her with the greatest of reverence. Moaning almost continuously now, Scully urged him to stop his ministrations after only a few minutes, by gently squeezing her knees against the sides of his head. He knew what she needed instinctively without even having to ask, although he was slightly disappointed that his tongue did not get to finish the job it had started. But he had an even more willing body part that was ready to resume the task. He was soon hovering over her and slowly pushing himself into her tight, wet warmth. They stared into each other's eyes before briefly closing for a kiss. When Mulder started to move, Scully whispered, "Go easy on me, love, okay?" "Are you still sore from last night?" he asked in concern. "Don't worry, I won't hurt you." He kissed her brow. She smiled euphorically at him. "I know you wouldn't. I'm more worried about the splintered floor boards skewering my ass." He laughed, then tucked her hair back behind her ear, as he gently thrusted into her, testing the strength of the wood beneath them. It creaked a little. He slid his hands beneath her butt to keep her soft, bare skin from getting bruised or embedded with splinters. "Love you, Scully," he moaned, resuming his gentle thrusting. "So grateful we can do this anytime we want now..." "Me, too, darling," she sighed, reaching up to rake her teeth playfully over his chin. "Love you... oh, God! Love you so much..." Soon both of them were flying high and singing the praises of God above, as well as each other. Instead of collapsing on her, as he usually did when in the missionary position, Mulder pulled out of her quickly- disappointing them both a little- and stood up, then helped her to stand shakily beside him. He made a special effort to check her backside for any splinters. "Everything okay back there?" she sniggered as he ran his hands over the smooth skin of her rump. "Oh, yeah, looking real good," he assured her, growling a little and then giving her bottom a quick smack. He pulled her pants up for her but let her button them, while he attended to his own. "Hmm, a little sticky down there, but in the best possible way." He winked at her and she blushed. Scully readjusted her bra and shirt. She sighed dreamily, then, to his surprise, started to laugh, long and heartily. Mulder looked over at her in concern. "Scully? You all right?" She smoothed down her tousled hair. "Oh, I'm good, Mulder, really good. I was just... well... I'm just amazed at the things I find myself doing with you..." "You mean like discovering mutants and fighting against colonization and being on the run for a month, only to settle down and hide out in a secluded farmhouse?" he asked in confusion. "Actually, I was referring to making love outside on a rickety old porch in broad daylight, but now that you mention it, yeah, those other things, too." He chuckled, now in on the joke, and leaned down to kiss her. "Come on, Scully, I want to show you the inside of the house. It's fantastic!" "Not as great as the porch, though," she whispered, following him into the front door. "I mean, this area holds a special place in my heart now." They smiled radiantly at each other, still basking in the afterglow, as he led through into the living room. "It's definitely the best. Porch. Ever!" he agreed. "But I'm sure you'll make new favorites as we continue to christen each room in the house." "Sounds like a plan," she winked. Now that they were finally going to be experiencing some domesticity together, she planned on tackling her partner and fucking him senseless every chance she got. Thankfully, this last month had given her plenty of practice. They began their tour of the quiet house, and Scully was relieved to find the inside of it was much less rundown than the outside, so that was a plus. Seeing that she wasn't disgusted with the place and running away screaming, Mulder took it to mean that she had accepted the little farmhouse as their new home. He showed her around the place, taking her hand and leading her through each room, animatedly envisioning a fresh coat of paint here, a nice sofa there. Scully agreed with nearly every idea he had, more enthralled with his apparent excitement over living together, creating a home together, than with the house itself. She kept a hold of his hand through out the entire inspection. And when she thought about it, the house definitely held potential. It had a decent sized kitchen, homey living room, a nice master bedroom, with a full sized bathroom connected to it. This master bathroom also boasted a big, claw foot tub that Mulder had been determined to find because he knew that it would please Scully. The house even boasted of extra rooms that could serve as guest bedrooms or an office for each of them, which would be nice, considering Scully liked her office space tidy and Mulder... did not. Once their tour had ended and it had started to get dark outside, they left for the evening, both anxious to return the following day, to get started on renovations and taking measurements to find furniture that would fit each room. They were going to stop and get something to eat on the way back to the hotel. On the way, Mulder mentioned to his beloved that there was a small, but well- established hospital nearby. It was called Our Lady of Sorrows, a Catholic run facility that sounded like a perfect fit for Scully. He urged her to apply for a job there and she agreed that it sounded like a great idea. They stopped and ate dinner at an out-of-the-way diner that looked a little run-down and ancient, but proudly boasted on their sign out front, The best burger in 100 miles! It wasn't all that far from the hospital Scully was suddenly so interested in learning about and she suggested that after dinner, they ought to stop by, check it out and get a feel for the place and the faculty they had there. She had a hopefulness shining in her eyes that melted Mulder's heart. After so much sadness and pain, Scully was finally starting to feel happy and eager to get her new life started. That included both possibly getting a job at the hospital, and moving in with her beloved. "So, what do you say, Mulder?" she asked excitedly. "We'll stop in and take a look around, I can ask for an application, then we can be home in time to watch some TV and maybe have a little nookie before bed." She smiled at him and it was so dazzling, he nearly fell backwards in his chair. He giggled, sounding like a naughty kid. "Damn, Scully, you said nookie!" "Yes, I did," she agreed, her smile turning a little bit naughty herself. "Wow, Dana Scully said nookie... and she was referring to me when she said it..." He seemed truly amazed, and quite giddy. "No one else I'd indulge in a little nookie with," she informed him. "So, what do you say, love?" "About the nookie? Hell, yes!" he exclaimed, and an older couple stared at him for awhile. Surprisingly, they didn't look disgusted, but rather amused. The old gentleman even gave him a knowing smile, while Scully blushed furiously. "Mulder," she groaned, hiding her head in her hands. "Love hearing you groan my name, Scully," he cracked, "although we did just christen our porch and I'm not exactly a young man anymore..." "Bullshit," she laughed. "You're not an old man either, and just a few days ago, I was treated to three lovely adventures by you in one night, if I recall." "Actually, it was four," he bragged. "I think you passed out that last time." "I did?" His chest puffed out in manly pride. "That's right. I not only fucked you senseless, but unconscious, too. Damn, I'm good." The lusty smile that appeared on her face nearly made him gasp out loud. "Yes, you are. So... is it a date?" He took her hand. "Always, Scully, always..." They stared dreamily into each other's eyes for a moment, until Mulder remembered. "Oh, wait! Except for the going to the hospital part. We can't really..." "Why not? Hospitals are always open, Mulder. It's so close and I'd like to get a head start on the job possibilities, now that we know where we're settling." "Well, of course," he agreed, "we can stop by, Scully. But, uh, I'll have to wait outside in the car." "But why?" "I don't want to be seen." "With me?" "No, that's not what I mean, love. I don't want to be seen in public at all." "Well, we're in a public place right now," she reminded him. "And people can see you, and they're probably looking." "Why, because I'm sitting with the hottest woman who ever walked the face of the earth?" he asked, bringing her small hand to his lips for a kiss. "No," she blushed, "because you've done nothing but blurt out words of a sexual nature since we got here. I'm surprised we haven't been thrown out." She smirked at him. "Nah, the patrons here are mostly of the over sixty persuasion. And you know how dirty-minded they are." "Oh, right, of course," she chuckled. "But they still can see you, if that's what you're afraid of, being seen, noticed, spotted." "Well, we'll be paying cash for the meal, so even if the FBI waltzed in right after we left, they'd only have a bunch of near-sighted oldsters trying to describe what we look like. We wouldn't be leaving a concrete trail. But, if I go into the hospital with you, and you talk with some of the staff there, unless you want to look rude, and I know you wouldn't, you'd have to introduce me around. And since you'll be using your real name, if the FBI finds you there some time, and they ask any of the other employees if they've ever seen you with some tall, handsome, dark- haired man, well..." "Handsome doesn't even cover it," she promised, but she looked disappointed. "I still don't think it would get go so far as to-" "Scully," he explained in a whisper, and his grip on her hand tightened, "If anyone discovers you there, and finds out about me, then I could easily be re- captured... executed..." He stared imploringly into her big, blue eyes. She nodded sadly, longing for him to cease in this depressing turn of the conversation. "I understand, Mulder. I- I'll just check out the hospital tomorrow morning instead. That will give us more time for some... nookie when we get back." She waggled her eyebrows at him, a perfect imitation of an expression he had bestowed upon her millions of times over the years. He laughed appreciatively at her, and also got very turned on in the bargain. But he quickly sobered, mentally kicking himself for disappointing her yet again. "I'm so sorry, Scully," he murmured. He knew that this new life would be tough. Their only real consolation... their only true comfort would be each other. And that comfort could only be experienced and displayed in secret. While this new situation would certainly not be as hellish as physical separation, Mulder knew that ultimately, it was still something of a prison, a sad circumstance to bear, especially for her. He only hoped that his continued presence in her life, clandestine though it had to be, would never cease to be a comfort instead of becoming another burden. "I feel so bad to do this to you, but this is why I chose that farmhouse. It's not close to any other homesteads, or businesses and I'll be able to lay low. That's the only way I can live without still running from the law and hiding in the shadows. It's the only way we can be together, live together... only if my residence can remain a secret." "And here I thought you liked the isolated location so that we could make love on the front porch in broad daylight whenever we wanted," she murmured, running her fingers over his knuckles, an act he found oddly sensual. He grinned wolfishly at her. "Well, that's my first reason for choosing the place. But the other reason is so that I have a decent hideout. So, when you get hired at the hospital- and I know you will, because you're so damn smart and just plain wonderful- you will have to list yourself as single and living alone. No one can know that I exist in your life, let alone share a bed with you." Another wave of sadness passed over Scully's lovely features, before she could tamp it down. Mulder, of course, knowing her better than anyone, noticed it, anyway, no matter how hard she tried to hide it. His eyes clouded over, feeling miserable over the misery he felt he was continually causing her. "Scully?" "I... I thought we still might have... I mean... never mind," she stammered, feeling foolish, her face burning red in shame and embarrassment. She bowed her head over her half-eaten meal, letting her hair obscure her face from him. Her getting so embarrassed and trying to hide it made Mulder wonder with great concern. They had been through so much together in the past decade. They had loved each other fiercely through out that span of time, although he knew that it had only been in the last three years that their relationship had grown to include every possible aspect of intimacy. Since that time, Mulder had not seen much of that avoidance or embarrassment from his beautiful partner. Sure, he could still make her blush, but usually only by doing or saying something of a sexual nature or showering her with compliments. But what she was doing right now was something right out of his pre- love affair Dana Scully. Maybe even before they'd become good friends. After their partnership had blossomed to include such closeness, she had still opened up to him at times. He felt like there was a rock currently residing in the pit of his stomach that had very little to do with the meatloaf he had ordered. He reached across the table, taking her chin in his hand. "Scully, please talk to me. We can't keep secrets from each other." "It's... nothing, Mulder," she whispered, tears threatening to fall from her true blue eyes. "It's not nothing, and I need to know what it is," he demanded, trying to keep his voice calm and even. He wasn't succeeding very well. He was sure Scully would mistake his edginess for anger. But it wasn't anger. It was fear, plain and simple. Scully, who knew Mulder better than he knew himself, understood that his fear often came across as anger. She did not wish to start crying at a diner in Nowheresville, USA, but she did not want him to be afraid, either, especially not because of her. "I just... I had been hoping that we might... get married... or something..." She watched as his eyes grew wide, and she couldn't help but avert her gaze again. "Oh, God!" he exclaimed, and he looked like he was about ready to smack himself in the forehead. He refrained from doing so, but he felt like the biggest jerk in the world right about now. "Oh, Scully, I... you have to believe how much I want to marry you, too. But if we did, the FBI could get wind of it, making it easier to find me and..." "I understand, Mulder," she said, sounding like the strong, little trooper he knew so well. She took a hold of his hand again, giving it a reassuring squeeze. "It's okay, really." He sighed, clearly upset, for wanting the same thing as she and being denied, and also for denying her. "No, it's not okay, Scully. There is nothing I'd love more than to make it official with you, but-" "I know," she said, looking deeply into his hazel eyes. "That was selfish of me. I'm sorry." "No, you're not selfish," he told her. "You're the least selfish person I know. But if you really feel that way, then count me in as equally guilty of being selfish, because I'd be so honored to have you as my wife, and to be your husband. I'd always imagined we would tie the knot someday, you know..." "Really?" she asked hopefully, another smile creeping up on her lovely face. "Damn straight, really! Scully, in spite of all the crap I'm facing, all the crap I'm trying to run away from, I can never forget just how fortunate I am to be with you. The fact that you actually want to be with me, even with all the dangers and uncertainty that I bring into your life... I... it just astounds me. I am the luckiest man alive, because I have you, and I know it. I love you, Scully, and even if we can't do it officially, I couldn't love you more than if you actually were my wife." Fresh tears glistened in her eyes. Today seemed to be a day for heartfelt revelations. Still, she had to admit, she was more of a sentimental fool than she had ever been in her entire life. Ever since Mulder's abduction, which coincided with her pregnancy, followed by Mulder's "death" and burial, his strange but wonderful resurrection, then becoming a mother and being separated from Mulder yet again, this time just after giving birth to his son... well, it was a lot for one woman to handle, and whether it be hormones or her heart finding a way to live through all the tumultuous moments fate had thrust upon her, Scully had noticed a change in her demeanor. She was... more emotional, at least in the demonstrative sense. It wasn't as if she hadn't felt sadness or pain or experienced happiness or joy before that long string of events had taken place in her life, but she had been much more effective in concealing her emotions, tucking them away into her secret stash of feelings she dared not let out into the light. She liked being in control- emotions made her feel out of control. So, her simple solution was to bottle them up, lest she appear weak, silly, and unable to contain herself. It was a Dana Scully defense mechanism that had served her well for so many years. But ever since those topsy turvey events had come into her life in rapid succession, Scully found herself incapable of hiding it all away, not as easily as she used to. She wasn't sure if she had faltered in her steely resolve to keep her feelings hidden, or if she just simply didn't see the point in doing so anymore. Even she couldn't exactly deduce the true reason behind her shift into the more tenderhearted woman she had become. She knew Mulder had noticed the change. She only hoped that he liked it, or at least, was okay with it. "I feel so blessed to be with you, Mulder," she vowed. "And even though we'll still have to... hide our relationship for now, I am so happy that I'll have you to come home to every night." His grin went from ear to ear, and it was then for sure, that she knew... He liked the more emotional Scully, liked her a lot! He was also thrilled beyond compare over her acceptance with what he could give her, and knowing him well enough to know all that he wished he could give her. He only hoped that this would be a temporary situation. "I love you, Dana Scully. You're so beautiful." She laughed appreciatively at his goofy grin, as well as his compliment. "I love you, Mulder, and I think you're beautiful, too." "I promise I'll be the best house-husband ever!" he declared, making her laugh even harder. "I'll cook and clean and fix up that house." "Promises, promises," she teased. "Mulder, as much as I love you, I haven't forgotten your slovenly ways. In fact, I got a reminder of them when we were reunited last month and have been sharing hotel rooms ever since." He stuck his tongue out at her. "Regardless, our place is gonna be great! That house will be wonderful!" "Sure, Mulder, sure," she chuckled doubtfully. "But, um, you really should fix up the porch. It's kind of a favorite spot of mine on the premises, and I plan on spending a lot of... quality time on it with you." She gave him a sultry look. "What a coincidence, it's my favorite spot, too! Of course, once we move in, I'm sure we'll find many, many more favorite spots suitable for our special brand of quality time, Scully. There's the house... and the workshop, and the yard..." He waggled his eyebrows at her. Scully felt as though she might burst, she felt so happy and so full of promise at this moment. The future was uncertain at best, foreboding at worst, but she couldn't help but to have an optimistic outlook, especially when her partner of ten years sat across from her and stared so lovingly into her eyes. She didn't know whether to laugh or cry. Ultimately, she did both. "I cannot believe we're actually going to be living together, Mulder! Just to get to see you everyday, to fall asleep with you, wake up with you... this is what I've prayed for, for so long, you'll just never know how much." "Sure, I do," he assured her. "I've prayed for this moment in our lives, too. I'm just sorry that we'll be technically, eh, what do you Catholics call it? Living in sin?" "Rest assured, Mulder, that there is absolutely nothing sinful about us." She paused. "Well, except maybe for how sinfully handsome you are. Or for the sinful thoughts I'm having about you right now." She licked her lips and his mouth fell open in shock. "Day-um, Scully, talk about sinful- sinfully hot! Although, I'm sure your sinful thoughts can't even begin to compare with the ones I entertain about you." "Oh, really? Is that a challenge?" "Definitely!" he growled. "Care to compare sinful thoughts, Mulder, so we can declare a winner?" "Oh, I plan on just showing you just how sinful my thoughts are once we get back to the hotel... or maybe just the car. Don't even know if my sinful thoughts will allow me to wait that long." "Mulder," she laughed, "you don't think that the risk of getting arrested in a parked car in a public parking lot for performing lewd acts won't get you found by the FBI?" He sighed happily in defeat. "Ah, my sensible Scully, always looking out for me. All right, I'll do my best to contain my libido, until we drive to the hotel... but I'm not making any promises!" "Fair enough," she agreed. "Come on, let's get out of here." They got up from their table and Mulder left a rather generous tip for the waitress. Scully stared at him in surprise. Usually, he was a complete cheapskate when it came to tipping gratuities. He caught her staring at him and shrugged. "Guess you're not the only one who's changed a little bit." They smiled warmly at each other and then paid the cashier for their dinners. As they started for the exit, Mulder put his hand at his familiar spot on her lower back. Somehow, this didn't seem adequate enough anymore. He then wrapped his arm around her shoulder. She, in turn, wrapped her arm around his waist. This felt perfect! This was to be the new norm for their relationship. Gazing upon each other, Mulder and Scully headed for their car. Scene Twenty: "You Just Never Know What Great Things You'll Find At The Grocery Store..." [Rated R] Spring 2008 W. Virginia Lil' Ginny's Country Market 8:52 a.m., Saturday Scully grabbed a shopping cart in the parking lot and pushed it towards the entrance to the grocery store, a very reluctant Mulder trailing behind with a look of trepidation. She glanced back, noticed that he was lagging, and she stopped, then leaned back and grabbed his hand. "Come on, Mulder," she chuckled, watching as he stared at the market with his panic face. "No need to freak out. You've been leaving the house quite a bit in the past few months. You solved the FBI's case, you started running again, and you took me on a wonderful vacation a month ago. Surely, you're not still fearful that the FBI will go back on its word and abscond with you right here in the grocery store?" "No, I'm just afraid of the grocery store," he admitted, not looking very happy to be there. She rolled her eyes. "Mulder! Why are you afraid of the grocery store now?" "Because I hate grocery shopping," he informed her, struggling a little as she pulled him along towards the entrance. "I guess you would be a little out of practice," she sympathized as they entered the store and removed their jackets, setting them in the front of the cart. "Six years in isolation will do that..." She stared at him pointedly and he laughed. "Scully, do you remember what my fridge looked like before we started cohabitating?" "Dirty, empty and smelly," she replied without thinking much about it. "Exactly. Now, why do you think it was always that way, Doc?" She smirked at him. "Because you were lazy, piggish and slovenly?" "Hardy har har," he retorted. "I was merely referring to the empty part, which was meant to imply that I've always hated going to the grocery store... it goes way back to when I was a kid." "Well, you're not a kid anymore, love," she informed his still boyishly handsome nearly fifty-year-old self. "And now that you're out of exile and can venture into public again, I'm taking advantage of it and showing you around the grocery store, so you'll have no excuse to say that you don't know where anything is. I don't always enjoy having to stop here on the way home after a long shift because we're out of something." "Why not?" he asked, looking the slightest bit put out. "Because I'm nearly always exhausted after a long shift." He made a face. "Oh, don't be so dramatic, Scully. Most of the time you just go on your day off, anyway." "That's not even the point, Mulder, and don't be an ass," she told him, poking him in the gut and receiving a startled, "oof," in response. She pushed the cart down one of the aisles. "You've got the list," she reminded him. "Huh? Oh, yeah, right," he began, searching through his pockets, patting himself down. "... Um, do I?" She groaned. "Great! First rule of grocery shopping: Don't lose the list!" "What's the second rule?" he asked obnoxiously, finding her rule to be very amusing. "Don't piss off your partner!" she hissed, and he grimaced. "Well, it's not a total loss. You're Mr. Photographic Memory, right? You can just recall the items on the list." She smiled at her own clever rationale. "Yes, that would be the perfect solution, Scully," he told her with a wry smile, "if I had actually read the list." Scully closed her eyes, counted to ten, a little something she had learned to do early on when dealing with unruly siblings. Now, the practice worked great on unruly lovers, as well... most of the time. She grumbled quietly to herself, before her voice gained enough volume to draw the attention of several other customers who had innocently come near to grab a box of macaroni and cheese or a bag of rice. "Well, great! That's just great, Mulder! We're here less than five minutes and you've already managed to break the first two rules of grocery shopping!" Mulder swallowed. He knew Scully loved him more than anything. He also knew that, especially after living together for so long, they both knew better than ever how to push each other's buttons. He excelled at it, although, if he had to be fair, his beautiful partner was quite capable in her own right to make him want to rip out his own hair sometimes. But this time, he was the champ. "What's the third rule?" he asked her brightly. "Why do you want to know, Mulder? So you can break that, too?" "I aim to please, Scully," he said, giving her his best puppy dog eyes. He couldn't hide his smirk, but it didn't matter. The puppy dog eyes would be all she would see. She sighed. How was she supposed to keep up her stern and disapproving demeanor over his childish antics and irresponsibility when he looked at her like that? Damn, he's always got to hit me with the big guns! He knows the puppy dog eyes just slay me every time! "Come on," she said, pushing the cart onward. "I think I can remember most of the items." "Atta girl, Scully!" "Shut up, Mulder." "Okay." *** Thirty minutes later... "Where the hell is he?" Scully demanded to know, becoming more impatient with each passing second. She searched each aisle, passing by at a rapid rate. She found her guy over by the toys and magazines. Muttering under her breath the entire length of the aisle, she approached him as he skimmed through one of those tabloid newspapers she detested. She could see he held a long, thin object in his hand. "Mulder?" she announced in an authoritative voice that made him jump. "What are you doing down here?" He turned around, wearing a sheepish expression. "Hey, Scully," he said, smiling at her. "What's up, beautiful?" "What's up?" she repeated, looking none too happy. "Mulder, I sent you to get a loaf of bread fifteen minutes ago!" "Got it right here," he said, un-tucking it from under his arm and displaying it in front of her perturbed face. He then noticed that it was squished from being held so tightly in his armpit. "Huh. That's the damndest thing. I don't remember this bread being so flat when I picked it up..." "Mulder!" "Yeah?" "You were supposed to bring the bread back to the cart immediately," she sighed. He sighed right back. "Oh, jeez, Scully! What rule number did I break this time?" "Number seventeen, but that's beside the point." Mulder laughed, eyeing her with affection. "God, you're so anal!" "I am not!" she told him, wondering how many times in their life they were going to have this argument. "You know, on most people, I would find it terribly annoying, but with you, it's cute." "It is not!" she insisted, getting a little flustered. "I mean, I am not!" "What? Cute?" he teased her, his eyes twinkling over the fact that after all these years together, he could still get her goat. "Oh, you are so cute, Doc, it should be a crime... and you're hot, too." He leered at her. Scully stood there for a moment, staring at a grown man who was carrying a smashed loaf of bread in one hand and what appeared to be some kind of whistle in the other, all the while, he was trying to flirt with her, finding her annoyance over his antics to be quite amusing. Did he not realize the consequences of such dangerous actions? They had been together in one form or another for fifteen years. He knew she had a temper, and yet, he still continued to enjoy trying to get a rise out of her. Obviously, his years spent in isolation from everyone but her had taken their toll on his mind. "What is that in your hand?" she asked, trying to keep the peace for the sake of the other patrons in the store if for nothing else. "Bread," he told her with a wicked grin. She smirked at him. "I meant your other hand, Mulder." "Oh, this? It's a slide whistle." He gave her another leer. He had absolutely no shame. "Are you planning on buying it?" "Yes, that I am, my lovely," he said. His smile was infectious and Scully found her mood turning from irritation to playful. She couldn't help it. Mulder had that effect on her. "Why?" she asked him. He used the slide to make the whistle toot, producing a comical sound like one might hear in a silly movie. It startled a few passersby and seemed to amuse him to no end. "It's funny," he explained. "It's annoying," she replied, although she couldn't hide her grin. "Ah, well, you know me, Scully. I must always use my powers to annoy. Besides, check it out..." He slowly pushed the slide mechanism in and out of the whistle casing, making the noise again. She watched it in confusion, until she glanced up at his face and saw the mischievous look in his eye. "What does that remind you of, Doc?" he whispered into her ear, using a decidedly seductive tone. "Jesus, Mulder!" she blurted, taken by surprise at his innuendo. This just wasn't something she was accustomed to experiencing at a grocery store. "Yes, my love?" he asked, blowing into her ear. "Just put... it... just put it into the cart," she muttered, completely red in the face. With a look of triumph, Mulder brushed his arm purposely against her breast as he crossed in front of her to drop the item into their cart. She gasped. Afterwards, he stood behind her and wrapped his arms around her. "Boy, this grocery shopping is great," he purred into her ear, and then continued, making her feel more and more hot and bothered with each word. "I hope you're not buying anything perishable, Scully, because the minute we get home, there's only one thing I want to put away... and that's me into you." He pressed his crotch up against her back and she could feel his stirrings of arousal. Ever since he had helped the FBI, and got back out into the world, he had become much friskier with her on an almost constant basis. Not that she was complaining... "Oh, God," she groaned, her own arousal awakening within in response to his, and in the middle of the toy and magazine aisle at the grocery store, no less. "Mulder... let's... let's just finish shopping," she stammered, trying to regain her composure. "Whatever you say, Doc," he agreed, smiling smugly. He then presented her with a tabloid magazine, its headline reading: THEY HAVE ARRIVED! ALIENS HAVE BEEN LIVING AMONG US FOR DECADES! "Let's get this, too," he suggested. Scully sighed at the newspaper shoved under her nose, and she felt her amorous itch diminishing, just as her annoyance grew. Buying a sexy slide whistle was one thing- and did she just call a slide whistle sexy?- but this tabloid trash was entirely different. "Mulder, come on! You know all that stuff is made up." "Is it?" he asked, looking at her incredulously. "Look at that headline, Scully. You know that to be true." "Well," she began, but waited patiently as an elderly couple walked by to grab a crossword puzzle magazine, staring at Mulder as if he was a two-headed rattlesnake over his proclamation of the truth, "Mulder, this newspaper- if you could even call it that- certainly doesn't know it to be true." He rolled his eyes at her, but she continued, still trying to be diplomatic, so as not to hurt his feelings. "They're just making it all up to sell papers to poor schmucks like-" "Like me?" he asked knowingly. He kissed her cheek, letting her know he understood she wasn't referring to him personally, and that he didn't take offense either way. "Scully, we knew the Lone Gunmen's paper was legit, but it had some pretty crazy stories, too. How do we know that... The Sun here isn't the same way?" "It's just not," she informed him, snatching the paper from him, opening it up and perusing some of the articles she found inside. She spotted one right away that would prove her point. "There, you see? Look at this article. JACK NICHOLSON'S MISSING FATHER WAS AN APE! I mean, the guys never had crap like that in their magazine." Mulder scratched his chin, as if mulling over her example. He said, "Hmm, Nicholson is part ape. Well, that would explain a lot." She swatted him on the arm with the paper. "Mulder, you ass," she laughed in spite of herself. He smiled and shrugged, taking it back from her. "I know it's just a shit mag, Scully, but that's why I want it." "A shit mag?" she repeated in confusion. "Yeah," he explained, grinning like a fox, "you read the shit while you're taking one." "Ah, I see, a shit magazine," she chuckled, just as a woman walked by with two young children, who giggled shamelessly at what they'd overheard Scully say. The mother gave the good doctor a dirty look and Scully looked embarrassed and called, "Oh, sorry," after the family. She returned her attention to her amused partner. "Dammit, Mulder," she hissed at him. "Shh, stop with that potty mouth, Scully, or you're going to get us banned from this nice establishment." He shook his head at her. "Just can't take you anywhere, can I?" "What just happened was your fault," she told him in no uncertain terms. "You're going to get it, I swear," she muttered, irritation peering out through her stormy, blue eyes. Mulder gazed at her with his hazel eyes, which were more of the bedroom persuasion. She always looked so damn sexy when she was angry, and he couldn't help his response. "Stop looking so hot, Doc, or I'll take you right here on the floor in front of the shit mags." She didn't take the bait. Instead she rolled her eyes and countered, "And you're worried that my potty mouth will get us banned?" "But check out this article, Scully," he said, his two-track mind switching from sex back to alien invasion in a snap. He opened the magazine to the article he'd been interested in. "Look at all the info. It's accurate! It has the proper dates, the colonization theory and..." he gasped out loud, solely for her benefit, she was sure, "look! It even mentions black oil!" Another couple stared at Mulder as if he were insane as they walked by. They would have stared longer, but Scully's stern gaze sent them off in a hurry. Mulder's eyes remained wide as he stared into her own. He wasn't sure what he'd discover in the blue depths, but he imagined he'd find annoyance, maybe amusement; possibly fear. What he found instead was a look of pure love and acceptance for who he was. His heart warmed at the realization. "Just put it in the cart, Mulder," she indulged him. He grinned as he did so. "I love you." "I know." She smiled back at him. "May I kiss you here in the grocery store now, please?" "Most assuredly." The two of them kissed tenderly. After a moment, they could hear the distinct sound of someone clearing his throat. They reluctantly pulled away from each other and Scully was immediately faced with Father Ybarra, one of the priests from Our Lady of Sorrows hospital where she worked. He was carrying one of those small, hand-held baskets, which was filled with boxes of cookies, bags of candy and a bottle of scotch. "Dr. Scully," he said curtly, eyeing her and Mulder- who was smiling goofily while running his fingers through Scully's hair- with a look of pure disapproval. Trying to inconspicuously swat Mulder's hand out of her hair, Scully gave the man a sheepish grin. "Hello, Father Ybarra," she said, politely but awkwardly. This priest- this holy man- had always given her an uneasy feeling, even though she had known him since she'd begun working at the hospital six years ago. In fact, unbeknownst to her, he had been the one to give the final go ahead to the hospital employment staff to hire her. "So, what brings you here?" she asked nervously, then immediately regretted her statement. She just knew he was going to say something snotty to her. Truly, Father Ybarra was the jerkiest priest she'd ever known. "Why, grocery shopping, of course," he replied haughtily, just as she had predicted he would. He gestured to his small basket of items. "Hmm, nutritious," Mulder commented, glancing into the priest's basket with an innocent expression. Apparently, his innocent demeanor fooled neither of his companions. Scully had to hide her smirk, while Father Ybarra gave him a stern look before returning his attention to Scully. "Dr. Scully, what brings you here?" he asked pointedly, referring to the way he had found her, lip- locking shamelessly in a public setting with this insolent man. He was loath to admit it, but Ybarra, while trying to remain a good, Christian and a representative of the Catholic faith, was not overly fond of the good doctor standing before him. He realized that he himself had approved of her hiring- and how could he not have? Her credentials were impeccable. Plus, she never complained about wanting a raise, getting overtime, working on holidays or extra hours when needed. He would have been a fool not to hire this tireless, dedicated professional. But after she had gone against his orders and done the stem cell therapy on her young patient, Christian Fearon, a few months back, he had grown somewhat angry at her for disobeying not only him, but the will of the church and all it represented. The fact that she had saved the child and become something of a folk hero and role model to the rest of the doctors and staff at the hospital had not endeared her to the priest at all. It only made her seem more confident, more untouchable, as if anyone could truly be untouchable in the eyes of God! The truth was he found her to be a little too sure of herself, somewhat arrogant and rather rebellious. (Had Scully known of his description of her, surely she would have balked. Had Mulder known of Father Ybarra's description of his beloved, surely he would have laughed his ass off.) "Why, we're grocery shopping, of course," Mulder answered his question, noticing how tense Scully seemed to be in this man's presence. That immediately set Mulder's hackles to rise. He didn't like how the priest was affecting her. He took an instant dislike to this snooty man of the cloth. He was a world of difference from Scully's old family priest, Father McCue. Even the psychic, pedophile, Father Joe Crissman, had been more pleasant to talk to than this guy. "Oh, is that what you call it now a days?" Father Ybarra asked, giving each of them a disapproving glare, as if they were merely naughty teenagers looking to score, rather than an adult, mature couple in love. "No, we call it making out," Mulder was happy to correct him, "which we've been doing in just about every aisle." He smiled as the priest blanched, looking embarrassed and somewhat disgusted. Scully turned to her life partner, offering him a warning glance, before returning apologetic eyes back to Ybarra. "Eh, he's kidding..." she chuckled unconvincingly. "And he would be...?" the father asked. "Uh, this is my..." Scully struggled for the right words. What the hell should she call him? She felt ridiculous introducing him as her boyfriend. Life-partner sounded too politically correct, better half was too old fashioned. Soul mate was entirely too flowery to say to a work colleague. "This is... my... Mulder..." she finished incoherently. The priest looked understandably confused. Mulder took the initiative and thrust his hand out to Ybarra. "Hi, I'm Fox Mulder, Dana's fianc? and the luckiest man in the world!" Her eyes growing wide, Scully stared at Mulder for a moment, before offering Father Ybarra a nervous smile. The priest grasped Mulder's outstretched hand. He shook it, seemingly quite surprised and delighted in spite of himself. He was always happy to hear good tidings. Both Mulder and Scully noticed his change in demeanor right away. "Well, it is a pleasure to make your acquaintance, Mr. Mulder!" He looked at Scully, his eyes twinkling in merriment. He reached for her hand and gave it a friendly squeeze. "And Dr. Scully, I am so very happy for you! Why haven't you told anyone?" "Well... it's sort of a recent development," she told him, smiling, giving Mulder a sidelong glance. "Very recent, in fact. I just found out myself." "Ah, this is simply wonderful news, Dr. Scully," Father Ybarra continued to gush, much to her surprise. She had always gotten the impression that he didn't like her very much. "And I will gladly offer my services to marry the two of you." "Oh... um..." Scully stammered. Mulder helped her out yet again. "Why, thank you, Father. We just might take you up on that offer." Scully gave him a look that said, "Not on your life!" He gave her one that told her he was just humoring the humorless priest. "Well, I should be on my way," Ybarra said, still smiling. Scully couldn't help but stare. She had never seen this man offer so much as a smirk, let alone a full-blown smile before. "I will see you on Monday at the hospital, Dr. Scully. Congratulations." "Thank you," Scully replied, smiling back at him, something else she wasn't accustomed to doing. She watched as the priest left the aisle, then turned to Mulder, who was already gazing at her and wearing a big grin. "Um, Mulder?" she asked. "So, does that mean you're saying, yes?" he asked. "You do realize that Father Ybarra has one of the biggest mouths at the hospital. This news is going to be all over before I even step foot into work on Monday." "All the more reason for you to say yes, then," he told her, wrapping his arm around her. "Are you... I mean, do you really want to?" she asked, somewhat shyly, barely daring to hope. "I have for a long time, Scully," he admitted. "I told you about six years ago, remember? I'm sorry it's taken so long for me to ask you officially, but I suppose the big question is now, do you still want to?" "Yes, I do," she replied matter of factly, her beautiful blue eyes taking on a happy glow that he was getting used to seeing lately, ever since after he had finished up his free-lance job with the Bureau and had taken her on vacation. "Hell of a way to propose though," she exclaimed, grinning. "Oh, you know me, Scully," he chuckled. "I don't do anything in the traditional sense." "No, you have your own way, that's for sure," she had to agree, taking his hand in hers. "I could get down on one knee right now, if you prefer and-" "No, that's quite all right," she laughed jubilantly. "Your way is wonderful. I wouldn't change a thing." She was smiling and looked radiant, her skin glowing in happiness, her eyes alight with love. Unable to resist her, he pulled her close and kissed her again, this time very passionately and with an open mouth. Scully responded eagerly, wrapping her arms around his neck to keep him close, to drive her tongue down his throat. When they finally came up for air, they found they had amassed an audience. Two teenage girls were staring and giggling, as they perused through the Teen Beat magazines, a middle-aged man, grabbing a box of crayons for his little one at home, kept glancing over at the heated exchange, and a stock boy- who was currently too distracted to know that he was stocking some silly putty where the matchbox cars should have gone- watched blatantly, occupied by the beautiful couple making out in the middle of the grocery store on a Saturday morning. He gave Mulder a thumbs up for snagging such a babe. Mulder whole-heartedly returned the gesture, looking very proud of himself indeed. "Mulder, let's get out of here," Scully whispered, grabbing the cart and hurrying out of the aisle. With a satisfied grin, Mulder nodded at their audience, barely restraining himself from high-fiving them all, and he dutifully followed after his beloved. "We done here now?" he asked hopefully. "Oh, still have to get the bread..." "Why don't you get in line and I'll run and go get a fresh loaf?" he offered. "Can I trust you'll come right back?" she asked with a smirk. "Or are you going to get distracted again?" "No way. I wouldn't dare keep my beautiful fianc?e waiting," he told her, enjoying the sweet smile and pretty blush that crept up on her lovely face. While being checked out, Scully said to him quietly, "We'll have to get rings..." She glanced shyly into his face and seemed pleased to find him smiling. "Got yours covered, Scully," he promised. "I have my grandmother's ring. It's packed away safe, but I know where it is and I'll find it later. It'll probably have to be sized for you, but I'd like you to wear it... I mean, if that's all right." "I'd be honored, Mulder, really," she whispered, trying not to let the sentimental tears fall in front of the bored cashier or the youthful bag boy. He leaned down to kiss her again, as she retrieved her debit card from her wallet and paid for their items. Then they loaded up the cart with their bagged groceries, and headed for the parking lot. Before leaving the store, they both grabbed their jackets and slipped them on. Though it was now springtime and all of the snow was melted away, and the flowers were beginning to bloom, there was still a biting chill in the air, especially in the mornings and evenings. "I'll need to call Mom and my brothers... and Monica and John and Skinner... and Ellen, too! Hmm, will Skinner be your best man?" she asked. "Yeah, he'd be perfect for the job," Mulder agreed. "What about you, honey? Who's going to be your best woman- er, maid of honor? One of your sisters, or Ellen, or Monica?" "Tara and Jenny wouldn't mind being bride's maids. That's all I was in their weddings, but jeez, Monica or Ellen? Ellen was my best friend all growing up, but Monica became my good friend while you were gone, and... both of them mean a lot to me. I'm not sure who to choose." "Why not ask them both to be co-maids of honor, or whatever?" he suggested. "That way, you don't have to choose between them." "What an excellent idea," she complimented him, and he beamed. "You seem to be just teeming with them this morning." She gazed lovingly at him, which caused him to nearly glow. He just had to make a joke, he couldn't help it. It was his way, and she understood that, understood him perfectly. "Yeah, I saw that you really wanted that slide whistle, too. It should definitely come in handy." "Oh, yeah, sure, Mulder," she sniggered. "You know what you could do? You can sneak up behind Father Ybarra on Monday morning at work and scare the shit out of him." "Mulder! He's a priest!" "So? Priests still shi-" "Mulder!" "All right, all right..." He paused as they made their way to the row where their car awaited them. "You do realize that I'm still going to jump your bones right there on the floor in the living room the second we get home, don't you?" "I was counting on it," she said with a sly grin that made his mouth water. "Ooh, it'll be my first time with my fianc?." She winked at him. "You may be my new fianc?e, Scully," he told her, his eyes flooded with tenderness, "but you've always been Mrs. Spooky to me." "Mulder," she purred and they stopped for another quick kiss until an impatient motorist honked his horn at them to get out of his way, and they rushed across the parking lot, where they finally made it to their own car. "Scully, open the trunk and I'll load the groceries for you," he said sweetly. She fished through her pockets then said, "Mulder, you drove, remember? You should have the keys." With a nod, he felt through his jacket pockets first. "Hey!" he said brightly. "Find them?" "No, but look, I found the grocery list!" He looked it over. "Oh, you forgot a few things, Scully." "Give me that!" she snapped, yanking the list from his fingers. "Damn..." she murmured. He hadn't been kidding. She had forgotten several important items. "And here are the keys," he announced, finding them in his pants pocket. He opened the trunk and started loading the groceries in. "I tell you, this was a productive trip." "But Mulder, what about our lunch? I bought the bread for the sandwiches, but none of the stuff that's supposed to go into them." He shrugged. "So? We'll have soup. No harm, no foul. Besides, I got something even better than sandwiches." Scully shook her head at him, chuckling good- naturedly. "What, Mulder? The slide whistle or the shit magazine?" "No, a fianc?e," he told her, laughing, his face looking as boyish and happy as she'd ever seen it. "Tucked away between the slide whistles and the shit magazines. See? You just never know what good things you'll find at the grocery store, I guess." Her eyebrow raised, Scully favored him with the look that always set his heart beating faster. "Just finish loading the groceries, Mulder, and take me home." "Hungry, are you?" he asked, carefully setting a bag holding glass jars into the trunk. "Hungry for you," she advised him, getting into the passenger seat. "Day-um!" he exclaimed and shoved the rest of the bags into the trunk. He jumped in behind the wheel, revved the engine, while Scully primly buckled herself in, and then peeled out of the parking lot. "Oh, and by the way, Mulder," Scully added, as they headed down the two lane highway in the direction of their house, "as cute as you were back there, it's still not going to excuse you from having to go to the grocery store again. You know that, right?" "Scully," he said, reaching for her hand, "darling, you wound me! I love that store. It's where I proposed to my wife." She smiled at him. "Aw, Mulder. I love you and I'm sorry for doubting you." "I love you and you're quite forgiven." He gave her hand a squeeze. "Uh, Mulder? You're still going to have to go once in awhile..." "Damn," he grumbled, then turned to see her radiant, smiling face and they laughed together as they headed home. The End 08/02/10 Did you guess the episodes that each scene follows? If not, here is the list! -Scene One: "The Mall Has it All" takes place after Pilot (season 1). -Scene Two: "Poker and the Pox" takes place after Darkness Falls (season 1). -Scene Three: "The Ugliest Sweater in the History of Ugly Sweaters" takes place after One Breath (season 2). -Scene Four: "Dana's Delectables" takes place after Our Town (season 2). -Scene Five: "Monsters, Denny's and Gas-X" takes place after 2Shy (season 3). -Scene Six: "Love Sick" takes place after Pusher (season 3). -Scene Seven: "The Nose Knows" takes place after Sanguinarium (season 4). -Scene Eight: "50/50: Snickers, Sniping and Sex" takes place after Never Again (season 4). -Scene Nine: "Honey, You're Home!" takes place after Redux II (season 5). -Scene Ten: "Rusty, Ripley and Jack" takes place after Chinga (season 5). -Scene Eleven: "My Scully-sense is Tingling" takes place after The X- Files: Fight the Future (first movie). -Scene Twelve: "Christmas Traditions: Mistletoe and Mayhem" takes place after The Ghosts Who Stole Christmas (season 6). -Scene Thirteen: "When Mulder Met Scully... And Pissed Her Off" takes place after Field Trip (season 6). -Scene Fourteen: "Coming Clean" takes place after Orison (season 7). -Scene Fifteen: "I Got Chills! They're Multiplying..." takes place after Chimera (season 7). -Scene Sixteen: "Tears on my Pillow...case" takes place after Three Words (season 8). -Scene Seventeen: "Mulder in Scullyland" takes place after Existence (season 8). -Scene Eighteen: "Tea for... Three?" takes place after Trust No1 (season 9). -Scene Nineteen: "Best. Porch. Ever!" takes place after The Truth (season 9). Scene Twenty: "You Never Know What You'll Find at the Grocery Store!" takes place after The X-Files: I Want to Believe (second movie).